Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Libra with players Pluto, Uranus and Jupiter – How it plays out

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse (Blood Moon) - April 4, 2015
Full Moon Lunar Eclipse (Blood Moon) – April 4, 2015

Today – It’s a super charged Full Moon (April 4, 2015) in Libra!  What can this mean? Here’s my version…

But is it only today that we may feel (Moon/emotion) the effects?  No; it’s more or less a theme that’s been occurring at least since the last eclipse (Solar a few weeks ago, March 20).

Something shifted around that time, perhaps ended—a change; a new way of BE-ing may have occurred for you.

And now, that’s associated with a new beginning.

Don’t’ get hung up on the exact dates; instead just think about something that may have occurred in the life 2 or 3 weeks ago (or even  a month or so ago) that set you up for the new phase that this eclipse is heralding—new beginning; new way of seeing things; new way of being in the world; new chapter in the life.  (We can experience the effects of an eclipse months before and months after–or so they say and so I’ve personally observed.)  But what are the key factors we can realize now?

Relationship is the key word with this energy and if you’re like me—happy to be in relationship with Self with a capital S (Higher Self) and with Divine Being you may, like me, be seeing life in a whole new light.  That should be a capital L really in the word Life—meaning All That Is and of course all that isn’t and the space in between.

Of course, we’d also have to mention personal one-on-one relationships with family, friends, life partners too which may be taking on a whole new meaning right about now and over the next few months.

This is no ordinary placement.  The Sun is conjunct Uranus and T-squaring Pluto.  What a mixture!   Moon, Uranus in Aries, the Libra Sun and tossed into that we also have the Capricorn Pluto – better not reference tossing Pluto, Lord of the Underworld, anywhere– it’s he who does the tossing.  LOL

Sun in Aries wants freedom and the ability to do it’s own thing regarding its purpose in life and the planet Uranus is empowering that Sun to go for it! As I see it, the planets and luminaries are setting up that theme when the Sun/Uranus opposes Moon and squares Pluto.

To me that configuration indicates  finding freedom in our life in a new way–one which challenges our feelings of security or actually enhances those feelings to create transformational (Pluto, the transformer) attitudes or views regarding how we relate to others and/or to Life Itself.  Pluto is quite psychological and so we could sense here a new psychology in your life–perhaps a highly personal one that creates a new beginning.

Can you see or feel how this can be playing out in your life now?  And how it has been occurring for some time now?

Jupiter plays a part in this attitudinal, emotional energy merger and change of view too. Jupiter, the great benefic, is highly focused via it’s retrograde motion.  It’s moving through Leo now.   And now its making an aspect to the other players, bringing with it a sense of playfulness and joy and mostly FUN.   That’s the energy that influences and balances this new attitude and way of be-ing that is taking shape and changing our lives right now.

May the blessings of Jupiter be yours and may you find the freedom and harmony in your life that brings the new freedom/ liberation of contented happiness with the influence of this eclipse both now and over the next 6 months!

When the Moon Transits the 11th House

Moon in the 11th House

The 11th.  I was dreading this moment because I just don’t “get” the 11th.  I have Uranus there in my personal birth chart, so I should get it and that’s what’s so frustrating.  Uranus rules that house!  We’re told this house [meaning this common area of our lives] has to do with community and also with hopes and fears and friends.  Really? all that?  Some of those archetypes come from Horary astrology and some from the opposite of it’s polarity.  Makes sense, doesn’t it that if Leo/5th is about “me” then the opposite polarity is about others, the collective–therefore, groups or humanity.  Could we think of the 5/11 axis in relation to me and them? And could them be friend or those of like mind?  Or those in the community that are a selective group, a singular type identity?   Maybe?  I’m still trying to understand the “hopes and fears” part of the 11th’s archetype but let’s go with what we’ve got.  The group thing.  I have a great example of this.  The Moon just left my 11th house and something happened in my life that relates to this archetype in a pretty significant way.

