The Grand Cross and The Matrix — Venus opposing Uranus Squaring Pluto and Jupiter 2013

Grand Cross 2013 Venus opposing Uranus squaring Pluto and Jupiter
Grand Cross 2013 Venus opposing Uranus squaring Pluto and Jupiter

The astrological alignment of four planets in astrology called The Grand Cross  (to my mind) is like one of the final scenes in the movie trilogy THE MATRIX.

Venus is opposing Uranus and squaring Jupiter which is opposing Pluto, so squaring both!

What does it mean when Venus engages with all these big player planets?

Relating with others intensifies!

One way or another and it’s building right now, it  looks like  some things (likely issues involving money, power, freedom and control in relationships) are going to get challenged, squared away and hopefully resolved over the next few weeks in people’s personal lives.

More specific you say?  It could be like this:  faith and beliefs (Jupiter) squares freedom and liberation (Uranus).

And your values (Venus) are challenged so that Transformation on some level (Pluto) happens.

You already feel it, you must!  What is a hot issue in your life right now?

Something around that gets sacrificed on your personal Grand Cross over these next few weeks.

Some thing or some one is going to be released for your evolutionary benefit!  So that PEACE can be achieved.

When I think of the Grand Cross configuration in astrology, I always think of that final scene in the Matrix wherein Neo, THE ONE, is asked “What do you want?” and he answers, “Peace”.

That’s how I understand the purpose of a Grand Cross!

For each of us the energy of the next few weeks will play out differently but it will involve the archetype of Venus in some way and how Venus is placed in your birth chart as well as the Nodes of the Moon (karmic past and evolutionary intent of your soul).  The various Venus energy archetypes include:  love, relationships, values, money to name a few and the other archetypes of the signs and houses it rules (2nd, 7th, Taurus, Libra).

Hang on snoopy; the next few weeks could get interesting!

Taming the Mind and Being Authentic on the Spiritual Path

Taming an unruly mind in meditation can be like taming a wild horse

Okay, I’ll admit it—faking the small talk enjoyment with strangers I can’t seem to do very well at anymore. “I am what I am and that’s all that I am” as Popeye the sailor man cartoon guy says. In my own defense it was a full Moon opposing my natal Moon and I fretted over the appetizer and what to wear to the affair that by the time I got there I was already wore out and didn’t have much energy to pretend what I didn’t feel–exhausted; can I pretend I’m full of energy. I’m not use to being inauthentic. I gave it all the cover I could; my sister said I did fine, so I’ll go with that. I guess I just don’t care to pretend anymore and didn’t realize it until I was underwater in humans.

It was all very lovely for her (my daughter) and she’s the one who matters in this instance after all; the engagement party was for her. I did my best; something that I always assure myself that I do and I hope isn’t just me being delusional. It’s just hard to keep the center in the midst of people’s energy bouncing off the walls especially when one’ is tired. There’s something about my spiritual path these days that doesn’t allow me be inauthentic and that’s a problem in some situations. Now I see it is even more important than ever to keep rested and to have enough time to devote to a formal sitting meditation—it’s imperative now whereas at the top of the mountain it wasn’t as necessary for me.

These connections with family dramas stimulate the mental amphitheater of my mind that has been quiet – and in observing these thoughts, I see how I can allow pretty self-critical thinking. I also realize that there is some sort of guilt that is beneath it all; and it’s vague and general… nearly like that whole original sin catholic guilt garbage. Yeah, insane neurosis and in between it’s there… calm and peace. It’s there but I need to formally take it to the cushion these days to find it again and re-activate it.

I said to my family that having moved here is causing me to dig deeper into the Buddhist teachings and to work with applying meditation practice on levels that I hadn’t before and my sister laughed, winked and in her funny sarcastic tone replied, “Glad to help!”

Anyway, I think that being very authentic as a human was the par for the course until I hit family turf again and until I became surrounded by traffic and humans galore. And now that insane thoughts or what the Buddhist would call “self-consciousness” and what westerners would call “ego” has…. Well, it is like the sleeping dragon has awakened! And that’s probably truer than not since the South Node of the Moon in Astrology is called Dragon’s tail and the North Node referred to Dragon’s head! And like I’ve pointed out in other posts, in my case my transiting nodes moving closer to merging with my natal nodes—North Node on the South and South Node on the North. “Back to the Future”—and so who knows, we have old thoughts from past lives or even from the past of this lifetime being kicked up.

My daughter is about to get married and I’m doing our life review here and it’s all just insane and neurotic thought which dissipates when I see it and label it and then peace filters back in so I can be my true self again. It was living in that true self for so long up on the mountain that sort of dis-allowed me to pretend too much at the party; it was hard is all I can say. But there we go—yet another insane thought just got blogged. LOL

It’s time for me to take it all to the cushion again. I don’t want to think anymore, I just want to breathe and be who I am…. Something wasn’t at the party but I survived even if I didn’t ‘perform’ all that well and couldn’t pull off having the ‘time of my life’ when I wasn’t. LOL. It was one of those affairs where you stand for hours and talk while everyone else talking around you—quite different from 15 years of solitude in the mountains. And now, to the meditation cushion to tame the unruly mind—on some days lately, it seems like saddling a wild horse! I must love that horse and approach it gently and with compassion.

