Guru Yoga Meditation; The Beatles, The Buddha, The Blessings

Guru Yoga and Sun Meditation
Guru Yoga and Sun Meditation

It’s SATURN-day (Saturday) and while I give the Sun time to warm the balcony so I can enjoy today’s rays (tomorrow it’s going to be cloudy they say)… thought I’d blog some current thoughts. I’ve drifted back to doing a bit of guru yoga again—devotional stuff really does align the mind, heart and soul. Besides, it makes you really feel good and happy! Two nice words together there, don’t you think? Feeling GOOD and feeling HAPPY. Yeah, you can say it’s a choice and all that but I think there’s a bit more to it. Not to bring us down, but let’s be practical—life is full of ups and downs and potentials for times when the mood of good and happy is easier to achieve than other times. (Not that potentially it isn’t always possible I suppose.) Some days we’re more predisposed to react in happier ways than others—I think we can thank our lucky stars for that. Enter: Astrology. Yeah, I can see the correlations to those pre-dispositions to certain moods and difficulties via astrology. Astrologically we can consider Sagittarius energy or a good position of our Sun sign for a sunnier disposition—just to name a few influences; yeah, Venus is another.

Not wanting to get off the track and now seeing some rays hitting the balcony now, let me get to the bottom line. Guru Yoga is simply merging with the teacher, the master, the deity—what’s your preference? Need examples? Okay, Buddha, The Christ energy, St. Theresa, Mother Mary – surely you remember the song “Let It Be”, right? The result of guru yoga whether The Beatles knew it or not:

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“When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me / Speaking words of wisdom, let it be / And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me / Speaking words of wisdom, let it be … “

Once you have your deity in mind (your guru—the master teacher) and for me sometimes that is Mother Mary too or other times Buddha himself or Padmasambhava (who established Buddhism in Tibet in direct line with the Buddha).

The idea is to relax in meditation and fill your heart with the presence of the deity you have in mind, you see? And that would be literal—visualize the deity; see the energy before you… “and in my hour of darkness, she’s standing right in front of me…” as the Beatles sing.

So invoke the energy and allow your mind to merge with this energy very strongly with total heart and total mind—very purely, very innocently with great trust like the trust of a small child to the mother or father.

Then you can say, “Oh help me now and fill my mind with the content of yours and my heart with your heart and fill me with your wisdom, your compassion, your love. Bless me with your kindness and help my understanding.

I love hearing Lama Surya Das sing the mantra for this: Om Ah Hung Benza Guru Pema Siddhi Hung.

Sometimes it helps to visualize many little beings of your deity—many little Buddhas or Mother Marys or whomever your call; perhaps many little Angels if it is an Angel in particular you call to merge with in your Guru Yoga Devotion….

I like to see many little beings in the form of sound as I do a chant are circulating inside of me, in every cell, atom and molecule of my body, heart and mind on all levels, transforming me.

And now while the Sun is in full force on my balcony, I must go and be in that Sun—I will use that Sun the catalyst for a Guru Yoga Meditation, feeling the warmth as the compassionate and wisdom energy of the Buddha within me awakening in every part of my being!

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And this little piggy went all the way … to the Emergency Medical Care Center

And this little piggy went….. all the way (not home) to the Urgent Medical Care Center

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I had a few head’s up which I apparently… well, the first one I mis-interpreted (darn dreams anyway!) and the second one? Ignored!  And the third one shrugged away.

I roared laughing at as I buddy wrapped it this morning.  What’s that little rhyme?  “Poor little piggy”, I thought.  All red and the left half of the foot all black and blue, “poor little piggy.” 

I had a dream around the time that the downstairs Indian neighbors got my full attention with their yelling and door slamming—between the 7th and 14th.  Rarely do I dream specific dates like that.  Maybe it was wishful thinking that I attributed the 14th as the date one of them was leaving –  I thought it was her.  I’ve been holding out hope that this would happen.  Instead, something else happened!  Dude, really?  It certainly did—at least in my apartment.  What happened in there’s—don’t know and don’t care.  All I know is that last night the Hindu chants to Ganesh played on low volume on the desktop computer in my room until 4 am and no bad dreams for the 2nd night in a row.

Anyway, I wrote something about it yesterday morning—I think on Facebook—something about well, it’s the 14th and nothing has changed downstairs.   I glanced at my transits in my astrology software program over the weekend and there is Saturn sitting right on top of the wounded healer Chiron—EXACT DEGREE AND MINUTE CONJUNCTION when my little accident happened. 

Yeah, I’m looking at it right now 10 degrees 29 minutes:  exact conjunction to the minute of Saturn with Chiron!  Yeah, don’t you know that Saturn rules THE BONES and Chiron is the wounded healer asteroid or comet-oid or whatever they call him these days.  Pretty clear indication of a possible bone wound, eh?  Both in Scoprio of course (WHY NOT GET PLUTO INVOLVED!?)

Well, if you’re going to have an accident with your bone crushed, best you have it in your own bedroom rather out on the highway somewhere.  As usual, it could always be worse—love that phrase, and it’s true—it always could!

