Angels in Everyday Life Show Up in Divine Timing

angel whispers2Do you think that sometimes an angel whispers in someone’s ear, inspiring them to encourage someone at the right moment?  Have you ever been inspired by those divine forces?

Well. there I was yesterday after fighting off all kinds of resistance and procrastination.  I’ve gained  5 pounds over the month, so sayeth the scale which had been purposefully avoided! I needed every ounce of energy to stay focused on moving — yes, again!  Same phone number and nearly the same address too.  You see, a heavy smoker moved into the apartment next to me–and it was a hellish 6 months (including wheezing and coughing) until another unit opened up.  In fact, I should thank the smoker now that I look back because I ended up in the best unit here — in my opinion anyway.  But there was a lot of frustration and expense and consequent knee injuries.  I was pushing my body harder at the gym because I was (sounds crazy now) trying to keep myself from the detrimental effects of 2nd and 3rd hand smoke.  I was stressed out and pushing harder in my workouts let me release my intense feelings, but also caused me to re-injure my knee.

I’ve been here before with this knee.  I think there’s a meniscus issue there that’s long standing from which I have recovered numerous times.  The time before this one involved jumping waves at the beach and walking on the uneven surfaces of the sand.  The following day we walked around the ‘Broadway at the Beach’ — a Myrtle Beach park with rides and attractions that involved a good deal of walking.  I was in pain!  My knee screamed at me toward the end of that day.  But I recovered.  I’ve recovered numerous times and will again—yet, this time it’s taking a good deal longer!

Anyway, about the angel that showed up.  Well, who knows if we’re talking angel really but have you ever noticed that just when Continue reading

Thoughts on Life: Resistance versus Acceptance – Fighting versus Flowing

it is what it isFIGHTING VERSUS FLOWING

RESISTANCE VERSUS ACCEPTANCE 

I was on the final 15 minutes of my hour spin bike workout, doing intervals.  There’s a point of non-resistance that has to be reached to get through those final intervals when the legs are burning and the level of fatigue makes you want to resist.  A coach once said, “Your legs should be burning–let ’em”.

There’s a point where you have to give up and surrender the battle to get the last few sets of intervals done successfully.

It’s acceptance.  The lungs are on fire and so are the legs and you’re pushing through to the end but if you fight this or resist it, you just can’t do it–you quit.

Today I thought about how this is just like life.  I mean, on the bike you accept it,  the “what is” of legs burning and the like and if you accept then the work is so much easier and you’re less likely to give up.  Or said another way what you ‘do’ give up is the resistance to ‘what is’–the burn or breathlessness or whatever.

When you give up the resistance and let the mind participate with the body, allowing the merging and accepting the fact that ‘yeah, it’s what it is, until it isn’t anymore’, THAT is so liberating, especially in those final moments.

Those hour long interval workouts are like the last moments of a race.  What really counts is what you do at the end when you have to dig deep and get to the finish line, especially when total exhaustion is so close.

When life becomes a crisis in some way and let’s face it, life presents challenges and if we deny this we are not living on this planet I think.  At those times do we surrender? Or do we fight it? Do we want to deny what’s happening and thereby struggle against it?

We make life harder for ourselves if we struggle.  I make the last 15 minutes of my workout harder if I struggle against.

This applies across the board or that’s my position in writing this.  No matter what life presents us with at any given time (and sometimes life is like those last 15 minutes of an hour long interval workout at the gym–rough!)…. point is that if we feel like we have to battle it or take a position of struggling against it, we find it’s all so much harder.

So many times in life we think something shouldn’t be what it is.

We deny reality or fight against how things ‘are’ and use all kinds of tactics to deny reality somehow.  It’s exhausting.

We can make this comparison with the Christian way of thinking about life being a struggle against a devil and having to fight the evil–this kind of mentality.

Another way of thinking is to simply not think–but what I really mean is allowing whatever ‘it is’ to be what ‘it is’ without the judgment.

Judgment is the christian way of dealing with life I think which comes from an idea of an ideal perfected state that we all must strive for but know we will never achieve (because they tell us that in their dogma), rather than the opposite which is giving up that fight and becoming free.

Does that mean that we don’t try to be better humans or that we stop doing our best?  That’s not what I’m saying.  

I’m talking about not beating one’s self up because of ‘what is’ or what isn’t during any given moment.  I’m writing here about not struggling against it or making the self wrong somehow in the process.

The last 15 minutes of intervals my legs burn and I’m breathless–it’s part of life at that moment and I accept that and don’t fight against it or resist it.

When anything in happens in life, I can draw from that ability to accept what is actually happening without judgment or without making myself or Life Itself wrong.  It is, after all, what is.

When my legs are burning, I don’t attach to the feeling–I let them burn.

When I’m right on the edge of breathlessness, I let it be and don’t fight against the feeling.

If I grunt or groan or tense my muscles or make a face, it’s only making it harder to simply flow with ‘what is’ in that moment.  Life is like that.  Life ‘is’ and there’s a certain amount of being okay with it and not judging it but simply noticing it that is very freeing, liberating.

