I wear one in a ring and think of Goddess Energy (the Goddess Diana) in association with Moonstone. And of course all that the Moon itself represents, including the Divine Feminine and Intuition!
In my thinking, Moonstone relates to the subconscious mind and helps us to connect with it, and the soul itself.
It protects, it is said, all those who wear or carry it when they travel at night.
It does change it’s light when the Moon is full or dark–and it reflects energy just as the Moon itself reflects the light of the Sun, thus it’s connection with intuition.
I see the changes in the light of the Moonstone in the ring that I wear based upon the phase of the Moon.
Moonstone can be blue, gray, white, peach, yellow or rainbow color–the stone in my own Moonstone Ring is the white/grey blend of the moon itself.
Moonstone is also thought to cleanse negativity from chakras. And it is thought, naturally, to enhances the feminine (intuitive) qualities.
It’s a good stone to have along with you during pregnancy and childbirth. Personally, I think all astrologers should wear or carry Moonstone, especially when interpreting charts. And every psychic should want to own one or several.
Moonstone is abundant in the area of the mountains where I’m from in North Carolina. It is from the FELDSPAR family.
As for me; I wouldn’t leave home or go anywhere without it–a Moonstone lives on my left pink-y finger and has for many years. We could call it the “stone of divination”, and so I will.
By the way, in Palmistry the small finger is associated with COMMUNICATION (the Mercury finger). I didn’t plan which finger upon which to place a Moonstone ring–it was the finger that the ring fit at the time before I knew the first thing about Palmistry. Since I am a psychic, I find that association supportive and synchronistic. By the way, the sign associated with the little finger is Libra, and that’s my Sun, Moon, Venus and Neptune sign. Well anyway…. before I get carried off into doing Palmistry, better get back to work on my new website!
Ah yes! The little darling did it again! “Aunt Joy, I didn’t think you had any friends.” Well, of course, can you blame her? I mention one of my friends at dinner in the restaurant–I was referring to a human friend by the way. Anyway…
She’s 17 years old and friends at her age are the end-all, beat-all and collecting the numbers at any price for popularity and all that is typical of that age I suppose. Yet, myself at 17, I had my books and spent a lot of time to myself and as we trace this timeline backward and forward from that age, same deal!
I often talk about the trees being “my friends” and the birds too and then of course, my crystal friends–the stones I’ve been Facebook-ing about and in wrote about in my newsletter earlier this week. My niece joins most of the rest of consensus humanity (the mass-mind of a shallow society) with values completely different from my own and dare I say nearly opposed from fringe dwellers (at least in consciousness) like me.
Well, she stopped my mind in it’s tracks at that moment with her comment about never seeing me with a “friend”. I realize that most others who have the same world and “other-world” view as myself are like hidden gems and most I’ve found (or they have found me) through the Internet, my website, as clients or psychic class members. I suspect there have been many lifetimes that my soul spent up on mountaintops or alone in the wood where I feel most at home with nature and animal friends.
So this innocent, thoughtless (or was it?) comment from this high school-er relative got me to thinking. How does someone respond to that kind of thing? I was stopped in my mental tracks by her words because I realized the pattern of people simply not knowing who I am–not that I’d expect any selfish minded, self-centered teenager to take the time or trouble to figure that out but how could I even explain it during casual dinner conversation?
So, I didn’t say much and tried to joke it away later in the conversation: “Well, what do I know? I don’t even have any friends. ha ha”
I have to say that when an animal says hello or recognizes me, it brings me feelings of happiness and sacredness (really sacredness is a really good word to describe it)—feelings that rarely happen when a human says hello when passing by. I’m thinking of dogs who stop to say hello–this used to happen more often in the mountains where they weren’t leashed. But even now here in the heart of the crowded human city when a pet owner walks by with their dog on the leash, we connect. The pet owner fades back and blurs out in my experience and the dog and I connect! Instant friend!
Each of my 3 daughters has a cat–one daughter has 3 cats and those are my friends too!
Those are the local friends within the community; but I do have online friends… many for years and years! And telephone friends too. Not that I need to defend or explain this—yet there it was again in the face of her comment. Totally misunderstood—again! Its a pattern of course and that feeling of being “an alien from a galaxy far, far away” (to borrow a phrase from the movies—wasn’t it Star Wars?) —anyway, that feeling is so familiar and has some emotional pain woven into it at points. But then, it’s right on time–isn’t it?
I mean that astrologically it is–this whole friend ‘thing’ and relationship ‘thing’–now that the transiting Lunar Nodes are moving through Libra/Aries. I’m sure there will be more of this kind of thing rather than less and I’m telling myself that I may as well get used to it. As you likely know, the archetype themes of Libra/Aries have to do with independence/freedom versus relationship. And suddenly I hear Barbara Streisand’s voice in my head singing “People who need people, are the luckiest people in the world….”. Honestly, frankly, truth be told—I’ve always hated that song! I guess that could be pretty revealing, right?
Well, so today thinking of all this, I thought to close eyes and to do a CRYSTAL READING for myself, pulling a stone out of the bowl–the vibe of which I was hoping would give me some help. After all, the title of this week’s newsletter was CRYSTALS HELP. Anyway, guess what stone it was? LEOPARDSKIN JASPER!