I was waiting for my sister to come from work to go with me to the emergency room or somewhere for an X-ray to confirm what I already knew—broken.  Shattered or comminuted (spiral fracture) was not suspected by me, but don’t we love those additional details?  Ha ha.

I looked at my feet generally and remembered the message.  For days now I kept hearing in my mind—better do those toenails!

And dealt with that one this way… “Later, and besides, it’s not exactly sandal weather.  I’m always wearing socks. So, later.” 

I really had to laugh as I sat there clipping, filing and polishing my toenails in that state of shock and pain.  Why didn’t I listen to my Self telling myself to do a pedicure?!  Ah well, that’s how it goes, doesn’t it?  It all makes sense AFTER the fact, right?

FLASH:  I’ve now learned to walk backwards since it hurts much less that way and besides I can look down at my recently polished toes that I slapped polish over in a rush while in pain and laugh!

I’ve wanted to go home as anyone who reads my blog knows—you and my Facebook friends know that.  But laying on my bed yesterday afternoon as Saturn and Chiron were having their meeting in the sky and I was going into ‘shock and awe’ on my bed, I was glad then that I wasn’t alone up on the mountain.

Instead, my grandson was only 5 doors down, my granddaughter due to walk in the door within hours and the rest of the family would be home from work only a little bit later.  My whole family was here to help and that was a reassuring fact that very much outweighed my desire to return to the mountains at that moment!

THIS MORNING:  I had to cut the tape that the guy at the Emergency Center applied last night because the swelling overnight caused the tape to be too tight increasing the throbbing pain.  I soaked my foot in ice water first in my handy-dandy bucket and as I cut the old tape and went to apply the new,  I nearly grew faint thinking of how that little toe was just hanging way out to the side of my foot there after I banged it against the bed frame support.  As usual I was rushing—haste makes waste—and in changing the sheets on my bed, I wasted my pinky toe, crushing the bone in some place and breaking it clean off in another!

“Poor pinky”, I said as I apologized to it for what I did to it—on the predicted 14th of January, and without a pedicure, and with Saturn conjunct Chiron to the exact degree and minute!—“poor little toe!”  As I buddy-taped my little pinkies toe to the next toe over carefully and apologetically a short time ago, I thought… “What is it we’d say to the babies when they were little?  How does that little rhyme go?”

And then laughing out loud and remembering the strong growing desire to go home to the mountains since a loud Indian neighbor couple moved in below me, I remembered it:    “… and THIS little piggy went wee, wee, wee, wee, wee all the way home!” 

Like I’ve always said, the Universe has a sense of humor! that little piggy went (not home) but the the Emergency Center!

PS – at least it’s my left foot and I can still drive.  I have a huge boot I’m supposed to wear which seems like a bit of overkill but since my apartment is upstairs, probably not a bad idea to wear it sometimes.  I sure don’t want to bang it up any further, sore enough as it is and shattered into pieces.

SquaresMORE FOR ASTROLOGERS –– I don’t know if Saturn conjunct Chiron means a broken to the point of crushed bone for everybody else on the planet but it sure manifested that way for me!  In case you’re an astrologer and interested, transiting Saturn makes the conjunction to Chiron (which is also conjunct to Mercury natally) in the 3rd house—wanting to ‘go home’ would be a short journey of about 2 hours so in that way we could see the 3rd house relation to the Mercury, Gemini, Scorpio, Saturn, Chiron blend due to the disharmony of the neighbors (Libra on the cusp of the 3rd) and Venus in Libra is also in the 3rd

The transiting North Node (Scorpio) is currently upon my natal South Node in the 4th house and within 1 degree of an exact conjunction.  Now that I look at the transit chart, when this happened, the Moon was in Pisces when this happened making a conjunction with Transiting Chiron in Pisces. 

And now I have to go elevate my foot which is throbbing again despite the ice bucket dipping that I’m doing as I type.

The doc at the Emergency Care said I did a great job breaking my toe—you really smashed it and broke it off says he!  But then again, if you’re going to do something, I thought, may as well do a real big bang-up job of it.

I saw the Xray.  I did. 😦  Poor piggy…. and yeah, I think i got the message… OM darn it OM… i got the message.  Shouldn’t go live alone in the mountains!  I get it.  I guess.  Yeah, okay I GET IT!

A Change of Mind and Heart – Intuitive Interpretation Meaning of 11-11 in 2012

Photo of Snow Covered Porch of a Mountain HomeWell, here it is and so we’ve arrived at the famous, happy date of 11-11.  All the ducks are lining in a row flapping their wings about these numbers.  Does anyone REALLY know what this 11-11 means except for what other people have told them it means?  Dogma?!  I’m always on the lookout for it – and watch out, I’m going to get bare-bone’s honest – well, it seems like a good old human rumor as most consensus consciousness belief system’s probably are in the first place.  Now if we simply look at this day astrologically, then I can relate!  But then it seems like I look at ‘everything’ astrologically lately–like I’m wearing a pair of astrological glasses (if there was such a thing) and can’t take them off.  Maybe astrological contacts would be a better comparison.

