Nimitta – progress signs of Samadhi Meditation

I am going to post this on each of my website blogs as well as my newsletter.  Why? Some information that recently crossed my path explained many of my meditation experiences of the past and currently as well.  Many students of the psychic development class and those interested in spiritual and psychic/intuitive development may have had similar ‘signs’ of their spiritual progress or evolution.

Before I go into what those are, it’s probably best to offer the disclaimer that if one looks for these signs or tries to manifest them, they will be blocking their energy and possibly delaying further consciousness expansion in some way.  My teachers have always guided me not to get “hung up” on manifestations and to take with a grain of salt.  It is just the natural process of the mind—don’t be overly concerned, they’d say.

If you have read much on my website (www.psychicjoystar.com), you will see that I’ve mentioned mysterious occurrences that came about as part of my meditative absorption over the years.  Those were a total and complete mystery to me until this past week!

The history of experience for this life has always evolved in a way that much later explanations arrive that validate occurrences and I’ve always been grateful for that as it assures me that there was no conscious influence on my part.

As many readers may know, my tendency is to reach toward eastern philosophy my deeply personal effort to understand life, the mind, and of reality itself.  My studies and meditation time have not been in vain and have helped me to cope with some very difficult life circumstances.  Yet, there were always those mysterious events lingering in the memory of my mind.  Up until now, there were not fully explained in any kind of satisfactory way.

Then this past week there comes the information that does so!  I simply must share it.  It will be a brief outline and I will paraphrase some of it while keeping true to the text.  I will add some personal notes in parenthesis.  I hope this will be of use to others.
The signs of meditative concentration are known as “nimitta” and include the following:

  • For beginners, it is usually grey smoke color appearing in front of them.  When this occurs, the instruction is to concentrate on the natural breath; and gradually then, the breath and nimitta will become one.   In this stage the mind usually stays automatically will become one.  (Personal note:  when I would go hiking and be breathing more heavily, I would see more of this grey smoke in front of me.  By the way, it started out looking like black ink in the atmosphere, as if someone dumped a bucket of black ink in the sky.  I could see around it and through it and then gradually it lightened.)
  • As meditative concentration develops further, the gray smoky nimitta will change in color to white.  (This is exactly what happened to me.)  This is given the name of “the learning sign”.  As one continues to concentrate on the learning sign, the white form nimitta will change to a transparent nimitta and this is called “the counterpart sign”.  (I was in Sedona, Arizona atop a mountain at the time this occurred.  That was sometime in the late 1990’s.  I was still working as a Physical Therapist at the time.)  The instruction in the text is that one should concentrate on the transparent nimitta until a state of full absorption is reached.
  • The text says that unless one sees the counterpart sign, the meditative attentiveness or concentration is superficial.  (Again, I did not have any of this information until a few days ago and therefore did not know of the instruction to concentrate on the transparent nimitta.)
  • (In the eastern philosophy, the word used to describe these stages of meditation is called “jhana”.  I did not know that word until this past month actually.  And there is the discussion on audios that I’ve heard about maintaining states of absorption for 2 and 3 hours at a time without interruption.  This I was able to do when living alone in the mountains many times.  Since I’ve moved from the seclusion of the mountains–for approximately the past 6 years—that is rarely the case.)
  • The text says that once a person’s meditation practice is very clear they will, one day, see small particles, called “kalapas”.  When one see’s kalapas, they have reached the last stage of samatha(serenity/calm/tranquility) and the beginning stage of vipassana (insight/seeing things as they really are).   At this stage, one understands reality as small particles.

I must pause here to explain that this next part totally blew me out of my seat, so-to-speak!  I wrote about this on my website eons ago and this occurred, also, in the late 1990’s just before I moved (from Florida) to the mountains of North Carolina.  Here it is nearly 20 years later and it is only now that I understand what all of these experiences were about!  The book in which this information is contained was published in 2008, ten years ago.  Yet, it has taken me nearly all of the past ten years to adjust to the huge transitions in my life and to release a significant karmic relationship connection.  It hasn’t been until recently that my personal journey has directed me back to seek deeper levels of meditation, reaching for Samadhi again.  Anyway, this light, so white and so bright and it occurred when I was meditating on a star in the sky at twilight one evening.  I felt myself moving toward it and then the white brilliant light sort of frightened me.  It was everywhere I looked and lasted a good chunk of time and it faded finally as I looked at a large pine tree.   I’ve never seen it again all these many years.