Without giving unnecessary details let me summarize by saying that as the Moon was passing through my 11th house of community and selective groups of like nature or like mind, I found myself discussing how I may be of service to a selective group of people in the community.  I do have Cancer in the 11th by birth and the Moon there was strongly related to doing a type of nurturing in the community–the Moon/Cancer relates to nurturing, care giving.  And in this case, care giving to a particular group of individuals but on a one-to-one basis which relates to the Uranus/Aquarius archetype of individuation or singularity.  Remember, Uranus rules this part of our life… group but alone in a group would be a way of saying it or a small or selective group.

Generally speaking, when the Moon moves through your 11th house it is a good time to connect with friends or groups.  Giving or receiving “emotional” support–the Moon relates to emotion.  Organizations (group energy) may provide helpful perspective on current conditions at this time.  Or vice versa, you may provide a helpful perspective to a group or organization at this time as well.  That could be a 2-way street, so-to-speak.

An alliance is what the Moon [your emotional nature]  is looking for to find it’s comfort, security and happiness at this time.  Queen Luna is looking for her tribe and wants to feel some sort of meaningful membership somewhere or somehow i.e. this is who i am and this is my group. 

One’s heart can identify with the community at this time to a great extent and the tribe (in whatever way the emotional nature identifies tribe) will be prominent when seeking happiness, security and emotional nurturing.  The only red flag with this one would want to be careful not to be overly influenced by group energy–we’re talking about a Uranian house after all and Uranus/Aquarius is pretty much alone in a group.

Just a bit of trivia:  Aquarius is thought to have a connection to circulation, the blood circulation in the body.  In Horary astrology it is thought to represent the partners ability to have children since it is 5 houses away from the 5th of the other partner.  But, that again is trivia.

The hopes and fears archetype originates from the connection with Jupiter (Horary astrology).  It is said that Jupiter has it’s joy in the 11th  and thus, the house of hopes/fears/wishes comes from this source.

The 11th House is also thought to be the house of the spiritual world servers or servers of humanity–servers of the human race.  And therefore the archetype of group consciousness relates to this house as well as “brotherhood”.  The Moon here finds strangers to bond with who have shared goals and can make friends who seem more like family than biological family.  The 11th house is known to be the house of the ‘soul family’ and finding a niche in relating with humanity or group energy.

I know of some astrologers who start interpreting a chart with the 11th house instead of the 1st house, making the 11th the ascendant. This is because they think of the 11th as the house of the visionary–some people get psychic readings when the Moon is in the 11th because it is though that this house relates to the soul’s vision for the life and the Moon can help them feel the vision as described by the psychic.

Dreams and visions of future can be prominent when the Luna moves through house 11 as well so it is good to pay attention to those on the few days a month that your Moon moves through this house.

The Moon is now in my 12th house and so I will be back to document this last lunar transit through my own houses as a way to help others understand astrology.


 

 

 

On the Life Path: Boulders, Vows, Evaluating Goals, Tarot 7 of Swords, Wood Bethony, and Buddhism

Imagine standing at the edge of a forest and  you want to reach the other side...
THE FOREST OF LIFE!  Imagine standing at the edge of a forest and you want to reach the other side…

Imagine standing at the edge of a forest, and that you want to reach the other side. 

Would you walk a straight line through it? Or, might the path meander in every possible direction, around boulders, between trees, along a stream, feeding the deer, conversing with the owls, and roasting marshmallows? 

Yeah, every possible direction, because this is how things are in a forest. 

Tree! 
    The Universe

[the clever lines above received by email this morning from tut.com]

I’d just been thinking such a similar set of mental phrases.  I sure am going the long way around wherever I’m going — and I quit trying to second-guess the ultimate destination a while back.  I adapted the attitude of one of my teachers who said, “… you go where you’re sent in life.”

