Repetitive Life Patterns

Patterns. Where does one start? They’re everywhere it seems–these life patterns! Astro Study and Dharma Study are both clear about them.  I’ve studied them through the dharma talks given by eastern teachers but noticed them long before any formal studies.  And the astrological study, you know planetary movements, has also supported my observations about patterns too–the same planet in the same place as it moves around the zodiac.  Luminary Moon hits the same digs every month and the Sun every year and so on; each planet moving at different speeds but as they aspect one another, they tend to produce the same type of event or experience.  The Facebook “On This Day” Memories application submits to you a list of all posts you made on that day and includes re-posts from that day in previous years.  Patterns are clearly there from my very own posts blatantly screaming back at me, “Notice!”

Patterns! A head cold or medical issue repeating the same time each year, moving during the same month (sometimes to the day) in certain years–it goes on ad nauseum:    neighbor issue, financial concern, trips with family, even weather systems which have not to do with my own personality.

What are these anyway? I’ve come to some thoughts to put down for myself and you too if you are still reading this.  Karma!  But hold on buster–not in the way most people think of the word.  It’s only a word that means “action” and is a result of “causes and conditions”, some of which are not personal.

Better not to complicate this bit of writing (which I don’t intend to go on much longer here); therefore, best not to get into an explanation of the non-self.  So, just sticking to the causes and conditions bit, accumulated energy will tend to repeat at times when conditions support it to do so.

Why does it repeat?  I’m going to narrow it down to the undesirable parts–those parts about the personality that makes me cringe to think about them. Those patterns–that’s where this post is headed.  There a good patterns too which we are creating in each and every moment actually, but . . .

Focusing further on the patterns such as anger at certain things or we could use a nicer word:  aversions.  I don’t want to deal with those anymore but causes and conditions accumulate to store those patterns, those aversions and surprisingly there are times they find their way to the surface from deep down in ground consciousness.

It seems that past conditions have caused me to react with aversion and it has become a habit, a pattern that has been repeated  And it’s not been until my later years here (late bloomer), that there’s not even been a conscious connection.

Now I see the pattern or one could say there is now a ‘me’ who is aware of them and with that awareness comes the observer–this creating distance between the aversion and the awareness. Sometimes reactions still happen;  yet,  with the newly awakened awareness of the pattern which has become gradually more conscious over many years, those reactions are minimal and mostly internally worked out.  This decreases any future punch that they may hold.

How to proceed?  Its a matter of creating new causes and conditions and not taking the old karma personal.  When the aversion arises, one can realize that it comes from prior reactions that have been stored — maybe not even from the current lifetime.  Who knows?  Anyway, its what this person (personality named Joy) has to deal with, but it isn’t me and isn’t personal and it does not really come from “now”–it arises from past causes and conditions (karma), remember?

What of it?  The idea is to begin to create new causes and conditions, stronger than the old perhaps and certainly more imbued with love, joy, compassion, patience and the numerous good qualities and virtues we desire to embrace which increase our happiness and peace.  New actions, new karma!  And also the goal is to have compassion for the personality self.  And by doing this we achieve the desire remain awake for the benefit of all others as well as the self here.

That which recognizes the pattern of aversion or even responds to the aversion has no aversion.  

How to remain awake?  Here we go! Back on the bandwagon about meditation.  And meditation simply means being aware of what is going on inside one’s own head and heart.  Not getting carried away by fantasy or letting thoughts drag you all over the darn place!

I do write newsletters frequently that include a lot of information regarding awareness and meditation since it’s a huge part of psychic development.

There. We’re at the end of the post and worked it out for us maybe.  Yes? Well, no matter (pun intended)–gave it a whirl and gave the self a talking to at the same time.

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Patterns of Thought, Neurons, Psychic Development and Spiritual Evolution

Neurons Gossip
Neurons Gossip

Patterns of Thought, Neurons, Psychic Development and Spiritual Evolution

How do all those things relate?  Patterns that I’m referring to have to do with what sometime’s I’ve heard called “gossipy neurons” or “ground consciousness” — either way, karmic repetition.  I really appreciate how the Dalai Lama of Tibet has joined Buddhists theory with scientific theory to understand the mind and how it works.

So patterns of thought and neurons that react to stimuli (see What the Bleep Do we Know?) — gossipy neurons!  I love that image of neurons gossiping and we could then see how and why the work of Byron Katie has been helpful to so many–i.e. question that thought and who would you be without it?

Neurons gossip — stimulus happens (some life event or experience) and then old dialogue begins accompanied by old pictures.

