Meditation Haiku Poem Present Moment Practice

I’ve been watching an HBO show that’s been on AMAZON PRIME.  I view it on my TV set using my ROKU device.  It’s called IN TREATMENT.  In the moment of a recent episode, the shrink asked the young man, “What are you thinking?”  The youth replied, “White noise”.

I had to laugh at that one.  The laughter of recognition I suppose.  My own mind registered that.  Not thinking anything really.  Yet not being mindful either.  I ‘m most aware of that white noise when the decision is made to write.  Like now.  It’s a rain filled, raw, cold day here in North Carolina.  Write, I said.

All levels of me self-agreed to write something.  A blog.  Here I am.  What have I got? White noise just like the kid on the program.

Lately, I’ve thought to try my hand at writing short little Japanese Mindfulness Poems called Haiku which are Japanese poem of seventeen syllables, in three lines of five, seven, and five, traditionally evoking images of the natural world.  Cutting written language, relatable to anyone and maybe paradoxical in some way.

Sounds easy.  Not so much.  You’d think the white noise would help but the instant that pressure is felt to come up with even one word, the mind is suddenly filled with nonsense and resistance. No no, not always, listen . . .

I really like the idea of clipping out a moment that is a pure now moment – a reflection of whatever catches the attention of the psyche.

The other day I sat down on the sidewalk in front of my apartment to experience a moment or two of sunshine.  Looking down at the ground before me, there is one pear tree flower all by itself in the dirt–alone and separated from the tree and other flowers on the branch from which it blossomed.

What struck me is that even though it was alone there, its center filaments seemed to still be reaching up toward the sun, the light.

Spring flower in dirt

Alone, apart from its branch, tree

Looks up to the light

My Haiku poem.  Is it legit?  Well, I guess they’re not really required to rhyme to qualify.  Here are a few from one of the supposed greatest Haiku Poets, Basho:

An old silent pond…
A frog jumps into the pond,
splash! Silence again.

Autumn moonlight—
a worm digs silently
into the chestnut.

In the twilight rain
these brilliant-hued hibiscus –
A lovely sunset.

The translations from Japanese to English do not follow the 5, 7, 5 syllable rule.   Anyway, none of those rhyme but they do describe the moment in time, a now.  Seems a good use of spare time to use Haiku poem writing endeavors to help a person remain aware of their now, mindfulness.  I guess you know what I mean, reader, right?

The small flower all alone there just seemed to say to me, “Look, I know that I no longer am connected to the life force upon the earth that sustained me (the tree) and I’m aware that I will soon just become the earth itself, whithering away here.  And I know my family of flowers on the branch above me–they are all looking down upon me aware of my fate, but I can still be nourished by the light, the sun.  The filaments, the anther, the stamen of me are still reaching up to the light even in my death here and in my departure, the ground here before you where I lay is bringing you some joy and beauty before I disappear completely. ” Looking at the singular flower was my meditation.

After writing those last words my head turned toward the window where I see the tree with all their beautiful white blossoms knowing that soon they will all fall upon the ground as the green leaves push them off their branches.  They too will end up in the dirt and on the sidewalk.  But they will return next spring to do it all again.  There is no death, only transition into yet another phase.





A well’a bless my soul
What’sa wrong with me?
I’m itchin’ like a man in a fuzzy tree
My friends say I’m actin’ wild as a bug
I hadda’ MRI
I’m all shook up!

Well, please don’t ask me what’sa on my mind
I’m a little mixed up, but I’m feelin’ fine

I hadda’ MRI
I’m all shook up!

(If you have been around a while, like me, you are familiar with those song lyrics!)

OH, DON’T GET ME WRONG; THERE ARE REAL ADVANTAGES AND I WANTED THE MRI PERFORMED.  This post is about something personal–fair warning.  But if you are sensitive to energy and to your own body, and if you need an MRI, maybe something here will be, in a small way, useful.

I hadn’t really considered any side effects of an MRI.  They are minimal in the grand scheme of things, I suppose; yet, consider the subject to be worthy of a write-up.   So, here goes . . .

It wasn’t until later in the day (yesterday)  when alone that . . .  well, that the “out of sorts” feeling was clear.  It was evident that something was energetically wrong and of course, I knew why.  The MRI naturally.