This is the stone that I think of as relating to communicating with the animals. This stone relates to kindness and gentleness which is how I experience most all animals–they are kind and gentle and help us to be as well. But mostly, since I was thinking today about how animals really make better friends than most humans (those ego-inflated humans with their agendas which rarely include unconditional love and acceptance)… mostly, I felt that with eyes closed drawing this stone out of my crystal bowl was a smile and recognition from the animal kingdom and my own animal totem.
For the record and in the interest of disclosure, being human myself (sometimes regretfully–ha ha) the unconditional love and acceptance example of animals is one that I could emulate more too. I do like the example of cats however as they will intuitively walk away from humans with vibrations that are harsh, mean, aggressive, ill-disposed or unfriendly. Cats are selective about their human bonds–me too!
Funny thing though–if I should at any time find myself longing for anything or looking at my desire-nature, never is there wish for more friends. I suppose it’s an emotional security thing, you know? Most humans long for what they believe will give them emotional security, more happiness, and less pain. I have a short list in that regard and more friends simply isn’t on it–and there’s no elitism or snobbishness with that or anywhere on the side.
I think, too, that as a psychic and medium, there is a continual awareness of having a full life with my friends in spirit world. For example, right now, I feel the room in which I’m typing this filled with spirit beings, crystal people and …. well, the room is full, and in that sense my life is full and would a simple minded teenager understand that?
Spirit friends: I can see them, feel, them and know I am surrounded by them–just like many other fringe dwellers who would be stumped, as I was, by that comment.
So, I will take my Leopardskin Jasper and place it in my pocket and carry it with me today and smile my secret smile knowing I’ve had a wink and a nod from those of the Animal Kingdom–the very best kinds of friends!
Excuse me now–because its time to water my plant friends!
Recently, I was inspired (from the Angels?) to write about them in this week’s newsletter which was about the association of Archangels with Planets, Sun signs, and then obviously with the astrological signs. That’s when I thought to look up the Archangel associated with my own sun sign. This blog post is the result of that data search and my thoughts about it….
Archangel Haniel is considered to be the Angel of Intuition and clairvoyance and is linked through the planet Venus ruling Taurus and Libra.
She also oversees astrology and spiritual healing.
She is also, it is said, thought to be the angel of “JOY”.
The lantern of joy has the power to bring light into any circumstances, no matter how dark they may be. Haniel is sometimes pictured holding a lantern.
Haniel “brings harmony and balance wherever she goes” (Libra is always seeking harmony and balance), she is the Angel that, it is also said, reminds you to find fulfillment from within rather than trying to find happiness from outside yourself.
I am a Libra Sun (Haniel rules Venus and therefore the signs Taurus and Libra). I relate and feel a connection (very much so) to Archangel Haniel.
Thinking back, its no wonder that my spirit guides assigned the name “Joy” to me decades ago; long before I knew anything about archangels. It makes perfect sense now and that realization gives me chills!
I was born with many planets in the Venus-ruled sign of Libra including Venus itself along with my Sun, Moon and Neptune. Is it any wonder that this “joy angel”, who is so often depicted with a smile on her face, is linked so strongly to me with my birth occurring with so many planets in Libra, imprinting my soul with Haniel energy?
In my psychic class I mention that everyone has a “joy guide” –this whole “joy guide” thing being something that I was taught by my own psychic trainer from the beginning. My instructor never mentioned the name Haniel, but I was enthralled and enchanted by the idea of a joy guide back then and now pass on the information about having a “joy guide” to my own psychic development students.
If you see green or turquoise light around you, Haniel may be nearby, say believers. Looking back at the colors on my website and newsletter now, I do wonder if Haniel may have had her influence when I chose those colors for my web pages.
I am her, she is me, we are one.
Turquoise is a balanced blend of green and blue. It helps to develop our unique individuality. It is the New Age of Aquarius that encourages us to seek spiritual knowledge.
Haniel is said to have a special connection to the Moon (me too!) If there was an Archangel associated with ASTROLOGY, it would be her–or at least this is the case based upon the numerous websites and books that I’ve referenced.
I feel her smile and joy growing within me today and will carry her on my shoulder today by thinking of her often and asking her to penetrate my life with more of her energy.
FEED YOUR SUN TO ENHANCE YOUR LIFE FORCE AND TO FEEL STRONG, HAPPY, ENERGIZED
The Sun Sign is like a key which enables us to turn it to reach a particular channel of consciousness that vitalizes our essence physically, mentally and spiritually. A weak Sun enables us to fall apart easily, feel physically weak, disoriented and depressed. We need the Sun, the Light to energize our heart–our spirit here. When our Sun is healthy we feel strong and able to handle the challenges of life. We should each know what it is that nourishes us and helps us feel our own power—and astrology can help us. We should know and study the sign of our Sun and that’s the reason for today’s post!
I will list each Sun sign and a line or two about what you need to nourish your body, mind and soul to keep yourself healthy and energized—we should know how to feed our Sun; how to bring more Light into our body, mind and spirit so that we can feel happy here!
