Daily Divination 6-7-11 Watch It, People are Speaking their Truth! Are You? – the Sun is in Gemini – Knight of Swords!

Watch It, People are Speaking their Truth! Are You?  The Sun is in Gemini and this archetype relates to the Knight of Swords!

How do we speak our truth, say what we feel and express our opinions (expressing what we feel that we need to) in order to be in integrity with our self without being manipulative, controlling, overly willful, impatient or unkind? It’s a pickle! If we suppress or repress what we feel we need to say or express, this creates more problems in our own spirit. Yet, sometimes we can go too far and express from our own hurts and disappointments instead of our authenticity. For example, take this situation with someone who is very close to me… it relates to the Knight of Swords tarot card that I pulled today. Maybe there is something here that you can relate to or draw something from for your own path.

I am working to resolve some strong feelings of disappointment and perhaps even anger around a situation with someone regarding a situation from many years ago. At the time, I repressed and suppressed my own feelings. My sense of it is that at the time, I was on overdrive selflessly helping this person, putting my own feeling aside.

Recently something happened in this individual’s life and it feels (for me) like the past repeating itself to some extent—at least to the point that the previously repressed feelings are triggered. In my soul-searching as I ask myself where my recent feelings of anger toward this individual are coming from, it is clear they relate back to events from many years ago.

It’s like the picture on the tarot card—the energy is coming right at me! All of it, I’m certain, relates to my own shadow—parts of myself that I’ve been not willing to integrate. I asked for some help around this situation and had a dream last night and within the night reverie, I woke in the midst of it and said, “I did the same thing!” My take on it is that the soul-mind was showing me that which I’m disturbed with this person about is part of my own past somehow.

This integrative process was helpful and since then my feelings have softened—yet, that doesn’t change the fact that yesterday I spoke to this person firmly and directly expressing my thoughts and feelings without holding much back. I wasn’t unduly unkind; yet without premeditation (it just happened) I simply could not suppress or repress.   I gave voice to the anger that I’d held down for so many years without realizing it was there.

I’m finding lately that I’m able to stand in my truth and express it but am also on guard to not overdo it or not respond from a place of hurt or not out of an intention to control or manipulate. Rather to speak in a way that I am being true to my own self—in integrity with ‘me’ so that there is no conflict in my spirit afterward. It’s a pickle, as the saying goes. And one does not wish to create further karma but again one must be true to one’s self while not being unduly unkind to others.

That’s sort of the calling card of the Knight of Swords and I hope that my little example has given this archetype additional meaning.

Additionally, Knights are protectors and what I spoke to this individual about did involve protection energy. “Take good care of yourself and parent yourself wisely!” were some of the words that I spoke. My heart was coming from a sense of wanting to protect, but I was also expressing some frustration and anger that simply could not stay silent any longer. It was purely impulsive and I know that the transiting Moon yesterday that was sitting right on top of Pluto and triggering my natal Mars/Pluto/Saturn 12th house stellium helped what was subconscious to become conscious in that moment.

I have not spoken with this individual for many weeks and I received a phone call right when the Moon was triggering Pluto, et al—to the exact degree, mind you! And out it came—energy coming right at you! And that’s the Knight of Swords energy all over! Knights, after all, in addition to being protectors are defenders of truth and honesty and have no problem cutting to the chase.  Frankly, neither did I yesterday.

I would not normally blog about this kind of thing with a personal relationship but what happened yesterday relates so well to the Knight of Swords that I knew I that I had to. The Knight of Swords is willing to speak his ideas and opinions! And I did that yesterday. But he must be careful not to do so at the expense of others while he is so brave and aggressive in speaking his mind.

It’s a pickle and it’s not easy to know how we are affecting others when we speak our truth, but sometimes when the energy cannot be held back and the time is exactly right (like it was for me astrologically yesterday) the subconscious spills its stuff.  And sometimes the chips have to fall where they may while we hope that it’s in divine order and will be more helpful than hurtful.

Maybe something with me is changing – I feel more willing to speak my mind than ever before. There is a need to modulate the best I can and to do a systems check in the middle of it all to be sure that I am not speaking from a place of an old unresolved wound of my own.

