Personal Tarot Traits – I was the Knight of Swords!

Personal Tarot Traits – Relating Personal Daily Experiences to a Daily Tarot Card

Knight_of_SwordsI was the Knight of Swords.  This card is about obeying one’s own Spirit!  I was the Knight of Swords yesterday… well, at least there was me personifying this archetype.  I spoke my truth.  I was brave.  Someone (like me) with a lot of “people pleasing” and “confrontational avoiding” Libra in a birth chart finds that a challenge.

I took some action involving communicating something that represented my personal truth yesterday.  We could say that I defended my own truth which took a bit of courage in a way that is untypical of me.

(By the way, I’m not referring to anything having to do with yesterday’s King of Swords–I’m writing about an entirely different life experience.)

Sometimes when we do this kind of thing — speak our mind  honestly or make a decision that is in alignment with our inner wisdom — especially if we’re not accustomed to doing so — we may feel a pang of concern about it afterward.  Did I create karma or set into motion something that may come back to bite me?

When I drew this card yesterday,  I had no idea what it could mean for the day ahead. My own habit when I see a knight of any suit is to think “change” in some way. Perhaps “change” was true to some extent yesterday as well since, one thing leading to the next, I ended up changing my office arrangement again!  Which in this small apartment is like putting together a jigsaw puzzle.  LOL   As I was moving things around the apartment I thought of the Knight of Swords and of my usual tendency to think “change” with this card.   And of course “action” is another keyword that comes to my mind.  So those things fit with my office rearranging.

Yet, the other archetype here has to do with words, verbal stuff, communication — we’re talking about swords after all associated with air and Gemini energy.

The day before we had the King of Swords giving his speech at the local YMCA, but the Knight speaks more in personal terms, expressing personal opinions and ideals and … simply speaking his own mind in a more personal or one-on-one manner.

Yet, the Knight of Swords has to be careful not to be self-serving in his communication and aggressiveness has no place when speaking one’s truth either.

Upon self-examination I don’t think aggressiveness applies and the self-serving part is still up in the air (pardon the pun),  but I call following my intuition, even though it was rather impulsive, something that is fair for all concerned.

How do I know it was my intuition guiding me to speak my truth?  Well, first of all there was a feeling and secondly, there was that familiar thing that happens when I sort of watch that energy that comes in and takes over.  Overpowering confidence and calmness cover the whole scene as well.  That’s how it is when a higher part of me takes over.  It’s happened before, and I recognize it.  The reader may have to take my word for that one.

Moving bravely in pursuit of one’s ideals and honest truth despite any cost and allowing the higher mind and intuition to work without fear or apprehension are descriptions of the Knight of Sword’s energy.  That’s how it acts in the psyche and the world.

Allowing one’s self to be “daring”–that’s a good way to express it.  And that’s what I did yesterday.  Daring myself to speak my truth in way that wasn’t forceful, just matter of fact.

This Knight of Swords doesn’t control his horse but allows himself to lunge forward ‘with’ the horse.

When one obeys one’s own Spirit (my personal experience correlates this fact), the gift that comes is one of avoiding ugly and unnecessarily unpleasant situations.

In astrological terms (if you are an astrology buff) we could think of the Knight of Swords as the aspect called the “opposition”.

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ADDENDUM – WHY AND WHEREFORE’S OF THESE TYPES OF POSTS 

In the morning when I first awaken, I let guidance come in and do a waking dream for the day ahead.  On one of these occasions recently I received a directive in the form of an idea laced with intensity.   “Draw a card at the beginning of the day and reflect on its meaning and then revisit it at day’s end correlating the day’s experiences with the card.”  That’s the treasure at the end of the rainbow so-to-speak.  Doing so gives insight into the world of divination for the purpose of adding layers or additional traits to the tarot card meaning.  This deeper understanding to the cards can be applied for use when doing future readings.  It’s like letting Life Itself teach us the cards.  

Boundaries and Blackbirds: Our greatest challenge is to break away from the herd

What do boundaries and blackbirds have in common?
What do Boundaries and Blackbirds have in common?

Carl Jung said that as humans our greatest challenge is to break away from the herd

Boundaries.  Those lines we draw around ourselves to maintain balance and to protect our psyche from invasion.  Yes, or maybe ‘intrusion’ is a gentler word.

