Last Quarter Moon Phase October 2014

Last Quarter Moon Phase-2

The current energy:  The head/Sun squares the heart/Moon… well, that’s one (of many) ways to say it.  Today the Moon is in it’s Last Quarter Phase (270° to 315°).  This phase started at 1° Leo and enters  the last phase, the Balsamic at 1° Libra and then the next New Moon is 1° Scorpio.  These phases happen every month of course as the Moon moves through it’s monthly cycle.  So where are we now exactly as far as what we can expect will occur based on our New Moon intention from the last New Moon when we planted our seed and conceived something during the dark of the Moon last? 

What is this phase all  about?  Well, we start with the fact of the square that the Moon and Sun are making and that brings frustration, uneasiness, the energy being at odds, conflicting.  The Moon wants one thing and the Sun another and both must be resolved–but differently.

Dane Rudhyar calls this phase “Crisis is Consciousness” — and I think too “crisis in belief”.  Internal conflicts, therefore, mark this phase.  Do we deserve what we asked for during the New Moon?  Is it possible to achieve? Are we in harmony with our own ideals?  –these types of questions could be possible now.  I can see this within my own self as I look back to the start of the cycle (Sept. 23/24) at the last New Moon and all that has happened over these last 3 week and I feel myself having to grapple with a few things internally.  Here in this phase we should be careful that we don’t create a pattern called “the undoing of the doing”.  We must not take things for granted and undermine our own creative efforts and all the while try to understand our own actions. 

We are likely to seek a deeper cosmological understanding–again, crisis in belief.  We begin to feel the pull of Source Energy now pulling us into the next phase.  We may be confused about what to believe and the value system that we associate with those beliefs.

What you believe determines your values which in turn determines your lifestyle relative to your beliefs.  There can be a crisis in lifestyle and a crisis in identity as well.  An inner question such as “Am I living my life according to my own values?”    Something in consciousness is being re-polarized so that a new foundation of awareness can occur–the soul strives for a new foundation!

There is society and then there is ‘me’–values may differ.  We feel the new cycle and want to move into that but we are finishing up something in this cycle that must come first—thus, the frustration.  

the Psychic in this last quarter moon phase

The psychic, the sensitive individual,  feels the longing to go home, to withdraw, and seeks solitude more frequently in this lunar phase. Thoughts of what is left behind as a legacy are typical of this phase,  And so perhaps in this lunar phase the psychic professional works on that class, that book, those teachings or the project of one kind or another.  There is still engagement with the outer world but it is like the autumn if we equated this to a season.

The Moon wanes and the monthly cycle ends and now the psychic starts to review the month, the work and perhaps takes inventory of successes and perceived failures and maybe considers how to improve or change in some way. 

There is a sense of wanting to finish unfinished business and so reviewing connections with others perhaps by checking over Email to be sure everything was addressed… just anything to tidy things up because subconsciously and intuitively the feeling of needing to withdraw again is nearing. 

So there is a feeling of culmination and completion here and shedding the skins that were worn in the world this time/this month.  The time is coming again soon to enter the cave once again where perhaps only a loincloth and meditation beads are needed—perhaps not literally but at least metaphorically.


No matter what your role in life or what profession you are in the emotional nature responds to an important principle or value that you feel you must uphold.  However, it is important to be flexible about this because as you feel like you would like to reform the whole system of society and the world to be in harmony with your own ideals, there is a need to be reasonable.  We can only do our best in our own corner of it working within the system (and societal values) that are already in place while being in harmony with our own system and values at the same time.

And we should remember that we are talking about the Solar-Lunar factors… the Sun relating to the Moon.  We’re talking head (Sun) versus heart (Moon). The purpose and outer persona (Sun) and the evolving emotional and soul dynamic (Moon) and we started this phase with the 270° square.  I wrote a post a while back about the difference between the energies of the Sun and the Moon which may be good to review:  CLICK HERE.  