  • The text says that there is a visual-like nimitta which is ‘the best one’.  (Again, the word nimitta means sign/mark/appearance.)  It is not seen with the physical eye.  It is purely a mental phenomenon.  It appears as if it is like a headlight in front of you, incredibly brilliant, so much so that you don’t think you can stare at it any longer.  (At the time I thought perhaps I drew the star right down in front of me – I’d been staring at a star during meditation at the time.)  This is not a visual thing at all and even though it is like looking at the sun, it is quite safe, because it is a pure metal image—according to the text.

If one tries to have any such experiences as described, the effort actually blocks the meditator’s tranquil absorption.  Actually, I recall trying to stare at a star again at various times in the past and could not reproduce that event –or any other unusual experiences of my past for that matter.
I wanted to put this out today so that it may be helpful to others.  Maybe I will save someone 20 years of wondering and never really knowing what those signs are really about!

The text that I’ve been referring to is called “The Experience of Samadhi” by Richard Shankman  and the specific information at nimitta were from interviews with Pa Auk Sayadaw, the abbot of a Forest Monastery in Burma and Ajahn Brahmavamso, who studied with Venerable Ajahn Chah and is the abbot of Bodhinyana Monastery and Spiritual Director of the Buddhist Society in Australia.
I am so personally grateful to them for the information shared in the text which has helped me considerably and renewed my meditative effort.

May it be that this information reaches the right person for the right reasons and be of the highest service.


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Understanding Sati and Samadhi in Meditative Practice

When mindfulness (sati) is continuous, then (samadhi) STABILITY OF MIND will become established–from the teachings of Sayadaw U Tejaniya, a Theravadan Buddhist monk and well-known and highly respected meditation teacher.

Deeper and deeper into the teachings of Buddhism, there is this ‘me’ attempting to walk in the steps of the Buddha.  No, this is not about religion–more about psychology . . . study of the mind.  We all have one but how many of us really observe how the mind works?  How to use the mind in a way that serves the greater good, so-to-speak.  That’s where I’m coming from.

Recently, a new level of understanding and wisdom arrived within my life spectrum, this continuation of consciousness.

Anyone who knows of this ‘me’ probably knows of the difficulty experienced due to moving from places of quiet and solitude for nearly 20 years.  The short version has to do with the difficulty adjusting to suddenly being around noisy humans and family drama.  Moving closer to my daughters has been wonderful in so many ways, but not without the challenges that come along with sudden change.  Here’s what I’m trying to get at . . .

Until my recent study, it wasn’t entirely clear to me that the states of Samadhi established in meditation could be maintained during regular activities of daily living,  outside of a formal meditative state–in other words, off the cushion.  Yet, while living in the mountains many times was there in a stable mind-state without knowing it.   I’ll explain more in a moment.  Additionally, in recent days my study has uncovered another real eye-opener. And that has to do with percentages of attachment equaling the same percentage of aversion.  Here’s what that means . . .

The attachment that has been present to a personal desire and preference for silence has been way too strong or large.  As a result, the aversion or anger to it’s opposite (loud neighbors) has been equally as strong.  It goes back to the basic core phrase we always hear, “Accepting what ‘is'”.  It’s not so easy to accept anything as it is when you have a high percentage of attachment to its opposite.

Of course, there are other factors that filter into the equation of imbecile aversion which include a high level of sensitivity that comes along with open awareness.  Making peace with it while maintaining a stable mind is my continual challenge and the area of focused work in this life.

When living in the mountains, days on end of samadhi, stable mind, occurred — it was as if living in my own hermitage or retreat center.   It is only now that the realization comes that when the mind was pulled into worry about finances or when going into town and mingling with humans that the state dissolved and aversions and defilements arose within the mind. I didn’t think of it as samadhi at the time.  My personal definition of that word involved deep stillness (not necessarily awareness) in which there was no awareness of a self at all.  A new or an additional understanding of the word is the stability of mind, maintained over long periods of time toward the goal of having a stable mind indefinitely or at all times.  That’s the goal.  Frankly, some days it has felt impossible but it always comes down to this moment here now . . .  being aware, mindful or aware of what the mind is doing this very moment.  Being fully in it and observing what the mind and body are doing or the reactions–watching those.

Watching the mind can be a real sport if one’s heart is into it.  Stop a moment and ask yourself, Am I aware?” 

