Day #29 Dealing with Transitional Stages of Change! Moving within Organized Chaos!

Yeah, all right.  So there is freaking out just a little bit now.  It’s Day #29.  If you haven’t figured it out by now… I’m moving.  ‘Cats out of the bag’ as of right now.  Where in the world did that expression come from and why does it stick?   Anyway, there’s the big reveal—I’m moving.  Those last two words are pretty funny actually because right this minute, nothing is moving—it’s all just sitting here in boxes and bags and plastic containers.

I’m normally one of those “there’s a place for everything” kind of persons.  And last night I walked in circles around piles of containers and boxes looking for the one that contains the light bulbs!  I tried not to let it get on my nerves and reminded myself that transitions are like this—temporarily organized chaos!

Riddle me this, says the uncertain part of me.  Am I doing the right thing?  I have moments where I’m riddled with doubt and then along comes his friend, fear, and their cousin, apprehension.  We’re NOT going there with them; this will all be over soon! Besides, I have more than an equal amount of certainty that this IS the correct ‘move’.  So, what’s the issue?  It has more to do with that Venusian thing of what meets the eye–brown boxes are not exactly eye pleasingly beautiful home decor! 

I now realize how much energy I draw from my surroundings!  If everything is clean and organized and arranged in an eye-pleasing way with color, shape and balance, when the eyes meet the environment the mind, body and spirit feel soothed—or something.  Maybe soothed isn’t the right word exactly.  I find myself looking out the windows more lately and while I do this often anyway, I realize that I look away from the boxes to seek feelings of harmony by looking out at nature.  At least the trees, flowers and rocks have not changed!

Yeah, I know it’s temporary, but that’s not all that’s going on.  I’m blogging in order to try and figure it out—that’s how I work through things if you haven’t already noticed!   

I think it has to do with loose ends – too many of those but with just over a week to go, those can’t be tied up and just have to dangle.  I have to “let be what is” and be in my own is-ness.  And that can feel like letting more of this ‘stuff’ go and just floating away!  I’ve released so many things over the past 29 Days.  I’ve come across items that I didn’t even know were here and let go of other things by the truck load!  All I can say is that I will have a huge tax donation deduction this year!

It’s just being unsettled I suppose—I’m not here, nor am I there.  And ‘there’ has a certain unknown quality to it.  I have not been in the space yet where I will be living and I find that completely… well, I have to trust and hope and bring sage and sweetgrass to burn,  not knowing who was in that space before me.  That’s how they do it in the cities now—you rent a space without being in it and then wait for the previous person to move out.  Such is life in a rental community! 

I will, however, be aquainted with at least some of my neighbors—my daughters and grandchildren!  Yay!  And that’s the joyful part of all this!  No more worries about fog or snow getting up and down the mountain and no more missing their school plays and performances!  The pluses outweigh the minuses.  Besides, last winter up here was pretty rough all alone—many an eve I longed for a nice warm, cozy (dry!) apartment that’s easy to clean and easy to heat. 

All I’m saying is that this is an interesting place that I’m at emotionally and psychologically—neither here nor there.  I want to push time forward instead of waiting this last week. I’m ready to go NOW but have to wait for my family’s help.  The move-out date was selected weeks ago and everybody arranged their work and travel schedule to accommodate that. 

Thankfully there are clients calling for readings and this, for me, is just like looking out the window—I get to unplug from my own life and surroundings and help someone else.  It’s an escape for me in some ways. 

 I am looking at my two angel statue yard decorations sitting nearby.  I have them in a strong medal carrier ready for the journey.  One is child-like and posed reading a book, sitting on a pedestal; and I have to admit she’s my favorite.  The other angel is a larger standup version, holding a bunny rabbit in her arms.  Emotionally, I sort of feel like these angels… like I, too, am sitting in a medal cage waiting for moving day to be released from bondage! 

In my new place I will have an upstairs balcony apartment with a view of trees–it will be my tree house!  And since it’s going to be like a dorm room in amongst so many others that look like those old historic Brownstone’s of the Eastern cities, I’m calling the whole darn apartment rental campus “Hogwarts” (after the Harry Potter School of Wizardry).  The Brownstones where I’m moving are actually white and not brown, but it’s the architecture and the campus that’s similar to those of the Eastern cities.

I know happiness and boundaries are within the self and not the environ and this is what I am actually being reminded of here in these last 8 or 9 days–let’s call it a week; that sounds much better!

Part of my spirit is here, some of it is going over the switchbacks down the mountain yet another part is emotionally and mentally unloading boxes into the new place!  I’m everywhere!  And at the same time I am saying goodbye to this house and property that has sheltered my soul for 9 years—maybe there are too many days left to say goodbye!  No, I’m not sad about it especially when I remember how wet and cold this house was last winter despite my best efforts to keep a fire going! 