The push of energy that comes from the behavior and the demands of others requires a boundary.  That boundary keeps us from being used or manipulated by others and within that boundary we can express our true nature.  Personal boundaries allow us to be in the driver’s seat of our own lives.

Without healthy boundaries we sometimes give up a part of our self to be available or accommodating in a way that enables others and causes a loss of self-respect.

We can  become so entangled with another person and their needs (co-dependent behavior) that we lose your own identity. This undermines our integrity and leads to a loss of self-respect — and the respect of others around you.

Respecting boundaries. I asked my self today if I honor other people’s boundaries.  Do I push myself on others?  When I get a hint that a person does not wish to socialize with me, do I continue to insist that they do so?  And  do I solicit others in passive-aggressive ways to elicit sympathy from others using them to assist me to push boundaries even further?

Sounds like a little bit like the animal–the bull, doesn’t it.  But you know how some people keep on antagonizing the other, right?   I have a visual.   Someone who is like a bull and charges upon others.   Wave that red flag in my face one more time and I may, do like the bull, and charge!  🙂

Do people have a fundamental right to set limits and expectations in their life without incurring the judgment of others?  I think they do.  You know that saying,  “You can’t really understand another person’s experience until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes.“–??

Can people consider the wishes of others yet still make choices regarding personal boundaries?

People are the way they are.  Can we accept that without judging them, trying to manipulate or change them?

I operate from my own truth.  You do too.  And when we respect other people’s truths,  we expect our own truths to be respected in return.

Manipulative people do not understand boundaries.  They force themselves into the space of other people’s lives.

Where’s the compassion?  Fear is the root of it all, you know?  The boundary pushing person has a fear of not being loved, not being good enough, deserving enough.  Okay, that’s understood.  So then what? Do we let the person keep pushing or what?

Compassion for the boundary pusher and for the one with the boundaries ( both ) is what’s needed here.  There is the defensiveness from the one with the boundaries who says, “See what I see, hear what I hear, feel what I feel and then maybe you will understand.”  And the other one, in the meanwhile,  of course still pushes– the habit of fear being the driving motivation.

“You couldn’t handle half of what I’ve dealt with and don’t understand that there’s a reason that I do what I do”, says the one who has been willing to accept responsibility for their own life and who has developed the self-respect which created the boundary.  Victim talk?

Personal boundaries are more than OK–and it doesn’t mean that you are selfish or unkind if you push back when someone pushes yours.  Boundaries mean that you have a clear picture of who you are and how you want to live.

In a family dynamic it is always more difficult or better said–complex.  Sometimes we have to endure a person for the sake of keeping the relatives happy, right?  Or do we?  Do we enable dysfunctional behaviors in family members? Or don’t we?

The “herd mystique” and it’s allure

There is a quote from Carl Jung about this being one of the human’s greatest challenges.  Fitting in with the group, the herd, the clan–“You are family so you HAVE TO be around me!”  Where is that written?  Genetic connection or NOT;  do we vote with our presence indicating that dysfunctional behavior is acceptable?

On another note, is it our responsibility to straighten other people out in ways that we believe they should ‘act’ according to our own standards of behavior?  Whoa! Now  that’s one huge judgment if we believe that.  Where’s THAT truth?  Speak it.  Does that sound right if you say it aloud?  Best not to push your truth onto others or become a evangelist — that’s a karma creator if there ever was one.

By placing a boundary and living within it, you are living your own truth and being compassionate to yourself and to the other as well.  You are also teaching people in your life what self-respect looks like through example.

We have to trust what we know and what we have learned from the work that we have done in our own life via self-analysis, theology, philosophy and spirituality. 

This is especially true if we speak about times when our boundaries are pushed and disrespected, especially in a family situation.  Those are the most charged with the opportunity for growth and for teaching through example.

People who push boundaries are giving you the opportunity to develop or to teach self-respect.  Pushing back is a delicate art.  Knowing how to push back against pushy people takes stamina and skill. (Personally, some days I feel too old for it quite honestly.)

Anyway, push-back involves maintaining your own autonomy and self-esteem when you are being invaded.  You know that you need to step back and protect yourself, while minimizing any hostility or confrontation.  Not easy.  People are going to be offended.  Sometimes I think pushy people know that and it makes them push all the more–or they enjoy the drama.