The answer is always Yes, don’t you see?  You will find that there is always that overseer called awareness.  How deep is the awareness?  Is it superficial or is there recognition and acknowledgment of thinking whenever it arises. Is there recognition of sound, feeling (all of the senses) whether pleasant or unpleasant as those arise?  Can you remember in the midst of any aversion that begins to arise that it is only nature happening and not personal?  Neither are your reactions–that’s just nature happening too.

These are just a few of my personal thoughts and experiences on these subjects for any reader’s discernment or consideration.  

Meditation Haiku Poem Present Moment Practice

I’ve been watching an HBO show that’s been on AMAZON PRIME.  I view it on my TV set using my ROKU device.  It’s called IN TREATMENT.  In the moment of a recent episode, the shrink asked the young man, “What are you thinking?”  The youth replied, “White noise”.

I had to laugh at that one.  The laughter of recognition I suppose.  My own mind registered that.  Not thinking anything really.  Yet not being mindful either.  I ‘m most aware of that white noise when the decision is made to write.  Like now.  It’s a rain filled, raw, cold day here in North Carolina.  Write, I said.

All levels of me self-agreed to write something.  A blog.  Here I am.  What have I got? White noise just like the kid on the program.

Lately, I’ve thought to try my hand at writing short little Japanese Mindfulness Poems called Haiku which are Japanese poem of seventeen syllables, in three lines of five, seven, and five, traditionally evoking images of the natural world.  Cutting written language, relatable to anyone and maybe paradoxical in some way.

Sounds easy.  Not so much.  You’d think the white noise would help but the instant that pressure is felt to come up with even one word, the mind is suddenly filled with nonsense and resistance. No no, not always, listen . . .

I really like the idea of clipping out a moment that is a pure now moment – a reflection of whatever catches the attention of the psyche.

The other day I sat down on the sidewalk in front of my apartment to experience a moment or two of sunshine.  Looking down at the ground before me, there is one pear tree flower all by itself in the dirt–alone and separated from the tree and other flowers on the branch from which it blossomed.

What struck me is that even though it was alone there, its center filaments seemed to still be reaching up toward the sun, the light.

Spring flower in dirt

Alone, apart from its branch, tree

Looks up to the light

My Haiku poem.  Is it legit?  Well, I guess they’re not really required to rhyme to qualify.  Here are a few from one of the supposed greatest Haiku Poets, Basho:

An old silent pond…
A frog jumps into the pond,
splash! Silence again.

Autumn moonlight—
a worm digs silently
into the chestnut.

In the twilight rain
these brilliant-hued hibiscus –
A lovely sunset.

The translations from Japanese to English do not follow the 5, 7, 5 syllable rule.   Anyway, none of those rhyme but they do describe the moment in time, a now.  Seems a good use of spare time to use Haiku poem writing endeavors to help a person remain aware of their now, mindfulness.  I guess you know what I mean, reader, right?

The small flower all alone there just seemed to say to me, “Look, I know that I no longer am connected to the life force upon the earth that sustained me (the tree) and I’m aware that I will soon just become the earth itself, whithering away here.  And I know my family of flowers on the branch above me–they are all looking down upon me aware of my fate, but I can still be nourished by the light, the sun.  The filaments, the anther, the stamen of me are still reaching up to the light even in my death here and in my departure, the ground here before you where I lay is bringing you some joy and beauty before I disappear completely. ” Looking at the singular flower was my meditation.

After writing those last words my head turned toward the window where I see the tree with all their beautiful white blossoms knowing that soon they will all fall upon the ground as the green leaves push them off their branches.  They too will end up in the dirt and on the sidewalk.  But they will return next spring to do it all again.  There is no death, only transition into yet another phase.

 

 

SENSITIVE TYPES and MRI’s:  SHAKE RATTLE N’ ROLL 

A well’a bless my soul
What’sa wrong with me?
I’m itchin’ like a man in a fuzzy tree
My friends say I’m actin’ wild as a bug
I hadda’ MRI
I’m all shook up!

Well, please don’t ask me what’sa on my mind
I’m a little mixed up, but I’m feelin’ fine

I hadda’ MRI
I’m all shook up!

(If you have been around a while, like me, you are familiar with those song lyrics!)

OH, DON’T GET ME WRONG; THERE ARE REAL ADVANTAGES AND I WANTED THE MRI PERFORMED.  This post is about something personal–fair warning.  But if you are sensitive to energy and to your own body, and if you need an MRI, maybe something here will be, in a small way, useful.