In my work as a psychic I’ve learned how to listen to observe to create a space for information to come through and I can’t have any neurons gossiping in the background when i do this.   I think meditation and working in those areas with the mind enables one to recognize when ground or karmic consciousness takes over or said another way, when the neurons start gossiping and firing and kicking up those old connections.

When we notice those neurons gossiping we can become aware and break those old patterned connections through intention–creating a new pathway, one that includes compassion and love instead.

I often point out how psychic development (I offer an Online Course) is an aid to our personal spiritual evolution.  This is yet another example!  Awareness rocks!

Animal Friends, Leopardskin Jasper, and NN Libra and relationship patterns

Leopard Skin JasperAh yes!  The little darling did it again!  “Aunt Joy, I didn’t think you had any friends.”  Well, of course, can you blame her?  I mention one of my friends at dinner in the restaurant–I was referring to a human friend by the way. Anyway…

She’s 17 years old and friends at her age are the end-all, beat-all and collecting the numbers at any price for popularity and all that is typical of that age I suppose.  Yet, myself at 17, I had my books and spent a lot of time to myself and as we trace this timeline backward and forward from that age, same deal!

I often talk about the trees being “my friends” and the birds too and then of course, my crystal friends–the stones I’ve been Facebook-ing about and in wrote about in my newsletter earlier this week.  My  niece joins most of the rest of consensus humanity (the mass-mind of a shallow society) with values completely different from my own and dare I say nearly opposed from  fringe dwellers (at least in consciousness) like me.

Well, she stopped my mind in it’s tracks at that moment with her comment about never seeing me with a “friend”.  I realize that most others who have the same world and “other-world” view as myself are like hidden gems and most I’ve found (or they have found me) through the Internet, my website, as clients or psychic class members.  I suspect there have been many lifetimes that my soul spent up on mountaintops or alone in the wood where I feel most at home with nature and animal friends.

So this innocent, thoughtless (or was it?) comment from this high school-er relative got me to thinking.  How does someone respond to that kind of thing?  I was stopped in my mental tracks by her words because I realized the pattern of people simply not knowing who I am–not that I’d expect any selfish minded, self-centered teenager to take the time or trouble to figure that out but how could I even explain it during casual dinner conversation?

So, I didn’t say much and tried to joke it away later in the conversation:  “Well, what do I know?  I don’t even have any friends. ha ha”

I have to say that when an animal says hello or recognizes me, it brings me feelings of happiness and sacredness (really sacredness is a really good word to describe it)—feelings that rarely happen when a human says hello when passing by.  I’m thinking of dogs who stop to say hello–this used to happen more often in the mountains where they weren’t leashed.  But even now here in the heart of the crowded human city when a pet owner walks by with their dog on the leash, we connect.  The pet owner fades back and blurs out in my experience and the dog and I connect!  Instant friend!

Each of my 3 daughters has a cat–one daughter has 3 cats and those are my friends too!

Those are the local friends within the community; but I do have online friends… many for years and years!  And telephone friends too.   Not that I need to defend or explain this—yet there it was again in the face of her comment.  Totally misunderstood—again!    Its a pattern of course and that feeling of being “an alien from a galaxy far, far away” (to borrow a phrase from the movies—wasn’t it Star Wars?) —anyway, that feeling is so familiar and has some emotional pain woven into it at points.   But then, it’s right on time–isn’t it?

I mean that astrologically it is–this whole friend ‘thing’ and relationship ‘thing’–now that the transiting Lunar Nodes are moving through Libra/Aries.  I’m sure there will be more of this kind of thing rather than less and I’m telling myself that I may as well get used to it.  As you  likely know, the archetype themes of Libra/Aries have to do with independence/freedom versus relationship.  And suddenly I hear Barbara Streisand’s voice in my head singing “People who need people, are the luckiest people in the world….”.  Honestly, frankly, truth be told—I’ve always hated that song!  I guess that could be pretty revealing, right?

Well, so today thinking of all this, I thought to close eyes and to do a CRYSTAL READING for myself, pulling a stone out of the bowl–the vibe of which I was hoping would give me some help.  After all, the title of this week’s newsletter was CRYSTALS HELP.  Anyway, guess what stone it was?  LEOPARDSKIN JASPER!

This is the stone that I think of as relating to communicating with the animals.  This stone relates to kindness and gentleness which is how I experience most all animals–they are kind and gentle and help us to be as well.  But mostly, since I was thinking today about how animals really make better friends than most humans (those ego-inflated humans with their agendas which rarely include unconditional love and acceptance)… mostly, I felt that with eyes closed drawing this stone out of my crystal bowl was a smile and recognition from the animal kingdom and my own animal totem.