It was subtle, but I am sensitive, a psychic.   My own body’s natural electromagnetic field, especially in the area of my neck and brain (cervical scan) were rocked and rolled yesterday–and shook every which way but lose.

Which is, apparently, the method behind the MRI madness in the first place… the body’s own magnetic energy field gets confused and sends out a signal of some-such that the MRI machine picks up the confused atoms as images. I think something close to that goes on anyway.

Here’s a Google blurb about the science behind what happens:

How does an MRI scan work?
The MRI machine is a large, cylindrical (tube-shaped) machine that creates a strong magnetic field around the patient. The magnetic field, along with radio waves, alters the hydrogen atoms’ natural alignment in the body. Pulses of radio waves sent from a scanner knock the nuclei in your atoms out of their normal position. As the nuclei realign back into proper position, the nuclei send out radio signals. These signals are received by a computer that analyzes and converts them into a two-dimensional (2D) image of the body structure or organ being examined.

All I know is that last evening after the scan… there was the re-living the whole MRI, banging sounds included. Like someone who re-lives a trauma–like an auto accident or a similar disturbing event.  I was surprised by the flashbacks of the whole thing; truly.  After a bit of momentary disorientation on the table just after coming out, then I thought, “Okay, Done deal.  It’s over.  Moving right along with my life now….”   

Yet, the residual feeling experienced as the day wore on was one that would be expected if someone had grabbed me by the shoulders and shook the heck outa’ me.  I distracted myself with TV and then reading.  I had some trouble pulling my energy together for any kind of quality meditation and felt too wiped out to do any yoga.

I found myself snacking late into the night in a misguided way to restore order. That’s my old pattern!   The first sign of a problem, find something to eat.  Fell right into that one.

This morning I still feel somewhat shaken–similar to the feeling of when first set free from the MRI coffin-like machine.  Oh, was I glad to be let out of there!

Alright. Facts.  My body has been bending, lifting, turning and twisting for 70 years now.  Nothing lasts forever.  Impermanence:  a fact of life.  Degeneration of the cervical spine can cause radiating pain, numbness, weakness in shoulders, arm, and hand –my symptoms exactly.   Nothing lasts forever, especially the human body. Decades of bending, lifting, turning, and twisting can really take their toll on your neck and in my case cause radiating numbness in shoulders, arm and hand… mostly at night when sleeping, go figure.

How about the MRI’s benefits?  Well,  I got to see the photo images which were given to me on a CD before leaving the hospital outpatient facility.  Uploaded it to my computer to view when I got home and with my minimally medically trained eyes, do see some degeneration of the vertebrae and some disc herniating toward the spinal cord.  Yet, just what the radiologist will make of the images and what the recommendation, if any, will be handed out,  is unclear to me still at this time.   My general intuitive impression is not much can be done and maybe a cervical pillow and new mattress could help too as the symptoms show up when sleeping.

Nighttime numbness (and a bit of pain) increases just as the upper body strength training that I’ve been doing increases the strength in the shoulders and arms.  It’s a rock and hard place kind of scenario.

All in all, feeling shook up for a little while (this too shall pass)  is probably a small price to pay in order to know a few things about my body.  Speaking of shook up, what brought this all to a head (pun intended) was a recent freakish wind event that caused an object to hit me on the side of the head.  Resulting vertigo (another blast from the past so-to-speak) which could have come from an inner ear issue.  Or from something in the neck which is what I hope the MRI will clarify.  Oh, what a tangled web!

My greatest celebratory moments today will be knowing that I can swallow as much as desired.   THAT was difficult to NOT DO except between each of the long scans of the MRI.  Really?  Yeah, the guy said, don’t breathe too deeply.  Okay, got that, no problem.  Then said, don’t swallow until you hear the MRI banging stop.  Huh? Crazy! I did my best.

No more MRI magnet banging issues and go ahead… swallow anytime and all you want, Joy!

Those last words… my happy thoughts for today.

PS  —  My habit is to write things out of my system.  Blogs are so useful for that purpose.  This post has been therapy in that way.  I also wrote it for others who may feel a bit weird after an MRI to know they’re not alone.  I did have those side effects from my MRI and if I did, others who are tuned into their body and vibes, in general, are likely to as well.