Today I am also thinking of the Bodhisattva  vow:  May I attain Buddhahood for the benefit of all sentient beings.  May my action bodhichitta grow

Yeah, okay.  I’m doing my best–so don’t laugh!  And I seem to be meandering around a few boulders in the forest of life  this year in general and this week most recently, but as my grandmother used to say “little by little” progress is made. So T-minus 4 days to take off!  The next move is in 4 days and some final cleaning took place here in the kitchen yesterday and the skin on my fingertips are a  bit raw to prove it.  Never have gotten used to cleaning using rubber gloves.  Clumsy and too much time taking them on an off as I’m pulled in other directions while cleaning–take answering the phone  for one example.

Where is the ultimate destination?  I don’t know!  But I’m willing to let that be okay.  I’ve located a number of possible paths and applied for the hiking permit (so-to-speak, speaking symbolically) and we’ll see what opens up.

Meanwhile, I have two small mirrors to un-anchor from the wall and some things to drive over to storage before the end of the week, aside from that, I don’t know what more I can do as I’ve always applied that girl scout motto:  BE PREPARED

My trip to the rental office yesterday was productive in that I was able to tie up the loose ends and end the confusion about final notices and paperwork:  there was a change of staff right in the midst of the apartment change.  (Long story–don’t ask.)  All’s well that ends well and I’m ending my association with this particular apartment about as well as I can do it.

So on to the next adventure, around this boulder here in 4 days.  Maybe then I will see more clearly what’s ahead.  I think sometimes my vision is blocked for good reason–perhaps I’m being spared in some way and that’s a blessing.

As I sometimes do, let me pull a card and ask (reaching for my tarot cards)… let me ask what is ahead around this current boulder, perhaps the card will show me?  (I do love divination! but then I’m a psychic after all and should, right?)

For clarity sake, the boulder represents the current move into the new apartment with my sister.  What is beyond that?  At least for the near future–this is my question.  Near future representing let us say the next 6 months.  So here we go…  asking for just one card, just to get a feel for the energy beyond the T-minus 4 days….

7 of swords wood betony collage

Well, it’s the 7 of Swords.  Well first thing I get here is “confrontations being avoided” — and that may be a good thing.  The herb associated with this card is WOOD BETONY which some wear to avoid evil spirits.  That’s a bit dramatic.  Let’s just say that Wood Betony can help one release fearful visions of the future… that I’ll go with.   It helps with one’s nerves when used medicinally.  There’s some reference to hidden intentions and deceptions.  Sounds like honesty all around will be important on the other side of this boulder.

The affirmation for this card [according to the book] is:  “With a peaceful heart, I gather information and truth for my plans and goals.”

This card involves “keeping something to yourself”  and being a loner–like those blackbirds who keep to themselves and bow and then fly away when they see other birds.  (Just this past week many blackbirds have been coming to the feeder–highly unusual)  Blackbirds stay to them selves so much that it is said when you actually see two blackbirds together at once, it’s a good omen.

So this “keeping to one’s self” sounds like blackbird medicine advice.  This card is also about preferring solitude–and that of course is no secret about me.  This will likely not change is what the card is indicating.  This card involves “separation from others”.   And further, this card relates to self-reliance and using one’s own wits to solve problems and resources.

Boy O boy!  The feeling that I’m getting here is that my life won’t really change all that much from what it is now.  That “loner” and “self-reliant” energy that I carry (that blackbird energy) will not change.  That’s a comfort to me.

This card also carries a meaning that relates to “running away” in some way—and that has to do with confrontations being avoided in this case (or so it feels).  There’s a testy teenager who will be part of the household and since this card applies to my question about what is around the corner for me, the avoidance of confrontations (bow and fly away; blackbird energy) may be what this card indicates.  (Astrologically speaking:  If you’re an astrologer, this girl is a Leo Moon and Aries Sun with Saturn (in Aries)  in the 7th, Virgo rising–3rd house Pluto.  My Sun and Moon are  in her 1st house within orb of her Chiron.   Her Moon is on my 12th house Mars/Pluto/Saturn  stellium.  My sister is an very early Leo Sun and Aquarius Moon affecting her daughter’s 5th House Uranus.)  Yeah, that 7 of Swords and Blackbird loner stuff …. probably good advice.  A big message of the 7 of Swords has to do with the need to be calm and to keep things to yourself–I so get that.

