The Grand Cross and The Matrix — Venus opposing Uranus Squaring Pluto and Jupiter 2013

Grand Cross 2013 Venus opposing Uranus squaring Pluto and Jupiter
Grand Cross 2013 Venus opposing Uranus squaring Pluto and Jupiter

The astrological alignment of four planets in astrology called The Grand Cross  (to my mind) is like one of the final scenes in the movie trilogy THE MATRIX.

Venus is opposing Uranus and squaring Jupiter which is opposing Pluto, so squaring both!

What does it mean when Venus engages with all these big player planets?

Relating with others intensifies!

One way or another and it’s building right now, it  looks like  some things (likely issues involving money, power, freedom and control in relationships) are going to get challenged, squared away and hopefully resolved over the next few weeks in people’s personal lives.

More specific you say?  It could be like this:  faith and beliefs (Jupiter) squares freedom and liberation (Uranus).

And your values (Venus) are challenged so that Transformation on some level (Pluto) happens.

You already feel it, you must!  What is a hot issue in your life right now?

Something around that gets sacrificed on your personal Grand Cross over these next few weeks.

Some thing or some one is going to be released for your evolutionary benefit!  So that PEACE can be achieved.

When I think of the Grand Cross configuration in astrology, I always think of that final scene in the Matrix wherein Neo, THE ONE, is asked “What do you want?” and he answers, “Peace”.

That’s how I understand the purpose of a Grand Cross!

For each of us the energy of the next few weeks will play out differently but it will involve the archetype of Venus in some way and how Venus is placed in your birth chart as well as the Nodes of the Moon (karmic past and evolutionary intent of your soul).  The various Venus energy archetypes include:  love, relationships, values, money to name a few and the other archetypes of the signs and houses it rules (2nd, 7th, Taurus, Libra).

Hang on snoopy; the next few weeks could get interesting!

No Mud? No Lotus! Downstairs Neightbors and Spiritual Awareness

 Lotus Flower

No Mud? No Lotus! 

That quote came over my Facebook Timeline recently attributed to the often quoted and well-respected spiritual teacher Thich Nhat Hanh (the Vietnamese Zen Buddhist Monk).

That’s put so simply that it startles one—or it did me.  I collect images of the lotus flower and really love that symbol related to spirituality.  Then I had to break out laughing thinking how my downstairs neighbors from India are like my mud and tonight when their voices trailed up alongside me at my computer desk… the quick, choppy straining human voice sounds began to distract while I was writing.  No mud, no lotus I thought.  Likely, I’m their mud too in reverse.  We hear each other mostly because they do not put on their air conditioning to muffle the sound and have no furniture to absorb sound and the floor has no sound proofing!

I had a message for a client this evening and there was a reference to using others in relationships in order to process mental energy.  Suddenly, I wondered if this is like the two Indians beneath me—maybe they have to ‘talk it out’ all the time in order to process busy intellects.  Sounds like venting; releasing — lovely.

It’s neither their fault nor my own that there is no insulation and that we are living in essentially a mocked up tent and that they love the heat (apparently) and don’t run air conditioning.  The maintenance guys tell me that Indian apartments are stifling.  I sometimes resent that I run my unit to keep their noise down and they don’t and their heat rises to my upstairs apartment—no mud, no lotus.

I’ve essentially been dealing with the neighbor issues much better—although no one would know it but me; it’s all an inside thing.  Tonight was a mild setback—their incessant talking got to me.  But Nhat Hanh says that dirty dishes, red lights, and traffic jams are spiritual friends on the path to “mindfulness”—the process of keeping our consciousness alive to our present experience and reality.  Same for the boisterous and talkative downstairs Indian couple—when they go at it, it brings me to the present reality too.

Should be this way since I have Saturn transiting my 3rd house in Scorpio now; well, maybe not ‘should be’ but the location of the planet of lessons in the house that represents neighbors does explain a few things.

I’m going to turn to Nhat Hanh for more spiritual teachings because I do like that one–its simple, direct and profound:

No mud.  No Lotus.

No challenges.  No spiritual evolution.

Okay, I still wish they would go away…  meanwhile, mindfulness of the present reality is what it is.

PS–I must be growing lots of lotuses by now!

FEED YOUR SUN TO ENHANCE YOUR LIFE FORCE AND TO FEEL STRONG, HAPPY, ENERGIZED

FEED YOUR SUN TO ENHANCE YOUR LIFE FORCE AND TO FEEL STRONG, HAPPY, ENERGIZED

Feeding and Energizing Your SUN!
Feeding and Energizing Your SUN!

The Sun Sign is like a key which enables us to turn it to reach a particular channel of consciousness that vitalizes our essence physically, mentally and spiritually.  A weak Sun enables us to fall apart easily, feel physically weak, disoriented and depressed.  We need the Sun, the Light to energize our heart–our spirit here. When our Sun is healthy we feel strong and able to handle the challenges of life.  We should each know what it is that nourishes us and helps us feel our own power—and astrology can help us.  We should know and study the sign of our Sun and that’s the reason for today’s post!

I will list each Sun sign and a line or two about what you need to nourish your body, mind and soul to keep yourself healthy and energized—we should know how to feed our Sun; how to bring more Light into our body, mind and spirit so that we can feel happy here!