Someone thinks a lot during meditation time.  No need to fight that.  Simply notice it without assigning a meaning or beating self up in any way.

Someone feels angry.  I’m not saying to act the anger out and of course we shouldn’t totally repress it but one way to handle it is to notice it as simply being ‘what is’ in that moment.  Or maybe for the whole day the feeling is there.  In noticing it one is standing outside of it and this juxtaposition is causing separation from it emotionally.

Just like “the leg’s are burning, let ’em” that happen during my workout.  It is what is and nothing last forever!  ‘It is’ until it isn’t anymore and the less we can attach to it and the more we simply notice it without emotion or resistance, the realization comes clearly that nothing last forever.  That’s the nature of reality:  impermanence.

And impermanence is a blessing.

Acceptance of ‘what is’ in any moment is liberating and elevating.

Judgment of what is in any moment is attachment and suffering.

That’s one difference between Christianity and Buddhism although there are many good similarities as we all know.

Acceptance is surrender and surrender is Divine!

Just my two cents, hoping to have expressed this in a way that’s understandable.

Personal Tarot Traits – 9 of Wands dig’s deep and keeps the pace spinning on a spin bike

Personal Tarot Traits – Relating Personal Daily Experiences to a Daily Tarot Card

The 9 of Wands spinning on a spin bike!

spin bike 9 wands collage[9 of Wands — Nobody else can put me to task if I’ve already learned how to do that for myself.]

“Crank up the resistance… get off the seat and up on the pedals… Dig in! Push, push, push!  Drive, drive, drive… think of something you’ve always wanted and pretend all you have to do is to speed up a little bit more and it’s yours… dig, dig, dig!  One, two, one two.  Now’s a good time to remember why you’re doing this.  Fifteen more seconds…. you’re almost there… up and over that hill… give it a little bit more up and over the top… 5, 4, 3, 2 AND ONE! You’re there.  Good job, back it down.”

Breathless.  A sip of water.  Reviewing the effort.  How well did I stay on the pace? Did I keep up with the beat of the music?    Did I back it off at any point — why?  How can I avoid that next time?  Thinking about the effort…. another sip of water… keeping  the pedals moving… checking my heart rate monitor… remembering the watts and RPM numbers when I glanced down at the monitor and how well I held the RPM’s that I had in mind for that workout. 

Nine of Wands!  It relates to “keeping the pace”, knowing how to hang-in because of past experiences, yet also about the possibility of being one’s own worst enemy.  I’m not competitive with others–never have been really–not in the way athletes can be.  I compete against my self, my past performances and my own personal goals and ideals.

Persevering despite set backs is another quality of the 9 of wands energy.  I nearly laugh as I typed that line just now–setbacks.  I’ve gained weight, lost weight, gained it back and lost it again over this past year.  Talk about setbacks!   But they were all of my own doing — my own worst enemy.  That self-sabotage stuff can relate to this card as it applies to fighting one’s way back from setbacks.

All it takes is two weeks’ off from exercise and you start loosing fitness levels.  Oh, how I’ve experience the one throughout my life!

Keyword meanings for this card are these:  perseverance and stamina.  Sometimes we have to “hold it together” through sheer will and while this is something we are challenged with emotionally often if we can hold tough physically, it helps us to do so emotionally too.

Sometimes in life we have to continue despite fatigue!  We push onward no matter how tired we are and the more times in life we do this, the stronger we become.  Strength of heart, of will, of mind as well as the physical body are developed in this way — or so has been my experience.

On the bike there are times my legs are screaming and I just have to let them and not resist or fight against the effort that I’m making because if I don’t stay relaxed chances are high that I won’t reach my goal.  Determined effort.

This is the card that I pulled yesterday — 9 of Wands.  At some point in the 30-minute interval workout all the bikes were filled with riders and I wondered how many of us were competing in some way with the rider either side of them or at least pretending to in order to assist in their workout.

I thought of the other riders yesterday as all those rods surrounding the single human on the card.  I don’t mind being surrounded by others in that way and realized that ultimately I ride alone and like it that way.

If you work with tarot, maybe you will think of my spin bike experiences as you consider the card meanings in a reading.  I know that I will.   I love divination; just sayen’.

PS — I think of spinning as a meditation in learning to keep present, not letting mind drift.

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ADDENDUM – WHY AND WHEREFORE’S OF THESE TYPES OF POSTS

In the morning when I first awaken, I let guidance come in and do a waking dream for the day ahead. On one of these occasions recently I received a directive in the form of an idea laced with intensity. “Draw a card at the beginning of the day and reflect on its meaning and then revisit it at day’s end correlating the day’s experiences with the card.” That’s the treasure at the end of the rainbow so-to-speak. Doing so gives insight into the world of divination for the purpose of adding layers or additional traits to the tarot card meaning. This deeper understanding to the cards can be applied for use when doing future readings. It’s like letting Life Itself teach us the cards.