For the record and in the interest of disclosure, being human myself (sometimes regretfully–ha ha) the unconditional love and acceptance example of animals is one that I could emulate more too.  I do like the example of cats however as they will intuitively walk away from humans with vibrations that are harsh, mean, aggressive, ill-disposed or  unfriendly.  Cats are selective about their human bonds–me too!

Funny thing though–if I should at any time find myself longing for anything or looking at my desire-nature, never is there wish for more friends.   I suppose it’s an emotional security thing, you know?  Most humans long for what they believe will give them emotional security, more happiness, and less pain.  I have a short list in that regard and more friends simply isn’t on it–and there’s no elitism or snobbishness with that or anywhere on the side.

I think, too, that as a psychic and medium, there is a continual awareness of having a full life with my friends in spirit world.  For example, right now, I feel the room in which I’m typing this filled with spirit beings, crystal people and …. well, the room is full, and in that sense my life is full and would a simple minded teenager understand that?

Spirit friends:  I can see them, feel, them and know I am surrounded by them–just like many other fringe dwellers who would be stumped, as I was, by that comment.

So, I will take my Leopardskin Jasper and place it in my pocket and carry it with me today and smile my secret smile knowing I’ve had a wink and a nod from those of the Animal Kingdom–the very best kinds of friends!

Excuse me now–because its time to water my plant friends!

How the Aware Psychic Receives Information and the Jeweled Net of Indra

Indra's netHow the Aware Psychic Receives Information

and the Jeweled Net of Indra

Psychic awareness (divination) is the ability to tune into vibrations which are both distant and near because in actuality they exist in a dimension that exists outside of time and space.

Psychic awareness is the ability to translate these vibrations into a form accessible to the conscious mind.

The dimension where these vibrations exist is the same place where ideas exist before we have them.  The psychic becomes “at one with” that dimension.

The Jeweled Net of Indra is a metaphor or symbol for oneness, interconnectedness.  The Buddhists say that at the intersection of this infinite net there is a shining jewel and each jewel contains reflections of all the other jewels.  And each reflection contains within itself an infinite number of reflections.  Every point reflects every other point.  This gives us the idea the image for how each part of the universe is able to communicate with every other part.

The psychic is able to become one with the connective patterns of the universe and it is through this method that information is transferred to the aware psychic.

My Spiritual Challenge! Issues or Illusions? And Patterns! Clarifying Yesterday’s Repello Muggletum Blog Post?

Spiritual Issues or Illusions?  And Patterns!  I posted something yesterday — the muggle protection charm.  This blog post is an email that I wrote to a friend.  Part way through it I decided to make this a blog post… for whatever it’s worth to those who also struggle with questions around spiritual issues and illusions.

This is part of my spiritual challenge or how would you say it?–just one of those lingering issues that I still have an issue with–Ha! I have “an issue with an issue”;  and both issues are an illusion–so, really there are no issues, except for within my own mind.
And I have a feeling that one or the other will work its way into the blog or newsletter this week.

It’s like this issue is everywhere I go, it’s a pattern.  You remember, right?  I moved from the last place I rented because they cut down all the trees on the property next door–you know how disturbed I was about it.  Remember?  The family of deer lost their home too (they covered a pit wherein the deer lived under the berry bushes) while they massacred each and every single tree along with the berry bushes simply to put in a stupid trailer and a few horses.

When I first started to awaken or attempt to be conscious or to be aware there was an awareness, it was somewhere in the 80’s… No, wait, it goes farther back than that even. I just had a

flash of a similar troubling “issue with my issue”when I was a child. It was forgotten until this very moment. I do recall that it troubled me a good while but like these other issues there

Hey Brother if you are reading this... remember those trees when we were kids?

was nothing whatsoever I could do about it–hand’s tied; out of my jurisdiction; not my area as John Travolta would say in his movie role, playing Archangel Michael.

Trees, always trees and animals; the cruel and thoughtless death of either disturbs my spirit deep, deep, deeply. We were kids, you see? Oh, around 7 or 8 up until around 12. There was this huge tree at the entrance area to the housing section–there were two actually… Ficus trees, one on either side of the entrance to that neighborhood of houses–in the middle of a plot of land, smack in the middle and then on the edge of the land on either side of the road a half-high brick wall with the letters of the name of the area proudly displayed. It was a middle class area actually and eventually turning to lower class long after we moved. Not that this last sentence has anything to do with the story of the trees. They grew as we did and it was “THE” play area and gathering spot of all of us as we grew up, you see? We’d walk along the half wall and climb the Ficus trees as they grew–larger and larger they did as we were growing as well. Until finally, they were large enough to climb and climb we did! These trees became massive, their trunks nearly a car length wide with lots of branches and places to camouflage and hide.  We played as many childhood games as we could imagine there beneath and inside those trees. Those two trees were “IT” for us kids, you know?