The Sun is thought to be Male energy—the animus as Jung called it.  Our Sun is our Life Force (as above, so below)–it’s our Prana and it helps us with our creative expression here.  More basically it is what produces our will to live and so we should know how to nourish it.

Nourishing (feeding) our Sun is what helps us to feel confident and it is different for each of us, based on our birth data. 

Almost everyone knows their Sun sign but if you don’t, I will include the list of signs with dates below.  This list isn’t intended to be all inclusive—this is just off the top of my head so-to-speak mentioning some of the key points that come to mind about each Sun which my own Libra Sun needs to do in order to feel energized an purposeful i.e. “relating”.  Anyway, here we go…

Aries2SUN IN ARIES (born March 21 – April 20)

You need fire and to express courage and a pioneering spirit and be out front or first in anything you do.  Any activity that encourages such things will feed your Sun and help your life force sparkle and shine brighter.  You need excitement and to try new things—as many as you can even if you don’t follow up with everything you start, you need those exciting “new starts” often and in some form in order to feed your Sun and help you feel confident and alive .

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SUN IN TAURUS (born April 21 – May 20)

You need earth and to express your very practical ideas in any way that you can.  You are good at handling resources and expressing this skill helps you to feed your life force and feel confident.  When you work with money/finances you shine just like you do when you express your strong tastes in creating beauty with earth resources.  When you care for your physical needs and comforts, you energize your body, mind and spirit.

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SUN IN GEMINI (born May 21 – June 21)

You need air, mental, thought to energize your sense of dualism—and when you can hold two views at the same time or unite two sets of opposites, this helps you to feel confident and powerful.  When you allow yourself to use your natural born gift of observation and combine that with words in any way—shazam, you are really rocking and feeling your light grow brighter.  Mental stimulation in any way, shape or form energizes you and when you talk about things this too helps body, mind and spirit unite—expressing yourself does it for you and helps you feel vital and alive.

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SUN IN CANCER (born June 22 – July 22)

Water, emotions and security are the key words here that feed this Sun and help people in this sign feel strong and vital. Home, family and tradition and things to do with the past help you feel a sense of purpose that enlivens your body, mind and soul.  Building a sense of home and doing that groundwork for that purpose feeds your sun and helps you feel more powerful, confident and alive – you take the past and create a self-image from that making an identity that helps you feel more yourself. When you care for others and protect and nurture them, this feeds your own Sun—your life force.  If you don’t use your deep feelings to care for others, you feel more vulnerable and loose energy; however, if your home or security are threatened this enables you to find your Sun and call upon your own natural inner strength making you aware of it and this ultimately enables you to feel more alive, confident and purposeful.

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SUN IN LEO (born July 23 – Aug 22, 23)

This person needs fire, passion and awareness of self and feels enlivened when in any kind of central position or at the core of anything that is going on.  If this type of individual is not feeling popular with others, it can dampen the spirit and it’s like put a blanket over their life force.  The person born under this Sun will feel the need to reach the pinnacle of achievement in some area but must also remember to have fun so that work and pleasure are in equal measure—if not, the life force depletes and the Sun is not being fed.  There is a susceptibility to flattery from others until this individual can learn how to nourish their own Sun by self-acceptance and true self-awareness.

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SUN IN VIRGO (born August 23, 23 – September 22, 23)

Humility, compassion and modesty and an urge to be of service and make a significant difference in the world in a hands-on and grounded way that is practical and useful; this is what feeds and nourishes the body, mind and spirit of those born under the Virgo Sun.  Other Sun signs can take advantage of the service oriented Virgo nature who likes to work behind the scenes.  Satisfaction comes from giving attention to details and by pursuing a natural interest in healing—those activities feed the Virgo Sun helping this individual feel confident and vital.

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SUN IN LIBRA (born September 23, 24 – October 22, 23)

The emphasis here is on non-self or the ‘other’ and on anything air related such as writing, speaking and in any way ‘relating’.  When the person born under this sign is uniting with others in some way there comes a feeling of wholeness and balance and harmony.  A person born under this Sun has a consideration of other people’s feelings, such as even if this person is expressing anger it is on behalf of another rather than self.  The Libra soul really has a strong need to justice and fair play and working for the benefit of others is what enables this soul to be energized and feel confident and vital.

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SUN IN SCORPIO (born October 23, 24 – November 22)

The person born under this Sun has an urge to fight an conquer foes whether real or imagined  and the need is to slay a dragon of some type and so here feeling the power of tenacity makes on feel alive and vital.  There’s an innate need for passion and sometimes engaging in activities to the point of obsession but this level of intensity is needed in order to feed body, mind and soul.  If the person can dig deeply for the truth even to the point of doing research in some way to find the deep bottom-line answer, then the life force is energized.  Anything involving psychology and learning about the motivations of others helps the person born under this sign to feel vital, alive and generally purposeful which feeds their life force.

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SUN IN SAGITTARIUS (born November 23 – December 21, 22, 23)

Expansion of the solar forces to their fullest potential happen with those born under the Sag Sun and there needs to be a wide field or area for this person to express their life force energy.  Here we have individuals who have a huge abundance of tolerance naturally and when this is being expressed, the Sag person feels that sense of purpose being fulfilled.  Honesty, freedom and optimism and cheerfulness need to be allowed expression in order for the person born under this Sun to feel confident and vitally alive.  The naturally restless spirit of the Sag Sun individual is soothed by experiencing some type of adventure and having an expression of freedom in their life in some way.  Teaching helps someone born in Sag to feel vitally alive, purposeful and thus feeds that life force, their Sun.  Travel or planning a trip is also something that a Sagittarius can do in order to feed their Sun!