Pallas Athena in Astrology – A Personal Exploration

Pallas Athene – The Warrior Queen

The Goddess Pallas?  Where is she in your birth chart? Where is she transiting currently for you?  I’ve written about CERES and one post about the group of Pallas/Athena, Juno, and Vesta.  Now that I’ve taken a deeper look at CERES in a singular post, the goal is to do the same with Pallas and then Juno as well, as time permits anyway.

Disclaimer:  Probably, it should be mentioned that I suffered a significant blow to my head in a freak event involving wind.  And while it may be wishful thinking that I’m no worse for the wear, this post writing is being used as a distraction from a headache.  Bottom line:  I hope this will make sense to the reader, despite some type of concussion being part of it all.

Pallas Glyph representing a spear

Now.  That said.  One thing here is that Pallas rules Aquarius—or so the greater astrological minds tell us.  My own natal Pallas is located in the sign Aquarius— making my Pallas, that particular part of my psyche, strong for that reason.  She is known to be the protectress and thus the glyph is shaped like a spear. She is said to represent the polarities of courage and its opposite, fear.

In addition to ruling Aquarius (air), she rules Leo (fire)—so she brings together creativity (Leo/fire) and mental qualities (Libra and Aquarius/Air).

She is thought to be the Goddess of Wisdom and Justice in addition to the previously mentioned Protectress.

Rounding out the generalities about Pallas, she is often pictured with an owl and spear as well as shield.

The myth involving Jupiter is that she was born from his head which infuses her with the male/warrior vibe along with the wisdom that she is known for.

Our style of perception and intelligence level can be described in our horoscope by the state of Pallas in our chart; well, at least so sayeth the elder astrological soothsayers.

Inspired vision, intuition, curiosity, genius and exceptional perception and the capacities for same are also to be determined by the state of one’s Pallas in their chart.

Challenges to perception can be determined by so-called stressful aspects to Pallas.  Yet, visualization ability and the capacity to perceive in wholes (seeing whole patterns) and to coordinate informational systems is indicated by aspects to Pallas.


Here comes a personal piece:  My Jupiter (4th house in Scorpio) is square to my Pallas which brings in the right brain/intuition qualities of Jupiter with Pallas and that is what (I believe) helps me in my study of astrology and with my intuitive ability.  Correlating and blending many bits of information to determine the larger picture is especially helpful in seeing the patterns in an astrological chart and in any psychic work.  Pallas/Jupiter aspects are known for blending and correlating information. Therefore, I appreciate my Pallas/Jupiter square especially because of that and also that aspect and the energy in our psyche known as Pallas is understood to govern healing techniques (including self-healing), visualization, meditation, mind control, hypnosis and the like.

Personally, again, my 7th House Pallas is trine Venus (in Libra/3rd) and Pallas is trine Uranus (Retro in Gemini/11th).  Also, Pallas is opposing Saturn (in Leo) in my natal chart.

The elder astrologers tell us that in the mythology of Pallas, she operated as a “woman in a man’s word”, being accepted as a colleague or equal in the world of men.  My own natal Pallas Saturn opposition, I believe, touches on that theme based on my life experiences.

Pallas in Aquarius (such as mine) represents futuristic perceptions and also carries an indication of the revolutionary quality to the psyche.  In this 7th house of (the other/s), it indicates that the soul/psyche of the individual (myself in this example) possesses strong meditating and counseling abilities – or so it says in the books that astrologers have written about Pallas.  This fits, of course, with me in that this is the work that I do and meditation is a strong focus in my life.  I could add that the Saturn opposition to Pallas from the 12th house brings the spiritual (12th house ruled by Neptune) quality into the work that I do—Saturn rules work/career/cosmic job in one’s birth chart. Again, I think of the aspect of opposition as a blending energy rather than the more negative qualities associated with that aspect.

My own Pallas trine Venus aspect seems an important one as Venus is culminating at the 29° degree of Libra in my natal chart,  signaling the culmination of that Venus energy in some way.  The Energy is fully developed in other words—or so the wiser astrologers tell us anyway.  Venus here is in the 3rd house so here we would have to include the 3rd house communication piece in the interpretation.  And as Venus easily works with (trine) Pallas, here we have again harmonious (Venus) communication of a counseling (7th house) nature.  It all fits with the work that I do and I am finding this exploration very validating of my life.