And as I recall at times there’d be up to two-dozen of us gathering there to play with not a swing-set or sliding board in sight. No matter, the trees were “IT”and our minds imaginations made up the rest of it—it, the games.

One day one of the trees was gone, missing, out of there, nothing but a hole left and stretching my mind to the memory of it now, the recollection comes. We were told it was diseased and had to be removed.  I knew it was a lie.   And next thing you know a house starts to be built right upon the very spot that our old friend’s large trunk once sprung out of Mother Earth.

And then, years later, the same thing happened to our other friend, the other Ficus tree on the other side of the road. I was older by that time as I recall, perhaps ready for middle school or even high school–that part is a bit blurry. The half-walls were taken down and the tree gone suddenly. And that plot of land, too–our old gathering spot, taken over by house construction right in the middle, over the top of the roots of our friend, the Ficus tree. Ha! One can almost imagine the owners of the home being haunted by children’s gleeful, playful voices in the middle of the night. Of course, that brings up a whole other area of speculation, doesn’t it?

Cherokee mounds are usually located (I am told) inside the forks of 2 or 3 creeks and up as high as possible.

What once stood or was on the land where you live? Around here it was all once Cherokee as most of the ‘born and raised’ locals inherited land that was stolen from those Native Americans.  That’s not prejudice, it’s fact–even the “local born” teacher at the college who teaches a course in Appalachian Culture will tell you that–I took the course and used my intuition to discern truth versus lies.  But on that point, even she did not differ.

On THIS property where I now rent, on the ridge right above me and to the left, I’m told (by the property owner who used to live here as a child) that on that ridge above the house is an Indian “Mound”–a burying-place for the Native American ancestors.  I’ve never gone up there to look but next time my grandson comes, I’m going to ask him go up there with me to see.   He’s always wanted to go back behind the major tree line and I wouldn’t let him go without me.  Now, for some reason, I feel called to go and try to find it.  We will take an offering.

Usually, so I’ve been told, mounds can be found nearby where 2 or 3 creeks come close to each other or perferrably meet up.  They are considered power spots.  I’m just realizing that I live near a power spot! Here where I live there is a creek across the way and also behind me to the left.  I remember now.  This actually would be the right place for a mound here where the creeks fork and where it is highest elevation on that ridge out back.

I rent from the lords of the land around here.

In the last place I lived there was a church that I was behind and I was concerned that the old house that I rented was on top of a grave yard (they are almost always behind churches here). Then I saw the graveyard up on the side of a nearby mountain and was relieved. Baptists as well as Cherokee like to bury their dead where there is a beautiful view, usually up high. In fact, the house I was renting before was an old school-house which actually made me pretty happy as far a vibes go. I’ll take living where an old school-house was over living over a graveyard most any day of the week!

So I was remembering this morning — and this came by way of me just trying to get a handle on this mystery, the sadness, the whole business of trees and so forth — the lack of reverence for the sacredness of nature from humans, etc.  And the memory was about how devastated and heartsick I felt when… Well, let’s start with the yellow brick road that I was walking down (ha ha) and when looking for a job (physical therapy), I chose a facility that was located in a wooded area; yet it was still in a city.

There happened to be trees all around the place and this is where I thought it would be great to work — because of the trees you could see looking out any window there. So I’m working there a year or so when right outside the window in the therapy office where we’d write our notes in the charts–and the window was nearly ceiling to floor and our desktop faced the window, anchored to the wall. So it was like you could not avoid looking out and on that side of the property just after the little parking area there.  And it was that we were forced to watch them massacre the trees and there they lay one atop the other–just a field of dead bodies and day after day more fell and it was horrible and affected me deeply. No one else seemed to care or notice but I became sick over it.  That was Florida where they love concrete jungles.

Most all the places I’ve rented here in the Appalachian Mountains of North Carolina have had graveyards nearby–this house is the first without a graveyard within a stone’s throw. When I lived and worked south of here by a few hours (but still in the mountains), where I worked (I found out much later) was the actual place where they gathered the Cherokee — the outdoor prison — where they held them before they began to march them away on the famous journey known as the Trail of Tears. Imagine that!