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SUN IN CAPRICORN (born December 22, 23, 24 – January 20)

The Sun’s rays are usually weaker during these months but inside this individual there is a quiet drive that is powerfully present and needs feeding.  Anything requiring tenacity and determination will feed the body, mind and spirit of this individual.  This person needs a goal and something to master in some field or endeavor and has what it takes to endure hardship and to overcome obstacles and when these hardships and obstacles are overcome, the life force is revitalized.  There is purpose on the path of overcoming life that feeds this person’s body, mind and spirit.  This Capricorn Sun needs responsibility and can thrive on it!

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SUN IN AQUARIUS (born January 21 – February 19)

The person born under this Sun thrives on cooperation with others; and without it their life force fades and wanes.  Personal satisfaction comes from considering others first and in fact self-promotion diminishes one’s feeling of power and confidence.  Sharing with others and humanitarian concerns rule this individuals deepest inner desires and help one feel the life is being well-lived and furthers the feelings of brotherhood and friendship that keep this Sun fed.  Technology is also a place wherein a person born under this sign can shine and feel confident and purposeful; so developing technical skill helps one feel like shining even brighter especially if the technology enhances other people’s welfare.

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SUN IN PISCES (born 2/20 – 3/20)

The solar forces are probably the weakest here in those born under this sign.  Yet, in times of adversity, the solar spark ignites and inner strength asserts itself.  Here we can see folks who can be very resistant but in a very passive way but the resistance can be arduous and formidable.  The person born under this sign feels confidence and life force grow when expressing adaptability, tolerance and compassion.  If the person born under a Pisces Sun works on behalf of those less fortunate this generally motivates their life.  So, therefore, charity work and healing work are of benefit in feeding the Sun of those born under Pisces.  The thing here is that the individual is basically very kind but others perceive this as weakness and then take advantage; therefore, boundaries are crucial for those born under this Sun Sign.  If anything in the arts using imagination are pursued (music, dancing, etc.) this can feed the Sun here since those born with a Pisces Sun have a strong imagination.  Grounding, naturally, is something that should be balanced with the imaginative nature.

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I hope this little list will help you to know how to feed your own Sun and also for you to know a bit about how to help your family and friends enhance their life force as well.

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May this information reach the right people and the right time in order to make a positive difference in their life and may their life force be energized beyond measure for the good of all.

Taurus New Moon Solar Eclipse Today, May 9th, 2013 – Eclipse Season 2013

Taurus New Moon Solar Eclipse Today
Taurus New Moon Solar Eclipse Today, May 9th, 2013

It’s the middle of the summer eclipse season 2013!  Lunar! Solar! Partial! Full!  Whatever!  A one word can suffice:  change.  Yeah, okay.  But what kind and what for and what to do about it?  Well, how its playing out in each of our lives can be somewhat different but the main theme is change.  So, it all started in April with the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio; so a Scorpio Moon; check your schedules, journals, calendars or reflect back to the 25th of April during that full Moon.  (I did and see a theme developing with finances; not surprising when we’re dealing with Scorpio and the opposite polarity Taurus.  They rule the 2nd and 8th zodiac houses of our money/other people’s money—generally speaking as a huge over-simplified theme.  Survival, values, self-worth and issues of power/control and these types of categories—that’s what we’re talking about, if we’re getting thematic and we are.

TECHNICAL—SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU’RE NOT ‘INTO’ ASTROLOGY:  Most people don’t know these details about themselves but I’ll mention anyway that if anyone has planets in Taurus, Leo, Scorpio or Aquarius that are between 1 and 11 degrees, that this energy will be most deeply felt.  Why?  Because this upcoming Full Moon Eclipse on the 25th of May happens at 5 degrees and is triggering the lot of any planets in those signs and in those degrees via aspects or angles, that’s why.

But even if you don’t know those details, everyone has transiting Saturn (in Scorpio) and Mars (in Taurus) triggered at that time.  So, you’re effected with or without knowledge of your planets, houses or signs.  But knowledge is power, so let’s continue.

Although I just said that I’d leave myself out of it, Saturn in Scorpio brought (for me) deep emotional sadness (my brother had just died) and other emotions had me initiating (Mars) some new ideas about monetary survival concerns (Taurus).  I’m sharing this for the purposes of helping others understand their own astrological eclipse energy as I try to figure this thing out myself.  What is the message that is being given to us by the universe this eclipse season?

Eclipses can suddenly expose a hidden problem and are like the ‘wild cards’ of the zodiac which can bring up stressful emotions, chaotic events or they can be very positive and exciting.  I’m sure there are those who feel little or no effect at all.  Why so?  Well, it depends on whether or not those signs relate to something significant in the natal chart triggering the soul’s karmic past or evolutionary goal—some eclipses do and others don’t.  Just because someone experiences an eclipse season as mild, doesn’t indicate some type of spiritual advancement.  Besides, let’s face it.  If we got hit intensely and heavily with each and every single eclipse, chances are we’d be overwhelmed—that’s why we have something called ‘time’ to slow it all down for us.  So, wipe the grin off your face if you are not being affected by this particular eclipse, there’s always next year!