I may re-evaluate my plans or goals once I get on the other side of the boulder too but meanwhile, I will meander just  as I have been through the forest of life and enjoy whatever is beyond the boulder or around the curve in the path.   Meanwhile, I will do my best to hold to my Bodhisattva vows and the 37 Practices.

I also may totally plan a get away camping trip for a week  or so in the mountains too, providing I have the increase in $$ to do so.   Anybody want to order a reading or sign up for my class?  🙂   Help!  LOL

Part of the Vow:

Just as all the previous Sugatas, the Buddhas
Generated the mind of enlightenment
And accomplished all the stages
Of the Bodhisattva training,
So will I too, for the sake of all beings,
Generate the mind of enlightenment
And accomplish all the stages
Of the Bodhisattva training

This includes practice the “six perfections”:  giving, moral discipline, patience, effort, concentration and wisdom in order to attain enlightenment for the sake of all beings.

The Grand Cross April 2014 It’s a Season of Astrological Weather and Everyone’s Affected

astrological weatherPeople with natal (birth) planets in CARDINAL SIGNS (Aries/Libra, Cancer/Cap) that are close to 15° in their birth chart are going to be most affected personally by this months intensification of the Cardinal Cross.

I’m one of those lucky folks (rocking my 2nd house); it is the same with my oldest daughter.  In another daughter’s chart, it’s hitting her natal Pluto and NN combo and yet another daughter has the grand cross really affecting the area of her Ascendant; so all of  my daughters are being affected by this grand cross because their natal houses have planets in those signs at those approximate degrees, just like mine.

I have to cringe a bit when other people shrug, smile and say something like, “I don’t think astrology works for me–because in my life things are rolling along just fine and actually better than ever, thank you”.    They probably don’t have natal planets in in those degrees in those signs, but everyone is going to be affected in some way, if not so personally, on a community, city, state, national or global level. 

And if your personal life is not deeply affected, it may be affected by someone else’s life who “is” deeply affected personally by this grand cross energy–in which case, you are still impacted in some way. I’ve always admired the way astrologer Steve Forest drives the point home with words.  In his recent newsletter, he wrote:  “Push comes to shove. Breaking points are reached. Crisis reigns. Squares and oppositions are exactly like the sound your engine eventually makes when you’ve decided to ignore the little red oil light on your dashboard. And the reasons are exactly the same: at squares and oppositions, bad behavior catches up with us. The law of consequences reigns.”

I’m not sure its all ‘bad behavior’ like Steven says; but then, he’s more of a master of astrology and myself the apprentice.  I think karmic situations are triggered–certainly and cause us to “work on our stuff” because that crisis energy helps us to see ourselves more clearly.  The cardinal energy is pretty stubborn stuff in our psyches’ and sometimes a bit of a crisis helps to move things along where we may have held on or been resistant.  It can move things along in a very positive way.

Maybe it’s the optimist in me but I can see that’s exactly what is happening in my life–moving things along in a direction that I’d not have (without that crisis push) taken.  But the direction is positive–or that’s how it looks from this point in time anyway.

DESCRIBING THE FEEL OF THE ENERGY:  Cardinal energy goes outward and then withdraws taking two steps forward and one step back and I must say that’s how a lot of energy in my own life has felt–very cardinal!   The energy sort of reaches out for freedom and then steps back for security and containment. AND with cardinal energy there can be a lot of projecting onto others instead of being responsible for one’s own emotions.  Holding other people responsible for one’s own happiness is an example of projection.