Cherokee Native Americans used to gather for their tribal games

And about 5 miles from where I worked was once the area that the Cherokee gathered once a year for their “games” like the Olympics. I found all this out  later after I moved.  The vibes in those areas absolutely correlated!  And on a past life level it made perfect sense that I ended up in those places and even where I am right now.

Since those things and others that make me certain that I have reconnected with a Cherokee past life here, I googled the trail of tears and most information gives 1830 – 1850’s.   A shiver!

Gosh, I’m laughing a little bit thinking that maybe an old body of mine is buried up on the mound behind me and I am here returning to the place I once lived and died actually. LOL

I wouldn't be surprised if an old Cherokee body of my own is buried in the mound on the property where I rent the home where I currently reside. I seem to have lived in places connected with Cherokee history and do remember those lifetimes and am remembering one right now! Deja Vu! 🙂

Oh, so who knows…?  Maybe this is why I am so disturbed to the depth of my soul about the trees being cut down across the street. One tries to figure these things out you know? Something so deeply disturbing can seem mysterious especially as it happens or recurs… persists–this trauma I always go through at the thoughtless death of trees and killing of animals.

You as my friend remember the weeks–nearly a month or more–it took for me to get over the time I stumbled upon the group of hunters who had killed a beautiful black bear! And of course, I know you remember the time that I stood with my own body between a deer and a hunter up here in these mountains.  That was one deer that did not get shot (least the hunter shoot me too) at that moment in time!   You know how I feel, the deer  and bear are my brothers (and sisters) and I must stop writing now or I will allow the tear that is forming in the corner of my eye.


I will just add that there are many past life memories from around here and I know that I made a vision quest atop of Grandfather Mountain which is always why I call that mountain ‘my grandfather’ and why the first time (in this current lifetime) that I went there, I felt I was home and did not want to leave–ever!

Grandfather Mountain Profile

I was very sad yesterday and nearly ill in my stomach and had to leave here for most of the afternoon so that I could not see the destruction of the earth across the street which once was so beautiful and now it is awful.   I had to get away for the day.  I have asked for help from higher mind–an insight to help me understand the patterns… I have experienced these devastating feelings numerous times in the past.  Pattern!

I did blog post quite a number of Moons ago about a tree friend of mine who had to leave to make way for a highway bridge… (link below).

As a matter of fact dear friend, I may go ahead and cut and paste these words into a blog post.

And since I’ve just decided that I’m doing so, I have a line or two to add then… additions below….

Here goes:

Long time karmic history can take years and lifetimes to overcome and the process of surrender is to the emotionalism and in my case the intense sadness in these cases with the bear, and the trail of tears and the land and the trees and all such other issues in the psyche. The physical body is transitory and all worldly phenomena (the world of matter, of form) and eventually even the illusion of the witness and the observer is because it will also dissolve and return to pure awareness or pure consciousness Itself. And the illusion of time also dissolves into the Allness of Divine Oneness or Concordance. And so at the time of ‘release of form’ (death) of any kind whatsoever–death of trees or bears or deer or our own self, the Presence of the Allness of Creation as Divinity radiates and all is joined together again. So now then, what is the point of lamenting the loss of a tree or a bear or even the self–our own or others or the many–since all form eventually returns to Source. 

Sitting atop Grandfather Mountain ~ Me in Center back with grandson in front of me ~ very windy up there! 🙂 My sister in the red shirt and my niece to the right of me.

And these are the few Tao-like  thoughts today  via an ego  that is doing its best to allow the higher self to have free reign of the consciousness, thoughts and the keyboard in order to help me realize the possible source of my emotional patterns with these issues of illusion.

Ha!  and a final thing.  I mowed the lawn a week ago and as the locals here do all the time, trash was up on the lawn–they throw things out of the car windows without thought as their usual way of doing.

So as I bent down to retrieve the paper,  and in doing so saw it was a candy bar wrapper and the name was MOUNDS; and right away I thought that this was some sort of message for me and didn’t know a connection except one.

My mother told a story of when she took her mother-in-law to the funeral home.  My mother’s father-in-law had recently crossed over and on the drive home my mother stopped for gas and asked her mother-in-law  if she wanted a snack and replied that a candy bar would be fine.

So my mother chose that kind (a Mounds bar) and the old lady went berserk accusing my mother of rubbing it in her face associating the Mounds bar with the death of her husband! She was going a little loco at the time.

I remembered that as I was picking up the candy bar wrapper and disposing of it properly.

And now I find here that a week later I am writing a blog post which contains references to “mounds”–the native american burying-grounds.  Interesting, no? 