The Sun is thought to be Male energy—the animus as Jung called it. Our Sun is our Life Force (as above, so below)–it’s our Prana and it helps us with our creative expression here. More basically it is what produces our will to live and so we should know how to nourish it.
Nourishing (feeding) our Sun is what helps us to feel confident and it is different for each of us, based on our birth data.
Almost everyone knows their Sun sign but if you don’t, I will include the list of signs with dates below. This list isn’t intended to be all inclusive—this is just off the top of my head so-to-speak mentioning some of the key points that come to mind about each Sun which my own Libra Sun needs to do in order to feel energized an purposeful i.e. “relating”. Anyway, here we go…
SUN IN ARIES (born March 21 – April 20)
You need fire and to express courage and a pioneering spirit and be out front or first in anything you do. Any activity that encourages such things will feed your Sun and help your life force sparkle and shine brighter. You need excitement and to try new things—as many as you can even if you don’t follow up with everything you start, you need those exciting “new starts” often and in some form in order to feed your Sun and help you feel confident and alive .
SUN IN TAURUS (born April 21 – May 20)
You need earth and to express your very practical ideas in any way that you can. You are good at handling resources and expressing this skill helps you to feed your life force and feel confident. When you work with money/finances you shine just like you do when you express your strong tastes in creating beauty with earth resources. When you care for your physical needs and comforts, you energize your body, mind and spirit.
SUN IN GEMINI (born May 21 – June 21)
You need air, mental, thought to energize your sense of dualism—and when you can hold two views at the same time or unite two sets of opposites, this helps you to feel confident and powerful. When you allow yourself to use your natural born gift of observation and combine that with words in any way—shazam, you are really rocking and feeling your light grow brighter. Mental stimulation in any way, shape or form energizes you and when you talk about things this too helps body, mind and spirit unite—expressing yourself does it for you and helps you feel vital and alive.
SUN IN CANCER (born June 22 – July 22)
Water, emotions and security are the key words here that feed this Sun and help people in this sign feel strong and vital. Home, family and tradition and things to do with the past help you feel a sense of purpose that enlivens your body, mind and soul. Building a sense of home and doing that groundwork for that purpose feeds your sun and helps you feel more powerful, confident and alive – you take the past and create a self-image from that making an identity that helps you feel more yourself. When you care for others and protect and nurture them, this feeds your own Sun—your life force. If you don’t use your deep feelings to care for others, you feel more vulnerable and loose energy; however, if your home or security are threatened this enables you to find your Sun and call upon your own natural inner strength making you aware of it and this ultimately enables you to feel more alive, confident and purposeful.
SUN IN LEO (born July 23 – Aug 22, 23)
This person needs fire, passion and awareness of self and feels enlivened when in any kind of central position or at the core of anything that is going on. If this type of individual is not feeling popular with others, it can dampen the spirit and it’s like put a blanket over their life force. The person born under this Sun will feel the need to reach the pinnacle of achievement in some area but must also remember to have fun so that work and pleasure are in equal measure—if not, the life force depletes and the Sun is not being fed. There is a susceptibility to flattery from others until this individual can learn how to nourish their own Sun by self-acceptance and true self-awareness.
SUN IN VIRGO (born August 23, 23 – September 22, 23)
Humility, compassion and modesty and an urge to be of service and make a significant difference in the world in a hands-on and grounded way that is practical and useful; this is what feeds and nourishes the body, mind and spirit of those born under the Virgo Sun. Other Sun signs can take advantage of the service oriented Virgo nature who likes to work behind the scenes. Satisfaction comes from giving attention to details and by pursuing a natural interest in healing—those activities feed the Virgo Sun helping this individual feel confident and vital.
SUN IN LIBRA (born September 23, 24 – October 22, 23)
The emphasis here is on non-self or the ‘other’ and on anything air related such as writing, speaking and in any way ‘relating’. When the person born under this sign is uniting with others in some way there comes a feeling of wholeness and balance and harmony. A person born under this Sun has a consideration of other people’s feelings, such as even if this person is expressing anger it is on behalf of another rather than self. The Libra soul really has a strong need to justice and fair play and working for the benefit of others is what enables this soul to be energized and feel confident and vital.
SUN IN SCORPIO (born October 23, 24 – November 22)
The person born under this Sun has an urge to fight an conquer foes whether real or imagined and the need is to slay a dragon of some type and so here feeling the power of tenacity makes on feel alive and vital. There’s an innate need for passion and sometimes engaging in activities to the point of obsession but this level of intensity is needed in order to feed body, mind and soul. If the person can dig deeply for the truth even to the point of doing research in some way to find the deep bottom-line answer, then the life force is energized. Anything involving psychology and learning about the motivations of others helps the person born under this sign to feel vital, alive and generally purposeful which feeds their life force.
