Angry? Fearful? Disappointed? Dont’ worry: things are not as they appear to our ego-based delusion

July 18 2014 shadow clouds in the mountains

Holy smoke!  Ego’s get rabidly angry when they hear that life is an illusion and that they are too.  My gosh, how folks fight for their ego’s identity; it never fails to amaze me.  Just try mentioning to another human that there is no self and just watch the resistance and anger that manifests.  This is the same reason people fear death.  Self-cherishing!

Okay then.  Let’s say that life is not actually a dream, and not an illusion, and not a bubble; HOWEVER, life is LIKE a dream, an illusion, a bubble.  Things are not as they appear to us in our ego-based delusion. For instance, an object like a table is just made up of protons and neutrons. A physicist would tell us that a table is basically just empty energy. But, of course, if someone threw a table at you (let’s just say), it would hurt (*mostly because we believe it would.) Ultimately it is empty, but on a relative level it appears as solid and our memories will make it feel solid. Those who can, as we have read about, walk through walls do so because they know the truth of reality. Ultimately what we see is an illusion (like the reflection of the moon in the water or a reflection in a mirror) and this illusion is presented by our various senses and the memories associated with those senses over eons of lifetimes which create the reality as we now experience it. The point is that things re not what they seem to be.  In meditation one can experience the direct realization of this truth (intellectually knowing doesn’t do it)  and this experience of direct realization in meditation  is truly trans-form-ative!

The world, including ourselves, are like a dream, a rainbow, a bubble, a flash of lightening–ungraspable and in an impermanent contestant flux.  Life may look substantially solid and (‘Lordie knows’, as the saying goes) how the gods and angels above might laugh at all the crazy tactics and dramas that we monkey’s create as we try to make ourselves righteous and indignant in our self-cherishing attempt to create a solid identity.  It’s laughable really.

Shadows.  Rainbows.  Let’s take a rainbow for an example.  It is created by conditions, by rain and Sun and by many other causes, but when we try to find it, we cannot.  Just the same way, in a dream everything seems so real but the dream doesn’t have any core reality that exists outside of our very own mind.  A bubble seems real but prick it and it is just empty air.  Life itself is this way.

“May I see all things as illusions and, without attachment, gain freedom from bondage.” — that’s the ending of the Eight Verses of Mind Training.

What kind of bondage?  Ego bondage.

Duality and Oneness are so misunderstood.  Self and other:  this duality.  And we watch how we and others create causes and conditions which create self-cherishing responses to life which create more and more separation and ego-based delusion.  People will say things like “I must protect myself from this or that”  or “I must do certain things that make me feel good”–all of which emphasizes and reinforces the sense of self, the sense of ego.

Putting self last and other’s first is a way to break the spell of ego-based delusion and best of all it increases happiness.  People are very concerned for their self when they are asleep and deluded but then this is instinctive isn’t it?  I mean this whole self-preservation instinctive behavior is what causes us great suffering if you think about it and it is the furthest point from true spirituality that there can be.

One of the antidotes to self-cherishing and ego-based delusion is to put others before the self but not, of course, in a masochistic type of way.  I’m referring to a way of balancing that all important self-clinging that gets us into trouble and causes so much suffering for self and others.  I monitor this in myself when I am awake and clear and centered and I admit that I fail at times and loose my way in my own ego-based delusion many times.  I cling to my own self importance when other humans seem obnoxious to me and I actually want to run from them, forgetting the rainbow, the bubble and the illusion of causes and conditions playing out before my eyes, ears, and all my senses.  It’s tricky; it’s a pickle; it’s often lost but then picked up again, and again–always coming back to these Eight Verses (below) as an inspiration.

I can somtraining-the-mind-imageetimes realize in the ‘heat of the moment’ so-to-speak about how silly it is to become angry at something or someone that/who doesn’t really exist in the first place, at least not in the way they appear.  Again, in all relationships to person, place or thing– “May I see all things as illusions and, without attachment, gain freedom from bondage.”  But then meanwhile, may I at least put others before myself as a way of releasing self-cherishing so that I can let go enough to wake up from the sleep of self-importance.  See what I mean?