I won’t go into the Mercury retro in Sag and Neptune direct (and of course in its own sign) and the total solar eclipse new moon next Tuesday and hold on, nearly there, nearly there—today on the famous, happy 11:11 the Moon has just crossed over (practically, like right now as I’m typing) ‘love me/love me not’ glorious Venus in her own sign, Libra (potent stuff).  If you know astrological language, then you realize what I just said.

If I gave all that 11:11 astro-babble a bottom line (and apparently now I do haven boxed myself into my own blog corner here) then that basic one-liner (or maybe two) would have to do with a new way of seeing things and processing our experience here.  Some folks call it a star gate or other new-age lingo for the fact that the heavens (as above, so below) are supporting a change of mind and heart.

I’ve been soooooooooooooooooooooooooo working with that whole process in my personal life.  Maybe if you follow my blog you know.  Yeah, and lately it’s as if my thoughts, words and deeds are not in alignment—they’ve been distinctly incongruent.   Like the scarecrow in the Wizard of Oz, parts of me are here and there and everywhere.  (Except when I’m doing a reading for someone or involved in their counseling session–I’m beyond the realms of my own life then.  What a relief!  ha ha)

Take the photo in this blog post—that snow-covered chair and footstool on the front porch there.  (Before you ask, I don’t know whose place that is.)  It’s beautiful and brings up those “Oooooh, I love that and it reminds me of once upon a happy time” feelings.  Yeah and that’s the Moon-Venus in Libra conjunction that just spoke.  But another part of the scarecrow straw (if you will) is somewhere else saying things like, “Are you kidding?  You KNOW how much colder everything is with snow layen’ on the ground like that!  Get real there girlfriend!”  So that’s an example of mental/emotional incongruence—as scarecrow consciousness tries to resolve itself.

But the whole “words” and “speech” thing—that’s a bit ‘here and there’ too.  Have you ever noticed how it wasn’t until you opened up to speak to someone that you realized your mood wasn’t a very flattering one?  I’ve done that so many times being that I’m a quiet person who lives alone and before you project how that could be a problem, it’s (for me) heaven.  I love my solitude.  Anyway, I sometimes start talking to a friend or a family member and realize that I’m feeling happier than I thought or perhaps a bit short-tempered or whatever.  It isn’t until we hear our very own words, our speech, that we get more deeply in touch with how we ‘really’ may be feeling!  That’s the only drawback in living alone but that’s why god made telephones!  And why people like me happily talk to themselves.

Then again this is why counseling is so helpful—many times people know intuitively that there’s incongruity between their actions, their words and their consciousness.  But it isn’t until trying to pull those all together while talking to someone else that one realizes this—except if one is totally out of touch with one’s self.  In that case the individual has no idea how distinctly contrasting parts of themselves really are!

On another note, lately I’ve been AGAIN turning in the wrong direction– how many times does it take before I “get” this one and stop trying to do this?  An astrologer would understand it if they saw my natal chart.
The bottom line is that certain people (and I’m one) simply cannot turn to another for solace or understanding or even mild sympathy for even a moment!  And this is not me going into a pity party—rather, I’m stating what ‘is’.  For some of us the door gets slammed in our face so that we can develop that relationship with the (for lack of a way of saying it that won’t offend) a Higher Power or Inner Divinity.

There are times that it feels like other humans even mock the  feeble attempts of people like me to turn elsewhere for solace and understanding.  Turning toward others seems to get us the big wagging finger of god in our face–figuratively speaking of course.  For some of us it’s clear and simple.  That kind of stuff is to be found within the self and that’s where we must go for understanding—no other human can possibly understand us, much less console us!  This past week I’ve received a few more reminders of this, mild but there nonetheless.

I can find myself reaching toward another lesson in those areas whenever I find that I’m trying to explain myself to another person—it simply doesn’t work.  I forgot.  I received a reminder.  Good old Mercury retrograde helps me out again! And its polarity partner, Jupiter who is also retrograde–they give wake up reminders to our belief and communication scarecrow parts.  Hey, it’s all good because when I get those reminders it brings me back into myself—and I pick up those scattered parts, get real again, and begin to feel more congruent.  It’s all good like I said.

I went for a walk yesterday and instead of looking at trees and creeks and mountain vistas, my view (since I’ve moved) encompassed cars and concrete and apartment buildings.  But I really do like being able to just lace up my sneakers, open the door and with no muss and no fuss and put one foot in front of the other without having to drive a few miles.  That’s what I had to do in the mountains—walk at a designate place by the creek.  It was quite scenic actually.  Otherwise, you walk at your own risk on mountain roads.  People have dogs running free on their land (as they should be) and they bolt toward any stranger walking by in their protective efforts.