People who push boundaries are acting out of fear and desperately trying to fulfill their own needs.  Social self-reliance is not really their forte’, their strong suit yet; they’re working on it.  We’re all a work in progress.

Self-care means recognizing the importance of your feelings and honoring them and when you set boundaries, this is what you are doing.  It’s important.

But we’re “All One”–right?

We’re all one and connected and while this is true, and while we can be compassionate and understanding as we see the ‘bigger picture’ with self and others, we still have to be able to function here and in order to do so we must stay emotionally healthy while maintaining boundaries… all the while doing the relationship dance.  Being human isn’t easy.

Being human isn’t easy and being the best human you can be… well, it’s tricky sometimes.

I think the best thing we can do is get out of the judgment with the whole business with boundaries and relationships and being social.  I think Jung was right about the “herd mystique”– our greatest challenge being to break away from the herd.

To fully “individuate” is to be able to stop trying to “fit in” and  to be comfortable living in your own truth.  Separating one’s self from those to whom one does not feel an authentic connection takes courage.  The wrath of the clan falls upon you sometimes; that comes along with the territory of being your own person.

There is perceived safety in numbers which is an illusion just as much as any other erroneous belief we hold about living in this dimension.  Some people, and maybe I’m one, feel more authentic outside of the herd.  Strong boundaries are needed and when threatened, need re-enforcing.  Should that be a surprise?

What about karma?

Karma.  It’s our intention that creates it.  I think that needs to be said as well.  To have a boundary does not carry ill intent.

No man is an island onto himself, it is said.  We are one; yet, it is ego that separates us or gives a unique history of experiences and thus identity.

Judgment also separates us– i.e. “…you are different” or “… you should behave toward me in one way or another”.  It all gets us to work on our human growth and evolution both individually and collectively.

blackbirdBut in the meanwhile, as we do all of that, I like the blackbird way of interacting with their fellow birds. If a bird lands on a nearby branch and is not the mate of that blackbird they do a little nod (a bow) and fly away. Blackbirds are pretty solitary.  They are known to establish their territory, fiercely defending it (boundaries) by driving off any of their kind that get close to their vicinity.  Boundaries and blackbirds seem to go together.

What’s the bottom line? The ending conclusion? The final thought?  The summary? The point? The meaning?  I don’t know.   I just do hope something here helps someone out in cyber-world as I worked through some thoughts about boundaries today.

Here’s an article about emotional manipulation that I came across shortly after writing the blog above.  Some may find this helpful:

http://themindunleashed.org/2014/09/8-ways-spot-emotional-manipulation-free.html

When the Moon Transits the 9th House

Moon in the 9th House

The Moon (and therefore the mooD) wants to be immersed in wholeness.  The emotional experience is wide, includes everything.  Here’s a personal experience to (hopefully) explain those first few sentences better.  The Moon is moving through my own 9th house now so I am describing from that point of view.  Everything seems linked to everything else emotionally much too easily right now.  Example:  when one thought/feeling comes up, it’s like a Google search return/result.  I feel “this” because of “that” which is related to “this other thing” and while the emotions cannot be safely or securely compartmentalized, in order not to go into “overwhelm”, it’s best not to go into the one first though/feeling because it leads to all the others much too easily—immersed into the wholeness of it all.

This 9th House Moon relates to the archetype of the house ruler Jupiter/Sagittarius.  “Big Picture” is one archetype here.  Personally, the feeling I have about anything emotional right now is this:  best not to “go there” with that first feeling. Better to let all those emotions go or drown in them.  That’s a personal example of wide experiences that are associated with the 9th house and corresponding Jupiter/Sag largeness.  Jupiter, by the way, is known to intensify and expand any area that it touches.

So if a Moon is here in the 9th, it is looking to feel secure and happy (as all Moons are), it has to consider the whole big picture with emotional things.  This can be good or bad depending on what the other astrological influences the Moon is involved with at the time.  But no matter what the other influences are, one is that the Moon will affect our psyche in such a way that it gathers up and unifies all emotional links, binding them together in a big picture.