This phase is like a sweet sorrow.  Like sensing a return to the homeland after being away.  Time now feels even more precious because we know something is soon going to change but before it does we ask ourselves, “Have I been doing my best?”    These types of questions permeate our gradual return to the inner world as we move through this phase.  Longing increases to return to the dharmakaya, the place of divine truth.  We remember the “Cosmic Joke” as some say and we focus on today, now, and …. well, I just now realize that this very morning, I made a Facebook post that epitomizes this:

“In our lives there’s ‘this n’ that’ happening and then there’s the other ‘not’ happening and then again there’s the ‘meanwhile’… deep within; the eternal presence in the eternal now is meanwhile. Always meanwhile at the core of us, there’s exists, always, the divine connection meanwhile and the practice of the virtue of patience.”

There’s a sense of autumn about this phase and an acceptance of the imperfection of our lives, our values, our beliefs and those of the others and the outer world of society.  We can almost laugh about it realizing how little it all really matters in the end.   Yet, we still know we have to participate in it and so our grip loosens.  We accept what we haven’t done and may not get to do and we also see that tendency in other people–that which has not been accomplished not only in this monthly lunar phase but in life generally.  Yet, despite this, we’re okay with the imperfections of Samsara.  

We know we cannot always be right, have everything we want, remain young all the years of our life but…

we must be very careful now not to become cynical.  We should let go of all judgments of ourselves and others–that’s all irrelevant anyway and we can get a glimpse of that now.  

Don’t snatch defeat from the jaws of victory

We do not want to repeat the past — this for sure is what we know and we must be careful not to “snatch defeat from the jaws of victory”.  

It is important not to judge circumstances now, no matter how things appear!  It’s best to say “I have no idea…” right now rather than to draw an erroneous conclusion about anything or anyone.  Enlightenment, after all, in the end is knowing that you don’t know all that you thought you knew!  

Next up:  Balsamic Phase at 1° Libra starting on Tuesday the 21st.  And then we go thought the cycle again, so you can come back and start again with the New Moon phase entry on this blog and let the Moon phases guide you through another month.

 

QUICK MOON PHASE LINKS: 

New Moon 

Crescent (Waxing)

First Quarter

Gibbous (Waxing)

FULL MOON

Disseminating (Waning)

Last Quarter

Waxing Crescent – Balsamic 

 

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In the world but not of it; adjusting from a life of quiet solitude to commotion

I’m adjusting to change.

Meditative states carry over after getting off the cushion and moving on to other activities of daily living.  The state remains if not interrupted and carries over and one is open and receptive.  The mind becomes like one large flat plate, an empty plate.  And it remains so, if not interrupted, for days, weeks, months.

And there are no longer barriers of protection from the ego since one has tamed that aspect of mind enough to create a calm, flat and receptive plate.  Well, that’s how I relate to mind and life anyway and it is how I am able to be “psychic” and employed by clients in that capacity.

In the process of creating that plate so-to-speak and maintaining that state, I bump into my own thought processes, allowing whatever arises to do so yet also allowing it to dissolve.  All story lines of ego structure melt away too as becoming one with that open plate feeling of openness and receptivity grows.

I could say that this open plate state which sort of feels like one huge horizon of infinity (it’s hard to find the words) enables a state of impersonality; non-personality.

I really like to be in that state and of course achieving this state is part of my job, my career, my service work here.  I’m there when I do readings.  And if nothing distracts me (if I don’t distract myself), I can stay there for days as long as I’m “Home Alone” if you pardon the movie reference.

I just had to laugh at a reference comparison (analogy) that came to mind here.  To meditate and put one in that state of the empty plate and non-personality can be understood by associating it with hitting the “refresh” button on a web page.  If the mind begins to wander and gets too complicated by getting too many other pages (thoughts) open, one can hit refresh and come back to the present moment, now; back to the state of the open plate—one huge horizon of infinity.

No, I’m not talking about any type of escapism here.  It’s more like being fully present.