Well, anyway… the Eight Verses in their entirety appear below and by the way, it is said that His Holiness The Dalai Lama who is called the Embodiment of Compassion repeats /recites these verses every day.   Personally, I fail miserably as I try to follow the path of someone like The Dalai Lama but I do aspire to these verses in my life view, my attitude and actions to avert ego-clinging.

Just as in meditation thoughts wander and we bring them back to center, to breath, to the focal point, this how we can bring ourselves back from ego-clinging which is what indignant righteous self-protection is all bout and what worry, fear and anger is about too.

Anyway, the inspirational antidote, the meditation and contemplation to counter-balance and hopefully release all of that anger, fear, worry and self-protection and self-cherishing  are the following versus offered here for the reader’s consideration:

With a determination to achieve the highest aim
For the benefit of all sentient beings
Which surpasses even the wish-fulfilling gem,
May I hold them dear at all times.

Whenever I interact with someone,
May I view myself as the lowest amongst all,
And, from the very depths of my heart,
Respectfully hold others as superior.

In all my deeds may I probe into my mind,
And as soon as mental and emotional afflictions arise-
As they endanger myself and others-
May I strongly confront them and avert them.

When I see beings of unpleasant character
Oppressed by strong negativity and suffering,
May I hold them dear-for they are rare to find-
As if I have discovered a jewel treasure!

When others, out of jealousy
Treat me wrongly with abuse, slander, and scorn,
May I take upon myself the defeat
And offer to others the victory.

When someone whom I have helped,
Or in whom I have placed great hopes,
Mistreats me in extremely hurtful ways,
May I regard him still as my precious teacher.

In brief, may I offer benefit and joy
To all my mothers, both directly and indirectly,
May I quietly take upon myself
All hurts and pains of my mothers.

May all this remain undefiled
By the stains of the eight mundane concerns;
And may I, recognizing all things as illusion,
Devoid of clinging, be released from bondage.

 

May all who need to find and read this post, find it and by  reading even one line here that is helpful, may they be so helped, aided and thereby served.

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Financial Worries, Fear and the Taming of the Ego-Shrew: Here’s Help to counteract fear and worry

Angel Card of AbundanceCalming the fear – taming of the shrew ego – that’s been tonight’s business.  Am I going to be able to pay next month’s rent while still being able to give my daughter a small (and I do mean small) wedding gift?  Mid-August through mid-September is customarily a slow time with people getting children (and themselves) back to school and college.  I’m not irresponsible when it comes to money.  And anyone who knows me also knows this is ‘the big one’ that I seem to have to deal with every now and again:  survival (money) issues!  O and Lo am I ever so weary of that shrew cropping up now and again at the worst possible times!  Like now.

How do we counteract gripping fear and worry?

And make no mistake, it does have to be counteracted—it can be cripplingly immobilizing and can create near panic.  O maybe it’s not financial issues for you—perhaps it’s your family issue or your health issue or your career issue or some timing issue of some type. No matter—fear is fear; and I’ve learned hope is the flip side of it and isn’t all that helpful in its essence either… hope is just another game of the ego-shrew.

That claustrophobic and trapped feeling that fear instigates can feel pretty intense!   So what to do?

Well, since I just did something that helped, it occurred to me to blog about it in case it may help someone out there in cyber world with their fear in some way too.

Help!  I’m afraid, I’m scared, I’m worried, I’m freaking out… “Holy hemmed-in Batman, what do we do?”

First, it’s best (having learned from experience) if we can catch ourselves before we sink too deep into those feelings.  And that feeling (you know… you’re familiar) is similar to being cast in concrete and drifting into the deep dark ocean.. the abyss.