The emotional nature during this transit could be attracted to something outside of personal cultural norms in order to feel secure or happy–philosophy, long distance travel, interest in other cultures are all 9th house archetypes and a Moon here could trigger those interests as a way of feeling emotionally happy.  One example of that may be turning to spiritual beliefs or rituals that are outside of one’s own culture.  Perhaps a westerner turning to Hindu or Buddhist philosophy to cope with or resolve any emotional discomfort of the day.

Generally the mood during the time of this lunar transit could be extremely sensitive to moral issues.  One specific example could involve the karma of truth-telling versus telling lies.  Personally, I seem to experience people who change their tune based on their current changing needs and therefore their version of the truth changes based on their current need, desire or mood.  The 9th and it’s polarity the 3rd is sometimes called the “truth versus lies” axis and it’s also known as the B.S. axis too.

Essentially, the 9th house Luna is looking for “meaning” in the life at the time of this transit.  The ‘search for meaning’ and also the ‘big picture’ archetypes could be why the intuition and right brain are associated with this house.  Luna here would trigger the right brain and intuitive faculties.

An emotional question during this transit of the Moon could typically be something like, “What does it all mean?” or “What is the Universe trying to tell me?”  Again, the search for meaning.   This is because the energy of the Moon at this time enables us to feel the connections of the experiences linked to various emotions but we may not know what the greater message is.  (Then again, maybe we do.)

So the theme here is “the search for truth” and “the search for meaning”.

Some call this house “The House of the Believer”.  Our emotional connections during this transit may be prompting us to ask “What do I believe?”  And each month during this transit those beliefs may change or restructure a little bit based on emotion.

Another consideration is that our emotional responses to this searching and belief-adjusting and other emotional triggers can cause us to “damn the torpedoes” as the saying goes or to take a course of action despite known risks!  We could leap wide-eyed into the unknown.

Still another response of this transit of Luna in house 9 could be that we wrap emotion around a belief and become self righteous in what we believe.  This would be less than a positive response to our emotion.  I’ve heard a astrologer call this the Jerry Fallwell house of “convince and convert”.  (Religion!)

However we respond to life with Luna stimulating this area of our life,  it is good to remember that we’re motivated by our own (sometimes selfish) desire to feel happy and secure.

Dreams could be more active at this time, and as mentioned above, our personal philosophy could be adjusted or changed at this time due to our emotions.

If we are waiting for the manifestation of something we wish to create or experience in life, this is a time when it will be difficult to be patient–impatience (an emotion) will be most acute at this time.

It’s a good time to examine your basic values, priorities, beliefs and assumptions.  That said (or typed), I think of the line Byron Katie (The ‘Work’) is famous for, “Can you absolutely know that this is true?” 

When Luna triggers the 9th house area of your life as I’ve been describing in this post, it is a good time to get away from ‘the ordinary’.  Maybe read a book that will give you some new pictures and perspectives about your concerns now.

Its a good time to take a class, to learn something new that will help you with faith, intuition and/or philosophy.  Your emotional nature will be attracted to this naturally when Luna moves through your 9th house.  New areas of interest fulfill emotional needs at that time.

As I write this blog post Luna is in my 9th house .  And I ordered a book today about writing and publishing.  This feels very emotionally satisfying.  It’s right on time.  The 9th h house is about learning new things and it’s known for its connection to publishing.  Learning something new fulfills my emotional needs now and by the way another archetype of the 9th house is education.  These are the kinds of endeavors that enhance one’s happiness and sense of satisfaction and security when the Moon transits the 9th.

Planning a trip could also be something that fulfills emotional needs as Luna moves through this house of your chart—especially if this travel involves going to a foreign place.

Generally, optimism is assigned to this house and so this lunar transit is usually a time when this emotion is more prominent–one has to simply use care about the level of optimism balancing it with practicality.

Next, the 10th house!  As I finish typing this post, the Moon has already arrived in my 10th.  Last night I tripped over a pair of shoes that one of my roommates left in front of the door. It was dark.  I nearly feel but kept my balance thinking of how broken bones could could have resulted had I not.  The 10th is ruled by Saturn and Capricorn whose archetype relates to structure and bones; grateful that all mine are intact despite a near fall.  If you’re following these posts, see you in the 10th House!   