When someone is habitually open and receptive as I’ve been describing and then enters a room of 50 personalities with helter-skelter minds or even pulls out into busy traffic or heads into a busy shopping area—wow.  I’ve been able to realize the benefit of ego-structure as a type of boundary and am working with a level of integration which enables me to function here in a busy community and in close proximity to family.  It is almost laughable when all these entwined and complicated egos with complex entanglements come together in one room!  Multiply that by 1,000 busy grocery shopping days!  Where is my open receptive plate? What happened to my infinity horizon?  Where did it all go?

I’m working with it; trying to function as myself (whatever self means because there really IS NO self in the true sense of it all) in these crowded settings.

I’ve found a particular type of meditation helpful lately.  One thing is that I keep my eyes open which helps me to be present but not (at the same time) tuned into the present surroundings–well, just very lightly.  I am mostly non-attached yet present and aware that I am fully in my body and fully in my space and fully in my room!  This is a very good practice for me as it helps me to carry this over when swimming in (being around) very distracting energy (family dynamics, crazy traffic, even crazier grocery store).

Living in the mountains was… well, I made a Facebook Post this morning that I will reproduce here.  I am so familiar with the vibration that comes from being physically in the places such as where this picture was.  I resided (really lived!) the past 15+ years in the mountains.  And this photo prompted me to post the image and text.

[image and text below]

Pictures are wonderful! I could linger at this recent photo a good deal longer….
ET is phoning HOME!
Meditating on something simple and beautifully ordinary (like gazing out over a view like this!) enables a person to avoid self-identification and minimizes relationship awareness with others; nothing much here can be connected with ego-conflict. That is the healing gift of the mountains and mountain views. A person can become overwhelmed with a sense of non-duality, relating as”one” with the vastness.
Pictures are wonderful! I could linger at this recent photo a good deal longer….
ET is phoning HOME!

Anyway, lately while on my meditation cushion with eyes open but not really looking at anything and while putting my hands open and facing palms down over my knees (I sit crossed legged in a half-lotus position), what I do focus on at first is a straight back, head, shoulders and pretend that I am the ruler of my own kingdom (am I not?); and as I muster up that feeling, I also allow myself the sense of the  feeling of royalty (being royal) as acutely as possible–such as  in ruling my own universe, my own world.

That feels right to me and then I claim my space on the cushion and affirm that I belong right there, right here, right now in this moment and I am grounded right in that—it’s mine.  Then, of course, who is me and mine?  Yet, for the moment I allow these thoughts and feelings as the entry into (entry point of)  my meditation period.  After that, it is only to focus on breath and letting what comes up in mind to dissolve like the sun that contacts the fog; the thoughts disappear as quickly as they come up.

That helps me with living this new life down off the mountain.

On another note… completely off topic… but do you remember those Hydrangeas that I purchased from QVC at the end of spring?  I potted them and brought them with me and all summer long I’ve been watering and waiting and in metaphysical ways nurturing and just this week, finally!  One of them is giving to the world a pink flower!  It is quite exciting and brings happiness to the heart.

One of the plants (at least one of the 4 of them) has successfully begun to make the adjustment to its life here… slowly and gradually, like me.

Guilt! Do We Draw In Experiences To Show Us Where We Need to Release Responsibility? Stelliums: Special Gifts and Talents that Include Blind Spots

A stellium ~ a part of the psyche that conglomerates in one area of life indicating special talents and gifts but also blind spots

Transcending our own mental boundaries can feel like swimming naked and alone in a dark and unfamiliar place.  The mind will often wrongly interpret vulnerability as inadequacy — i.e. the blind spot!

Guilt!  Do We Draw In Experiences To Show Us Where We Need to Release Responsibility?

The answer to that, I believe is a resounding YES!  Is it true in all cases and at all times? I’m not sure but I have been considering the blind spots we have in our psyches and how that is showing in an astrological birth chart in a merging of 3 or more planets closely together.   I think it applies in transiting charts too.  When our attributes (planets) are so closely aligned, we can feel a certain sense of…. This may be hard to describe.  We ‘are’ a certain way and many times assume everyone is built that way—they’re not. 