SUN IN SAGITTARIUS (born November 23 – December 21, 22, 23)
Expansion of the solar forces to their fullest potential happen with those born under the Sag Sun and there needs to be a wide field or area for this person to express their life force energy. Here we have individuals who have a huge abundance of tolerance naturally and when this is being expressed, the Sag person feels that sense of purpose being fulfilled. Honesty, freedom and optimism and cheerfulness need to be allowed expression in order for the person born under this Sun to feel confident and vitally alive. The naturally restless spirit of the Sag Sun individual is soothed by experiencing some type of adventure and having an expression of freedom in their life in some way. Teaching helps someone born in Sag to feel vitally alive, purposeful and thus feeds that life force, their Sun. Travel or planning a trip is also something that a Sagittarius can do in order to feed their Sun!
SUN IN CAPRICORN (born December 22, 23, 24 – January 20)
The Sun’s rays are usually weaker during these months but inside this individual there is a quiet drive that is powerfully present and needs feeding. Anything requiring tenacity and determination will feed the body, mind and spirit of this individual. This person needs a goal and something to master in some field or endeavor and has what it takes to endure hardship and to overcome obstacles and when these hardships and obstacles are overcome, the life force is revitalized. There is purpose on the path of overcoming life that feeds this person’s body, mind and spirit. This Capricorn Sun needs responsibility and can thrive on it!
SUN IN AQUARIUS (born January 21 – February 19)
The person born under this Sun thrives on cooperation with others; and without it their life force fades and wanes. Personal satisfaction comes from considering others first and in fact self-promotion diminishes one’s feeling of power and confidence. Sharing with others and humanitarian concerns rule this individuals deepest inner desires and help one feel the life is being well-lived and furthers the feelings of brotherhood and friendship that keep this Sun fed. Technology is also a place wherein a person born under this sign can shine and feel confident and purposeful; so developing technical skill helps one feel like shining even brighter especially if the technology enhances other people’s welfare.
SUN IN PISCES (born 2/20 – 3/20)
The solar forces are probably the weakest here in those born under this sign. Yet, in times of adversity, the solar spark ignites and inner strength asserts itself. Here we can see folks who can be very resistant but in a very passive way but the resistance can be arduous and formidable. The person born under this sign feels confidence and life force grow when expressing adaptability, tolerance and compassion. If the person born under a Pisces Sun works on behalf of those less fortunate this generally motivates their life. So, therefore, charity work and healing work are of benefit in feeding the Sun of those born under Pisces. The thing here is that the individual is basically very kind but others perceive this as weakness and then take advantage; therefore, boundaries are crucial for those born under this Sun Sign. If anything in the arts using imagination are pursued (music, dancing, etc.) this can feed the Sun here since those born with a Pisces Sun have a strong imagination. Grounding, naturally, is something that should be balanced with the imaginative nature.
I hope this little list will help you to know how to feed your own Sun and also for you to know a bit about how to help your family and friends enhance their life force as well.
PERSONAL INTENTION AND PRAYER:
May this information reach the right people and the right time in order to make a positive difference in their life and may their life force be energized beyond measure for the good of all.
And this little piggy went….. all the way (not home) to the Urgent Medical Care Center
I had a few head’s up which I apparently… well, the first one I mis-interpreted (darn dreams anyway!) and the second one? Ignored! And the third one shrugged away.
I roared laughing at as I buddy wrapped it this morning. What’s that little rhyme? “Poor little piggy”, I thought. All red and the left half of the foot all black and blue, “poor little piggy.”
I had a dream around the time that the downstairs Indian neighbors got my full attention with their yelling and door slamming—between the 7th and 14th. Rarely do I dream specific dates like that. Maybe it was wishful thinking that I attributed the 14th as the date one of them was leaving – I thought it was her. I’ve been holding out hope that this would happen. Instead, something else happened! Dude, really? It certainly did—at least in my apartment. What happened in there’s—don’t know and don’t care. All I know is that last night the Hindu chants to Ganesh played on low volume on the desktop computer in my room until 4 am and no bad dreams for the 2nd night in a row.
Anyway, I wrote something about it yesterday morning—I think on Facebook—something about well, it’s the 14th and nothing has changed downstairs. I glanced at my transits in my astrology software program over the weekend and there is Saturn sitting right on top of the wounded healer Chiron—EXACT DEGREE AND MINUTE CONJUNCTION when my little accident happened.
Yeah, I’m looking at it right now 10 degrees 29 minutes: exact conjunction to the minute of Saturn with Chiron! Yeah, don’t you know that Saturn rules THE BONES and Chiron is the wounded healer asteroid or comet-oid or whatever they call him these days. Pretty clear indication of a possible bone wound, eh? Both in Scoprio of course (WHY NOT GET PLUTO INVOLVED!?)
Well, if you’re going to have an accident with your bone crushed, best you have it in your own bedroom rather out on the highway somewhere. As usual, it could always be worse—love that phrase, and it’s true—it always could!
I was waiting for my sister to come from work to go with me to the emergency room or somewhere for an X-ray to confirm what I already knew—broken. Shattered or comminuted (spiral fracture) was not suspected by me, but don’t we love those additional details? Ha ha.
I looked at my feet generally and remembered the message. For days now I kept hearing in my mind—better do those toenails!
And dealt with that one this way… “Later, and besides, it’s not exactly sandal weather. I’m always wearing socks. So, later.”