 

Perceiving the Minds and Inner Truth of Others – Kua 61 Emptiness, Openness

You could, if you wanted to, observe a good deal by observing any group of people—either in person—or on the Internet in any of those group settings and those observations would give you a fairly good feel for that person’s INNER TRUTH which is being projected outwardly. The heart’s feelings and wisdom (or lack thereof) will eventually make itself known to the careful observer—it is about consciousness. And it is amazing to see it in action. It also helps me realize my own which is why we are here with each other, I suppose, rather than wing it completely alone. Yet, we’re still alone even in a group of other consciousness’es in bodies or in twitter land or other internet gathering places.

If you think about it, the Internet is a perfect example of how it REALLY ‘is’. What I mean is there you are on your computer, alone on your keyboard; yet, in some way still having interaction with various other levels of mind who show up on your screen through your Internet Connection. A perfect example of life.

We can hang out in Facebook-ville or the local train station and we’re just as much alone and interacting with other minds around us; it’s just that at the train station those minds are within a physical body. But, we’re still just as much alone—and this is true even if we have our family in the mix of minds and bodies. We’re still one mind observing the rest and sometimes interacting with them (relating to them) so that we can determine who it is we are and what it is we believe. Our Inner truth, their inner truth and sorting it all out and that takes, if you don’t mind me saying, a good deal of humor. Human nature really is pretty comical if one gives it half a chance to show itself by standing back and watching instead of participating. And we can also laugh at our self in the process too.

It makes me think of times when there’d be someone at a party or social event that others would think of as a wall-flower and sure as rain someone would come along and try to drag the person into the heart of the activity only to hear them protest that they were really enjoying watching. Why does no one ever believe that this could be true? Anyway, these thoughts are the precursor to more serious consideration of the KUA of the day which is 61, “Inner Truth”—the gentle, wind above the joyous, lake. VISUAL: the wind blows over the lake and stirs the surface of the water.

A heart/mind has to be free of prejudices in order to be open to truth; therefore, dogma has no place in observing the truth in self or others. In fact, it’s a hindrance. Truth is not found by adopting certain beliefs from the local preacher or priest-like cult or by any type of social conditioning. It comes from the silent voice of the intuitive heart.

The problem with social conditioning and dogma is that a person is deeply influenced without knowing they are conditioned and dogmatized—it’s all very subtle but it does not miss the careful observer. There are those who find joy in the victimization of their religious figures and model themselves right along with that and let us not omit the new age white lighters who find the multi-million dollar bandwagon to jump on by repackaging the dogma into a new form. It’s all plainly there in front of the eyes of a careful observer with the open, intuitive, free of dogma and unprejudiced heart. And it’s really hard not to laugh about it all until one realizes that people are serious and have created their own specialized hell out of it—and this elicits a certain compassion but at the same time acceptance knowing that someone’s truth is what it is until it isn’t anymore. And some minds with bodies find joy and freedom in obeying those that they deem to be their superiors with their books of writing to stand behind.

It becomes a struggle some days to know if one should smile or cry at what is clearly observed without influence—just simple observation with unattached emotionalism that is always available but often ignored. It’s sometimes insidious but often obvious. Like, there it is—there. Obvious. And it isn’t difficult to see it and know it, for people will bend over backwards to pour out their inner truth to you without even trying to do so.

What the difference is between the truth attained via dogma and social conditioning is both vital and spiritual. The inner voice of one’s own spaciousness is serine and based on love—that love has nothing whatsoever to do with victimization or suffering and all to do with inner peace.

Heaven and hell are both seeds in the mind that are just waiting for you to think them into being and there are many of those seeds planted upon this earth—which ones will you nurture? Which ones are being nurtured by the other minds around you? Do you have a belief ABOUT truth (call this religion) or are you more interested in inner truth?

When anyone has had ENOUGH of the truth that’s been handed to you; when you begin to awaken from the spell of religious and social conditioning and when you can duck and dodge the new-age white-lighters and their multi-million dollar businesses made from repackaged christianity, you will enter an entirely new territory which in spiritual terms is known as “walking the path”.

What does that mean? It has to do with abandoning the prior conditioning and then questioning life. And this leads you within and helps you get in touch with your own inner truth. And that, ultimately, comes out in your attitude eventually whether you want it to or not.

BOTTOM LINE: Once you achieve a state of emptiness and openness, you will be open to receiving wisdom and knowledge from inner sources and the Universe Itself. It requires an open mind and that starts with releasing dogma and beliefs based on old paradigms and patriarchies.