I mentioned earlier about Pallas square Jupiter in my chart.  Jupiter symbolizes the search for truth and meaning.  The square here brings up in my own life the red flag of being ethical and remaining in integrity  (truthful) with my work.  I am highly aware that it is, in some cases, too easy to take advantage of people when doing readings and my inner Pallas/Jupiter energy signals me very strongly to remain ethical in my work.

Pallas is trine to Uranus in my chart, which was also mentioned earlier—another harmonious aspect (trine).  So here we are talking about levels of mind when we talk about Uranus.  My Uranus is especially strong as it is located in my 11th house—the house that it rules, making it significant there.  Uranus is retrograde which makes this part of my psyche finely tuned inwardly.  Telepathic and intuitive abilities are a significant part of this Pallas-Uranus aspect.  As a Uranus trine Pallas aspect with the understanding that Uranus has a strong connection with astrology (per the teachers of the subject), my ability to counsel (7th house Pallas) others and befriend all types of people, creatively assist others using higher channels of intuition as well as astrological counseling . . .  well, this aspect is another that seems to be right on and fit my life experiences perfectly.

I really love astrology for its ability to validate not only my life but the life of my clients.  It’s true that some of the aspects can play out in various ways but when doing astrology, one must always anchor into the natal north and south nodes and their aspects while doing an interpretation.

In my natal chart, Pallas squares the natal nodes at a 4° orb, indicating that this energy has played out in my past lifetimes (South Node) or at least has been pre-wired in my psyche and is meant to be playing out in this current lifetime (North Node).  These nodes are in my 4th  (SN) and 10th (NN) houses, indicating that Pallas is destined to play a role in my cosmic job or career or at the very least in the public eye in some way as the NN / 10th house in Taurus indicates.


Currently, at the time of this writing February 4, 2016,  Pallas is transiting my 9th house with Pallas in Taurus (interestingly enough Pallas conjuncts my natal Goddess Ceres).  My own take on that combination as far as interp or meaning is as follows:  teaching (9th house archetype) about Pallas and the other asteroid goddesses is indicated.  This transit is a pretty clear indication that Pallas wants me to learn and teach about her as part of my North Node Taurus evolutionary goal for this time period (while Pallas is transiting my 9th house merging with her Goddess sister, Ceres who is/was there at that degree at the time of birth).  The Asteroid Goddesses seem very alive in my soul/psyche at this time in my life.

In conclusion, here are just some other general tidbits and key phrases about the Archetype of Pallas:

  • Goddess of Wisdom
  • Goddess of War and Victory
  • Invincible in Battle
  • Is credited for using her wisdom to teach the populace how to settle disputes peacefully
  • Is often depicted as being clad in armor
  • Is often shown in artistry as accompanied by an owl
  • Patroness of the Arts
  • Goddess of health and healing
  • Possessed the gift of prophecy

I hope the reader will not find this post off-setting or confusing to read as, again,  it was written on a physically challenging day following a head concussion. 

It is my wish that the reader will find something validating and useful here.  In adddition, here is that recently written post about Ceres that I mentioned at the start of this blog:  CLICK HERE .

Goddess Ceres in Astrology – A Personal Exploration

Originally known as the Goddess of Agriculture; thus the wheat in her arms and the harvesting sickle astrological symbol

Both men and women have a fathering function symbolized by Saturn.  The Moon symbolizes the maternal function, as well as Ceres.  The asteroid centers in my psyche are perhaps newly energized or activated in that I’ve been thinking (and writing) about the goddesses Juno, Pallas and Vesta.  Today, I am turning toward Ceres so see what I can learn about this energy as it applies to my life and to incorporate some knowledge.  That, then, is the point or focus of this post today.  Ceres.

Here’s one archetype of Ceres (AKA Demetris drawn from the mythology of Persephone, her missing daughter take by Pluto). Parent-child complexes are associated with Ceres.  C.G. Jung wrote, “Every mother contains her daughter in herself and every daughter her mother; every woman extends backward into her mother and forward into her daughter.”  On a practical level, in a horoscope, the location of Ceres points to information about the mothering function especially with regard to issues of attachment and freedom.

According to mythology, Ceres was unwilling to allow Persephone to have freedom of choice and it is said that Persephone was overly attached to her mother.  Therefore, natural as well as un-natural nurturing are archetypes of Ceres.  The House and Sign of Ceres in a natal chart can indicate how we feel about nurturing and maybe even how we nurture ourselves.