I hadn’t really considered any side effects of an MRI.  They are minimal in the grand scheme of things, I suppose; yet, consider the subject to be worthy of a write-up.   So, here goes . . .

It wasn’t until later in the day (yesterday)  when alone that . . .  well, that the “out of sorts” feeling was clear.  It was evident that something was energetically wrong and of course, I knew why.  The MRI naturally.

It was subtle, but I am sensitive, a psychic.   My own body’s natural electromagnetic field, especially in the area of my neck and brain (cervical scan) were rocked and rolled yesterday–and shook every which way but lose.

Which is, apparently, the method behind the MRI madness in the first place… the body’s own magnetic energy field gets confused and sends out a signal of some-such that the MRI machine picks up the confused atoms as images. I think something close to that goes on anyway.

Here’s a Google blurb about the science behind what happens:

How does an MRI scan work?
The MRI machine is a large, cylindrical (tube-shaped) machine that creates a strong magnetic field around the patient. The magnetic field, along with radio waves, alters the hydrogen atoms’ natural alignment in the body. Pulses of radio waves sent from a scanner knock the nuclei in your atoms out of their normal position. As the nuclei realign back into proper position, the nuclei send out radio signals. These signals are received by a computer that analyzes and converts them into a two-dimensional (2D) image of the body structure or organ being examined.

All I know is that last evening after the scan… there was the re-living the whole MRI, banging sounds included. Like someone who re-lives a trauma–like an auto accident or a similar disturbing event.  I was surprised by the flashbacks of the whole thing; truly.  After a bit of momentary disorientation on the table just after coming out, then I thought, “Okay, Done deal.  It’s over.  Moving right along with my life now….”   

Yet, the residual feeling experienced as the day wore on was one that would be expected if someone had grabbed me by the shoulders and shook the heck outa’ me.  I distracted myself with TV and then reading.  I had some trouble pulling my energy together for any kind of quality meditation and felt too wiped out to do any yoga.

I found myself snacking late into the night in a misguided way to restore order. That’s my old pattern!   The first sign of a problem, find something to eat.  Fell right into that one.

This morning I still feel somewhat shaken–similar to the feeling of when first set free from the MRI coffin-like machine.  Oh, was I glad to be let out of there!

Alright. Facts.  My body has been bending, lifting, turning and twisting for 70 years now.  Nothing lasts forever.  Impermanence:  a fact of life.  Degeneration of the cervical spine can cause radiating pain, numbness, weakness in shoulders, arm, and hand –my symptoms exactly.   Nothing lasts forever, especially the human body. Decades of bending, lifting, turning, and twisting can really take their toll on your neck and in my case cause radiating numbness in shoulders, arm and hand… mostly at night when sleeping, go figure.

How about the MRI’s benefits?  Well,  I got to see the photo images which were given to me on a CD before leaving the hospital outpatient facility.  Uploaded it to my computer to view when I got home and with my minimally medically trained eyes, do see some degeneration of the vertebrae and some disc herniating toward the spinal cord.  Yet, just what the radiologist will make of the images and what the recommendation, if any, will be handed out,  is unclear to me still at this time.   My general intuitive impression is not much can be done and maybe a cervical pillow and new mattress could help too as the symptoms show up when sleeping.

Nighttime numbness (and a bit of pain) increases just as the upper body strength training that I’ve been doing increases the strength in the shoulders and arms.  It’s a rock and hard place kind of scenario.

All in all, feeling shook up for a little while (this too shall pass)  is probably a small price to pay in order to know a few things about my body.  Speaking of shook up, what brought this all to a head (pun intended) was a recent freakish wind event that caused an object to hit me on the side of the head.  Resulting vertigo (another blast from the past so-to-speak) which could have come from an inner ear issue.  Or from something in the neck which is what I hope the MRI will clarify.  Oh, what a tangled web!

My greatest celebratory moments today will be knowing that I can swallow as much as desired.   THAT was difficult to NOT DO except between each of the long scans of the MRI.  Really?  Yeah, the guy said, don’t breathe too deeply.  Okay, got that, no problem.  Then said, don’t swallow until you hear the MRI banging stop.  Huh? Crazy! I did my best.

No more MRI magnet banging issues and go ahead… swallow anytime and all you want, Joy!

Those last words… my happy thoughts for today.