My Natal North and South Nodes are being hit by this eclipse season so my soul’s karmic past and evolutionary intention are really being shaken.  Last year, the summer eclipses (in which I relocated from the mountains to this apartment complex down mountain) occurred I the signs Gemini-Sagittarius.  One archetype of this zodiac axis relates to short trips and travel—that axis in my natal chart occurs in 5-11, the archetypes of children (5th) and the clan/community (11th).  I’m in the community now “fer’ shure” as we used to say it in the 80’s.  I moved into this apartment complex where my children live.  And I did so last year between the May 20th and June 4th eclipse.  My move in date was the 21st of May last year, 2012.  So all that Gemini-Sag eclipse stuff that last year is being mentioned here as an example of how an eclipse season can work.  Let’s get current–it’s now one year later, May 9, 2013.

So much for history; let’s return to the NOW.  Scorpio – Taurus is where we’re at for this years eclipse season encore.  And for me triggers more family/career stuff since in my life, the natal nodes are in the 4-10 house axis.  Again, if you are born with personal planets in Taurus, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius; then you’re being affected.

My whole generation is feeling the effects of this eclipse since all people born in the Pluto in Leo generation which is roughly between the years of 1940 and 1957 are affected by these eclipses in Taurus/Scorpio via the square; especially if their Pluto is within orb or between 1 and 11 degrees Leo.

Oh, I may be getting too technical.  We’re just talking about what issues can cause concern when we look at the signs and houses that an eclipse affects.

WHAT’S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A SOLAR AND LUNAR ECLIPSE?

ANSWER:  Just as a general rule of thumb, solar eclipses are more external dealing with outer world events while the lunar eclipses are more emotional and internal. 

So let’s go back to April 25th.  We checked the calendar/journal/schedule and reflected back to that last week or so of April a moment ago—was that more internal or external for you?  We feel intensely emotional about something and that can result in taking the bull-by-the-horns so to speak and initiating an external event.  I was re-thinking my whole approach to things at that time due to some emotional unrest and as a result did initiate a few outer world experiences.  I will leave the details to your imagination.

Eclipses have a profound effect on a person’s life—at least potentially depending upon what other planets it triggers.  The tension may last only a few weeks; however the change that happens in that period can last a lifetime.

Take, for example, the eclipse season of last summer as it relates to my own life.  The move closer to my family—definitely true that things that have happened this past year did affect my life and the lives of my family and the affects likely will last a lifetime i.e. our relationships, memories and all of that.  So there’s a good example.  The intensity of the move—the packing up and moving in took weeks but the change?  Well, pretty dramatic.

Eclipses can illuminate areas of one’s life—like shining a light on the person, the path bringing into awareness something that beforehand was not being noticed.  We could say something like removing a blind spot!   I think that’s a good way to phrase it.  Whatever has been pushed to one side or shoved under the carpet becomes obvious.  Sometimes I think of eclipses as earthquakes—especially after last summer as well as the current energy.

Today’s eclipse (May 9th 2013) is Solar and this Sun/Moon conjunction is closely (as mentioned earlier) merged with Mercury, Mars and most importantly the South Node.  So past life or even this current lifetime’s past memories and past actions (Karma possibly-?) is being illuminated revealing, once again, possible blind spots.

The next eclipse of this series is another Lunar Eclipse and occurs on May 25 on the full Moon.  There are two eclipse seasons every year – lunar eclipses are the byproducts of any given solar eclipse.  Therefore, the eclipse ahead of us on the 25th (Full Moon Lunar eclipse) is the byproduct of today’s New Moon Solar Eclipse.

Today’s Solar Eclipse may bring events that we have not consciously precipitated or triggered and then the consequential upcoming Full Moon Lunar eclipse on the 25th will be associated with events brougth about by our own thoughts and feelings.

Let me end with a quote from astrologer Dena DeCastro’s (www.denadecastro.com) recent newsletter to give us more of an idea about this eclipse season.  Her comments echo other astrologers all of whom are saying essentially the same thing.  About this eclipse season Dena wrote:

“We’re being invited to confront our fears, and to let go of the things we’ve held on to – habits, ideas, material things – that makes us feel secure. And, that’s the South Node in Taurus: we are learning to release attachment to some things that have allowed us to be comfortable for a while. The evolutionary condition is that, as a whole, we have become too comfortable, cozy, sleepy. Inertia has set in (shadow side of Taurus). Scorpio medicine invites us to surrender to what feels out of our control. For example, intense emotions, maybe long suppressed, may be coming to the surface now. Or, you might find that you can no longer avoid doing that thing you are passionate about, but have been so afraid to do. If you don’t know what that is yet, don’t worry. Another year and a half of North Node in Scorpio will likely reveal it to you. But you must be willing to look beneath the surface of things, to confront fears, and to ride the wave rather of change rather than fighting it. ~ So these themes and lessons are brought to the surface each time the eclipses occur in the Taurus/Scorpio polarity, particularly heightened in the two weeks leading up to and away from the eclipses. We are in such a time frame currently, which began in early April and goes through the early part of June. In my life, it has been a challenging time, full of Scorpionic themes. I touched on some of these in my previous newsletter. As I look at the lives of those closest to me, and events in the world around me, I see many of us being pushed out of the inertia state of shadow-Taurus toward confronting uncomfortable, even frightening, realities. Through being awakened to the things we usually don’t like to consider, however, we are provided the opportunity to gain wisdom and the ability to find the true sources of our own power.”—end quote, Dena DeCastro

I hope this post helps someone out there to hang on with chin up!  As mom used to say, “This too shall pass” and as I say, “I can go through anything if I know why and how long it’s likely to last!”