You know when it’s happening and it’s no use trying to escape through demonstrations of anger or blame and it doesn’t help to try to dull the senses through alcohol, food or drugs—that’s only putting a band aid on it and then you feel worse when you have to rip that bandage off!

The best way to catch that feeling and shift it is to simply think of the part of the universe called potentiality or god or space or expansiveness—start to get a visual of a huge blue ocean or pink sky or the vastness of outer space (think far out where there are 10 galaxies before you).

Now breathe that in and deeply too! And then breathe out the claustrophobic feeling right into that visual of open space.

What helps me is to bring purpose to my suffering of fear by thinking about others—other humans.  People who are in the same situation as myself who are also feeling this way and so now I breathe out for them the claustrophobic fearful paralyzing feelings of despair and fear and I breath it out for myself too—for all of us.

And for all of us I breath in that expansive sky, ocean or place in the universe where the group of galaxies are—whatever visual works for you.

I think it’s good to realize that the expansiveness is full of potential—full of good energy that can make our desires manifest—and with that thought, breathe it in deeply for self and for others.

That first step helps you to feel so much better and gets you out of the grip of the downward spiral.

For myself I find it comforting to grab my divination tools—that helps me focus the energy that I’ve just connected with especially now that I am emptier of the fear.  Not everyone would do this; but because I am a psychic by profession, I happen to have divination tools and I use them to have a talk with myself on all levels that myself exists and with all the Divine Assistants who are… well, assisting.

If you don’t have divination tools like tarot cards or runes or a pendulum or angel cards, simply get a paper and pencil and start journal-ing and in the process of journal-ing, ask your Self one question at a time and intuit the answer—write it all down even if you think you’re making it up; if you are open and sincere, that’s all you need to be.

You will find it is comforting and centering to ask questions and to let the divine intelligence answer.

Pause every now and then and do the expansive breathing and visualization—releasing limiting feelings and breathing in freedom, safety and the type of assistance you require.  Ask and don’t be surprised when it is given.

The ego-shrew will still try to take hold from time-to-time throughout the process, but we are taming the shrew and will not tolerate that interference—just breathe that shrew away! 

Tonight I used my cards and received the informational replies to my questions which felt reassuring and I now feel much calmer.

I asked if my financial situation will improve and received the Yes indicator from my tarot cards and then at the end of the question and answer session I thought to pull one Angel Card and after giving it the good shuffle, I felt the energy indicator (energy surges within me) to stop the shuffle and turn over the top card.

Review:  My overall concern this evening (truthfully, it was gripping fear) had everything to do with money/finances and my shrew-ego had been goading me to worry over my ability to pay next month’s rent, remember?

I had to smile and lean back onto my pillow when I saw the card that came up—it was the Angel Card of ABUNDANCE.  I feel better.

I hope that something written here helped you to feel better too.

Fear, Change, Committment and a New Life in 60-Days

CHANGE

Hello beautiful people!  O, take it first hand from me (as if you didn’t know from your OWN experiences anyway) but fear wreaks havoc (potentially) if we don’t nip it in the bud.  I’ve just made a commitment that has taken courage—and because of this,  I may not be blogging… wait.   How about this?  I could bring you along with me on this adventure via this blog (time permitting).

On this journey I am  going to ‘test my mettle’,  as well as my determination, courage and tenacity!  What do you say?  If I had the time I’d create a separate blog for that but this one will have to do.

This is just the beginning of what is going to be a very interesting journey over the next 60 days.  Hang on to your hat—that’s what I’m telling myself.  I’m about to head into territory.  From the Higher Self:  This experience  is likely to hit or trigger this soul’s past issues/wounds–yet also provides the opportunity to heal those!   This should get interesting and we will have to help this soul and this personality remain awake and fully conscious through this process!

This is Day #1 more-or-less officially (but there’s no signing on the dotted line yet exactly) but, like I said more-or-less since I just got the green flag to go ahead with my commitment for change and to experience a new life in 60 days. 