Your Friend,  Joy

PS– Here is the blog post about that other tree friend of mine and a few others…  I hope you will like to read it and if so, just  CLICK HERE

Daily Divination 6-8-11 Recent News Reports on Truth versus Lies and Emotional Detachment – Being Lost – 4 of Cups and Moon in Cancer; Casey Anthony

I just shut off CNN and in doing so heard, “Casey Anthony seemed emotionally detached in today’s murder trial.” And then I come to my desk to draw a card for today’s daily divination—the tarot 4 of Cups, the archetype of Moon in Cancer.

Once when I drew this card the memory of being lost in the woods flashed and I’m thinking of that again right now. I’d hiked those trails before but on that day, I couldn’t find my way out!

Every trail brought me back to a part of the path I’d been on before—sort of makes you think of repeating patterns, doesn’t it?

The more I tried to find my way to the main exit path back to the parking lot, the more lost I became. I was going in circles, lost in a maze of trails that kept connecting to each other, none of which connected to the exit trail. It was starting to get dark and I was alone and lost.

The Moon in Cancer is totally about emotions and ruling the 4th house is also about self-image. Cups are about emotions, just like the Moon. I began to feel really pretty ignorant as I attempted to find my way out of the maze of trails—how could I be so lost? What in the world am I doing wrong here?

I was missing all the signs and the more emotional I got, the worse things became. If someone would have come along at that moment and asked me how I felt about myself in that instant, I’d have to say that I felt pretty ashamed and very down on myself.

How could this possibly connect with the Casey Anthony trial (accused of killing her little daughter)? I’m sure she feels the same way, but bump that up a thousand-fold.

I’ve known people who appear to be very emotionally detached like the reporter observed with Casey. People with a strong 4th house or Moon in Cancer or other strong Cancer signatures in their chart can appear detached, withdrawn, cold or without feeling.

Some of them might be but my sense is that a good many have very deep feelings and as a protective measure they shut down because their feelings are too strong to handle. They may be, like I was I the woods that day—lost, confused and feeling (frankly) pretty stupid.

I don’t have an interest in the trial of Casey Anthony but if you turn on the news these days, you can’t help but hear about it. The truth is that I don’t want to tune into it! But I do recognize the energy of someone who doesn’t know truth from lies and who appears to others to be emotionally detached!

We seem to be getting a lot of “truth versus lies” energy coming up on the news lately. The transiting lunar nodes are in Gemini-Sag, South Node North Node respectively.

Another big story involves the Anthony Weiner twitter scandal! More truth versus lies—lies being exposed—and we may see more of this as the transiting nodes remain in Gemini-Sagittarius. Sagittarius energy compensates by telling people what they think they want to hear rather than the simple truth.

In many tarot cards of the 4 of cups we see someone who is apathetic and apparently withdrawn and disinterested yet there are cups surrounding the person on the card and another cup being offered by the hand of spirit. Here appears someone who has the potential to have a good emotional life (cups) surrounding him and the spirit guide ia offering  even more opportunity,  but this soul cannot see or is perhaps using that energy in the wrong ways.

Like me in the woods, I was being filled with strong emotion for sure and it intensified each time I realized that I was again on the wrong path. Honestly! I kept coming back to the same spot on the trail. Here again!? How can I get out of this?

I had to calm down and finally did. I sat down a moment and centered myself in the oncoming darkness knowing every second was bring me closer to having to spend the night in the woods alone.

I could have detached like the person on the card of the 4 of cups and become more down on myself, giving in to the growing feelings of hopelessness. Trust me when I say that I really wanted to detach from what was beginning to feel like a full-out nightmare!

If a spirit guide or my higher mind was trying to tell me which way to go, my panic wasn’t allowing me to hear—I was deeply emotional and anyone looking at me from afar may have said about me too, “She appears emotionally detached.” I don’t think so! I was very emotional; there was a lot going on inside of me!  I was pretty self-absorbed.

I knew a man once who had a Sun in Cancer and used to think he had no emotions whatsoever! I’d think, Where’s this guy’s heart? In time I learned that he felt very deeply but it just didn’t seem to show it on his poker face—in fact, so there was a lot of emotion on the inside. Too much! I think many times he was battling within himself to maintain any semblance of composure; pretty much like I was that day lost in the woods.

My mind was muddled except for one focus—I had to get to the main trail; night was falling. I was getting lost in my own emotional reverie—in an emotional trance.

The deeper I went emotionally, the more outer awareness I lost and that certainly wasn’t helping my situation. This epitomizes one fairly strong meaning of the 4 of Cups and the Moon in Cancer.

In life people can be totally self-referring and self-absorbed regarding their own interests and desires.