Using Steven Forests’ example of the red oil light on the dashboard you ignore right before you “blow a rod” and destroy your engine…. let’s say that if you’re in bumper-to-bumper traffic and somebody else’s light comes on in their dashboard, their engine cuts out and doesn’t restart, you’re going to be affected anyway–maybe not directly, but indirectly.  AND, I might add, in a way that’s in divine order for you too!   The universe is magical that way–everybody gets what they need to evolve in one way or another.

Astrology can be vastly complicated or quite literal and simple.  There’s so much to be said about the dynamics of the Grand Cross and it has been — just Google the term.

I like the way Steve Forest puts it all.  Why re-invent the wheel (especially when I’m supposed to be packing right now–best get at it, chop! chop!)

Therefore, I refer you to Steve’s newsletter for more.

 

My Grand Cross April 2014 Freedom | Housing | Family | Power

photo Joy with Grandchildren
Joy with Grandchildren this past weekend

Yeah, really? seriously?  Wasn’t I just changing babies diapers the other day?  How could this be happening to ‘me’?  I don’t think of myself this way but being the good girl scout, looking ahead to be prepared, I see myself doing just what my own mother (God rest her soul–as they say) did when she was… well, yeah, I think right about my same age.  She found herself a place to live with others of her generation on her limited income and (cat out of the bag here), I’m doing the same thing right now.  I’m too early and way too young for this right?  Probably not; but LO! it’s taxing filling out all those forms and trying to figure it all out.  Which way to go? Which decision to make, while at the same time feeling completely at the mercy of the odds.  There’s not many ways to go actually. You just fill out the forms and pray you can manage until you move up on the list–and until the odds are in your favor, try to survive.

“May the odds be ever in your favor”–Hunger Games.

Well, anyway Cancer Capricorn is part of that grand cross with Aries Libra.  Yeah, there are the planets in those signs of course but let’s just think a minute about Capricorn/Cancer.  Sort of strange how those merge isn’t it? Capricorn (age) and Cancer (the baby/the child).

Isn’t it as we age that we become more childlike?  Think of (oh, do we have to?) those “adult day care centers”–I can’t believe they actually call them that!  That’s a perfect example of the merging of Capricorn (old) and Cancer (baby).  I just realized that just typed “old baby” and I’m about to gross myself out here and maybe you too reader!

And of course wouldn’t you know this grand cross is triggering my 5th and 11th houses and the 2nd and 8th.  Issues with the community, with my children, with my money and the money of others.  Yeah, that’s how it’s all playing out in my life–those areas are being triggered.

And it’s culminating, about to hit the fan as the saying goes.  Well, eventually I’m going to need some help and so I’m lining it up here–that’s just me facing old age even though I kick my legs and swing my arms in the pool as often as I can to stay young.  Yet, I’m falling into my mother’s footsteps to find a community of people my age where income is adjusted to what’s fair and reasonable.  I’m not like these younger adults with  a big corporate entity backing me up with a big paycheck every week; it’s just me out here mother/father god; just little ole’ me.  And maybe I’m delusional but I do deeply believe that I am employed by that unseen force that helps me to help others when I do psychic readings, counseling and astrology.  I’ve got a few calls into the ‘big boss’ if you know what I mean.

Meanwhile, I see some synchronicity–well, a good bit of it if I’m going to be fair in my blogging accounts.  I found out about help that came about in just that way serendipity, coincidence or whatever you’d like to call it–the path was shown and I’ve been following it and getting more and more direction and information.  So, I’m being led even though I see several possible outcomes, as if yet there’s no indication as to which one will manifest.  I’m, therefore, in the trust phase; and they don’t call it blind trust for nothen’!

It’s triggering that Aries/Libra thing too (Mar in Libra opposing Uranus in Aries).  I don’t like to ask for help and I want to remain independent and that’s hard especially as we are dealing with my money and other people’s money:  houses 2 and 8.  That’s the other part of the grand cross.