So its all  ‘6 of one and half-dozen of another’ as the saying goes.  So now I try to look at the sky and clouds as I walk, ignoring the concrete and cars as much as possible.  There is a little pond/lake body of water on campus here with a large grassy area around it and a fountain of water shooting up in the center with park benches and picnic tables around.  If you can get over that fact that you are surrounded, albeit at a fairly good distance, by rows of apartment buildings and in view of a good number of human eyes, then this is a nice place to get away from the concrete and cars for a stint of time.

The common-link expanse between this Hogwart’s-like apartment complex in the foothills and my heart-home in the mountains is the sky.  I do think that where we live or reside (or the places that we’d like to) actually describe that which our own soul or the energy that is most compatible with it.

I have been thinking about the reversed Lunar Nodal Return I’m approaching (within orb now).  If you read my posts, I’ve mentioned it before.  The axis that is triggered is 4 -10 in Scorpio-Taurus respectfully. 

If you understand the natal lunar nodes, this whole post may make astrological sense.  Although there are ‘family versus career’ issues being intensified, how it is playing out for me in another area has to do with the inner world (4th house) and the outer world (10th house).  They say we are supposed to ‘balance’ our nodes and maybe that’s what I was doing a bit of when walking in the concrete car-park-human-jungle while gazing up at the sky; and remembering the same sky and clouds look down upon the mountains—common area, balance.

Yeah, I can see that I’m doing it again.  I’m blogging about this in an effort to be understood—AGAIN.  But, as always, it’s not the only motive.  I work through ‘my stuff’ –yeah, my stuff is an illusion but there it is anyway—here so that maybe another can see they are not alone in working through theirs.  Besides, something here may help another while, yes, I’m involved in this selfish attempt to gather up my Wizard of Oz scarecrow stuffing and unify.

“Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain”—I loved that part of the movie!

Thinking of it again right now, it reminds me of those folks we all know who are like the frantic frightened man cranking the wheel behind the curtain, afraid of being ‘found out’ or being seen by others as less than all-powerful with their face to the world huge and… well, suddenly I had the thought of that Christian preacher who was on all the talk shows (Larry King, CNN et al) lecturing the public viewers about the ‘abomination’ as it relates to ‘gay’ folks.  And then it turns out that this preacher has been gay from the get-go was totally exposed!

In sort of the same way, I turned to someone recently in a weak attempt to be understood and got the powerful image of the wizard of Oz—the man behind the curtain was well hidden and the words being to me in response were like “The All Knowing Powerful Oz has spoken!”   My bad for knocking on the door of the Emerald City and following the Yellow Brick Road in the first place!  There was that same lesson again!  (Yeah, but all I want is a bit of understanding and the universe replies, ‘you may give it all you like but do not look for it outside of yourself and most importantly not from another human.)  I don’t think everyone is working with this lesson but some of us are.  And if you’re one, you can totally relate to what I’m saying here.

After all, there’s no place like home and like Dorothy folks like me are here to remember and then help others to recall, we’ve never left in the first place and not to go looking for anything outside of ourselves for it.

Yeah, so there’s an 11-11 message for anyone who is looking for one.  If you’re a numerologist or inclined to look for meanings in numbers, all those 1’s have got to do with individuality, new beginnings and most of all INDEPENDENCE.  The number one is associated with Aries and Mars and fire and directness and the warrior – the number one calls a spade a spade and really doesn’t deal well with hypocrisy.  With all those 1’s we’d naturally think about the ‘masks’ we put on:  like the image of the Wizard of Oz and the man behind the curtain.   And we’d with all those one’s we think of creating some sort of unity with individuality.  Anyway with 4 one’s or 2 eleven’s we’ve got that one meaning magnified.

I don’t have a big finish or a theatrical conclusion.  I’m sort of disappointing myself because of it because I sort of like big finishes when I can find them.  But maybe that’s part of the 11-11 thing too, who knows?

All I know is today is November 11th and intuitively I’m feeling like the energy of starting over in somehow and in some way around all of us.

But what do I know?   Nothing you may say.  And I’d have to agree.  I’m in the middle of changing my whole mind and heart right now which is my interpretive intuition of what this 11-11 is about.

Excuse me, I see a part of my straw just over there and I need to go get it so that I can continue on down this illusionary yellow-brick road in tact.  All the while I’m remembering that there actually ‘ is’ a great and powerful wizard but the outer world has nothing to do with that one’s location.

How could I have forgotten AGAIN by turning to another human for understanding!  Nobody (and I do mean body) can understand us and where we’re coming from—not really.  The soul and beyond—can we find it there?  Yes but we have to go to the heart of the soul and beyond.  I could say that we have to go somewhere over the rainbow but like Dorothy found out (so many morals to that story!), it’s futile to go looking for any heart’s desire (whether it is to be understood or consoled by anther human) or whatever it is outside of one’s self.

For if it isn’t in the mind and heart of your own soul (your own your own back yard) — because if it isn’t there, then you never really lost it to begin with!   Take the word of a psychic who temporarily forgot — or not.

Oh and don’t write to me–I know 11 is a ‘master’ number; hopefully I’ve given a partial explanation as to why.

I’m really about “who said so?”  a lot more than I ever was before.  I live more or less by observation and correlation.