There is a particular area of my life that must remain strong if I am to succeed.  Yet I just had a moment of paranoia when I thought that area has become weak.  It involved looking at something and thinking, “How in the world could this be?” and then the mind started envisioning everything in my life going south.  Well, you know what I mean–the old fear monster reared its head and said, “See this weakened area and how it shows that you are going to fail? Just look at how vulnerable you are; you’ll never pull this off.”

Ha!  Wrong; it was a mistake, a simple error and did not indicate any vulnerability or weakness in any area whatsoever.  Mind you, this was just a half-hour in the making today, on day one of this venture, this commitment, this change in my life.  And during that half hour (after the initial shock hit like a strong wave and dissipated as quickly as it hit), what I did was consciously let go; I surrendered.

Yeah, it was still hanging out in the back of my mind but I shrunk that fear monster down to 5% of its original huge size by not giving it my energy or any credibility.

Me of all people knows how this kind of thing can snowball—first one fear and if it doesn’t get nipped in the bud right then, it starts calling in it’s family members and friends, doubt, uncertainly, anxiety and all of the others from on Main Street in Stress-ville and before you know it, we’re all sunk.

I just received information that my fear was actually erroneous – ahhh, like almost all fear is.  I thought so but got a validating email to that effect and so now we’re back on track again.  F.alse E.vidence A.ppearing R.eal — yeah, I know; you’ve heard that a thousand times if you’ve heard it once (but not everybody has).

I look forward to this challenge and to being very busy with clients, students and also in this area of commitment in my life which is only temporary but which in the end will bring positive change.  I’ll blog post again as we go along on this journey sharing my challenges and successes, planning to have more success than the other.

This has to potential to be emotional as change can be, but I am ready.  As I heard it said while watching a re-run episode of Grey’s Anatomy, and I paraphrase, “When what needs to be changed becomes more difficult to deal with than the fear of the change—it happens.”   And it’s about to.  So much for Day 1.  We’ve only 59 more days to go and lots to do!  My tarot card have been right so far on this–and my higher self has guided me right here at the brink of this change.  It seems so sudden but then change always does, doesn’ t it?

Oh, and I am pretty sure we have the green light go ahead… it should be official by tomorrow, more or less.  I’ll post again when that last small stop is pulled out; but it’s looking like a done deal.  I just have to take my own courageous steps and make my determined efforts now.  (It was that darned May Super Full  Moon in Scorpio that started this off!  I’ll be grateful at the END of the 60-Days, but one step, one day at a time.  LOL)

PS — Terence (the toad) and Sam (the salamander) didn’t make it. ( See last post. )

By the way, this week’s newsletter relates to this unfolding 60-Day thing  in many ways–the part about watching myself do things.

I’m going to make this a fun adventure (to the best of my ability) and laugh my way through it — as much as possible.  That’s my intent — we’ll see how I do.

Have Nagging Worry Over a No-Problem Type of Problem? Obsessing? Intuition or Imagination? Ace of Swords

My question for the Oracle today has to do with those occasions when we may obsess or worry over something even though we have done all we could and there is no certainty that our worry is based in reality.  What I’m talking about is realizing that we’re still concerned or worried about something even though people assure us that there’s no real problem.  Wow!  Talk about illusion and delusion and the mind messing with reality!  If you can relate to this, maybe we can work through this together in this blog post.

Let’s say we’re hearing a sound from somewhere, from something mechanical or technological.  What does that sound mean?  Know what I mean?  Is my attention being drawn to a sound because my intuition is telling me that I need to resolve it?  Or should I believe people who want to tell me its nothing? Do you know what I mean?  It doesn’t have to be a sound–it can be anything we keep thinking about in nervous ways.  Sound can trigger it, but it doesn’t have to be associated with it.  Our thoughts don’t really need very much at all to trigger them  into running on that repetitive mental treadmill that can waste our time and energy.