As with all planets in a chart, aspects to those points modify them a great deal; therefore in a chart, one must look to the connections Ceres is making to other parts of the psyche.

I’m going to look at my own Ceres in my birth chart now to see what I can determine in my effort to expand this center in my consciousness.  My Ceres is in my 9th house, in Taurus, retrograde squaring Mars and Pluto and opposing Venus and Mercury.  That’s a mouthful.

Ceres-Pluto aspects relate to the comings and goings and sharing of children.  That makes sense in correlation to mythology since Pluto abducted Cere’s daughter Persephone.  My life has included a divorce and the sharing of our three daughters—I can see how that particular aspect would fit me personally.

Ceres, in my natal chart, (9th house/Taurus) carries the signature of nurturing through the Earth (nature) and the physical body (in my case, exercise).  Taurus is a sign that relates to (Taurus rules 2nd house) of self-worth and self-reliance; therefore, when I provide materially and physically for myself, a high degree of self-acceptance is my reward. As a side piece to this, Aries is on the cusp of my 9th house and Ceres squares it’s ruler Mars which adds that physical exercise piece – the more aggressive the exercise, the more I like it.  These are qualities (via aspects, house, and sign) that modify the meaning of my natal Ceres.  Much more could be said but that’s what jumps out at this moment.

The Mar/Aries piece of it relates to feeling free and independent feeds my psyche in a positive way and Ceres is expressing that in my chart.

Ceres, Asteroid in space – As above, so below

The 9th house, where my natal Ceres is located, relates not only to freedom but the pursuit of knowledge and truth.  The deep feeling of accuracy there is also expansive—it is so very true that study of philosophy and spiritual truths are like a divine mother nurturing me!

Now my intention is to address the oppositions to Ceres from Venus and Mercury in my natal chart.  These are oppositional, of course naturally are located in my 3rd house of communication.  (For new astrologers, we come to this as 3 opposes 9 in the house system).

Mercury rules the 3rd house and is therefore strong here.  (Mercury is in Scorpio and Venus is at 29° Libra).  Just a bottom line interpretation here includes this: the nurturing of others through communication that is harmonious while also ‘soul-deep’.  This is my work, my profession as a psychic.  And it is how (I hope) that I nurture others and when being paid for my services expands the possibility of being able to be self-reliant via being nurtured in return).

Just as a final note about the opposition aspect energy:   I see the opposition aspect as energy that merges with one another rather than pulling apart or opposing in a negative way.  That’s how I’d like to see the energy that is an opposition aspect in a chart and often attend to the more positive slant on life in other ways, too, when possible.

Just a mini-vent here.  In astrology  (and what gives it a label of inaccuracy at times) is when one attempts to single out one planet in one sign in one house and make a single determination of meaning.  One must take in the entire chart as a whole into consideration,  otherwise, it can be so very misleading and confusing. –End Vent

This is much more than was intended to write on Ceres today. I have a client in a few moments and must end this now.

I hope if you have an interest in the Goddess Ceres, that this post was in some way helpful to you.

Here’s a link to another of my blog posts about PALLAS, JUNO, and VESTA that was posted on another site if you are interested in reading about those asteroids too.

Present Moment Proof – how you know you are there

on the edge

Energy.  That’s right.  You’ll know from the energy feel.  It’s the feel of being alive, vibrating, and we may even say its a feeling of excitement.  Life is taken to a higher level and sometimes only momentarily, longer if you’re lucky.  To understand it, we have to contrast it with the times that we are ‘not’ fully present in the moment.  And that is, for most of us, the majority of the time.  Anytime we are contemplating the past or future — try it out for yourself through simple self-awareness — the energy is dead or flat.  You’ll recognize that dead feel pretty dramatically as you compare it with moments of being fully present.  You know how it goes when you’re being fully in the “now”, right?

Time stops and a surreal feeling will likely come upon you as if you have been lifted up and out and set down somewhere else all of a sudden.  Everything feels different and appears different and maybe the heart quickens and chills happen.  And then you flow with it as if nothing else or no one else exists. 

We’ve all had those feelings.

And there are after effects. I think that it’s feeling in harmony and being in the flow of life that is an indicator that we have just been fully present and the residual of that remains with us and out-pictures as flowing with life for minutes, hours or day (s).