Hogwarts School of Wizardry resembles historic brownstone apartments

No more wondering if the firewood person is going to show up before I run out; no more worrying if the fuel oil is getting too low; no more pulling weeds, trimming bushes and mowing the lawn, no more shoveling snow to get out of the driveway, no more this or no more that.  That’s the known; but I have the unknown before me. 

My rent will nearly double and I’m not used to being around humans in a rental community; there’ll be an exchange of birds, bunnies and the like for humans.  Lots of them!  I will be less country and back to being “citified” again.  I’ve already had a few encounters with city duck-mentality!  (not pleasant)   Will it be a challenge to make these adjustments?

Yeah, I think too much and besides I’ve got clients calling and other tasks here needing my attention so I should end this. 

But before I do, I know there are others out there in cyber world ( like me) who are also in the midst of a transition.  I’ve been in this state numerous times in my life—after all, I’m 64 years old and ‘been there, done that’ is a phrase I’ve used a lot.  I’ve moved a number of times in my life and so I’m no stranger to it; but it’s been a while and I’d forgotten this feeling of being neither here any longer and not there yet. 

It’s quite like floating in the ethers—no gravity, nothing to ground in to but one’s own is-ness.  This is how death will be when the time comes; my own body will be like these boxes and containers.  Yeah, okay young readers will think that’s morbid, so no more talk about that. 

For those who may, like me, be in between this or that and not here anymore really but not there either—in other words, in transition… for you and for me, let me toss the coins and ask the i-ching for a word or sentence or two to help us while we’re in this phase.

Well, we received Kua 57.  It is called “The Gentle” or “Gently Penetrating”.  It is ‘The Sun’, doubled and is also called ‘two winds’—the first wind disperses negativity and the second wind changes attitudes.  The guidance is to take small steps toward the completion of small goals and be patient and persevering.  The message of this Kua is also about taking “the middle way” or the “middle path” and remaining gentle and free.

“Gentleness is flexible and free and not burdened by the maintenance cost of keeping a high-profile.”  That line makes me laugh a little bit considering an email that I received this morning which was really a spam advertisement.  If you are in my type of profession you know how you receive trick emails which at first seem as if someone would like you to be a guest on a radio show only to find it is gimmick to sell you a thousand dollars’ worth of radio time! 

I thought about it for a moment actually now that my living expenses will be higher—but that’s just not who I am.  It’s strange though because my natal chart indicates that my soul’s purpose is to work or earn a living in the public domain (10th house) by bringing Peace and Spirit in a grounded way onto the Earth.  Well, that’s a whole other blog now isn’t it?  Anyway, each time I consider doing a big public attention-getting blitz of some type, the end result is turning from it totally. 

Well, according to this Kua 57 I probably shouldn’t even publish this blog entry—it reads this way:  “This is not the best time to make sweeping changes or to announce future plans.”  I was tormenting myself about how to create a new class (in astrology) last night and then I thought about tarot classes and totally revamping my current psychic class, doing a better job with at least the sign up page.  Yeah, on and on it went and so I get it—let go of the idea of sweeping change right now.  Just get through this move first, silly!

ADVICE FOR HANDLING A TRANSITION:  During any transition the focus should be on adaptability as one remains tuned in to subtle and shifting  energy currents of change.  Keep a steady pace and make a routine as best as you can—do things that do not involve the mind too much.

HOLD THE VISION AND BE WILLING TO WAIT.  Don’t be overly confident or doubtful either.

Stay on the path of least resistance for now and merge with the meandering course of the Tao in any way that it shows up right now! 

One final word from the i-ching:  in order to see the bigger picture when we are in transition we must periodically create some distance between the self and the forest.  Only then is it possible to see the trees and where we stand in relationship to them. 

Let “Is-ness” be the only “business”!

Feel better?  C’mon we can do this!  Its only death and rebirth after all. 

BESIDES, we simply go where we’re sent!  Right?


Daily Divination 9-12-11 Take a Gentle and Soft Approach Today – Pace Yourself. I-CHING Kua 57 and Pisces Full Moon

Lovely! The Gentle, Kua 57. That was my plan for today, being gentle with myself and a friend wrote and delivered a message in her email communication—“listen to your body and pace yourself” is what she wrote. Those were my exact thoughts as I planned for my day today.