One final thing—I really feel that the soul relates to “somewhere over the rainbow” even if the intellect doesn’t.  I just had a memory flash of my daughters, sister, niece and I at a recent high school band concert.  One band started to play ‘Somewhere Over The Rainbow’.  I looked over at them and everyone had teary, watery eyes and that smile that comes over one’s face when the heart has been touched.

Well, gotta’ go now.  I have a to-do list and need to get my walk around campus in before the day ends.  Night time comes too soon on these progressing-toward-winter days. Buh-bye for now…need to be out in the sunshine.  I won’t have a change of mind or heart about that one, 11-11 or not.

July 4th 2012 Energy of the Psyche

It’s a trine and sextile kind of  E-Z does it day!
TODAY (7/4) Mercury sextiles Venus –>communication issues of the past could be featured in a big way as each person examines their own needs and values today.  Harmonious conversation and interaction is generally desired however.
Mercury also trines Uranus –> Thoughts can easily wander into to the subconscious mind areas and these could include childhood issues of being in a body as a child. Also this aspect can enhance one’s intuitive nature and messages from spirit can filter through today without much effort, stay aware. 🙂   Inventive energy comes from the easy pathway from these two planets. 
Also, Venus sextiles Uranus today –> Unusual or bold communications could happen, but for the most part people will likely want to break away or break free in order to determine their own needs for harmony and rest and they will likely tell you about it!   An idea may come to you out of the blue  for a creative project today or this week!  Explore it–it comes from a level of mind where inspirations live! 🙂

May these astrological alignments in the heavens and thus the psyche enhance your day today! 

Day #29 Dealing with Transitional Stages of Change! Moving within Organized Chaos!

Yeah, all right.  So there is freaking out just a little bit now.  It’s Day #29.  If you haven’t figured it out by now… I’m moving.  ‘Cats out of the bag’ as of right now.  Where in the world did that expression come from and why does it stick?   Anyway, there’s the big reveal—I’m moving.  Those last two words are pretty funny actually because right this minute, nothing is moving—it’s all just sitting here in boxes and bags and plastic containers.

I’m normally one of those “there’s a place for everything” kind of persons.  And last night I walked in circles around piles of containers and boxes looking for the one that contains the light bulbs!  I tried not to let it get on my nerves and reminded myself that transitions are like this—temporarily organized chaos!

Riddle me this, says the uncertain part of me.  Am I doing the right thing?  I have moments where I’m riddled with doubt and then along comes his friend, fear, and their cousin, apprehension.  We’re NOT going there with them; this will all be over soon! Besides, I have more than an equal amount of certainty that this IS the correct ‘move’.  So, what’s the issue?  It has more to do with that Venusian thing of what meets the eye–brown boxes are not exactly eye pleasingly beautiful home decor! 

I now realize how much energy I draw from my surroundings!  If everything is clean and organized and arranged in an eye-pleasing way with color, shape and balance, when the eyes meet the environment the mind, body and spirit feel soothed—or something.  Maybe soothed isn’t the right word exactly.  I find myself looking out the windows more lately and while I do this often anyway, I realize that I look away from the boxes to seek feelings of harmony by looking out at nature.  At least the trees, flowers and rocks have not changed!

Yeah, I know it’s temporary, but that’s not all that’s going on.  I’m blogging in order to try and figure it out—that’s how I work through things if you haven’t already noticed!   

I think it has to do with loose ends – too many of those but with just over a week to go, those can’t be tied up and just have to dangle.  I have to “let be what is” and be in my own is-ness.  And that can feel like letting more of this ‘stuff’ go and just floating away!  I’ve released so many things over the past 29 Days.  I’ve come across items that I didn’t even know were here and let go of other things by the truck load!  All I can say is that I will have a huge tax donation deduction this year!

It’s just being unsettled I suppose—I’m not here, nor am I there.  And ‘there’ has a certain unknown quality to it.  I have not been in the space yet where I will be living and I find that completely… well, I have to trust and hope and bring sage and sweetgrass to burn,  not knowing who was in that space before me.  That’s how they do it in the cities now—you rent a space without being in it and then wait for the previous person to move out.  Such is life in a rental community! 

I will, however, be aquainted with at least some of my neighbors—my daughters and grandchildren!  Yay!  And that’s the joyful part of all this!  No more worries about fog or snow getting up and down the mountain and no more missing their school plays and performances!  The pluses outweigh the minuses.  Besides, last winter up here was pretty rough all alone—many an eve I longed for a nice warm, cozy (dry!) apartment that’s easy to clean and easy to heat. 

All I’m saying is that this is an interesting place that I’m at emotionally and psychologically—neither here nor there.  I want to push time forward instead of waiting this last week. I’m ready to go NOW but have to wait for my family’s help.  The move-out date was selected weeks ago and everybody arranged their work and travel schedule to accommodate that. 

Thankfully there are clients calling for readings and this, for me, is just like looking out the window—I get to unplug from my own life and surroundings and help someone else.  It’s an escape for me in some ways. 