PS  —  My habit is to write things out of my system.  Blogs are so useful for that purpose.  This post has been therapy in that way.  I also wrote it for others who may feel a bit weird after an MRI to know they’re not alone.  I did have those side effects from my MRI and if I did, others who are tuned into their body and vibes, in general, are likely to as well.

Pallas Athena in Astrology – A Personal Exploration

Pallas Athene – The Warrior Queen

The Goddess Pallas?  Where is she in your birth chart? Where is she transiting currently for you?  I’ve written about CERES and one post about the group of Pallas/Athena, Juno, and Vesta.  Now that I’ve taken a deeper look at CERES in a singular post, the goal is to do the same with Pallas and then Juno as well, as time permits anyway.

Disclaimer:  Probably, it should be mentioned that I suffered a significant blow to my head in a freak event involving wind.  And while it may be wishful thinking that I’m no worse for the wear, this post writing is being used as a distraction from a headache.  Bottom line:  I hope this will make sense to the reader, despite some type of concussion being part of it all.

Pallas Glyph representing a spear

Now.  That said.  One thing here is that Pallas rules Aquarius—or so the greater astrological minds tell us.  My own natal Pallas is located in the sign Aquarius— making my Pallas, that particular part of my psyche, strong for that reason.  She is known to be the protectress and thus the glyph is shaped like a spear. She is said to represent the polarities of courage and its opposite, fear.

In addition to ruling Aquarius (air), she rules Leo (fire)—so she brings together creativity (Leo/fire) and mental qualities (Libra and Aquarius/Air).

She is thought to be the Goddess of Wisdom and Justice in addition to the previously mentioned Protectress.

Rounding out the generalities about Pallas, she is often pictured with an owl and spear as well as shield.

The myth involving Jupiter is that she was born from his head which infuses her with the male/warrior vibe along with the wisdom that she is known for.

Our style of perception and intelligence level can be described in our horoscope by the state of Pallas in our chart; well, at least so sayeth the elder astrological soothsayers.

Inspired vision, intuition, curiosity, genius and exceptional perception and the capacities for same are also to be determined by the state of one’s Pallas in their chart.

Challenges to perception can be determined by so-called stressful aspects to Pallas.  Yet, visualization ability and the capacity to perceive in wholes (seeing whole patterns) and to coordinate informational systems is indicated by aspects to Pallas.

PERSONAL EXPLORATION OF PALLAS

Here comes a personal piece:  My Jupiter (4th house in Scorpio) is square to my Pallas which brings in the right brain/intuition qualities of Jupiter with Pallas and that is what (I believe) helps me in my study of astrology and with my intuitive ability.  Correlating and blending many bits of information to determine the larger picture is especially helpful in seeing the patterns in an astrological chart and in any psychic work.  Pallas/Jupiter aspects are known for blending and correlating information. Therefore, I appreciate my Pallas/Jupiter square especially because of that and also that aspect and the energy in our psyche known as Pallas is understood to govern healing techniques (including self-healing), visualization, meditation, mind control, hypnosis and the like.

Personally, again, my 7th House Pallas is trine Venus (in Libra/3rd) and Pallas is trine Uranus (Retro in Gemini/11th).  Also, Pallas is opposing Saturn (in Leo) in my natal chart.

The elder astrologers tell us that in the mythology of Pallas, she operated as a “woman in a man’s word”, being accepted as a colleague or equal in the world of men.  My own natal Pallas Saturn opposition, I believe, touches on that theme based on my life experiences.

Pallas in Aquarius (such as mine) represents futuristic perceptions and also carries an indication of the revolutionary quality to the psyche.  In this 7th house of (the other/s), it indicates that the soul/psyche of the individual (myself in this example) possesses strong meditating and counseling abilities – or so it says in the books that astrologers have written about Pallas.  This fits, of course, with me in that this is the work that I do and meditation is a strong focus in my life.  I could add that the Saturn opposition to Pallas from the 12th house brings the spiritual (12th house ruled by Neptune) quality into the work that I do—Saturn rules work/career/cosmic job in one’s birth chart. Again, I think of the aspect of opposition as a blending energy rather than the more negative qualities associated with that aspect.