Maybe I overdid it on Friday and the weekend with yard work and the like, but late in the day yesterday was not a happy time. But then, the HUGE FULL MOON (did you see it over the weekend?) was/is in PISCES until like 3 AM’ish on Tuesday morning. In other words, the full day yesterday and today we’ve got a FULL MOON PISCES going on. I could go into that Pisces Moon archetype but already have, been there done that if you want to read it CLICK HERE, but suffice it to say that one archetype of Pisces that I feel when the Full Moon hits the sky like a big pizza pie is CONFUSION, emotionally—EMOTIONAL CONFUSION and also a desire to ESCAPE anyhow, anyway, anyplace. (An archetype of Pisces can be escapism–that’s the darker side of Pisces.  All signs of the zodiac have yin/yang light/dark–but that’s life and I’m sure you know that.)

Yeah, so there it is and maybe that’s why I’m getting the message to be gentle and the I-CHING for today directs us to Kua 57 called,

“The Gentle” or “Gently Penetrating” (The Penetrating Wind).

Maybe some keywords will help with today’s cosmic communiqué. The message for today has to do with…

  • A soft approach
  • Faith
  • Moderation
  • A subtle but deep influence
  • Understanding
  • Nonviolence

So that gives us a picture of the quality of energy that is being advised for our highest good for today. And, as I always write here, no matter what day or time you come across this post, it applies to NOW for that’s the only time there really is. Yeah, I think I won’t go into that one any deeper—most people get that the past is only memory and the future is speculation and all there is—-is, “isness” or NOW. I went into it anyway—notice?

The energy message for today is ALSO about penetrating into the consciousness of others to gently influence them. And in doing this for one’s self, gently penetrating into the walls of resistance within one’s own self so that one can go into those dark recesses—those places we don’t want to go to because we may see things about ourselves that we don’t like—and to bring the light (of truth) there. Yet, do so GENTLY being as kind to one’s self as one would be to a stranger in need. (Oh, and it goes without saying, but I will anyway, that one hopes you are the type that would be kind to a stranger in need! – LOL).

When we try to bully ourselves (or others) into change of any sort, the goal should be to GENTLY create willingness and enthusiasm. Anything more can arouse resentment and resistance.

I’d like to type that last sentence a 2nd time because it is just that important to emphasize. I see that within myself so clearly and in so many ways! Thus, the message to pace one’s self and be gentle with one’s self (and then accordingly it will overflow into being gentle with others; it always starts with the self first, right?)

Patience, perseverance and GENTLENESS…. That is how it is to pace one’s self.

I’m loving today’s message—it’s really SPEAKING to me (can you tell?)  🙂

So whatever you are trying to achieve in your life—whether it concerns just one’s self or includes others/another—keep the overall goal in mind at all times, however it is a most important function to remember that success comes through taking small steps, achieving minor goals, noticing minor details, and very modestly. In other words, those things we often hear like, “day by day” and “one step at a time” as well as “one day at a time”–and in some cases (perhaps like today?) ONE MOMENT AT A TIME and E-Z does it.  It’s Monday after all and it’s a FULL MOON… and in Pisces no less… so we will feel like we’re walking in circles a bit anyway–slow down least you dizzy yourself and take a tumble.

I really like the image for Kua 57 (above)… it reminds me about the divine feminine principles and the strength of the yin, gentle energy. Kwan Yin!

Actually a FULL MOON in PISCES really connects to gentle Kuan Yin spiritual and feminine (12th house of astrology–Pisces/Neptune rulership) energy.  I couldn’t help it; I had to toss in another astrology archetype while I had a chance.

Progress through the day slowly, steadily and silently—that’s today’s GENTLE message! It’s how I awakened today; vowing not to leave the bedroom until I came up with a plan for the day and all I have been describing thus far has been IT. The feeling with my plan was… well, now that I think about it, reflecting back to the start of the day, I remember hearing in my mind the phrase, “SILENCE IS GOLDEN”.

And this next part is for my friend who delivered to me the “pace yourself; listen to your body” message. This message is especially for YOU my friend and if this message feels right, then it applies to YOU (the reader) too…

THE GENTLE remains in the background, happy to be doing its thing without drawing attention to itself. It’s the way of least resistance that is active and modest at the same time. Gentleness is flexible and free, not burdened by the maintenance cost of keeping a high-profile. Your focus should be on being adaptable as you tune into the subtle and shifting currents of change. Stay alert. In this way it will be possible to act assertively and decisively when and if the right time arises. Don’t worry about making progress; be willing to wait. Being patient and surrounding yourself with a sense of spaciousness are prerequisites to perceiving the meandering course of TAO that will bring the right conclusions to your efforts in the right time. Clear away any mental debris that might be creating doubt about this. Stay on the path of least resistance—this is the most intelligent and beneficial approach for you right now.

See you tomorrow… I’m off to proceed with my gentle day!