Eventually, you will be able, then, to perceive the minds and inner truths of others.

Daily Divination 7-30-11 misinterpreting strong karmic connections for LOVE – I-CHING Kua 54, The Marrying Maiden; Astrological and Tarot correlations

 Man’s task is to become conscious of the contents that press upward from the unconscious.  –Carl Jung

Whenever we have compromised our authenticity and truth, the first symptom is usually a feeling of emptiness within. And to live in a world of make-believe and to insist on living in a fantasy, we gradually lose touch with who we really are. I did that once in a connection with someone – a very confusing relationship. Like many other people do, because a strong connection was felt, a misinterpretation was experienced.

I was fooling myself and in denial, failing to honor and respect my own truth. Finally, like in all cases such as these, circumstances evolved to the breaking point wherein I had to become completely honest with myself—and with many addictive types of situations, more than once before I could finally break the chains of my own illusion.

Today the I-CHING Kua 54 brings a cosmic communiqué about relationships. The paragraph above was about a one-on-one partnership; however this guidance applies to more than a personal or love relationship—we could relate this to business partnerships, a company, organization, family or any other type of group.

In any of those scenarios it is possible to enter unknowingly at first into a situation wherein our own spirit becomes compromised due to eventual inequality or subordination that comes about through a desire to be in a role or to be in a certain position.

Sometimes it takes a while before we realize we have become a pawn in someone else’s game or have fallen from grace due to susceptibility to flattery or manipulated through unrealistic promises.

What comes to mind is the word “discernment” as it relates to knowing who to trust and who not to trust and perhaps naiveté or gullibility. Some folks can get themselves very confused and in big trouble by believing others, taking everything at face value.

Gosh, what comes to mind next is the whole scenario of the Anthony family—you know about that right? The Florida legal case involving the death of little Caylee Anthony. What we could see happening in some of the family members involved is what is referred to as “silver-tongued devil’s”. What does that mean? People who will say anything to manipulate and coerce and other folks who take those silver-tongued individuals at face value.

I think one of the greatest lessons for those who are born with a consciousness that is too innocent and naïve is to develop a level of sophistication that incorporates the concept that some people can be really good liars. And some will lie about things that it isn’t even necessary to lie about. And further that people will manipulate the truth for their own agenda. If we have not grown up around folks like these, it is very easy to be taken in—we just cannot conceive of that type of manipulative dishonesty!

It’s confusing. And when confronted with it we will say to ourselves, “That’s what they said, why would they lie?” Mostly because we wouldn’t, we believe that other people are like we are.  They’re not always.

Ho! And that’s the real wake up call, isn’t it? When we find out, in undeniable terms, that all along we have been a pawn in someone else’s game, it is an awakening of sorts.

BUT there are no real victims and then we have to ask ourselves how it happened and what our own role was in the scenario and then we can get honest about it.

Was it our own low self-esteem issue that got us caught in the illusion? Were we failing to respect our self and our intuition?

When these things happen, as we look back we can clearly see how we were lying to ourselves or denying the obvious. We might ask ourselves, “How could I have been so blind”?

One of the most painful things in life is facing the truth that we’ve sold ourselves short—or perhaps for a while exchanged our very own soul by entering into agreements that weren’t good for us in the first place.

The bottom line message is that we need to allow ourselves to feel it and take responsibility for our part in it—this is the first step in release and reclaiming our soul. And feeling those emotions of self-betrayal (even though initially it feels like the other (s) betrayed us) can be horribly painful. It’s like I blogged about yesterday… bringing light into those dark places!

I’ve got to say from my personal experience, that I thought I’d cleared the energy (of that one relationship situation) many times; but, apparently I didn’t go deep enough. It was back when Uranus was exiting my 7th house and my transiting SN was hitting all the 12th house planets that the final catharsis occurred. It was pretty dramatic and probably involved clearing more than one lifetime’s worth of issues. Sleepless nights and many tears were involved but after all the review and re-examination in a new light (it took some time), I learned quite a lot and felt so much clearer about so many things. I know that sounds vague, but I am sparing you the details.