Then, we get shifted out of that flow by something that occurs and then our mind will attach, cling, fear, become angry or experience an aversion.  Then we’re dead in the water again or not functioning effectively,  have been pulled out of the flow and our vibe becomes dead again.  We’re not fully alive anymore.

These are my (blog) thoughts about it anyway.  I was recently reminded of this during a recent visit from my little (soon to be 2-year-old) granddaughter.  The entire time we were together was a peak experience.  She was fully present and brought me with her to that place of excitement.

I’m in that peak place during intense exercise workouts in which I am very focused as well as when I’m engaged in a creative project.  Moments of awakening that shake us out of our mundane, dead, and routine thoughts or activities, if used correctly, are gifts.

Being on the edge of life is being in the present moment and it comes with that feeling of being fully alive.

Personally,  at those times my soul, my psyche goes into a state, which in Zazen, is called shikantaza, a state of heightened concentration, patience, and alertness and this state throws me into a state of flow that lasts for hours or days.  Plans change or don’t enter into mind at all and one just becomes totally spontaneous.  In describing this recently someone replied, “Oh yes, if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”  Yeah, alrighty then.  LOL

I hope this post is found to be, in some way, helpful to the reader.

Winter Solstice December 21, 2017 REFLECTIONS and MEDITATION

‘I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being.’

 –Hafiz, Sufi Poet

Light can enter one’s life through working with difficulty but this newsletter isn’t a downer; hopefully, it’s just the opposite. And the intention, as always, is to inspire, inform and involve engagement with Spirit. I wanted to start with this:  One often hears quoted, it is the crack (or break) of the heart through which the light enters.

To sit with the difficulty without causing suffering to self or to others is to honor the dark and the light in one’s life.

These seem to me to be good meditative contemplations for the shortest day and longest night.  I wanted to write about it today as we enter what I like to call “the great stopping of momentum, the great balance of light and dark–the great silence, the big quiet.”

 Sitting with the difficulties of life, even the difficulties of daily meditation can open us to more light entering our consciousness so that we can benefit ourselves, others and the world.  Let me explain what I mean.

I’m talking about not turning away but rather really bearing the pain, whether physical, emotional, mental or spiritual, without creating further pain for self or another in any way.   Not running from it, suppressing it or becoming angry or frustrated with darkness.  That’s an example of balancing the light and dark in one’s life.  We can be reminded of this type of yin-yang balance during the time of the Winter Solstice.

It isn’t easy to really be with troubles without adding more suffering.  In The Arrow Sutra, the Buddha teaches about how we embellish the pain or difficulty (shooting the second arrow), instead of observing what is actually present:  which is the arising and passing of feelings. So instead of turning away from emotions, turn towards them and watch them pass just the way they have arisen.  In this way, we allow the light of awareness to enter and wisdom to arise.

Practice in Meditation

A simple meditation today, the Winter Solstice, can help us work with balancing light and dark/ease and difficulty.  Here’s what I mean.  Sometimes, we resist emotions or thoughts or discomfort in the body or sleepiness or restlessness during meditation and in doing so, we shoot a second arrow, so-to-speak, and create a story around even these simple experiences in meditation.

OR we may come to the sitting with already-formed goals, intentions or ideas about how the meditation time is going to be experienced.  “I am going to be in a bliss state the whole time, or go floating into the heaven of the cosmos.”  When in actuality, we may feel sleepy, restless or have thoughts of regret or other emotional difficulties arise.

Meditation is a practice for life.  And life is full of darkness as well as light– full of difficulties as well as it’s opposite, freedom,  peace/ease.  Think of yin-yang.

Our world needs people who can stand in the fire or tolerate the difficulty, keep a cool head, not over-react, deal with harsh and hard situations with clarity and wisdom.  Meditation practice trains us to do this. 

The ideal

We don’t quit or run or try to escape –nor do we control or intend any type of outcome when we meditate.  We may have an intention for our meditation practice which is alright but many times if we just allow, and experience, observe, see the mind working while being interested yet not being too controlling, too tense nor too relaxed but  just allowing ourselves to move through the states without judging ourselves as “bad meditators” and without becoming frustrated … if we can uphold these ideals, I think  we can develop the ability to balance the light and dark in our lives too.   Yeah, I know this is an awkwardly phrased paragraph, but you know what I mean, right?

The Winter Solstice is a reminder of all of this . . .