The thing that troubles me is that our intuition can sometimes be right – we get that nagging feeling that something is wrong even though people tell us that there’s no real problem.  Yet, we still can’t seem to let it go!  Know what I mean?  We have that particular something bugging us and it is illusive and we can’t really nail it down exactly—try as we do!

I’ve got something like that going on in my life.  I realize that I can be obsessive sometimes and when there’s a problem on the horizon, I’m the first one to take those precautions or do what is necessary.  In other words, I’ve learned the hard way that if you tend to ignore those first signs and symptoms of a problem without “nipping it in the bud” (as the saying goes), you can be sorry down the line.

If you hear a thumping in your tire, best get it checked before you have a flat in the wrong place at the wrong time!  Know what I mean?

Recently, my computer seems to be making a noise, a hum, like something is downloading but it may only be a noisy fan.  In fact the laptop’s health monitor shows the fan speed at 63% every time the noise is heard.

I thought widows was running updates and something got stuck in a cycle and so I stopped windows from automatically updating which enabled a virus and then I had to reinstall the whole operating system to factory settings!

I was disappointed to hear the fan downloading noise again after I reinstalled everything.  The Toshiba tech support people tell me that everything is normal and okay but they seem to be placating me and I’m thinking something is wrong with this fan!  Was it like this when I got it?  I don’t think it was, but I can’t be certain.

So am I worrying about nothing at all?  And if I continue, am I going to cause myself more problems?  What should I do about this?

What advice does the oracle have for handling these types of situations when we’re told nothing is wrong but still we have that nagging feeling inside?

Shuffling the cards….  But as I shuffle, I’m thinking how I’ll never buy another Toshiba product!  Next time I make the hour and a half drive to an area of civilization outside of these mountains to meet my daughter for lunch, I’ll take it into Best Buy and ask the Geek Squad to listen to it and give their opinion. And as I shuffle the laptop hums, sounding like it’s downloading but the task manager shows nothing is running… and the health monitor indicates it’s the fan speed.  Still!  It bugs me!  What does the oracle say? 

ACE OF SWORDS!  Clarity of mind; cutting through the confusion.  This card symbolizes the expansion of thoughts, illumination and enlightenment.   The flip side of this archetype or the opposite polarity is nervous thinking or excessive thinking. 

Totally so!  Seems like I go back and forth between these two polarities.  I just called Square Trade to ask if a new fan would be covered by my extended warranty and after a discussion with the gentleman who was very nice, it seems what my laptop computer is doing is par for the course—normal.  I get to feeling this is truth and then vacillate back into the nervous thinking about it.

No.  The computer doesn’t sound or act like it did when it was brand new!  And it shouldn’t.  It’s a year and a half old after all and in computer year’s maybe that’s mid-life, who knows?  My computer is already going through a mid-life crisis?  Well, I just googled this and found this quote:  “A recent study by a company that sells extended warranties on electronic items found that approximately 1/3 of all laptops will no longer function after three years due to either mechanical failure or accidental damage.”

(  My computer is having a mid-life crisis!  LOL  )

And from the Square Trade report, it also says ASUS and Toshiba laptops failed just over half as frequently as HP, which makes them a solid bet in terms of reliability.  Here’s the link: http://www.squaretrade.com/htm/pdf/SquareTrade_laptop_reliability_1109.pdf

Well, that makes me feel a little better since I have a Toshiba.  I just need to ‘GET OVER’ the sound of the fan!  And release the nervous mind around this.  Like I’ve always said, “Knowledge is power”.  I’m going to get some air spray (compressed air) and spray it into the vents of the laptop and then try to forget about it.  Get used to it in other words—just like I have to get used to the farmer-fud muggle across the way with his tractor mower sound that invades my living room!  My temporary solution to that last one is to play recordings of dharma teachings very loudly to drown out the sound.  Every problem has a solution.

