Peaceful Reflection in Post Aversion and more on karmic tendencies

Not all apartments here are created equal, nor are all karmic imprints the same!
Not all apartments here are created equal, nor are all karmic imprints the same!

This post is me being bare-to-the-bones honest.  Sharing what I’m learning on this journey.  You may remember the posts since last year have reflected my struggle with… well,  straight to the point shall we?

Not all apartments are created equally, nor do all humans carry the same karmic imprints and tendencies in consciousness.

My inner question over many months involved knowing on deep levels that every irritating sound (or even smell; well, maybe especially smell) was illusion and my response of intense aversion to it was of course of my own making.

The sounds is ‘me’ and the smells are ‘me’ but at the same time in conventional reality obviously coming from the source of the downstairs neighbors.  For months on end, I realized this and argue with self, “…but it is so real (the loud voices the curry/garlic stink),… so real for something that is an illusion!

How could this be me when everything that remains of me that is still sane indicates the opposite?  

I knew the truth of it but the aversion was so strong that the reality of it increased in proportion and the whole thing kept feeding itself.  By the way, since moving I’ve learned that the apartment building itself where this experienced hell-realm is located is cheap construction and the townhouse I’m in now has very good soundproofing. Our neighbor to the right (this is a 2-level townhouse) consists of 3 people and a dog and we never hear a word, nor do the 3 of us living in this townhouse even hear one another’s TV or words from room-to-room or from upper-to-lower level.  So life is much more pleasant as far as that goes.   Not all apartments and townhouses in this complex are equal.

The other apartment  situation may have been karmic but it provided me the stimulus to ask more deeply about the nature of reality and the nature of mind.  I would never, ever wish to repeat it but I do see how the experience benefited my evolution.  

I knew deeply then as I always have in my core being that the external sounds, smell, appearances were empty and coming from the mind but the aversion was so strong… it was very confusing and I resisted it desperately causing myself compounded suffering.

The thing is when we look at something in meditation, we see the appearance of it in the mind.  Sounds, smells, all senses are this way.  The mind interprets everything and assigns meaning or judgment to it…  “i.e. this is pleasant, this is horrible, etc.”

And when we try to find the consciousness that see’s and interprets the energy, when we try to find the visual consciousness or the auditory consciousness or the olfactory/sense of smell consciousness that is doing the looking or receiving the smell, we cannot find it.   Mostly because it is constantly changing and in Buddhist terms it is “empty”.

Being a psychic this is known to me and seen in my work–energy is constantly changing and what we perceive is not the true nature of things, it is only our own perceptions which are deeply ingrained patterns (see last blog post)… latent karmic imprints.  

I have to admit here that there is difficulty in explaining in this written word what I know and what  am learning here now, post-aversion, in my continued  reflection and further study of  Tibetan Buddhism.  It’s complicated on one hand and so simple on the other!  All the Libra energy in me can hold the paradox but my Mercury in Scorpio feels it and has trouble with the words.

I realize even more clearly now that the sounds and smells [from my boisterous and cooking Indian downstairs neighbors and the guitar-singing neighbor who followed] were all simply energies which hit my senses that these sense consciousnesses had absolutely no opinion of those sounds or smells.

And further, and more importantly, I realize with more clarity that  it was my mind that  was giving it whatever meaning it had back then which was that of extreme aversion.

For another person with different karmic imprints, the situation would perhaps even been pleasant (although that’s hard to imagine) or at least the aversion may not have been as strong.

Why would it differ?  All those latent karmic imprints and tendencies were awakened and it seemed very difficult to have control over my intense aversions.  I am not making excuses, I’m demonstrating, hopefully, how something pleasant or unpleasant (attractions/aversions) may differ with person-to-person based on the karmic tendencies in ground consciousness [see last blog post].

Back then, I kept thinking [getting the thought]–this smell is ‘me’ and their yelling in Hindi is ‘me’ but (at the same time) how can that possibly be?    Karmic habituation of interpreting certain energy a certain way is part of the answer.

I don’t have all the answers but it’s all getting clearer now that I am in a new setting where peaceful reflection is possible.

(I share this in the hope that it may serve or be helpful in some way to another out in cyber world who may be experiencing any type of difficulty or confusion.  May we all be brought to clarity and contented happiness and freedom from all suffering and causes of suffering.) 

 

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Aries Moon

Moon in Aries 

What makes us emotionally comfortable and secure when the Moon is in Aries?
Aries is about initiation, beginnings. It is the first sign of the zodiac so the theme of freshness and newness is likely. This will likely be the evident emotional atmosphere when the Moon is in Aries.