It sounds like this was true of some of the behavior of Casey Anthony and also the US House Representative from New York, Anthony Weiner—that, at least, according to the news reports.

Of course, there are positive ways to focus on yourself and then there’s the opposite.

In my case, I needed to change my focus from inner emotional absorption to one of paying more attention to my surroundings so I could get out of that pickle!

I sat down under a tree like the person in the image on the card and had a slow look around as I breathed slowly and deeply, tuning in to my intuition. (This happened back in the days before I relied much on my inner perception to help in practical ways.)

I consciously asked for help as I centered and then decided on a path and took it. As I was making this attempt to find my way out again hoping that this time I was finally on the right path (even though it looked wrong by all other standards), I came upon 3 people who were coming toward me. I asked if they were coming from the main trail that leads to the parking lot and they affirmed that if I just kept on that trail that I’d be on the main path to the parking lot in a few moments!

Moral of that story—don’t give up, you will find your way!

You just have to get unstuck emotionally and if you open to your surroundings you will be on your way again. Becoming melancholy, indifferent or withdrawing doesn’t help in times of trouble unless it is only temporary until the direction seems clear.

Another bit of guidance offered by these archetypes has to do with determining what the source of true happiness is and where it comes from. People, like the two in the news lately that I have already mentioned, may appear to have everything to other folks. I mean some folks would love to have the prestigious and high paying job and relationship that the house representative had and I’m sure there are women having trouble conceiving a child who would love to trade places with that mother feeling that the responsibility of caring for such a beautiful little girl would be an honor and divine gift.

Yet, according to the news stories, both of these individuals were seeking to have interests and desires fulfilled on a different path.

Perhaps like me in the woods, they both wandered and then got lost repeating patterns and now the hand of spirit is helping them find their way back.

The Moon in Cancer and the 4 of cups archetype can be very much about getting lost in one’s emotions.

The polarity of Cancer is Capricorn. The Cancer/Capricorn (Moon/Saturn) is about emotional immaturity versus maturity.  On the one side of the polarity (Cancer) immaturity and  the other (Capricorn) maturing/growing up and dealing with reality.

We want to hide or withdraw because we don’t want to deal with the heavy emotions.  It’s understandable but immature.

We all have to do this eventually in one way or another— we have to grow up and take responsibility for the actions that we’ve taken that were based on emotional immaturity.

By the way, as most everyone who follows astrology knows, Pluto (the planet of transformation, representing the soul) is in Capricorn. On so many levels, we are all being challenged to do the “get real” thing that Capricorn is so famous for in order to affect transformation.

The economic bubble bursting is only one example of it—but a good one that we can see both nationally and globally. Toss in the transiting nodes in Gemini-Sag right now, and the energy of these days is about changing our beliefs, telling the truth, getting real and changing structures so that transformation can take place. Anyway…

These are a few thoughts on the 4 of cups and Cancer Moon that I hope that my writing about today has brought more depth of meaning to the card and the astrological archetypes.

As always, my hope is that something here has brought some sort of understanding, wisdom or guidance to the reader.

PS- I neglected to mention the Arnold Schwarzenegger’s 14 year lie that also made the news recently, but you get the idea. For astrologers out there—I just looked at Arnold’s chart: 12th house Mercury on a Cancer ascendant with a square from Neptune in the 4th. Nodes on 5-10 axis, with SN in the 5th in Sag. Interesting chart, considering.

ADDENDUM: here is something that I wrote (to a friend)  much later after the Casey Anthony verdict came back regarding the astrological correlations…

<snip> Talk about a psychological study and a “who done it”!  I read the book, it was a
quick read… Called “Mommy’s Little Girl” about her and toward the end
I watched the last week or so of the trial–daily! 