The astrological correlation is “the firey part of air” so any combination of an air and fire such as Mars in Gemini or Mercury in Aries is the idea. The planets that are associated with Air are Mercury, Venus and Uranus. The air signs are Gemini, Libra and Aquarius. As far as fire energy goes, the planets associated with fire are Mars, the Sun and Jupiter and the signs are Aries, Leo and Sagittarius.

Currently, at the time of this post Mercury is in Gemini *(double air) and the Sun is in Gemini (fire and air).

Yesterday, the Sun in Gemini was making a sextile to all that Moon conjunct stellium stuff in my chart which made it easy (sextile) to speak (Gemini) with fire (Sun). Hey, I’m not blaming it on astrology but as above, so below—what can I say? The cooperative nature of the sextile made it easy to engage the Knight of Swords archetype of my psyche.

Since my message to this individual was to protect, parent and take care of the self; I simply have to, if I’m to be honest, look within and ask how well I am doing that very thing myself? And, if I’m honest, I can see that lately I’ve not been doing such a good job of it. I’ve not been eating properly, using the heat to excuse myself from my normal routine of exercise and some other things.

Bottom line? Sometimes when we repress our own feelings they come up when the karma is ripe or when the planets are in the right alignment. In order to resolve additional self-conflict later, speak your truth by being true to yourself and keep emotions in check, stand in self-integrity and express yourself when necessary by being direct but not blunt, authoritative but not overbearing, incisive but not cutting, expressing knowledge rather than opinions, and be logical but not unfeeling. And then don’t forget to look within and take your own advice on whatever matter it is you’re talking about. Trust your own inner authority and keep your motives in the realms of creating positive change without being self-serving. These are all good things to keep in mind especially now that the Sun and Mercury are in Gemini.  The Sun is at the midpoint of Gemini right now which is where it is said to be the peak-point or to have the strongest effect.

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Daily Divination 5-24-11 Joplin Tornado, 10 of Swords, Gemini Sun

Oh my gosh—the 10 of Swords inspires today’s cosmic communiqué, as per my illusion anyway.  Joplin, MO and the tornado… I knew the second that I saw this card that I was going to have to write about it.  Well, here goes…

This card always seems so overly dramatic but who’s to say what is exaggerated as far as life experiences go? Only the experiencer!  Certainly, the Joplin tornado could qualify as pretty dramatic and tragic.  Talk about devastating change… wow!

Ever notice that a circumstance that totally immobilizes one person creates a totally different response in a different person going through the exact same event? On CNN last night there was an audio/video clip of a group of individuals who sought shelter inside the cooler of a convenience store. One could only have a heartfelt, compassionate response while listening to their recorded experience. (links below) Yet, you could hear how people responded so differently and it was very interesting.

One woman screamed out the name of jesus repeatedly, adding “father help me”. I found it interesting that she used the word me instead of the word us. After all they were packed in like sardines and it was a unified group experience; yet in the clip I heard,  the woman called out for help for herself –not the others?  (Maybe it was implied or intended. )  Yet, in contrast to this older sounding adult female, you could also hear the voice of a younger males.  One young man was telling everyone that he loved them, “I love you guys man; I love everyone man, I love you, I love you guys.” Another young male voice said, “Yeah, me too, I love everyone.”  And another young man was saying, “We’re good, we’re okay, we’re going to do it. Stay calm.” Meanwhile, the older female voice was screaming out jesus and father save me.

I guess the point is that disaster and trauma—the kind that brings people to the moment of a perceived eminent death—brings out something different in each of us.  In watching news reports on Joplin, I’m noticing how many people who relate their stories are conveying how they don’t remember getting where they ended up.  Interesting; and one wonders if angels weren’t involved. One guy  who was telling his story to Anderson Cooper on CNN said that when the tornado hit that he was in the house and when he came to, he was sitting in the front seat of his truck and had no idea how he got there.