Emotionally, we may feel like initiating something new. That would satisfy the Aries Moon, especially after coming off the Moon in Pisces where the emotional tendency may have been more inward, maybe even tinged with some melancholy. But as we move into Aries, our emotional bodies may be affected  in such a way that we want to take charge of our mental state.

Aries (ruled by Mars) likes action–it’s a fire sign and is associated with the archetype of the warrior and is known, many times, as the “life force”. Think “Ram” and charging… fierce.

Chances are we will not be emotionally intimidated by others when the Moon is in Aries and we may even feel a tendency to “lock horns” with others. Aries can be explosive, but it is also about courage and leadership. The Aries tendency is sort of like “Move over, I’ll take charge!”

At least as it applies to the general mood, this type of response from others or from within yourself may be likely– that’s what the hungry Moon in Aries needs to feel secure and happy. It wants to take charge!
Of course, the problem is that not everyone can take charge at once; some people may move more toward the Libra side of the Libra/Aries axis as our Aries energy bumps into other people’s Mars-like energy. More on this polarity later in this post.

We may find that we (or others) demonstrate a certain level of emotional courage that may not be as strong as when the Moon is in some of the other signs. Sometimes Aries can be a bit selfish, but sometimes we need to be. And when the Moon is in Aries it will be much easier for us to step into that selfish persona if it is needed.

We may feel like being very outward and external with the Moon in Aries, whereas when the Moon was in Pisces, our tendency was to be generally more inward. With Mars-like Arian energy, we may have a tendency to tell other people exactly how we feel. Aries is also the sign of war; therefore, it would be a good time to be aware of that and if you do go to battle pick your battle well. Otherwise curbing the natural emotional volatility of this Moon may be more appropriate.

Aries rules the 1st house of personal identity and so it might trigger emotional issues in that area as well.

Leadership is another Aries archetype and you may find yourself (and/or others) demonstrating an emotional attachment to being out front, leading the pack, in any group activity. The fight or flight response may be evident as well… the Aries polarity is Libra. And Libra would (many times) rather do the fLight rather than fight. With any sign of the zodiac, it’s always good to take in both sides of the axis. Aries/Libra axis: think fight or flight.

People may be generally aloof when the Moon moves through Aries… this is because Aries does not like being attached emotionally and will do most anything (including provoking conflict) in order to maintain freedom and independence from what it feels may be a susceptible sensitive attachment.

Perspective

These little Moon weather reports, we have to remember, are general–like most other weather reports. When the weather man predicts rain, it could be raining in your city or on your block; yet, the Sun is shining less than a mile away at the very same time.

Other factors come into play and sometimes there’s a break in the clouds.
And sometimes you (or others) have personal planetary transits or progressions that are much more powerful than the Moon’s influence–in which case, there may be a tornado at a time when mild weather was predicted. Such as it is with weather!

Yet, I really like taking a look at the Moon’s influence–even if it is very fast moving and sometimes mild. Some people are more tuned into their own emotions and the emotions of others and then there are those that are completely blocked on that level.

And then there are others still who want to white light everything and ignore the emotional body completely. My “take on it” is this: why not understand it and work with it? Planetary energy does have an influence–as above, so below. Since we’re on the earth with other humans, may as well be part of it at least on the level of understanding human nature.

You will either find this information interesting and helpful or you won’t.
Like the weather, some people don’t care about it, barely notice it and just keep on moving.
That is, until a storm comes. Then they stand back and wonder what’s going on. It’s the same thing with astrology I think.

I’ve always wondered about changing emotions

It was back in the late 70’s or early 80’s that I really began to take notice of these things.
I remember that particular day of inquiry very well. I realized that nothing externally in my life had changed from one day to the next; in other words, the outer world was the same on that day as it was on the day before. Yet my mood was completely different.

My thought was, “Yesterday I felt so happy and bubbly (for no particular reason) and today I feel sad (for no particular reason). What’s up with that? What changed? And what accounts for this?”

Then I learned thoughts can create or affect emotions–what a revelation!
Change your thoughts and change your mood!
Mother never taught me that—she didn’t know it herself, and as far as I can tell she still doesn’t.

However, I struggled with the concept for a while. And then I thought it should be flipped around.

My mood creates my thoughts–no, that wasn’t quite right either.
These days I have more understanding. It involves the added awareness gleaned from the changing Moon!

It can be complicated, but I’ve long known that I came here to MASTER MY EMOTIONS or that’s one of the reasons. I don’t mind contemplating all this for that reason. Besides, I’ve got a lot of planets in Libra so I can deal with paradox without a problem.

Meanwhile, have fun with the Aries Moon and use it to initiate, lead and improve your personal identity… but be aware that other people will be on this same wave length too. Maybe you can use this knowledge to help them out a little?

That’s it for now…