My own Pallas trine Venus aspect seems an important one as Venus is culminating at the 29° degree of Libra in my natal chart,  signaling the culmination of that Venus energy in some way.  The Energy is fully developed in other words—or so the wiser astrologers tell us anyway.  Venus here is in the 3rd house so here we would have to include the 3rd house communication piece in the interpretation.  And as Venus easily works with (trine) Pallas, here we have again harmonious (Venus) communication of a counseling (7th house) nature.  It all fits with the work that I do and I am finding this exploration very validating of my life.

I mentioned earlier about Pallas square Jupiter in my chart.  Jupiter symbolizes the search for truth and meaning.  The square here brings up in my own life the red flag of being ethical and remaining in integrity  (truthful) with my work.  I am highly aware that it is, in some cases, too easy to take advantage of people when doing readings and my inner Pallas/Jupiter energy signals me very strongly to remain ethical in my work.

Pallas is trine to Uranus in my chart, which was also mentioned earlier—another harmonious aspect (trine).  So here we are talking about levels of mind when we talk about Uranus.  My Uranus is especially strong as it is located in my 11th house—the house that it rules, making it significant there.  Uranus is retrograde which makes this part of my psyche finely tuned inwardly.  Telepathic and intuitive abilities are a significant part of this Pallas-Uranus aspect.  As a Uranus trine Pallas aspect with the understanding that Uranus has a strong connection with astrology (per the teachers of the subject), my ability to counsel (7th house Pallas) others and befriend all types of people, creatively assist others using higher channels of intuition as well as astrological counseling . . .  well, this aspect is another that seems to be right on and fit my life experiences perfectly.

I really love astrology for its ability to validate not only my life but the life of my clients.  It’s true that some of the aspects can play out in various ways but when doing astrology, one must always anchor into the natal north and south nodes and their aspects while doing an interpretation.

In my natal chart, Pallas squares the natal nodes at a 4° orb, indicating that this energy has played out in my past lifetimes (South Node) or at least has been pre-wired in my psyche and is meant to be playing out in this current lifetime (North Node).  These nodes are in my 4th  (SN) and 10th (NN) houses, indicating that Pallas is destined to play a role in my cosmic job or career or at the very least in the public eye in some way as the NN / 10th house in Taurus indicates.

PALLAS  IN TRANSIT

Currently, at the time of this writing February 4, 2016,  Pallas is transiting my 9th house with Pallas in Taurus (interestingly enough Pallas conjuncts my natal Goddess Ceres).  My own take on that combination as far as interp or meaning is as follows:  teaching (9th house archetype) about Pallas and the other asteroid goddesses is indicated.  This transit is a pretty clear indication that Pallas wants me to learn and teach about her as part of my North Node Taurus evolutionary goal for this time period (while Pallas is transiting my 9th house merging with her Goddess sister, Ceres who is/was there at that degree at the time of birth).  The Asteroid Goddesses seem very alive in my soul/psyche at this time in my life.

In conclusion, here are just some other general tidbits and key phrases about the Archetype of Pallas:

  • Goddess of Wisdom
  • Goddess of War and Victory
  • Invincible in Battle
  • Is credited for using her wisdom to teach the populace how to settle disputes peacefully
  • Is often depicted as being clad in armor
  • Is often shown in artistry as accompanied by an owl
  • Patroness of the Arts
  • Goddess of health and healing
  • Possessed the gift of prophecy

I hope the reader will not find this post off-setting or confusing to read as, again,  it was written on a physically challenging day following a head concussion. 

It is my wish that the reader will find something validating and useful here.  In adddition, here is that recently written post about Ceres that I mentioned at the start of this blog:  CLICK HERE .

Goddess Ceres in Astrology – A Personal Exploration

Originally known as the Goddess of Agriculture; thus the wheat in her arms and the harvesting sickle astrological symbol

Both men and women have a fathering function symbolized by Saturn.  The Moon symbolizes the maternal function, as well as Ceres.  The asteroid centers in my psyche are perhaps newly energized or activated in that I’ve been thinking (and writing) about the goddesses Juno, Pallas and Vesta.  Today, I am turning toward Ceres so see what I can learn about this energy as it applies to my life and to incorporate some knowledge.  That, then, is the point or focus of this post today.  Ceres.

Here’s one archetype of Ceres (AKA Demetris drawn from the mythology of Persephone, her missing daughter take by Pluto). Parent-child complexes are associated with Ceres.  C.G. Jung wrote, “Every mother contains her daughter in herself and every daughter her mother; every woman extends backward into her mother and forward into her daughter.”  On a practical level, in a horoscope, the location of Ceres points to information about the mothering function especially with regard to issues of attachment and freedom.