When we wake up to the realization that there is a fatal flaw in what we thought was going to be a perfect situation, we sometimes want to go back to sleep again and not look at reality—meaning that we put those rose-colored glasses back on and make excuses to cover up what we know deep down is true but simply can’t face—sometimes we don’t see it but everyone else does but we think it is they who are confused (not us).

We can so easily ignore the whispering of our own intuition when we become attached to a desired outcome—that happens so easily. The thing is to love yourself out of it and the first thing is forgiveness, knowing you did the best you could at the time.

In my case, it was an instance of misinterpreting the signals of ‘strong connection’ to another soul as something that it wasn’t. It was karmic connection that needed to be released in this lifetime.

ASTROLOGY AND TAROT KEYWORD CORRELATIONS TO KUA 54

Aquarius – willingness to be a ‘group of one’; detachment

Pisces – illusion; delusion

Taurus – self-reliance

Gemini – truth versus lies

Death – releasing unhealthy attachments

Hanged Man – reversing a situation; seeing things from the opposite viewpoint

The Chariot – liberating from old patterns; distinguishing the true desires of the enlightened self from the compulsive desires of the un-awakened self; success on one’s journey; the need to release emotions

Lovers – Looking to another person to make you feel whole and complete when you already are; balancing one’s own male and female energies i.e. ‘the marriage within’; the inability to see parts of an issue to which one is temporarily blinded due to attachment to a desired outcome; the need to develop discrimination i.e. knowing who to trust and who not to trust

Fool — innocence and naiveté; being foolish

The Star — being guided by inner wisdom and intuition; discovering the truth within; cleansing and renewal

Daily Divination 6-17-11 the Relativity of Truth, Speaking without Forethought, Dissociative Emotional Responses –Aloof Page of Swords and Aquarius

Page of Swords and Aquarius – speaking without forethought –we all tend to do it from time to time and being in an emotional position of detachment (lack of compassion) supports our ability to be that way. Sometimes connecting compassionately is way too painful, so we’d rather name everyone the bad guy and get above it all or completely disassociate ourselves.

And the passion that we have for our own truth or views from our own detached position can result in being insensitive to others in our speech and actions.

Immaturity and a high amount of defensiveness (perhaps even child-like narcissism) can be part of the dynamic that forms today’s message. Today’s message, inspired by today’s tarot card, is asking us to look at our level of selfishness as compared to self-less-ness and do a self-inquiry as to whether we are in balance. Are we considering that truth is relative or that our version of truth is the one, correct version?

We all have the ability to act like children when we are afraid that our needs are not going to be met or when we are fearful of being hurt. We become demanding and use our intellect (Aquarius) to take swings at anyone or anything in our path. Here’s an example.

Whenever I see this card, it takes me back to a time when my youngest daughter was of late middle-school and early high-school age. For a while, as she struggled to mature, she was just like we see in the image to the left above—swinging her sword, not yet knowing how to manage her powerful energy in an effective way.

Swords relate to air, intellect and truth. In those days, to her, her own truth was the only version that existed. There was a certain amount of detachment (Aquarius) and aloofness with plenty of attitude in her demeanor. Many teenagers evolve through this stage. Yet, we see some adults that remain in that state throughout their life.

When anyone is maintaining a position of detachment over long periods, there can be something painful as a root cause. Some wound, some hurt, some fear that is at the core. In evolutionary astrology, many times the astrologer will look at the sign of Aquarius and the ruler of Aquarius, Uranus, and the Aquarian 11th house to determine areas of trauma and where the soul is trying to liberate or detach in the current lifetime.

As a self-protective mechanism, we can (and many times do) disassociate when life becomes too extreme, harsh or painful. When people talk about an event or circumstance in life being surreal, that comes (I believe) from a separation and disassociation that is occurring because the mind cannot relate to what is happening. This is as it should be, but eventually we have to go back into it and try to make some sort of logical sense out of it, integrate some truth from it and extract some point of wisdom if possible so that we can evolve and grow.

Today’s message is about getting-a-handle-on, controlling, stabilizing and maturing in our emotional responses to others as well as examining where we may be detaching in life and for what reason. Are we detaching or disassociating in a way that is healthy or are we doing so as a way of escape or avoidance?

Are you willing to embrace difficult situations knowing that in doing so you will increase your strength and maturity? Are you acting honestly and speaking directly without being selfish or harsh?