I really had to laugh as I sat there clipping, filing and polishing my toenails in that state of shock and pain. Why didn’t I listen to my Self telling myself to do a pedicure?! Ah well, that’s how it goes, doesn’t it? It all makes sense AFTER the fact, right?
FLASH: I’ve now learned to walk backwards since it hurts much less that way and besides I can look down at my recently polished toes that I slapped polish over in a rush while in pain and laugh!
I’ve wanted to go home as anyone who reads my blog knows—you and my Facebook friends know that. But laying on my bed yesterday afternoon as Saturn and Chiron were having their meeting in the sky and I was going into ‘shock and awe’ on my bed, I was glad then that I wasn’t alone up on the mountain.
Instead, my grandson was only 5 doors down, my granddaughter due to walk in the door within hours and the rest of the family would be home from work only a little bit later. My whole family was here to help and that was a reassuring fact that very much outweighed my desire to return to the mountains at that moment!
THIS MORNING: I had to cut the tape that the guy at the Emergency Center applied last night because the swelling overnight caused the tape to be too tight increasing the throbbing pain. I soaked my foot in ice water first in my handy-dandy bucket and as I cut the old tape and went to apply the new, I nearly grew faint thinking of how that little toe was just hanging way out to the side of my foot there after I banged it against the bed frame support. As usual I was rushing—haste makes waste—and in changing the sheets on my bed, I wasted my pinky toe, crushing the bone in some place and breaking it clean off in another!
“Poor pinky”, I said as I apologized to it for what I did to it—on the predicted 14th of January, and without a pedicure, and with Saturn conjunct Chiron to the exact degree and minute!—“poor little toe!” As I buddy-taped my little pinkies toe to the next toe over carefully and apologetically a short time ago, I thought… “What is it we’d say to the babies when they were little? How does that little rhyme go?”
And then laughing out loud and remembering the strong growing desire to go home to the mountains since a loud Indian neighbor couple moved in below me, I remembered it: “… and THIS little piggy went wee, wee, wee, wee, wee all the way home!”
Like I’ve always said, the Universe has a sense of humor! that little piggy went (not home) but the the Emergency Center!
PS – at least it’s my left foot and I can still drive. I have a huge boot I’m supposed to wear which seems like a bit of overkill but since my apartment is upstairs, probably not a bad idea to wear it sometimes. I sure don’t want to bang it up any further, sore enough as it is and shattered into pieces.
MORE FOR ASTROLOGERS –– I don’t know if Saturn conjunct Chiron means a broken to the point of crushed bone for everybody else on the planet but it sure manifested that way for me! In case you’re an astrologer and interested, transiting Saturn makes the conjunction to Chiron (which is also conjunct to Mercury natally) in the 3rd house—wanting to ‘go home’ would be a short journey of about 2 hours so in that way we could see the 3rd house relation to the Mercury, Gemini, Scorpio, Saturn, Chiron blend due to the disharmony of the neighbors (Libra on the cusp of the 3rd) and Venus in Libra is also in the 3rd.
The transiting North Node (Scorpio) is currently upon my natal South Node in the 4th house and within 1 degree of an exact conjunction. Now that I look at the transit chart, when this happened, the Moon was in Pisces when this happened making a conjunction with Transiting Chiron in Pisces.
And now I have to go elevate my foot which is throbbing again despite the ice bucket dipping that I’m doing as I type.
The doc at the Emergency Care said I did a great job breaking my toe—you really smashed it and broke it off says he! But then again, if you’re going to do something, I thought, may as well do a real big bang-up job of it.
I saw the Xray. I did. 😦 Poor piggy…. and yeah, I think i got the message… OM darn it OM… i got the message. Shouldn’t go live alone in the mountains! I get it. I guess. Yeah, okay I GET IT!
Yeah, all right. So there is freaking out just a little bit now. It’s Day #29. If you haven’t figured it out by now… I’m moving. ‘Cats out of the bag’ as of right now. Where in the world did that expression come from and why does it stick? Anyway, there’s the big reveal—I’m moving. Those last two words are pretty funny actually because right this minute, nothing is moving—it’s all just sitting here in boxes and bags and plastic containers.
I’m normally one of those “there’s a place for everything” kind of persons. And last night I walked in circles around piles of containers and boxes looking for the one that contains the light bulbs! I tried not to let it get on my nerves and reminded myself that transitions are like this—temporarily organized chaos!
Riddle me this, says the uncertain part of me. Am I doing the right thing? I have moments where I’m riddled with doubt and then along comes his friend, fear, and their cousin, apprehension. We’re NOT going there with them; this will all be over soon! Besides, I have more than an equal amount of certainty that this IS the correct ‘move’. So, what’s the issue? It has more to do with that Venusian thing of what meets the eye–brown boxes are not exactly eye pleasingly beautiful home decor!
I now realize how much energy I draw from my surroundings! If everything is clean and organized and arranged in an eye-pleasing way with color, shape and balance, when the eyes meet the environment the mind, body and spirit feel soothed—or something. Maybe soothed isn’t the right word exactly. I find myself looking out the windows more lately and while I do this often anyway, I realize that I look away from the boxes to seek feelings of harmony by looking out at nature. At least the trees, flowers and rocks have not changed!