Maybe by next month, if we don’t get it right now, we will be able to look back on this time period of 3 eclipses April 25 thru May 25th and figure it all out!  Here’s to eclipses (raising my coffee cup to the air and not spilling a drop) and may the force be with you. 

I hope that we all receive some positive changes through this intense time period and I hope for you that your experiences are the intensely happy kind.   May the odds be ever in your favor!

Working for Ego, for Spirit or for the sake of the work itself? What’s the Motivation for what you are doing daily?

Busy as a Bee? What's the Motivation?
Busy as the Bees in this Photo? What’s the Motivation?

Working for Ego or Spirit – What’s the Motivation?

Maybe you do this; like I do this – or you don’t.  Do what?  Well, sometimes not what you ‘think’ you should do.  And sometimes we wonder if what we have a plan to do will really make any difference.  I think it’s about the motivation or the reason we do what we do.  That’s what’s what we should examine or look at.   I’ve noticed how people can be uptight and workaholic in their nature and announce or pronounce that they are accomplishing some great task or project and they are too busily involved with this to be distracted from it.  That kind of focus is good and we need that once in a while.  I know how to do that too—been there, done that.  These days, I’m looking at my motivation for everything and that comes along with part of the contemplations involved on my spiritual path.

I question my reason  for doing whatever it is I’ve plans to do and if the motivation to do it isn’t in alignment with my “path” (to use an easy word), then it’s a bit harder to dive in with passion.

I know how it is to be as busy as a bee (see image of honey bees at work above) and also how it is not to be so.  Sometimes I come up with issues either way—the busy bee syndrome can turn into either escapism OR it becomes one huge attachment.  And we know (or at least I do, first hand) what happens with attachments—something’s got to give in order to loosen our grip and that isn’t always pretty.  Best not to go there in the first place!

When you’re younger and with family responsibilities, your motivation is pretty clear, easy, altruistic and necessary–to put food on the table and clothes on the children.  It gets a bit more complicated as you get older and those types of motivations are…. well, no longer motivating. Well, they are and they aren’t–we do get weary of survival needs motivating us and we really want to get past it or be more inspired.

Personally, I’ve been re-inspired by the Buddhist teachings called “The Thirty-Seven Practices of a Bodhisattva”–completely.  I’m going to start blogging about those!  Talk about working with one’s faults and evolving–totally!  I can see the potential and benefit for personal spiritual alignment and then sharing the works with others may be helpful; but the motivation is… well, its not the same as other things in my life.

Recently I read a teaching in which the point had to do with doing the work because we all have some sort of function here and do the work for the sake of the work itself—lose the attachment to the idea of its importance or your “standing”  in relation to it.  In other words, get the ego out.

That sort of squares with these concepts of this life being an illusion or dream-reality and those notions do filter-in and merge with the idea what I do and don’t do in daily life on a daily basis.

Of course, I am not talking about doing my psychic reading work here—for that is clearly in alignment with all my personal spiritual ideals regarding compassion and expanded consciousness, etc.  I’m more or less referring to my work in composing an astrology course.

I like the idea of simply ‘going with’ this concept that  “we all have a function here, so function” –but don’t get attached to the importance of your  function and don’t engage in the task thinking that you are going to create some type of particular outcome.  And certainly don’t do it because you are trying to be busy as a bee in order to appear important to others or because it’s another way of escaping from contemplating your life.  See what I mean?

Have you ever been right on the edge with life?  Maybe even had one of those close to (if not outright) near death experiences or perhaps even been very sick for a day or two.  Almost everybody has had that last experience and can relate.  You know how everything in life sort of fades away and you seem to be hanging on by each breath or something?   Or maybe there was a close call in your car in traffic or the airplane you were in caught an air pocket during a rough weather patch and you felt the fall of the plane.  How important is your project or work then, eh?  What is it that ‘really’ matters?

I have been struggling with the right motivation in writing the astrology class.  My beginning purpose was to put something down for my grandson and niece—to explain astrology for the beginner in my own way, writing the steps of importance as they seem clear to me.  Like with the psychic class, the motivation is to write it out in a way that I wish I could have learned it.

I read a blog post from an Internet Buddhist Teacher who wrote out about his work something that I felt about the psychic class that I wrote.  Let’s see, how did he say it?   Here we go.  He wrote:  “There was no internet in those days so if you wanted to get the answer to a question; you had to physically hunt out someone who had the answer.”  He also wrote: “I can’t imagine what it would’ve been like to have a resource like this site when I was starting out. That’s one of the main reasons I decided to do it.”  That’s exactly how I felt about the psychic class when I wrote it.  I remember driving long distances and spending many hours with other psychics in classes on Sunday afternoons and attending (at great expense of money and time) many seminars and classes—simply because those were the only sources available pre-google.