  • of how the depth of our being which is radiant clear light can open up through staying with difficulties
  • of how our core mind, the primal mind, is radiant and clear in nature
  • of how just like the Tibetan Buddhist tradition speaks, a self-existing lamp of wisdom exists within each of us
  •  of how through the difficulties and darkness of life, we are able to access this kind of light or presence
  • of  how we go into the dark in order to be able to see the light
  • of how we are with the difficult in order that we may be able to have more ease

If in meditation we can embrace the unknowing or just allow rather than always trying to control – the unknowing will open up to knowing. Being with the difficult or darkness opens us to light as well as being regenerative and enabling wisdom.

Here is some poetry that expresses these ideas . . . 

“Some nights stay up till dawn,
as the moon sometimes does for the sun.
Be a full bucket pulled up the dark way
of a well, then lifted out into light.”
Three times my life has opened.
Once, into darkness and rain.
Once, into what the body carries at all times within it and
starts to remember each time it enters the act of love.
Once, into the fire that holds all.
These three were not different.
You will recognize what I am saying or you will not.
But outside my window all day a maple has stepped
from her leaves like a woman in love with winter, dropping
the colored silks.

Neither are we different in what we know.
There is a door. It opens. Then it is closed. But a slip of
light stays, like a scrap of unreadable paper left on the floor,
or the one red leaf the snow releases in March.
–Jane Hirshfield

If each day falls
Inside each night,
There exists a well
Where clarity is imprisoned.
We need to sit on the rim
Of the well of darkness
And fish for fallen light
With patience.
–Pablo Neruda

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Psychic in Social Situations

Weight Lifting Class

This post is about a quick flash of a psychic insight that occurred in the midst of a social situation just yesterday at the gym.  It’s been a while since I’ve blogged obviously. Keep berating myself –must be more consistent with blogging.  Feeling like there’s nothing to say and ducking back into my hermit cave is no excuse.  So here’s something.

Hmmmm.  Where to begin?  Well, you know how some people seem to put on airs, right?   That phrase is used when people act as if they are from a higher class in society.  There is a lady that fits this description at the gym.  She’s a swimmer and when I, too, was swimming laps we met in the swim lanes and the locker room.

I stopped swimming due to the air quality of the indoor pool and our paths had not crossed for over a year but there she was yesterday waiting for a weightlifting class that I, too, planned to attend.  She was discoursing quite authoritatively on the negative aspects of the class–this class that I love!   How could she speak with such a demeanor when she’d not frequented any of the classes?  

She began to gather listeners and explain how these new classes were of a lesser quality than the ‘old’ classes, asserting some kind of seniority as the expert witness.

Most of the others, including myself, began to scoff since the new strength training/weight lifting class is highly popular.  Every class is nearly full!  This woman was beginning to make a fool of herself.

Why? Why was she putting on those airs with a ‘sour-grapes’ kind of attitude’?

I could see it clearly the moment my irritation released and compassion substituted.  She was nervous about taking the class for the first time and this was her way of making herself feel comfortable enough to be there.

I glanced in her direction several times during the hour-long session.  She positioned herself in the back of the room but through the mirrors, it was obvious that she was struggling and not keeping up very well.

Compassion is a good platform for psychic insight.

Resolving Mental Corruptions

mentalMistakes.  Learning opportunities — that’s  what they are.  Negative karmic behaviors sometimes cause us to dump the toxic spills of our own minds onto others–loved ones, friends, etc., and we create oil slicks.  If we allow our emotional fires to run rampant, it causes destruction.  Compassion and forgiveness put out the fire and is what begins the cleanup and restoration in the emotional aftermath.

Yet, sometimes our own mental corruption is deeply ingrained.  Healing deep imprints of karmic, habitual behaviors can be a challenge.  It can feel like uprooting one’s very identity!

It is wise to recall that this identity is ego itself.

Lately, I’ve become more aware than ever before of where my energy is focused and what exactly is a good use of that emphasis and why.  I have a few thoughts to share about that.

Energy, of course,  is better spent on tending to our own gardens and enjoying our own flowers.

Smelling the roses is more worthy an endeavor, even if garbage dumps are around *and there always will be to some extent*.  Enjoy the accomplishments of what you have grown and how you are progressing down life’s path–thus speaks my inner guidance.

Meanwhile, compassion and forgiveness make the best traveling companions.