Yeah, I know it’s temporary, but that’s not all that’s going on. I’m blogging in order to try and figure it out—that’s how I work through things if you haven’t already noticed!
I think it has to do with loose ends – too many of those but with just over a week to go, those can’t be tied up and just have to dangle. I have to “let be what is” and be in my own is-ness. And that can feel like letting more of this ‘stuff’ go and just floating away! I’ve released so many things over the past 29 Days. I’ve come across items that I didn’t even know were here and let go of other things by the truck load! All I can say is that I will have a huge tax donation deduction this year!
It’s just being unsettled I suppose—I’m not here, nor am I there. And ‘there’ has a certain unknown quality to it. I have not been in the space yet where I will be living and I find that completely… well, I have to trust and hope and bring sage and sweetgrass to burn, not knowing who was in that space before me. That’s how they do it in the cities now—you rent a space without being in it and then wait for the previous person to move out. Such is life in a rental community!
I will, however, be aquainted with at least some of my neighbors—my daughters and grandchildren! Yay! And that’s the joyful part of all this! No more worries about fog or snow getting up and down the mountain and no more missing their school plays and performances! The pluses outweigh the minuses. Besides, last winter up here was pretty rough all alone—many an eve I longed for a nice warm, cozy (dry!) apartment that’s easy to clean and easy to heat.
All I’m saying is that this is an interesting place that I’m at emotionally and psychologically—neither here nor there. I want to push time forward instead of waiting this last week. I’m ready to go NOW but have to wait for my family’s help. The move-out date was selected weeks ago and everybody arranged their work and travel schedule to accommodate that.
Thankfully there are clients calling for readings and this, for me, is just like looking out the window—I get to unplug from my own life and surroundings and help someone else. It’s an escape for me in some ways.
I am looking at my two angel statue yard decorations sitting nearby. I have them in a strong medal carrier ready for the journey. One is child-like and posed reading a book, sitting on a pedestal; and I have to admit she’s my favorite. The other angel is a larger standup version, holding a bunny rabbit in her arms. Emotionally, I sort of feel like these angels… like I, too, am sitting in a medal cage waiting for moving day to be released from bondage!
In my new place I will have an upstairs balcony apartment with a view of trees–it will be my tree house! And since it’s going to be like a dorm room in amongst so many others that look like those old historic Brownstone’s of the Eastern cities, I’m calling the whole darn apartment rental campus “Hogwarts” (after the Harry Potter School of Wizardry). The Brownstones where I’m moving are actually white and not brown, but it’s the architecture and the campus that’s similar to those of the Eastern cities.
I know happiness and boundaries are within the self and not the environ and this is what I am actually being reminded of here in these last 8 or 9 days–let’s call it a week; that sounds much better!
Part of my spirit is here, some of it is going over the switchbacks down the mountain yet another part is emotionally and mentally unloading boxes into the new place! I’m everywhere! And at the same time I am saying goodbye to this house and property that has sheltered my soul for 9 years—maybe there are too many days left to say goodbye! No, I’m not sad about it especially when I remember how wet and cold this house was last winter despite my best efforts to keep a fire going!
No more wondering if the firewood person is going to show up before I run out; no more worrying if the fuel oil is getting too low; no more pulling weeds, trimming bushes and mowing the lawn, no more shoveling snow to get out of the driveway, no more this or no more that. That’s the known; but I have the unknown before me.
My rent will nearly double and I’m not used to being around humans in a rental community; there’ll be an exchange of birds, bunnies and the like for humans. Lots of them! I will be less country and back to being “citified” again. I’ve already had a few encounters with city duck-mentality! (not pleasant) Will it be a challenge to make these adjustments?
Yeah, I think too much and besides I’ve got clients calling and other tasks here needing my attention so I should end this.
But before I do, I know there are others out there in cyber world ( like me) who are also in the midst of a transition. I’ve been in this state numerous times in my life—after all, I’m 64 years old and ‘been there, done that’ is a phrase I’ve used a lot. I’ve moved a number of times in my life and so I’m no stranger to it; but it’s been a while and I’d forgotten this feeling of being neither here any longer and not there yet.
It’s quite like floating in the ethers—no gravity, nothing to ground in to but one’s own is-ness. This is how death will be when the time comes; my own body will be like these boxes and containers. Yeah, okay young readers will think that’s morbid, so no more talk about that.
For those who may, like me, be in between this or that and not here anymore really but not there either—in other words, in transition… for you and for me, let me toss the coins and ask the i-ching for a word or sentence or two to help us while we’re in this phase.
Well, we received Kua 57. It is called “The Gentle” or “Gently Penetrating”. It is ‘The Sun’, doubled and is also called ‘two winds’—the first wind disperses negativity and the second wind changes attitudes. The guidance is to take small steps toward the completion of small goals and be patient and persevering. The message of this Kua is also about taking “the middle way” or the “middle path” and remaining gentle and free.