My motivation these days is to do the work (of the astrology class) using the right motivation.  I sat here for a moment trying to remember which book mentioned the attitude and motivation toward work that jumped out at me and sparked something within me.  Which book was that?  Just as if in a dream, a moment ago I got up and walked right to it then flipped a few pages and there it was.  It’s a book  on talks with the famous sage Nisargadatta and the subject was work and previous to that about being dissolved by The Supreme which creates perfect balance in all things which dissolves you and thus reasserts your true being.  When asked how this works in daily life, Nisargadatta said, “The daily life is a life of action.  Whether you like it or not, you must function. “

That last line reminds me of that one theme in the move THE MATRIX.  It was about programs that are written for everything that functions in the matrix—a program even for the birds in the park, a program for everything to function.

Anyway, he goes on after stating that everyone must function.  “Whatever you do for your own sake accumulates and becomes explosive—one day it goes off and plays havoc with you and your world.  When you deceive yourself that you work for the good of all, it makes matters worse, for you should not be guided by your own ideas of what is good for others.  A man who claims to know what is good for others is dangerous.”

On a gut level I really get that last line—it’s a karma thing of course.

So then the question was asked about how a person is supposed to work then.  What’s the right attitude and the right motivation? And his answer was, “Neither for yourself nor for others, but for the work’s own sake.  A thing worth doing is its own purpose and meaning.  Make nothing a means to something else.  Bind not.  The Divine Intelligence (God) does not create one thing to serve another.  Each is made for its own sake.  Because it is made for itself, it does not interfere.”

I’ve been thinking about that and as I struggle with the right motivation for my astrology writing project work, I also came across this this morning in my email from www.tut.com .   I like these short pithy sentence or two’s and sometimes they resonate and sometimes not; however today’s did when factored in with all else.  Here’s what it said:

Judging yourself for what you haven’t yet accomplished, Joy, is like finding fault with a lion because it can’t fly, a bird because it can’t swim, or tree because it can’t leave… well, you know what I mean.

Whop,
The Universe

There’s some peace in that and with my self-coaching about self-acceptance and my underlying and core belief that all things come together in divine timing!

And now let me gather up the right motivation and keep my function in mind and let the work do the work for the work while my fingers do the typing—translation:  back to writing the astrology course letting pure being emerge.

Paranoia or Psychic Perception – Maybe Both

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Contemplation

Paranoia or Psychic Perception – Maybe Both.  Here’s the contemplation…

Alright, I’ll admit.  Today wants to end on a sour note, but I won’t let it!  All was going well until late in the day, my granddaughter came home from school in a snit (she’s only 9 after all, has a head-cold and should probably be given benefit of the doubt) followed momentarily by the downstairs  couple who forgot they weren’t out in the middle of the field in India as they came in from work.  Indoor voices people!  Geesh!  And while reading this stuff might be having the superior, significantly-spiritual type clucking the tongue away and shaking their head, maybe even with a sly smile on their face—let’s not rush to judgment about these things.

Is it my paranoia or true psychic perceptions that cringe when realizing some folks have taken that smile that starts to form at the side of their mouth when they hear these challenges that the mountain yogi me dealing with this daily distraction stuff!  Ha! One person said, “Easy to do it when you’re up in the mountains in seclusion but not so easy NOW, is it?” As if I’m now experiencing life for the very first time!

Wasn’t born yesterday my friends and I’ve been there, done that—after all, I raised three teen-age daughters on my own.

I come back into it now, however, realizing exactly what it all is—as before—but on much deeper levels.  Now I see it as mind being irritated, mind being restless, mind being frustrated (no me) and what a view of it all I have!  Can’t get this kind of stuff in a monastery you know!

For it’s the mind that is irritated—not me!  And I’d have not come this far without my granddaughter and the noisy couple from India.  Never would I have had this kind of ‘in your face’ stuff at these levels and in the perfect timing for me to reach these understandings with it all.  Beautiful actually—just beautiful.

All kinds of things happen—the just do.  Do I necessarily cause them to happen?  Life.  It just happens.  We choose our reaction—the Buddha taught all that jazz.

Oh, I can hear the spiritually significant tongue-clucker now—influenced by all the new age book mumbo-jumbo.  “You attracted your circumstances; it’s your karma!”  Well, partially true if we consider our desire to evolve perhaps; but even if we don’t.  Life unfolds as a matter of circumstances that we simply are privy to witness and we can only change our attitude about it.  (Unless we want to be arrested for assault and battery—a bit of humor.)

What matters is the attitude and not the events—the world is full of desires and fears and pain and suffering and people generally reacting to it all the time.  Today, my granddaughter and more times in the past few months than I can count, my downstairs neighbors are perfect examples.

And me too.  My desire is for quiet and like the Rolling Stones as well as the Buddha have said, “Can’t get no — satisfaction.”  Not from the outer world.

So where is it—it is beyond the world, even beyond the inner world—beyond mind.

Oh, you could say I’ve gone out of my mind and you’d be totally correct on some levels.  I’ve realized that place that is beyond mind and all from humans pushing me there in so many ways so-to-speak.

me comicI’ve also gotten hold of memory—the meaning.  We mistake that we are this group of memories that we have created an ego structure out of.  I’ve given this a good deal of thought since the Indians below me triggered a number of childhood memories and stimulated a fair number of unpleasant dreams, a few out-and-out nightmares.  This causes one to question the nature of memory and dreams; but mostly memory in this case since hold a few and identify ourselves thus creating structure out of those aspects of mind and then say, “This is me; who I am”.