According to mythology, Ceres was unwilling to allow Persephone to have freedom of choice and it is said that Persephone was overly attached to her mother.  Therefore, natural as well as un-natural nurturing are archetypes of Ceres.  The House and Sign of Ceres in a natal chart can indicate how we feel about nurturing and maybe even how we nurture ourselves.

As with all planets in a chart, aspects to those points modify them a great deal; therefore in a chart, one must look to the connections Ceres is making to other parts of the psyche.

I’m going to look at my own Ceres in my birth chart now to see what I can determine in my effort to expand this center in my consciousness.  My Ceres is in my 9th house, in Taurus, retrograde squaring Mars and Pluto and opposing Venus and Mercury.  That’s a mouthful.

Ceres-Pluto aspects relate to the comings and goings and sharing of children.  That makes sense in correlation to mythology since Pluto abducted Cere’s daughter Persephone.  My life has included a divorce and the sharing of our three daughters—I can see how that particular aspect would fit me personally.

Ceres, in my natal chart, (9th house/Taurus) carries the signature of nurturing through the Earth (nature) and the physical body (in my case, exercise).  Taurus is a sign that relates to (Taurus rules 2nd house) of self-worth and self-reliance; therefore, when I provide materially and physically for myself, a high degree of self-acceptance is my reward. As a side piece to this, Aries is on the cusp of my 9th house and Ceres squares it’s ruler Mars which adds that physical exercise piece – the more aggressive the exercise, the more I like it.  These are qualities (via aspects, house, and sign) that modify the meaning of my natal Ceres.  Much more could be said but that’s what jumps out at this moment.

The Mar/Aries piece of it relates to feeling free and independent feeds my psyche in a positive way and Ceres is expressing that in my chart.

Ceres, Asteroid in space – As above, so below

The 9th house, where my natal Ceres is located, relates not only to freedom but the pursuit of knowledge and truth.  The deep feeling of accuracy there is also expansive—it is so very true that study of philosophy and spiritual truths are like a divine mother nurturing me!

Now my intention is to address the oppositions to Ceres from Venus and Mercury in my natal chart.  These are oppositional, of course naturally are located in my 3rd house of communication.  (For new astrologers, we come to this as 3 opposes 9 in the house system).

Mercury rules the 3rd house and is therefore strong here.  (Mercury is in Scorpio and Venus is at 29° Libra).  Just a bottom line interpretation here includes this: the nurturing of others through communication that is harmonious while also ‘soul-deep’.  This is my work, my profession as a psychic.  And it is how (I hope) that I nurture others and when being paid for my services expands the possibility of being able to be self-reliant via being nurtured in return).

Just as a final note about the opposition aspect energy:   I see the opposition aspect as energy that merges with one another rather than pulling apart or opposing in a negative way.  That’s how I’d like to see the energy that is an opposition aspect in a chart and often attend to the more positive slant on life in other ways, too, when possible.

Just a mini-vent here.  In astrology  (and what gives it a label of inaccuracy at times) is when one attempts to single out one planet in one sign in one house and make a single determination of meaning.  One must take in the entire chart as a whole into consideration,  otherwise, it can be so very misleading and confusing. –End Vent

This is much more than was intended to write on Ceres today. I have a client in a few moments and must end this now.

I hope if you have an interest in the Goddess Ceres, that this post was in some way helpful to you.

Here’s a link to another of my blog posts about PALLAS, JUNO, and VESTA that was posted on another site if you are interested in reading about those asteroids too.

Psychic in Social Situations

Weight Lifting Class

This post is about a quick flash of a psychic insight that occurred in the midst of a social situation just yesterday at the gym.  It’s been a while since I’ve blogged obviously. Keep berating myself –must be more consistent with blogging.  Feeling like there’s nothing to say and ducking back into my hermit cave is no excuse.  So here’s something.

Hmmmm.  Where to begin?  Well, you know how some people seem to put on airs, right?   That phrase is used when people act as if they are from a higher class in society.  There is a lady that fits this description at the gym.  She’s a swimmer and when I, too, was swimming laps we met in the swim lanes and the locker room.

I stopped swimming due to the air quality of the indoor pool and our paths had not crossed for over a year but there she was yesterday waiting for a weightlifting class that I, too, planned to attend.  She was discoursing quite authoritatively on the negative aspects of the class–this class that I love!   How could she speak with such a demeanor when she’d not frequented any of the classes?  