Wanting to be independent and yet needing to ask children and community–why? because I’m getting old and that’s still a hard one to admit since, like I said–it was just the other day that I was the mom of three little girls!

Yeah, and wanting to be rescued is part of that dynamic too.  Right now would be a good time for prince charming to ride in with saddle bags of money or at least a big house!  Not going to happen:  I know my astrology chart pretty well.  Even if it did, I’d very likely be held prisoner and Mars and Uranus would be totally pissed off about that!

For me the dynamic of this Grand Cross is kicking up some family issues and the realization of aging, housing, money for housing (Cancer — Jupiter [money]  in Cancer [home]) and family/freedom issues.  Echoes of my natal node’s soul lessons  actually–what else is new?

And looking up and out the window now I see the most beautiful sunset; the bright pink-orange with the dusty blue-purple.  And I think of the word Trust again and take a deep breath.  I will know which direction I’m going (or if I’m not going at all) by the time I need to know.

Breathing deeply, feeling so alone in this but remembering I’m not.

I’ve got a partner in spirit world helping and I don’t do anything alone.  Neither do you reader–we’re not alone, we have helpers and guides showing us the next step or keeping us from stepping at all. 

Blind trust; that’s all we need.  Again. And don’t expect anyone to be able to really understand; in fact, don’t seek to be understood–not this month.  Mars and Uranus are very independent and their both very active right now!  Just breathe.

(By the way, they [more adept astrologers than me] say this transit will stay intense through May.  That’s when I must decide about renewing my lease–not surprised about the timing.)

The Conflict of Inner and Outer World the time of Year between Halloween and New Years

sO IT BEGINS INTO THE WOODS
Merchandisers Associated with Christmas pull us into their markets when the natural soul tendency is to go within

Merchandisers Associated with Christmas pull us into their markets while the natural soul tendency at this time of year between Halloween and New Years is to go within

 

There’s a Conflict of Inner and Outer World the time of Year between Halloween and New Years

 

INTO THE WOODS TODAY!  It is November 1st, 2013 as this post is being written.

The Moon is only 4% lit, waning, moving toward New Moon (dark moon) Scorpio. There’s a Uranus-Pluto square today, exact square… it’s a deep, shadowed time… a time to go deeply within… Uranus represents the individual subconscious and Pluto represents the depth of the soul.

The Celts saw this as a sacred or “hallowed” time of year. It is a time for honoring those in spirit and communicating with spirit world–yet, everything in our American or Westernized culture goes against the natural call of spirit.

This is the time of year that the old religions would use divination to look to the future. Is it any surprise that opposing forces created a completely different genre around this time of year?

My soul is directing me to go into the woods, as far and deep as I can go– this I can do metaphysically if not physically. The rain here today supports going within, being quiet–I may even skip my swim in favor of extra meditation or maybe even a dance meditation.

(New Moon date: Nov 3rd, Sunday ~ a good day to do a New Moon ceremony ~ unless the Xtian associated merchandisers don’t trigger the tradition of greed and pull you into the stores and malls.)

Feeling pensive today and at the same time deeply grateful for the freedom that is available to me and of course…. oops!  Spoke too soon; was going to say grateful for the quiet but that’s okay, I can cover up the human’s voices of downstairs neighbors from India with music… so change that: feeling grateful for music sound players!

Now to go into the woods of my mind and soul for a while…..  maybe you would like to join me? 

Taking a day off from life to change patterns AND mammograms, the ‘BIG SQUEEZE’

CHILL BUTTONI’m Chill-axing today!  We all need a day off once in a while–to “check out” of our life in some way which is (for me anyway) a stress reducer.  We need a vacation from our self, our mind our usual patterns.  Really, that’s what it is–a pattern breaker day; that seems a much better word for it.