 I am looking at my two angel statue yard decorations sitting nearby.  I have them in a strong medal carrier ready for the journey.  One is child-like and posed reading a book, sitting on a pedestal; and I have to admit she’s my favorite.  The other angel is a larger standup version, holding a bunny rabbit in her arms.  Emotionally, I sort of feel like these angels… like I, too, am sitting in a medal cage waiting for moving day to be released from bondage! 

In my new place I will have an upstairs balcony apartment with a view of trees–it will be my tree house!  And since it’s going to be like a dorm room in amongst so many others that look like those old historic Brownstone’s of the Eastern cities, I’m calling the whole darn apartment rental campus “Hogwarts” (after the Harry Potter School of Wizardry).  The Brownstones where I’m moving are actually white and not brown, but it’s the architecture and the campus that’s similar to those of the Eastern cities.

I know happiness and boundaries are within the self and not the environ and this is what I am actually being reminded of here in these last 8 or 9 days–let’s call it a week; that sounds much better!

Part of my spirit is here, some of it is going over the switchbacks down the mountain yet another part is emotionally and mentally unloading boxes into the new place!  I’m everywhere!  And at the same time I am saying goodbye to this house and property that has sheltered my soul for 9 years—maybe there are too many days left to say goodbye!  No, I’m not sad about it especially when I remember how wet and cold this house was last winter despite my best efforts to keep a fire going! 

Hogwarts School of Wizardry resembles historic brownstone apartments

No more wondering if the firewood person is going to show up before I run out; no more worrying if the fuel oil is getting too low; no more pulling weeds, trimming bushes and mowing the lawn, no more shoveling snow to get out of the driveway, no more this or no more that.  That’s the known; but I have the unknown before me. 

My rent will nearly double and I’m not used to being around humans in a rental community; there’ll be an exchange of birds, bunnies and the like for humans.  Lots of them!  I will be less country and back to being “citified” again.  I’ve already had a few encounters with city duck-mentality!  (not pleasant)   Will it be a challenge to make these adjustments?

Yeah, I think too much and besides I’ve got clients calling and other tasks here needing my attention so I should end this. 

But before I do, I know there are others out there in cyber world ( like me) who are also in the midst of a transition.  I’ve been in this state numerous times in my life—after all, I’m 64 years old and ‘been there, done that’ is a phrase I’ve used a lot.  I’ve moved a number of times in my life and so I’m no stranger to it; but it’s been a while and I’d forgotten this feeling of being neither here any longer and not there yet. 

It’s quite like floating in the ethers—no gravity, nothing to ground in to but one’s own is-ness.  This is how death will be when the time comes; my own body will be like these boxes and containers.  Yeah, okay young readers will think that’s morbid, so no more talk about that. 

For those who may, like me, be in between this or that and not here anymore really but not there either—in other words, in transition… for you and for me, let me toss the coins and ask the i-ching for a word or sentence or two to help us while we’re in this phase.

Well, we received Kua 57.  It is called “The Gentle” or “Gently Penetrating”.  It is ‘The Sun’, doubled and is also called ‘two winds’—the first wind disperses negativity and the second wind changes attitudes.  The guidance is to take small steps toward the completion of small goals and be patient and persevering.  The message of this Kua is also about taking “the middle way” or the “middle path” and remaining gentle and free.

“Gentleness is flexible and free and not burdened by the maintenance cost of keeping a high-profile.”  That line makes me laugh a little bit considering an email that I received this morning which was really a spam advertisement.  If you are in my type of profession you know how you receive trick emails which at first seem as if someone would like you to be a guest on a radio show only to find it is gimmick to sell you a thousand dollars’ worth of radio time! 

I thought about it for a moment actually now that my living expenses will be higher—but that’s just not who I am.  It’s strange though because my natal chart indicates that my soul’s purpose is to work or earn a living in the public domain (10th house) by bringing Peace and Spirit in a grounded way onto the Earth.  Well, that’s a whole other blog now isn’t it?  Anyway, each time I consider doing a big public attention-getting blitz of some type, the end result is turning from it totally. 

Well, according to this Kua 57 I probably shouldn’t even publish this blog entry—it reads this way:  “This is not the best time to make sweeping changes or to announce future plans.”  I was tormenting myself about how to create a new class (in astrology) last night and then I thought about tarot classes and totally revamping my current psychic class, doing a better job with at least the sign up page.  Yeah, on and on it went and so I get it—let go of the idea of sweeping change right now.  Just get through this move first, silly!

ADVICE FOR HANDLING A TRANSITION:  During any transition the focus should be on adaptability as one remains tuned in to subtle and shifting  energy currents of change.  Keep a steady pace and make a routine as best as you can—do things that do not involve the mind too much.

HOLD THE VISION AND BE WILLING TO WAIT.  Don’t be overly confident or doubtful either.

Stay on the path of least resistance for now and merge with the meandering course of the Tao in any way that it shows up right now! 