PS– I enjoyed talking to the little kids and interacting with their family dog the most.  I’m not a social moron really, just having trouble pretending anymore. I’m still working it out in meditation time; it’ll be alright

Day #20 Value System Shock and Awe – North Node Taurus and Electric Train Goes Back to the Future

Electric Train
When Life Starts Moving Like An Electric Train!

May there be something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….

Before we get started catching up from Day #11 to now, let me just say how much I love my work!  It’s intense—this project, this commitment, this change—but when I do a phone reading for someone, it is like drinking cool water from a pure source on a hot day.  O, I’m sure there are better analogies to use—so let me just say it straight.  When I do a reading, it is the highlight of my day and a healing of my energy; it’s great!  And with the recent intensity of my life, the contrast is plainly and acutely pronounced.  Healers know this—when they do a healing for another they are channeling healing energy through them and so they too become healed.   It is the same in my work as a psychic and medium. 

And now to continue from Day #11:  whenever one makes a commitment for change, it will affect others and in my case I had to give that kind of notice or head’s up.  I had no idea how it was going to go.  Would I meet with any rage or resistance or resentment when I told others who would be affected about my commitment to this change?  I held my breath (held my nose) and jumped in and did it.  I had to because the persons I had to tell needed to be involved in the change itself.  I had a moment or two of the heart beating fast and then holding the breath in anticipation until I received the response.  It was surreal actually as much of the last 20 days have been. 

Sometimes I will program ahead for the response I want from another—or I have done so in the past.  You know—visualized it happening the way I wanted it to and then seeing that it did.  That can be a very empowering thing to do by the way!

This time, however, I was more ‘in the moment’.  What I mean is there was a level of confidence beforehand that no matter the response, I will deal with it as it happens moment by moment.  And I did and it went as well as could be expected—well, actually in some cases better than could be expected. 

The feeling was like I’m on this train and it isn’t stopping and so people will have to step aside because the train is coming through—yet, I am not driving the train as much as being a passenger. 

Once those people were told about the change and that was accomplished things really took off… moved much faster… like the train was on one of those electric tracks that goes 110 mph instead of 40 or 50.  It makes me think of how it goes from Washington, DC area to Philadelphia whenever I’d travel there from North Carolina.  Through North Carolina, Virginia and Maryland the train was slow as molasses but once we got near DC, we hooked onto the electric track and flew!  Well, that’s how it’s been… I’ve been flying for the past 9 days! 

And I’ve had help!  People help; family help; physical help and emotional help and so there’s the further evidence for the support for this commitment to change. 

Yet, emotionally or within me there’s been an issue triggered by value systems—mine versus theirs!  Or we could say fringe dweller spiritual and metaphysical values VERSUS big-city, Corporate America impersonal and “it’s all about the money mentality” and besides “you are just a number consciousness”—it’s been (to use their terms/words) just like “shock and awe”.  I won’t go into that too much more because it is just me having to adjust to being in Rome and doing what the Roman’s do—at least externally.  It’s not been pleasant on certain days and there’ve been times that I’ve sat on the floor and cried it out for a few minutes due to the ridiculous irony alternated by other moments on the floor laughing at levels of near-hysteria for the same reason. 

Overwhelmed isn’t a strong enough word to describe certain moments but I’ve got tools and have “been there-done that” enough times emotionally that I know how to use them!  So… it’s okay and I have in my 64 years upon the earth learned a good deal and have developed excellent coping and healing techniques!

So while the past 9 or 10 days have been moving quickly and have been intense mentally, physically and emotionally… the highlights have actually been when I’ve ceased in this project and helped another by doing my work, giving a reading.  It is when I am being my truest and happiest self!  And it’s not that I needed to make this change or commitment to know that—not at all; because I’ve always known that actually. 

In 18 days my life will change and I will be walking into an area that is semi-unknown to me on certain levels.  I have so many projects in mind after that which involve my work as a psychic, medium, astrologer and teacher!  I feel sure my focus will be sharper and I will have more time and energy to devote to those endeavors.

Until then, this update must end.  I know I just typed 18 days but I think of it more in terms of two weeks actually.  I hope lots of people will want a reading over these next two weeks… and that is what I am asking the universe for!

I’ve just got to tell ya’ though, in the meanwhile, that it is so strange watching the events of my life and watching myself go in directions that I said to everyone that I’d never, ever go!  and it’s not the first time this has happened!  Shows to go ya’ or goes to show ya’ that you probably should never say never–especially to The Universe!  Well, if you’ve lived life at all you already know that!

I will update again when there’s another opportune moment to sit down and gather myself and my thoughts.  My North Node Taurus is being triggered by my approaching transiting South Node and while I’m starting this whole “Back to the Future” thing in some ways in my life… it should get even more interesting as the conjunction becomes more or less exact at the end of the year triggering and electrifying the 4th/10th house axis even further!

Hoping that there was something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….

See you next time…