Therefore, we need them to show us our blind spots and so we draw in others to our life who trigger within us what we cannot otherwise see or realize about ourselves. There is yin/yang to everything–polarities and dichotomies.  That’s life.  And with the talents and gifts and brilliant light of the astrological stellium (special part of our soul where our gifts and talents can be found), we also have blind spots. 

Then we can have those internal arguments.  Internal arguments are much better than hacking it out with the person who is carrying the projection for us—they have nothing to do with it—they are simply the tool we use to see our blind spot. 

Let’s take guilt for example—it’s such a waste of time really; and many times the guilt itself comes from a lack of personal esteem or feeling not worthy somehow.  So let’s say that a person really is an over-giver and when they receive back, they practically feel guilty about it.  Or we could change it up this way and say that a person does receive what is reasonable in exchange for what they give, but feels somehow that they should give more or carry some sort of unreasonable guilt about it.  And let’s say that this is their blind spot!

And some people can be almost apologetic about asking for what is due as a reasonable exchange but they just don’t realize that they do this.  We could correlate this to a stellium in the natal chart most likely but leaving astrology out of it for a moment, let’s say that this person’s blind spot is starting to open up.  And this is due to the type of people and circumstances that are drawn into their life spectrum at a particular time that the blind spot is being realized. 

We need those people and circumstances so that we can be aware that a blind spot exists in our psyche  even though we may have always known we were missing something or perhaps under appreciating our own efforts in some way and that we shouldn’t be feeling guilty.  So what do we do?  We draw in people who sit in that blind spot area and get our attention through their presence—they can be like pesky mosquitoes or gorillas, but either way—they draw our attention to that part of ourselves that we otherwise could not see.

In the example of guilt or feeling in any way uncertain about responsibility—such as which is ours and which isn’t—they make us look there and address that area within ourselves.  And the internal argument gets triggered and we have to look at it all and come to terms with it.

So, just as an example, if we are feel generally guilty that we do not give enough in relationships; for example, we will likely draw in relationship partners who are expert wretchers, moaners, whiners and complainers.  And they will challenge us to look at our guilt and our giving and we will have to come to terms with it—they will put a mirror in the blind spot through their wreching, moaning, whining and complaining. 

And the reason we called them into our experience is to help us to look into that blind spot and see something about ourselves.   That we DO give enough and we DO live up to our responsibility AND MORE and that we ARE giving in equal amount to what receive and that we don’t have to give unceasingly. 

When we stop having the guilt or stop being overly responsible, we will no longer have a need for complainers in our blind spot.  Oh, we all know the types of people I’m talking about—they do all that they can to make everyone else responsible for their disappointments and dis-eases and double-bubble toil and trouble (something evil comes this way…. ).  Pardon me, I just broke into a spontaneous song from a Harry Potter movie.  Anyway…

In relationships men can be just as good at kvetching as women can.  Some people are just so darn good at it—know what I mean? 

Blind Spot

Well, let me think of another example quickly here.  Let’s say we have a young woman who is very attractive really but really has a blind spot about it—maybe she has a natal stellium that includes Venus for example.   She tries to care for her skin and hair and body and so forth and does all she can to develop a people-pleasing personality; however she just can’t seem to recognize her beauty.   Therefore, somewhere within her there is this nagging part that keeps calling out that she needs to try harder and that she’s not quite good enough and maybe that part of her that we’ll call the blind spot for now also says, you know you really are kind of unattractive in many ways.  We might also say that this young woman is barely aware of any of this inner dialogue or consciousness.  Next thing you know, a transiting planet hits her natal stellium, and then she’s drawing in experiences and people who point out every beauty and personality flaw that she may have secretly suspected.  Now she has to really look at herself and question it all.  She may say to herself, “Hey!  That isn’t true—I really AM an attractive person and I need to appreciate myself more.”  When the inner critic quiets the outer critics usually go away.

Yeah, well, these are just a few thoughts about an astrological stellium, guilt, blind spots, responsibility and moaners and complainers.  Stelliums are powerful places in a natal chart but they do create blind spots in areas of life where the light of consciousness is more intense and we cannot, therefore, see ourselves as clearly.