I’ve been overwhelmed with a few life concerns and have let my ole’ mind and emotions too much freedom to roam and today I feel that a self-imposed ‘shift’ in the pattern is what the inner-doctor ordered.  Oh, and by the way, I do think we have one.

Have had some tests, screenings that they give you free (that’s the first joke; nothing is free) so that they can find reasons to bill medicare for things that (in my opinion; based on research via google) are not necessary.  I could feel myself being sucked down that black hole of a reality… a life of “let’s go to the doctor and get more tests”.  I’ve nipped it in the bud for now with a NO which I feel is well informed and reasonable.

And then we deal with things that go bump in the night around here and disturb sleep and add it all up and i need a day off.  (You know that’s true when I don’t even want to go and swim!)

The headache that developed at the “mammogram, ultrasound and now we-want-to-stick-a few-needles-into-your-breast-but-don’t-worry-we-give-you-a-needle-to-numb-you-first’ place yesterday still lingers a bit along with the sound that shakes whats left of the psyche barely holding together at 2 am—the nightly wall banging from downstairs neighbors.  My music is on softly but i do keep it on to direct my mind to IT rather than the voices discussing know-knows-what half the night.

Toss it all up in a bowl and add my battle bruised (or maybe even broken) right small toe that i hit upon the furniture a few days ago (yes—again! I cannot be trusted to walk barefoot)…. it’s just that today I needed a break to just sit and ask myself a few questions… contemplations.

Stress Free ZoneDivination helps…. i ‘d already pretty much decided “Hell NO, I won’t go” for the suggested needle biopsy of my breasts.

My YES/NO Tarot Card Spread gives me a validating NO also; assisting me to go deeper into the stress free zone.

I’ll run it past my very grounded and reasonable male general doctor who of course will tell me to go forward to cover his own you know what (think:  malpractice insurance) but hopefully my tendency to think of him as a reasonable person isn’t wrong.  Meaning, maybe he will tell me that my theories about it are, themselves, reasonable enough to delay this for a year or two in order to recheck things.

It had to be a man who invented such a procedure which includes squeezing a woman’s breast tortuously between metal and glass–give me a break.  Like a sheep led to it’s slaughter, I allowed this not once but twice and then an ultrasound and who knows what they will suggest next–well, I do, they did suggest a needle aspiration procedure.  What next? cut off my breasts?  C’mon; there’s no history of breast cancer in our family anyway.   No, I’m stopping this nonsense right now and if you are a hypochondriac reading this, i don’t want your opinion; thanks anyhow.

I’m talking to myself here or just doing nothingness today which is rare for me to begin with–but I felt I needed to take a pattern-breaker day so that i can gather the energy to redirect the whole energy field again tomorrow in the direction that I desire to go as I climb out of this medical black hole which I somehow allowed myself to be drug into.

My intuition says no, my tarot cards say no and once my doctor (a male) tells me that my refusal is reasonable (or whether he does or not), I’ve made up my mind.  I don’t worship the ground that doctors walk on —quite far from it!  I worked in the medical profession and with my eyes open so I have an education that the average person may not.

I trust my own intuition and inner feelings about things but still try to educate myself and there still seems to be a good deal of controversy over the necessity of mammograms at any age from what I’m reading and of course i do look at sources that do not have connections to the Radiology associations of America and/or the mammogram equipment providers who are bed with each other and the American Cancer Institute.  There are entire books written on this whole mammogram necessity controversy and the effectiveness.  I had to balk initially at the “big squeeze” thinking “can’t they cause a problem crushing my breast tissue like this?”  they can and needle biopsies that open up the fluid sac and drag cells out tracing the needle likely cause more problems too–they have.  Anyway.   Like I said, No.  No needles for my breast tissue, thanks.

The radiology doctor simply stated what she’s going do  (as if i had no choice) and wanted me to schedule the appointment right then.  Are you kidding?  That’s where I drew the line as if the ultrasound wasn’t invasive enough—puleeeeze!