One final word from the i-ching:  in order to see the bigger picture when we are in transition we must periodically create some distance between the self and the forest.  Only then is it possible to see the trees and where we stand in relationship to them. 

Let “Is-ness” be the only “business”!

Feel better?  C’mon we can do this!  Its only death and rebirth after all. 

BESIDES, we simply go where we’re sent!  Right?

Day #28 Substituting Hope and Trust When Any Fear Emotions Bubble Up – What I Was Doing when Venus Transited the Sun

Alright!  We’ve landed on Day #28.  Something really big is going to happen (if all goes as planned–and it will~!) on Day #37.  So there’s 9 more days to go and its a bit difficult to be patient now.  That’s probably my own fault for being too much of an overachiever which really stems from fear-ish like paranoia that goes this way:  Hurry and don’t put things off in case at the last-minute something happens and you run out of time or some other type of energy!  

I was that way in college too–always had my assignments done and ready to hand in ahead of time.  And then when the professor gave time extensions because others weren’t ready, the temptation to be righteous about it was hard to resist.  Anyway, better to be early rather than late–ask my family; I’d always get to the plane or train hours early.  Hurry up and wait–that’s me.  You too?  Well that’s just how some of us are wired; embrace the neurosis.  As phobias go, there are worse ones to have I suppose.

Yet, I am still feeling a bit of that feeling from Day #22… you know, the protective roof being removed yet do see the prediction from a week ago about quick and steady progress has indeed been manifesting!  This past weekend my daughter and I worked harmoniously together to the tune of gearing up the final stages of things–she was a great help to me. 

I am finding that I am letting go of a way of life that I’ve held for 9 years on one level and about 14 years on another and it totally feels like a new phase, a new chapter–the page has been turned!  I am saying goodbye to the old and piecing together in my mind what the new will be like and how I will use my time in new ways.  I think it’s good that these final 9 days are ones in which I can gradually slow down, look around and inventory the whole affair. 

It is strange in a way because what I am doing is something that I never thought I’d do–ever really, ever!  And that is because I thought that if I did make this change and agree to the committment that it would feel terribly sad–NOT!  And that NOT really does mystify me sometimes.  It just shows me that when the time is right and the stars are in alignment (and mine ARE; but I’ll spare you the details but to say my natal lunar nodes in the 4 and 10 astro houses are merging with the transiting nodes this year and my 4th house Jupiter in Scorpio is opposing transiting Jupiter from the 10th.  Let’s not even talk about my progressed Sun just moved into my 5th House!) 

That parenthesis above mean nothing to do if you don’t know astrology and I apologize since I did not spare you the details.  Yeah, so anyway… 9 more days and an old part of my life goes bye-bye and a brand new adventure begins! 

I’m getting some hints about what’s coming–people are asking me to teach astrology and I’ve been thinking about it all at the same time.  It’s only Wednesday and already 4 people have asked me about teaching an astrology class.  I hesitate thinking I don’t know enough, but then  again I do know a bit more than a brand-new beginner would and those types would be my target students I suppose. 

I intend to teach an in-person local psychic development class–and now I am mental-izing how to follow through with these ideas.  I’d love to interact in person with students–the Internet class is fine but I’m open to expanding that and these are ideas ruminating in the mind right now.  We’ll see how it goes but this is how my psyche and spirit work it seems–people start asking me to do what I’ve been thinking of doing and so that becomes like the validating push.  Does it work that way for you too?

Right–so anyway after having recovered from some physical fatigue and spent short segments of time staring at the ceiling over the past weekend it was like two steps forward and one step back.  I seem to have to integrate it during a rest phase and then get back at it again as I work toward Day #37. 

At the start of this sudden project and  committment toward a major change, I didn’t know if it would take 30 days or 60.  Things have been moving quickly as I’ve said all along.  Any periodic apprehension is being handled by me through intense devotional prayer work to which I find that something happens shortly after to soothe any of that by giving some supportive validation–something encouraging happens to smooth over any worry wrinkles.  Bad for the complexion as well as the soul–those are!

VENUS crosses the SUNNot much more to report about it all but to say when Venus was doing her transit over the Sun which started from 6 pm EDT  last night I happened to be dealing with my check book, bank balances, bill payments and the like!  Didn’t think of that until today but Venus does rule the 2nd house which is often associated with “money”.  I don’t know what conclusion to draw from that really.  So what!  Right?  Yet as Venus came between the Sun and Earth we all must have received some sort of energy programming or the like.  Since my mind was, at that time, on $money$ issues, perhaps I was receptive to some positive programming from Venus energy as it relates to my essence, which for all of us is our Sun.  I do recall lecturing to myself as I began the task of looking at the money situation.  I told my self that I will not become in any way upset about money as I worked on the task!  And I meant it!  And I didn’t!

With my progressed Sun moving into the 5th house related to “children”, my relationship with my own daughters is strengthening and this grow more so each day.  Perhaps the Venus-Sun transit will help to continue to renew those loving relationships in the days ahead.

I’ve a client calling for a session and a busy afternoon ahead… I am asking to remain busy over the next 9 days so that I can forget the time to experience it quickly!