She began to gather listeners and explain how these new classes were of a lesser quality than the ‘old’ classes, asserting some kind of seniority as the expert witness.

Most of the others, including myself, began to scoff since the new strength training/weight lifting class is highly popular.  Every class is nearly full!  This woman was beginning to make a fool of herself.

Why? Why was she putting on those airs with a ‘sour-grapes’ kind of attitude’?

I could see it clearly the moment my irritation released and compassion substituted.  She was nervous about taking the class for the first time and this was her way of making herself feel comfortable enough to be there.

I glanced in her direction several times during the hour-long session.  She positioned herself in the back of the room but through the mirrors, it was obvious that she was struggling and not keeping up very well.

Compassion is a good platform for psychic insight.

Personal Tarot Trait for May 13, 14 and May 15, 2015 – Judgment, King of Cups and 7 of Cups

Personal Tarot Traits – Relating Personal Daily Experiences to a Daily Tarot Card

If I’ve read it once, it’s been the same number of times that match the number of tarot books on my shelf.  Most all authors mention pulling a card a day to learn about the cards.  The other morning during my usual wake up routine (no longer hit the floor running like in the good ole’ days) when I let guidance come in and do a waking dream for the day ahead… well, there was a directive in the form of an idea laced with intensity.   Draw a card at the beginning of the day and reflect on its meaning and then revisit the day-card combo at day’s end.  That’s the treasure at the end of the rainbow so-to-speak.  It gives insight into the that world of divination for adding layers or additional traits applying meanings and deeper understanding to the cards, all of which can be drawn from those layers when doing future readings.

Let your personal life teach you the cards!  So that’s what this post is all about.

I have three days /slash/ tarot cards to begin this journey with.  Will I be able to make posts like this daily or regularly?  (my inner question as I type)  The answer:  time will tell.  But no time like the present as they say so let’s get going with what we’ve already got!

May 13, 2015:  Judgment

Judgment Herbal tarotThe highlight of that day that relates to this card is one in which I assumed how something in my life would likely play out and I was wrong.  One could say “judged” wrongly how something would likely turn out.  It regarded a work out and if you are someone who regularly exercises, you know how this goes.  There are times when you feel like you maybe shouldn’t work out–you feel tired or think that you will not do very well.  But you drag yourself to the gym anyway or if you are a runner/jogger, you lace up your shoes and head out the door anyhow.  Right?  And then it turns out that you end up having the best workout than you’ve had in months!  That’s my personal tarot trait for the Judgment Card.  This card is about being “called” to “restructure” the “self”.  And it was a day when several personal best were achieved with my exercise goals when beforehand I almost skipped the gym because I thought I was too tired.  The end of a plateau was reached and everything got kicked up a few notches.  Next time I draw this card in a reading, I will consider this experience in my card interpretation.

May 14, 2015:  King of Cups

King of Cups and JamesThe highlight of that day was my musically inclined grandson!  This card does often represent a male energy and also water or emotion.  One divinatory meaning relates to a fondness for the arts!  My grandson sings in the honors choir, sings on stage in high school plays, plays saxophone in the marching band and that night was featured in an oboe solo (an oboe which he taught himself how to play by the way).  It was the day of the in the spring concert on May 14, 2015.  I will think of a sensitive and artistic male and my grandson anytime I pull this card in the future.  The concern in which he played a solo oboe part was a huge highlight of that day!   The King of Cups represents ambitious male energy and this another quality of my grandson.

May 15, 2015:  7 of Cups

7 of cups Herbal tarotOn this day—a pleasant surprise occurred as highlight of the day!  My daughter tied up a loose end for me.  She cleaned out the remaining items of my storage unit, moving them into her own which we planned to share.  She saved me the efforts which was such a nice thing for her to do for me–an unexpected pleasantry!  Whenever I see this card, the first thought is this:  anything is possible.  The 7 of cups also relates to the truth that the outer world is a reflection of the inner world.  I’d had cleaning out that storage unit and getting my stuff into hers for recent days and then it gets done and I didn’t lift a finger while I did imagine or visualize it.  I will be sure to add “things that come unexpectedly” as a trait for this card next time it comes up in a reading.  My daughter was a the gym and I was on my way there when she called and said, “I have a gift for you on the front seat of my car.”  And when I saw the lock to my unit there, I knew exactly what she had done!