“Gentleness is flexible and free and not burdened by the maintenance cost of keeping a high-profile.” That line makes me laugh a little bit considering an email that I received this morning which was really a spam advertisement. If you are in my type of profession you know how you receive trick emails which at first seem as if someone would like you to be a guest on a radio show only to find it is gimmick to sell you a thousand dollars’ worth of radio time!
I thought about it for a moment actually now that my living expenses will be higher—but that’s just not who I am. It’s strange though because my natal chart indicates that my soul’s purpose is to work or earn a living in the public domain (10th house) by bringing Peace and Spirit in a grounded way onto the Earth. Well, that’s a whole other blog now isn’t it? Anyway, each time I consider doing a big public attention-getting blitz of some type, the end result is turning from it totally.
Well, according to this Kua 57 I probably shouldn’t even publish this blog entry—it reads this way: “This is not the best time to make sweeping changes or to announce future plans.” I was tormenting myself about how to create a new class (in astrology) last night and then I thought about tarot classes and totally revamping my current psychic class, doing a better job with at least the sign up page. Yeah, on and on it went and so I get it—let go of the idea of sweeping change right now. Just get through this move first, silly!
ADVICE FOR HANDLING A TRANSITION: During any transition the focus should be on adaptability as one remains tuned in to subtle and shifting energy currents of change. Keep a steady pace and make a routine as best as you can—do things that do not involve the mind too much.
HOLD THE VISION AND BE WILLING TO WAIT. Don’t be overly confident or doubtful either.
Stay on the path of least resistance for now and merge with the meandering course of the Tao in any way that it shows up right now!
One final word from the i-ching: in order to see the bigger picture when we are in transition we must periodically create some distance between the self and the forest. Only then is it possible to see the trees and where we stand in relationship to them.
Let “Is-ness” be the only “business”!
Feel better? C’mon we can do this! Its only death and rebirth after all.
Alright! We’ve landed on Day #28. Something really big is going to happen (if all goes as planned–and it will~!) on Day #37. So there’s 9 more days to go and its a bit difficult to be patient now. That’s probably my own fault for being too much of an overachiever which really stems from fear-ish like paranoia that goes this way: Hurry and don’t put things off in case at the last-minute something happens and you run out of time or some other type of energy!
I was that way in college too–always had my assignments done and ready to hand in ahead of time. And then when the professor gave time extensions because others weren’t ready, the temptation to be righteous about it was hard to resist. Anyway, better to be early rather than late–ask my family; I’d always get to the plane or train hours early. Hurry up and wait–that’s me. You too? Well that’s just how some of us are wired; embrace the neurosis. As phobias go, there are worse ones to have I suppose.
Yet, I am still feeling a bit of that feeling from Day #22… you know, the protective roof being removed yet do see the prediction from a week ago about quick and steady progress has indeed been manifesting! This past weekend my daughter and I worked harmoniously together to the tune of gearing up the final stages of things–she was a great help to me.
I am finding that I am letting go of a way of life that I’ve held for 9 years on one level and about 14 years on another and it totally feels like a new phase, a new chapter–the page has been turned! I am saying goodbye to the old and piecing together in my mind what the new will be like and how I will use my time in new ways. I think it’s good that these final 9 days are ones in which I can gradually slow down, look around and inventory the whole affair.
It is strange in a way because what I am doing is something that I never thought I’d do–ever really, ever! And that is because I thought that if I did make this change and agree to the committment that it would feel terribly sad–NOT! And that NOT really does mystify me sometimes. It just shows me that when the time is right and the stars are in alignment (and mine ARE; but I’ll spare you the details but to say my natal lunar nodes in the 4 and 10 astro houses are merging with the transiting nodes this year and my 4th house Jupiter in Scorpio is opposing transiting Jupiter from the 10th. Let’s not even talk about my progressed Sun just moved into my 5th House!)
That parenthesis above mean nothing to do if you don’t know astrology and I apologize since I did not spare you the details. Yeah, so anyway… 9 more days and an old part of my life goes bye-bye and a brand new adventure begins!
I’m getting some hints about what’s coming–people are asking me to teach astrology and I’ve been thinking about it all at the same time. It’s only Wednesday and already 4 people have asked me about teaching an astrology class. I hesitate thinking I don’t know enough, but then again I do know a bit more than a brand-new beginner would and those types would be my target students I suppose.
I intend to teach an in-person local psychic development class–and now I am mental-izing how to follow through with these ideas. I’d love to interact in person with students–the Internet class is fine but I’m open to expanding that and these are ideas ruminating in the mind right now. We’ll see how it goes but this is how my psyche and spirit work it seems–people start asking me to do what I’ve been thinking of doing and so that becomes like the validating push. Does it work that way for you too?
Right–so anyway after having recovered from some physical fatigue and spent short segments of time staring at the ceiling over the past weekend it was like two steps forward and one step back. I seem to have to integrate it during a rest phase and then get back at it again as I work toward Day #37.
At the start of this sudden project and committment toward a major change, I didn’t know if it would take 30 days or 60. Things have been moving quickly as I’ve said all along. Any periodic apprehension is being handled by me through intense devotional prayer work to which I find that something happens shortly after to soothe any of that by giving some supportive validation–something encouraging happens to smooth over any worry wrinkles. Bad for the complexion as well as the soul–those are!