I’d have the TV on here and be listening while blogging and doing online
stuff.  Her father George Anthony was involved–I feel pretty certain– in a
cover up.  The whole family seems whack-o…. And correlating the 2 parents
charts with Casey’s and the little girl’s … There are quite interesting
Like I said, both parents are 1st house Sun’s … People
with 1st house Sun’s can be quite overpowering and controlling. 
Casey is a Pisces Sun with a Moon in Cancer—she has deep but confused
feelings and her energy is diffuse.  I can see how she is untruthful especially
as a 3rd house Pluto and in SCORPIO next to the SOUTH NODE in Scorpio.
So this SOUTH NODE (karmic past) with Pluto in the 3rd is past trauma
(Scorpio) and we could say persecution (Scorpio) involving death (Scorpio) that
is part of the soul’s past since it is the SN with Pluto.  And the Pluto-SN
conjunction is on the 3rd/9th axis which is the natural Gemini-Sag axis of
“truth versus lies”. 
A lot of times my teacher says that 3rd house Pluto individuals are very
opinionated and believe what they say is the one and only truth.
Typically there will be confrontations from others (in her case, most of 
the whole city of Orlando and most of the country is ready to confront her on
her lies). 
STILL nobody knows FOR SURE what REALLY happened to the little one. 
Casey’s defense was that it was an accidental drowning in he family pool
and her father helped her cover it up.  George (father) is very secretive…he’s
got a loaded 12th house with many personal planets there—Venus/Mercury/Mars as
well as Pluto and his SOUTH NODE in the 12th .  That’s someone who hides
stuff… The 12th house is about what is hidden.  See? George being sneaky and
hiding things seems to be validated by his chart. 
Casey (the mother accused) has that Pluto (mentioned above) RETROGRADE in
that 3rd house… So she’s been thru all this before in a previous life… This
is all Karmic… She is re-living conditions of her past which is
typical of a retrograde Pluto.
  I think she will learn this time and

resolve these issues. 
The little girl Caylee, her daughter who died has the mother’s very same
rising sign to the EXACT DEGREE…. The houses are all the same signs… Well,
Caylee is 20 deg 52 min Leo and her mother Casey is 19 deg 48 min Leo… That’s
one degree difference. 
MARS were crossing her ascendant on June 15/16 of 2008 when it is said that she
died.  Many times as Mars crosses the ascendant, accidents happen–people tend
to be very impulsive and take risks without thinking usually when Mars crosses
the ascendant–that is pretty well known by all astrologers… You hear
astrologer’s warn, “when Mars crosses your ascendant lay low and be
careful–watch out for tendencies to be impulsive.” That little one’s Mars and
transiting SN were crossing her ascendant at that time–June 15/16 of 2008 when
they say she died accidentally–according to the defense.  Astrologically it
makes sense. 
The fact that her transiting or evolving South Node (meaning past life
issues) was right there with mars (conjuct) going over the ascendant on that
date is interesting.  This, I believe, was karmic and we could say “written in
the stars”–this event which I do think, based on the
astrology, really ?? may have been an accident. –?? 
So this is as far as I’ve looked at the charts.  I think for Casey to be
away from her parents right now–ESP her father– is positive for her. (will
explain why below)
I was out with the kids when they jury’s verdict came back.  When I came
home, I saw the jury found her NOT GUILTY.
I watched the proceedings with an open mind like a juror would, I just
didn’t see proof beyond a reasonable doubt and feel the parents had some
knowledge (most likely the father more than the mother–who are both enablers
and controllers) and the whole family is quite crazy.  I think the mother,
Cindy, is really trying to awaken–issues of who to believe maybe?  She has
Saturn in the 7th house of relationships retrograde in Sag–who to belive is
what that signature may very well indicate.  Her North Node is in the 5th house
of children with Jupiter (beliefs) and Neptune (confusion/illusion/delusion) —
North Node in Scorpio means the soul has programmed in issues of a Scorpio
nature around children.  Scorpio is about loss/ betrayals/ power/ control/ death
and so on… And North Node is the souls intentions for the life…. So it looks
like this was programmed in for Cindy as well as Casey, etc.  This seems to me
to look like a karma drama playing out for the evolution of all the souls
Also in Casey’s chart we see that the 5th house of children contains the
Mars and Uranus… So we have the signature of unexpected (Uranus) loss of a
child there in her house of “children”, the 5th house.  Many times when we see
Mars in association with Uranus it can mean physical (mars) loss that is sudden
My only point is that we do see the signatures in the charts of what
I’ve always been one to root for the underdog which Casey certainly
was/is…. And while I’m not saying that she has no culpability at all, my soul
knows the feeling of the persecution and so there was some level of compassion
for her in some way. 
Cindy (the accused’s mother)’s Sun is sitting on Casey’s Moon—so we can
see the overpowering of Casey’s emotions by the mother’s powerful 1st house
natal Sun. Her father, George’s Sun, is in Casey’s 1st house… Overpowering
Casey’s self image.
I didn’t look at Casey’s brother’s chart–his name is Lee.  Interesting
that the little girl’s name is a combination of Casey and Lee— the little one
was name Caylee which looks like both Casey and Lee’s names merged. 
Anyway… The point is that I don’t want to get hooked on any more
trials… This one was gross enough and took up way too much of my time for a
few weeks once I got hooked.  Again, my interest was based on the astrological
I didn’t spend a lot of time  with these charts, just a glance….. and this is what I could see… a few impressions.  <snip>