I will say that i was totally surprised it all went that far—but then the Sun was opposing Uranus yesterday:  the astrological signature for the element of surprise, so considering the astrology I shouldn’t have been.

I’ve just realized that I have no moral to the story and no point to be made that will be helpful for others–which is what I try to do when I blog.

Maybe the point is that I think that it’s okay to take a pattern-breaker day  (or call it stress day if you’d prefer) when we feel it’s in order.  You see, i swam my laps anyway after leaving this whole mammogram, radiology business yesterday—swam with a headache.  No let’s be real, I’d have to call it a migraine (not just a wee simple headache) which intensified the longer i was in that Imaging Center place.  I though the swim would help and to some extent it did and the I had a totally empty stomach so that i thought food would help the headache after the swim… it lingered and still does but only very slightly.  I am breaking that pattern today; that’s why I’ve given myself permission to do nothing more than what I want to do and right now it’s typing this blog.

I’ve not been sleeping well lately due to my need to stream music over the small TV in my bedroom at night… it helps me focus on something besides the voices beneath me which come and go all night long escalating again at around 6 am—last night was particularly difficult with a dramatic dream involving the neighbors.  I call those kinds of dreams, venting dreams since they are energy releasing.

I am going to take my sore chest (from two mammograms in one week–just say no, and I didn’t) and yoga mat out to the balcony and stretch in the sunlight and meditate for a while.  I’ve realized that I don’t like being around radiologist or mammogram technicians much more than any other doctor/hospital vibes.  But my general doctor (had to have one for the free screening from medicare–welcome to old age) is really cool — a reasonable, kindly, about as old as myself, Irish gentleman with good humor and like i said a very reasonable attitude.  I do like and trust him and believe me haven worked with many doctors from my own medical profession background in physical therapy, I know a bit about docs.

But then again—as a product of the 60’s we learned to be suspicious of “the establishment” and to question any so-called authority which I see is something quite lacking in the subsequent generations, including my own children and distant family members.  Just sayen’.

The Grand Cross and The Matrix — Venus opposing Uranus Squaring Pluto and Jupiter 2013

Grand Cross 2013 Venus opposing Uranus squaring Pluto and Jupiter
Grand Cross 2013 Venus opposing Uranus squaring Pluto and Jupiter

The astrological alignment of four planets in astrology called The Grand Cross  (to my mind) is like one of the final scenes in the movie trilogy THE MATRIX.

Venus is opposing Uranus and squaring Jupiter which is opposing Pluto, so squaring both!

What does it mean when Venus engages with all these big player planets?

Relating with others intensifies!

One way or another and it’s building right now, it  looks like  some things (likely issues involving money, power, freedom and control in relationships) are going to get challenged, squared away and hopefully resolved over the next few weeks in people’s personal lives.

More specific you say?  It could be like this:  faith and beliefs (Jupiter) squares freedom and liberation (Uranus).

And your values (Venus) are challenged so that Transformation on some level (Pluto) happens.

You already feel it, you must!  What is a hot issue in your life right now?

Something around that gets sacrificed on your personal Grand Cross over these next few weeks.

Some thing or some one is going to be released for your evolutionary benefit!  So that PEACE can be achieved.

When I think of the Grand Cross configuration in astrology, I always think of that final scene in the Matrix wherein Neo, THE ONE, is asked “What do you want?” and he answers, “Peace”.

That’s how I understand the purpose of a Grand Cross!

For each of us the energy of the next few weeks will play out differently but it will involve the archetype of Venus in some way and how Venus is placed in your birth chart as well as the Nodes of the Moon (karmic past and evolutionary intent of your soul).  The various Venus energy archetypes include:  love, relationships, values, money to name a few and the other archetypes of the signs and houses it rules (2nd, 7th, Taurus, Libra).

Hang on snoopy; the next few weeks could get interesting!