Back to the oracle Ace of Sword for a moment—swords are about action, taking action.  Making the phone call, using google, talking to people, collecting the knowledge which is power—all that is taking action and that is the advice.

Do what you can to figure out possible solutions and then when you are told enough times that all is well or at least you learn that the issue is normal for the circumstance, this helps to balance out the thinking.

It’s Normal.  In this case, drown out the sound!

When I have my Buck stove fireplace heat blower operating in the winter time, it drowns out the sound of the computer fan.  When the muggle mows, the Dalai Lama, Ponlop Rinpoche or Lama Yeshe’s Dharma Talks drown out the invasive racket in the room.  And when I drive my car and hear the sound of my struts, I crank up the radio!  At first, the strut sound bothered me—just a bit of creaking noise when driving slow over uneven surfaces.  I had 3 different mechanics check it out and was told by all that the struts did not need replacing yet and for that little bit of unnerving sound, it’s not worth the expense at this time.  Knowledge is power; once the sound was identified, I could block it out or turn up the radio!  I never even notice the strut creaking sound anymore–unless I focus on it!    Strange isn’t it?   Blocking can be a beautiful thing when used at the right time for the right purpose!

I live on a fairly busy (for a country highway anyway) road.  Oh, nothing like an Interstate or even a city road–busy for around here is what I mean.  When I first moved here, I thought the noise of the traffic going by was going to bother me but I made up my mind right away to feel comforted by the sound of people going by assuring me that I was never alone.  I barely ever notice the traffic since.  The only thing I notice is that Sunday’s are quieter but otherwise, the cars or trucks going by hardly register in my attention at all.  Mind over matter as they say!   I think, therefore, that any distracting sound can comfort if you program it that way.

The Ace of Wands is about unbiased thoughts and clarity of mind like I said and its archetype also relates to acceptance of energy.   The oracle is saying, “Have a cup of chamomile tea and forget about it.”

And while you are sipping your tea, reflect on the big picture.  Laptops are middle age when they are a year and a half old, autos that are 8 years old start to creak a bit when the fitting between the struts and the boot wears, and muggles mow… all summer long, they mow!  I’m going to be so familiar with Dharma Teachings that I may reach enlightenment before the fall.  And soon I hope to be able to say, “What sound coming from my laptop?”

PS–   ” I have made this letter longer, because I have not had the time to make it shorter. ”  —Blaise Pascal 

Living an Energy Efficient Life Compliments of Pluto in Capricorn and Saturn’s 2nd house, 3rd house Influence – Kua 28 EXCESS

I few words are ringing my bell here about today’s (whenever you read this) divination message, and you may ask what do ‘obsession’, ‘overload’, ‘burden’, ‘excess’ or living with the laws of nature have to do with a major rent increase and shutting off my cable TV? Aren’t we all being encouraged to examine what is wasteful and what is really necessary in these economic times? Pluto is in practical minded Capricorn after all and just a glance (dare you to do more!) toward Capital Hill in the USA and you will see the ongoing debate about exactly that—what we need and what we can do without. This isn’t a political blog by any means but the world and US economy are pretty much going thought the Pluto-in-Capricorn restructuring. (Saturn/Capricorn rules structure). And my Saturn just kicked its way out of my 2nd house of what-is-valued (the money house).

Saturn will restructure the value system for sure and that’s been happening for the past few years—and so perhaps the god of practicality/reality left me a parting gift as he exited house 2—a rent increase. I was thanking him a few months ago for a new (used) car.

And now that Saturn has reached my 3rd house it is causing me to examine what is practical and necessary by way of communication too. I just took a step in the area of communication that I’d been threatening to take for the past year anyway—disconnected the cable TV. That compensates at least partially for the rent increase but it also cuts away excess and anything that is unhealthily obsessive—which TV watching can be anyway. What will I do on long, cold winter nights now? What will the lord-of-practicality and restructure demand of me in the area of communication as Saturn has just entered the 3rd house of communication? Maybe get to that book written that I’ve been threatening to write!?