Not much more to report about it all but to say when Venus was doing her transit over the Sun which started from 6 pm EDT last night I happened to be dealing with my check book, bank balances, bill payments and the like! Didn’t think of that until today but Venus does rule the 2nd house which is often associated with “money”. I don’t know what conclusion to draw from that really. So what! Right? Yet as Venus came between the Sun and Earth we all must have received some sort of energy programming or the like. Since my mind was, at that time, on $money$ issues, perhaps I was receptive to some positive programming from Venus energy as it relates to my essence, which for all of us is our Sun. I do recall lecturing to myself as I began the task of looking at the money situation. I told my self that I will not become in any way upset about money as I worked on the task! And I meant it! And I didn’t!
With my progressed Sun moving into the 5th house related to “children”, my relationship with my own daughters is strengthening and this grow more so each day. Perhaps the Venus-Sun transit will help to continue to renew those loving relationships in the days ahead.
I’ve a client calling for a session and a busy afternoon ahead… I am asking to remain busy over the next 9 days so that I can forget the time to experience it quickly!
Meanwhile, each day I find that I am substituting any experiences of fear as they come up in the emotional body with trust and hope. It becomes easier to do so despite anything else that should appear, regardless of what it is.
Onward and upward as they say!
When you consciously embrace an experience of fear while shifting your vibration into trust or hope, you evolve! expand! enlighten! You GO!
There’s no personal question today… nothing troubling the mind or heart but let me pretend that the person reading this today is troubled by a relationship problem. It’s possible with the FULL MOON in the astrological relationship sign of LIBRA now.
Let’s say it has to do with people changing and we could pretend that the reader feels that the person they are closest to in life is turning, changing, becoming different and isn’t sure what’s going on and is troubled by the change. Let’s ask the divination tool, the Tarot, the oracle used today in this post what advice should be given to such a person who is troubled by their loved one’s apparent change.
I’m going to shuffle the cards now. Here we go…
Oh, good card I think! We have the 10 of cups and there look at the image at the top of this post—good image isn’t it? I mean, considering our question. She’s looking down and he seems to be trying to look into her eyes to figure her out. The rainbow above and cups with it represent emotional happiness perhaps and how she once was but currently there’s a different look than appears on the woman sitting on the rainbow.
Makes me think (before we go any further) about those who seem to need to figure other people out in the first place! I mean, why can’t we tell him to get out of her face and leave her alone and find something better to do? Well, anyway…
Let’s look at the 10 of cups and remember that this card – in archetypical terms – represents emotional happiness. O, how fleeting that can be sometimes and how traumatic when we believe that we have lost the source of it which is (of course) impossible to do, but still…. There we are anyway.
It also makes me think about co-dependency. You know what that is right? I can’t be happy until I know you are okay and happy first. That’s an example of co-dependency. I know that one pretty well because this is how I was experiencing my middle child back when she was in high school and if I’m honest I still get this way sometimes and she’s now 34 years old! But this isn’t about her and I… this is a general question about what to do when people change.
The Oracle (via the card) seems to want to specifically address the change having to do with changes in emotional happiness—or maybe that’s my own interpretation. Anyway…
It’s definitely about emotions according to the Oracle. Cups is the symbol representing emotions in the Tarot system. My Herbal Tarot deck wants to associate this card with the “herb” cannabis sativa otherwise known as marijuana. Passing illusions! That’s what that rainbow on this card represents. I’ve never liked drugs, alcohol or even excessive herbs because I’m already pretty Neptune-ish and have a difficult enough time keeping my feet on the ground! I’m learning to master my mind and emotions and that’s a bit harder to do when under the influence. LOL
The 10 of Cups card is about learning equilibrium and that comes through lessons many times that are given via others which brings us back to the main issue we’re talking about. Can you remain balanced when others around you are not? OR are you co-dependent?
When we get caught up in the pie-in-the-sky syndrome and believe that everyone should maintain a basic sense of equilibrium for our benefit so that ‘we’ can be okay, that’s quite a delusion to maintain. People will change and we will as well. That last statement really makes me think about how we find one moment of exquisite pleasure and peace in which no problems seem to be on any horizon and we feel happy and then we spend our life chasing that moment. This, I believe, is what causes people to turn to marijuana, alcohol and/or other drugs—they are seeking to reproduce that carefree state albeit in an artificial way. Joyful intoxication can be used as an exercise to learn to discriminate the true inner reality from outer delusions! I can see that as the only benefit.
If you become troubled by a loved one who seems to have changed, examine your own tendency to be co-dependent and remember that all things will eventually pass—both peaks and valleys of happiness and sadness. Find the unchanging core within you that is stable and maintains equilibrium despite changes in the life around you or in the people around you. All happiness comes from within the mind and heart of full self-realization and no amount of drugs or alcohol or herbs will help you find it on a permanent basis. Only YOU can create the non-changing stable, happy contentment that you are seeking in the outer world. To help others who do not realize this yet, you can only show the best example and detach.