The archetype or motif of the 10 of swords, this energy, and the message with it has to do with the times when we need to embrace faith. The cooler crew of Joplin exemplifies this card’s meaning since it is about short-lived difficulties—things that look bad at the moment, feel terribly disastrous at the time, but are short in duration. It was that way for that group at least.

Generally speaking now, focusing on the card meaning here, it’s about the light at the end of the tunnel and the need to remain focused and patient rather than in a panic being immobilized by fear.

It’s about working with the forces surrounding you even in the darkest moments that life sometimes brings—that’s the conceptual message of this card.

The Buddhists teachings, specifically in the famous Tibetan Book of the Living and the Dead, it is suggested that at the moment of death, the final feelings and thoughts are those that we carry over into the Bardo state and into our next lifetime.   And so it is suggested that a mentally and emotionally peaceful state at the moment of death is most desirable.  I’d like to think it’s like the young man you will hear on the recording link below who said that he was overcome with a surreal feeling of peace.  One man whose truck was torn apart on the Interstate, when asked what his thoughts were just as the truck was being ripped apart, indicated that his thought was, “Here we go.”  Makes you wonder if he isn’t an old soul who remembers how it goes.

Souls who speak to me from the other side always say that death is like walking from one room to another; there’s nothing to it.  They always say not to have any fear. That’s what I hear from them anyway.  The reader will just have to take my word for it I suppose.

One wonders about the cooler folks—the contrast of the woman in a panic screaming out the names of the deities causing alarm in the others versus  the young men who seemed to permeate the group with thoughts, words and the energy of love.  Interesting contrast perhaps having to do with soul age.  Who knows for sure?

Strange, but in watching (more like listening) to the recording, it transported me to my own similar memories from past lives of being in those types of situations.  Familiar feelings of surrender and the calm… helping others to feel calm in a similar situation came to the forefront of my mind.   But I digress… let’s go to the bottom line message with the 10 of Swords.

But just to interject first that many, including myself, are doing energy work (prayer work) for the souls of Joplin at this time on various levels, with a loving and compassionate heart.

After the clouds and the rain and the wind, there will be a rainbow–that’s today’s card meaning. Further, the message is that no matter what the trauma, we do come through the other side undeniably changed.

The Sun in Gemini relates to the 10 of Swords archetype—same energy. The element of AIR is representative of both the astrological Gemini and the suit of Swords.

Anyway, Gemini (the twins II) that is associated with the 10 of swords represents the quality of being of two minds and carries the quality of someone who is either on top of the world or feeling hopeless demise… like Libra is sometimes, Gemini has those two extremes. With Gemini it is either the best of days or the worst of days with no in-between.

And with the Sun (Sun in Gemini), we’re talking about purpose itself, essence itself.

I supposed a bottom line correlation of Sun in Gemini to the 10 of swords has to do with split purpose. Let’s leave Joplin out of the interpretation for a moment. What I’m sayen’ is general in that sometimes what happens in life has a double or twin (Gemini) meaning. Sort of like that “good news, bad news–who knows?” proverb you hear quoted often. Gemini is about adapting to changing circumstances; and that’s another connection to the Sun in Gemini correlation to this card.

So what’s today’s bottom line divination message? Life isn’t an either or situation (either perfect or hopeless) and most circumstances of life require us to adapt to change. It doesn’t do much good to panic or to panic others no matter what is going on, especially in the face of disaster. Sometimes life tests our mettle (shows our true character) and from those initiations we can learn a great deal about ourselves. Maybe that’s why they happen?

I’ve found this blog to be a difficult one to write. I hope nothing here portrays insensitivity to those suffering in Joplin. My heart goes out to them with my prayers and a donation to the Red Cross as well.

Spiritual Awakening is written all over these kinds of experiences and with the Internet, TV and Videos these days, awakenings can occur from a distance too.  Even if we all weren’t there in Joplin, we were still there!  Like the young man in the cooler said, “I love you guys!” 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0fDfkiSUPA

and another….

http://news.blogs.cnn.com/2011/05/23/surreal-moment-in-joplin-store-freezer-storm-drowns-out-shrieks-prayer/