If our memories were our true identity then you’d think we’d remember more than we do—such as what you had for dinner last week or what you did on the 4th of last June.  Unless something memorable, you don’t remember.  What IS memorable, we structure an identity out it and call it “me”.  It’s okay for getting by here but we have to remember it is illusion—and the ego’s reading this are screaming in your heads, “Not me!  I AM REAL.”  That’s okay; I wasn’t always ready for this understanding either.

Maybe it’s all about me getting ready for the inevitable event that we all face someday—death.  It’s going to be easier to let go of this identity structure if we’ve realized all along it wasn’t real in the first place.

Here’s something C said in reply to a question about wanting to live, “To live, to die—what meaningless words are these!  When you see me alive, I’m dead.  When you see me dead, I’m alive.  How muddied up you are!” 

Enough about death—before I loose subscribers!  People don’t like this subject.  About memory, I like this quote:  Use memory, don’t let memory use you!  I should put that one on Facebook.  Anyway, family stuff being triggered is all for the purpose of realizing its memory that I’m overly identified with—it’s all been very good spiritual fodder or grist for the mill as the saying goes.  We need that grist to keep ourselves in true awareness—so tongue-cluckers who think you’ve got it made in the shade because you’ve read all the books and had a few evolutionary experiences and intellectually think you’ve GOT  IT, maybe not so much or there’s always deeper layers and this has been a good one, still is.

The bottom line is we do not need to be set free—we already are.   It is our identification with our body and the structure we created from memory that we over-identify as “me” and our desires that keep us going round and round again, lifetime-to-lifetime, which keeps us from the clarity that we were never born and never die.

All I can say to spiritually significant elite-ist tongue-cluckers is that understanding this intellectually is one thing and living it in the face of human intensity and applying it—well, how deep down the rabbit hole do we go?  With each intense experience, I have deeper realizations that do not come from a book but from my own experience, my own mind but not even there… from a place where I am totally out of my mind.  Hard to describe unless you’ve been there, done that.

I’m grateful when I can be in the right place with it all and when not, I realize I will be—eventually, all in good time.  Patience and perseverance, virtues!

By the way, I am celebrating walking normally this week!  I can wear a regular shoe and barely limp at all; as the illusionary body heals and repairs my broken foot illusion here!  Have a great week dear friends of Light!

(Excuse me now while i light illusionary candles to absorb the illusionary cooking smells from the illusionary neighbors!  laughing as I go… one more desire released… no longer desire to visit India!  See, everything has a great purpose!  ha ha)

Days when you just want to be left alone! Astrological Aspects to your Moon?

Moon Cycle ImageDays like yesterday (today too) are the reasons why I love astrology—well, at least one of the reasons.  Astrology helps us understand our own energy or internal responses to the heavenly alignments.  Is it true that we could look at something like tea leaves and get the same information?–maybe; possibly with a far reach; but not likely.  Of course many of the old-timey astrologers—the purely scientific type—would cringe at the thought of astrology being a divination system. Leaving that whole can of worms aside, this is just a simple post about yesterday.  It will be a quick one at that.

There are certain times when I want to be alone and withdraw and that’s true for everyone I’d imagine.  You know, days in which we don’t want to answer the phone or talk to the random man on the street—and if life forces us to the exchange is not always the most…. Well, let’s leave it at that.  Some days we just want to withdraw and be alone.

Those of us who are tuned into our own energy to a high degree and who desire to remain aware of awareness could, if we didn’t know better, experience confusion on top of those sudden feelings of wanting to be left alone IF we did not see it in the horoscope and know it was cyclical (a better word may be phase-related) and therefore temporary. 

One of my favorite phrases is this one:  “This, too, shall pass” and we can see how, why and when looking at an astrology chart!  Suddenly there is no further confusion.  We can see our response to life on a particular day is related to a lunar transit that happens each month and some months it becomes even more intense if the progressed Moon is involved or if planets are also aspecting (making an astrological aspect to)  the natal Moon.

There’s nothing wrong with feeling like you want to withdraw from the world for a day or two.  The slight impatience that one feels in contact with other humans is a nudge to create space to be alone and to turn more deeply inward at that time.  Perhaps an afternoon of meditation or a solitary walk in nature is what the astrological doctor is ordering.

We can give ourselves full permission to ‘go with it’ knowing full well that in a day or so the feelings of withdrawing from life a bit will pass.  Oh, it’s a joyful thing really!! 

We don’t have to beat ourselves up and waste time wondering things like, “What the heck is wrong with me today?” 

Of course it was that question that turned me toward the direction of my horoscope each month in the first place.  Through observation and correlation, I noticed this pattern—when the Moon transits through Cancer and then within hours through my 12th House Stellium (3 planets in the 12th), it triggers that withdrawal response to humans in such a way that that the energy in my psyche…

 …well, it is as if my soul is calling me to a private monthly meeting (no other human allowed) where each planet reports in and the minutes of the last meeting are read.

Currently, I’m also generally experiencing a Progressed Moon opposition to my Natal Pluto—go figure!  And at the same time that my soul is calling me to go inward, the needs of my family members are tugging me outward and I’ve just described the opposition aspect there. 

Well, this is only one of the many reasons why I love astrology—at least one of the reasons why.   It helps with self-understanding—

and it’s as if the Divine Intelligence has given us all our very own inner-shrink! 