Meanwhile, each day I find that I am substituting any experiences of fear as they come up in the emotional body with trust and hope.  It becomes easier to do so despite anything else that should appear, regardless of what it is. 

Onward and upward as they say!

 
When you consciously embrace an experience of fear while shifting your vibration into trust or hope, you evolve! expand! enlighten! You GO!

June 2012’s Astrological Cluster! Bottom Line Guidance for Venus-Sun Transit Square Mars with Neptune Retro, and Direct Saturn’s Dance in the Heavens!

I’ve seen this coming and have a pretty good idea now that we’re into June how this is playing out in my own life but we still have the whole month to get through!  After reading this well-written article [http://www.astroraven.com/astrology-news/item/12-a-perfect-storm?-the-transits-of-june-2012] about the astrology of June:  the Venus thing with the Sun squaring Mars and Neptune and Saturn and full Moon Lunar Eclipse and lions and tigers and bears, O my!  I’m looking to divination for overall bottom line guidance. 

What would the i-ching say to us if it could (and it can as soon as I toss the coins) about June 2012?  What is the most important thing for humanity to keep in mind in consideration of all these astrological gymnastics occurring this month?

Let’s get the coins and see what we are told…

Well, no lines were changing in the toss, so the guidance is pretty straight forward.  We’re talking about Kua 53 called “Development” and relates to that old saying “a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”.  So right away here we get the feeling that we should be patient during the month of June; one step at a time apparently but STEP!  (Don’t NOT step).  There is also the feel here of two separate parts uniting; so we have a feeling of people working together. 

I am hearing that old song in my head, “People who need people are the luckiest people….”   Walk the walk with others during the month of June and stay flexible—that’s the other bottom line.  

But wait!  There’s one more and that’s to stop worrying about the future and the way you do that is to remain in the present moment with your mental attention.  Should you find yourself in a tizzy about the future, instead do what needs doing with all your full attention in the present moment. 

This keeps you balanced and that is a word for June—balance!  Keep attention on the balance point within you and do whatever you need to in order to maintain balance.   Keep your cool in the face of anything you’d label a delay or set back—whatever happens this month, don’t check out!  Look at life straight in the eye and then feel supported—it’s a choice.  Choose to feel supported rather than in any way fearful or worried.

In Wu Wei’s Book of Answers, Kua 53 is called “Gradual Development” and the advice from this kua is that things will develop slowly and as a consequence become strong and enduring.  Keep that in mind over the month of June 2012 also.

Any situation that is currently being developed in your life now will require thoughtfulness, attention to detail, and social correctness in which integrity serves you well.  The future will be prosperous and peaceful if you maintain balance and a positive attitude.

Hang in there!  I will if you will ~!

Relationship Overhaul? Value’s Challenged? Venus Occultation Eclipse of the Sun is Intense June 5th-6th 2012

Venus Occultation - Crossing Face of Sun - Rare Astro Event
 

On June 5 or 6, depending on where on the planet you live, Venus will cross the face of the Sun.  As it merges with the Sun, all that Venus represents (values, desires, personal needs, love, etc) will be transformed by the Sun or will transform the Sun itself!  What does our Sun represent to our psyche astrologically? Some say it’s our essence; others say its our ego/personality; some say Sun represents father energy or male energy (while the Moon represents female energy–in that way) and others say the Sun represents our life purpose.  In all models, all planets revolve around that Sun and a healthy Sun in our psyche is what helps us feel whole, complete and happy.  No matter which way we see the Sun astrologically, there’s about to be some transformation through the Venus occulation that is occurring this week!

This planetary alignment of Venus crossing over the face of the Sun is called an occultation [see image]–some simply call it the ‘transit of Venus’.

Venus visibly seen in front of the Sun is a symbol for the rise of feminine energy in a current patriarchal world; so male/female issues and patriarchal values versus spiritual could be brought forward.

VENUS-SUN SQUARING MARS AT THE SAME TIME

To emphasize this even further, during the occultation, Venus/Sun will be forming a square to Mars. Squares are what are called ‘hard’ and ‘challenging’ aspects, and Mars is the male counterpart to Venus.

To add to the intensity, this occurs within a day of a Lunar Eclipse, which will affect us emotionally.

This “occultation” of Venus over the Sun is similar to an eclipse, but Venus will not totally block our view, rather, she will appear like a dot crossing over the face of the sun. [see image above]

“Although Venus and Sun meet up every couple of years, we have only witnessed this event six times in recent human history. The next transit on June 5, 6 will be our seventh observance.” –Rose Marcus

PS — Venus is in Gemini retrograde, so there will be dialogue about these topics this week, even if some of it may be internal!  Roles of male versus female needs in relationships; my values versus your values; patriarchical values versus matriarchal/spiritual values; consensus level consciousness and values versus spiritual level; new world values may very well be implanted, seeded, boosted or reawakened  the consciousness of the human at this time.  How will it affect your personal life?  Stay tuned, it should be an interesting week ahead!