Interestingly enough, the phone company just changed which reduced my monthly phone bill by around $40 per month, so that Saturn and Capricorn energy is really restructuring my whole system of accounts receivable and accounts payable as well as what I do with any free time in the evenings. No TV will be liberating and I will turn to more practical (Saturn/Capricorn) types of communication (3rd house). Those are some basic archetypes astrologically that could play out in other ways too—time will tell.

Sometimes too much of a good thing is too much of a good thing! It creates pressure that either comes from within or without but anything excessive needs to be changed and restructured eventually. The question becomes do you deal with the ‘handwriting-on-the-wall’ as the saying goes, and stop while there’s time or do you go down in flames? I’d prefer to avoid the flames as stubborn as I can be at times. I’m looking at other ways where I am wasting energy—I’ve recently put weather-stripping on the windows and am more aware of where I may be wasting electricity.

The whole question that we should ask periodically (and that’s what this message today is about) is, “Am I living in accord with the laws of nature? Am I functioning like a robot in some areas, remaining asleep (too much TV can do that for you by the way) and am I living in alignment with my own truth?” That’s the bottom line with today’s divination message from Kua 28 which is called EXCESS. When we are being temporarily restrained by life, it gives us an opportunity to awaken further and fill our time with useful activities—one’s that are in alignment with our inner truth and integrity. My integrity may be different from yours but when we are not living to our own inner integrity, we need periodic adjustments. Sometimes those are forced (as in my case with the rent and TV and other things) but always we can use them as opportunities.

One  message for today is this. “Life becomes more energy-efficient when we are in touch with our own rhythms and needs.”

What has reached the breaking point in your life? Where are you overloaded in your life and what needs a little restructuring? That’s the point of contemplation for today.  And if something is forced on you to restore balance, simply be grateful for it; it’s a blessing!  (try to see it that way if possible)

If obsessive worry is where you are overloaded, release the burden and deal with only what is necessary–worry never is necessary. One thing I do is to say  myself, “Are you doing the best that you can Joy?” And if I answer  to that is honestly, truthfully “Yes”, then the next thing I say to myself is, “Then you are not allowed to worry!” This may sound silly and childish,  but it happens to work for me in the moment so that I can release the burden enough to recognize my next step using my intuition.

After all, look at that image above… all those burdens on the guy’s back; no wonder he’s exhausted and had reached the breaking point. The Cherokee tell a story of going for a walk and picking up a fist sized rock for every problem you have and before long you will see it is impractical to walk carrying those rocks. Put them down!

One last thought. Lately I am reading a book about the Mound Builders of North America – our ancient ancestors. It’s a book about archeology that goes back to the time when Asians came to North America on foot over the Bering Strait and while the information is gleaned from the Mounds or burial sites (I have one right behind this house that I rent, thus my interest!) examined by archeologists, there is plenty of information about how our earlier ancestors lived in pre-historic times.

So far I’ve read  to about 1,000 AD and find it fascinating. It certainly makes the way I am living in the present seem like a castle in heaven. At least I don’t have to rebuild my hut every 2 years because the wood and grasses become rotten or blow away and I don’t have to have to smoke the bugs out of the dwelling because the little critters inhabit the thatch roof and walls! Talk about perspective!  🙂

Maybe having to pay more rent and deal with the month-to-month uncertainty of being self-employed, in comparison to our oldest ancestors, I’m really feeling pretty grateful.  Just look at that place!  Okay, so they’d dig a floor in the earth about a foot deep…but still. Remember THAT next time it rains or snows Joy! <– said to myself.  And I do really; I honestly do have faint memories of living like that in a distant past that get triggered when it rains hard or snows–am then most thankful for the solid roof and walls I live beneath and within most especially then.  But we try to be grateful for all of our blessings all of the time the best we can, right?