By the way, also at this same time the Moon Phase is waning cresent phase, 4% lit… near the “dark of the Moon”–another indication of withdrawal.

Anyway, I could go on and on but it’s all I have time for today….   may all of your Moon’s be happy ones!

 

 

 

Day #28 Substituting Hope and Trust When Any Fear Emotions Bubble Up – What I Was Doing when Venus Transited the Sun

Alright!  We’ve landed on Day #28.  Something really big is going to happen (if all goes as planned–and it will~!) on Day #37.  So there’s 9 more days to go and its a bit difficult to be patient now.  That’s probably my own fault for being too much of an overachiever which really stems from fear-ish like paranoia that goes this way:  Hurry and don’t put things off in case at the last-minute something happens and you run out of time or some other type of energy!  

I was that way in college too–always had my assignments done and ready to hand in ahead of time.  And then when the professor gave time extensions because others weren’t ready, the temptation to be righteous about it was hard to resist.  Anyway, better to be early rather than late–ask my family; I’d always get to the plane or train hours early.  Hurry up and wait–that’s me.  You too?  Well that’s just how some of us are wired; embrace the neurosis.  As phobias go, there are worse ones to have I suppose.

Yet, I am still feeling a bit of that feeling from Day #22… you know, the protective roof being removed yet do see the prediction from a week ago about quick and steady progress has indeed been manifesting!  This past weekend my daughter and I worked harmoniously together to the tune of gearing up the final stages of things–she was a great help to me. 

I am finding that I am letting go of a way of life that I’ve held for 9 years on one level and about 14 years on another and it totally feels like a new phase, a new chapter–the page has been turned!  I am saying goodbye to the old and piecing together in my mind what the new will be like and how I will use my time in new ways.  I think it’s good that these final 9 days are ones in which I can gradually slow down, look around and inventory the whole affair. 

It is strange in a way because what I am doing is something that I never thought I’d do–ever really, ever!  And that is because I thought that if I did make this change and agree to the committment that it would feel terribly sad–NOT!  And that NOT really does mystify me sometimes.  It just shows me that when the time is right and the stars are in alignment (and mine ARE; but I’ll spare you the details but to say my natal lunar nodes in the 4 and 10 astro houses are merging with the transiting nodes this year and my 4th house Jupiter in Scorpio is opposing transiting Jupiter from the 10th.  Let’s not even talk about my progressed Sun just moved into my 5th House!) 

That parenthesis above mean nothing to do if you don’t know astrology and I apologize since I did not spare you the details.  Yeah, so anyway… 9 more days and an old part of my life goes bye-bye and a brand new adventure begins! 

I’m getting some hints about what’s coming–people are asking me to teach astrology and I’ve been thinking about it all at the same time.  It’s only Wednesday and already 4 people have asked me about teaching an astrology class.  I hesitate thinking I don’t know enough, but then  again I do know a bit more than a brand-new beginner would and those types would be my target students I suppose. 

I intend to teach an in-person local psychic development class–and now I am mental-izing how to follow through with these ideas.  I’d love to interact in person with students–the Internet class is fine but I’m open to expanding that and these are ideas ruminating in the mind right now.  We’ll see how it goes but this is how my psyche and spirit work it seems–people start asking me to do what I’ve been thinking of doing and so that becomes like the validating push.  Does it work that way for you too?

Right–so anyway after having recovered from some physical fatigue and spent short segments of time staring at the ceiling over the past weekend it was like two steps forward and one step back.  I seem to have to integrate it during a rest phase and then get back at it again as I work toward Day #37. 

At the start of this sudden project and  committment toward a major change, I didn’t know if it would take 30 days or 60.  Things have been moving quickly as I’ve said all along.  Any periodic apprehension is being handled by me through intense devotional prayer work to which I find that something happens shortly after to soothe any of that by giving some supportive validation–something encouraging happens to smooth over any worry wrinkles.  Bad for the complexion as well as the soul–those are!

VENUS crosses the SUNNot much more to report about it all but to say when Venus was doing her transit over the Sun which started from 6 pm EDT  last night I happened to be dealing with my check book, bank balances, bill payments and the like!  Didn’t think of that until today but Venus does rule the 2nd house which is often associated with “money”.  I don’t know what conclusion to draw from that really.  So what!  Right?  Yet as Venus came between the Sun and Earth we all must have received some sort of energy programming or the like.  Since my mind was, at that time, on $money$ issues, perhaps I was receptive to some positive programming from Venus energy as it relates to my essence, which for all of us is our Sun.  I do recall lecturing to myself as I began the task of looking at the money situation.  I told my self that I will not become in any way upset about money as I worked on the task!  And I meant it!  And I didn’t!

With my progressed Sun moving into the 5th house related to “children”, my relationship with my own daughters is strengthening and this grow more so each day.  Perhaps the Venus-Sun transit will help to continue to renew those loving relationships in the days ahead.

I’ve a client calling for a session and a busy afternoon ahead… I am asking to remain busy over the next 9 days so that I can forget the time to experience it quickly!

Meanwhile, each day I find that I am substituting any experiences of fear as they come up in the emotional body with trust and hope.  It becomes easier to do so despite anything else that should appear, regardless of what it is. 

Onward and upward as they say!

 
When you consciously embrace an experience of fear while shifting your vibration into trust or hope, you evolve! expand! enlighten! You GO!