Psychic residue from past lives create our reality! Latent tendencies and Boggarts

Latent tendencies interpret fast moving protons and neurons and project reality
Latent tendencies interpret fast moving protons and neurons and project reality

This whole ground consciousness and latencies or latent imprints is totally fascinating.  That information comes from deeper study of  Tibetan Buddhism which is really, in my humble terms, the study of the mind and the nature of reality.  They say that the imprints are not the experience itself, but more like dormant seeds.

I think about wildflowers when I think of dormant seeds that are not receiving the right conditions to bloom.  And yet, when they do (especially in the northeastern part of the country where I currently reside), they do not last long.  The summer sun and rain bring the conditions for the blooms and then in the fall and winter, they are dormant again.

Wildflowers
Wildflowers

I think the comparison to wildflowers is an okay or and adequate association in that these imprints are positive, negative or neutral depending upon whether they originated from a positive, negative or neutral thought or action.

Some things grow in summer but do not contain flowers—some contain thorns or brambles. As weeds and wildflowers grow, so go our own imprints–positive, negative or neutral.  And we are creating new imprints all the time–reality.

I really like comparing psychological, spiritual, philosophical aspects of ourselves to nature.  The natural world is a fertile ground for this type of relating.

Anyway, we are told by the Tibetan teacher (s) (the Rinpoche) that these seeds or imprints are activated with experiences in the here and now.  Those everyday types of experiences in life are then activated like the Sun and water and soil conditions activate the wildflowers in the summer.

And here’s the kicker!

These activated imprints are what give us the impression of solid reality (it is all energy vibrations and reflections in actuality and a quantum physicist will agree that a table or a wall is nothing more than very faSt moving neutrons, electrons, protons.  Horray for physics!  Anyway…

Back to latencies…. these are associated with external sensory experiences and give rise to the belief in dualism.  What that means is a belief that I am separate from other or interpreting everything in terms of “I” and “other”.  It is these sensory experiences provided by the dormant seeds come to bloom (so-to-speak) that give rise to a sense of individual ego or separation from All That Is.  And then we create actions based on that belief in dualism that create more and this is how we go round and round in the world of illusion.

There are those who believe that if there is a self that it is a conceptual stream of consciousness that receives these latencies and projects them as external phenomena.

Just consider that a moment as you contemplate your reality!  your life!  A stream of consciousness projecting latencies!  And in every moment we are creating more latencies based on how we respond to any ‘now’ moment!  Mind blowing!  🙂

Well, it has to be extremely more complicated than this;  but what if it’s not?

Sense organs (eyes, ears, nose, body) receive input and then process and transmit it to the brain–and when reading the word ‘input’, think energy vibrations.  The mental consciousness receives something like, “red, round, moving to the left, sharp edges” and then interprets it.

When you think that this has been going on in our stream of consciousness for eons of lifetimes, consider the amount of latent tendencies we have stored which create our reality as we experience it!

No wonder we have developed a belief that external objects are solid and real…  and no wonder we perceive what the latent tendencies tell us,  which is that the external phenomenon is solid and real rather than empty.

Psychic residue containing diverse thoughts rooted in past lives creates the forms.  The mind is transitory (fleeing, passing through, temporary, brief, in flux and in movement)–such is our life .  And eternal reality is actually nonexistent.

Conventional Reality vs Ultimate Reality

But then again, conventionally it is, meaning that conventional reality does exist.  Especially when you think of explaining to your landlord or mortgage holder that your external reality does not it exist and therefore you don’t need to pay your rent or mortgage!

We have all agreed upon this reality due to these latencies and karmic actions and therefore conventional reality exists but ultimately, as just explained, it does not.  So it’s a paradox that the Buddhists call “The Two Truths”.

One reason I believe all of this is that of my personal experience of it  in meditation is just as  has been as described by the Buddhist teachings and long before I read the Buddhist teachings–so, therefore,  I know the truth of  this via my own meditative experience.  Not intellectually.

There is what the Buddhist call shamatha meditation and this will show you the true nature of reality as one turns to look at one’s mind directly.

Well, enough for now.  Understanding these latencies and even just a wee bit can help a good deal in relieving ourselves or releasing our grasp on our attachment s and aversions.

Contemplate this and fear dissolves and aversions become laughable and attachments,  too,  seem ridiculous.

And the last word in the paragraph above reminds me of the brilliance of the scene in the Harry Potter movie (The Prisoner of Azkaban)  when the witches and wizards in-training worked with the spell to transform the Boggarts.  The word of the spell used was “Riddikulus”.

(A Boggart, by the way, is a shape-shifting non-being that takes on the form of the viewer’s worst fear.)

The image to the left is the result of a wizard student projecting an image of his grandmother onto a Boggart ,transforming the professor he fears into a comical image of his grandmother.

Learning about the mind and nature of reality from the Buddhist perspective helps us to transform our own Boggarts realizing they are no more than mind projecting  latent tendencies… what transforms a Boggart after all is humor, laughter!  (according to author J.K. Rowling anyway)

So, keep it Light!

Aspiration:   May this post help someone in cyber world who comes upon it at a time of need to help ease suffering, enhance happiness and renew their sense of freedom and true liberation!  

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Guilt! Do We Draw In Experiences To Show Us Where We Need to Release Responsibility? Stelliums: Special Gifts and Talents that Include Blind Spots

A stellium ~ a part of the psyche that conglomerates in one area of life indicating special talents and gifts but also blind spots

Transcending our own mental boundaries can feel like swimming naked and alone in a dark and unfamiliar place.  The mind will often wrongly interpret vulnerability as inadequacy — i.e. the blind spot!

Guilt!  Do We Draw In Experiences To Show Us Where We Need to Release Responsibility?

The answer to that, I believe is a resounding YES!  Is it true in all cases and at all times? I’m not sure but I have been considering the blind spots we have in our psyches and how that is showing in an astrological birth chart in a merging of 3 or more planets closely together.   I think it applies in transiting charts too.  When our attributes (planets) are so closely aligned, we can feel a certain sense of…. This may be hard to describe.  We ‘are’ a certain way and many times assume everyone is built that way—they’re not. 

Therefore, we need them to show us our blind spots and so we draw in others to our life who trigger within us what we cannot otherwise see or realize about ourselves. There is yin/yang to everything–polarities and dichotomies.  That’s life.  And with the talents and gifts and brilliant light of the astrological stellium (special part of our soul where our gifts and talents can be found), we also have blind spots. 

Then we can have those internal arguments.  Internal arguments are much better than hacking it out with the person who is carrying the projection for us—they have nothing to do with it—they are simply the tool we use to see our blind spot. 

Let’s take guilt for example—it’s such a waste of time really; and many times the guilt itself comes from a lack of personal esteem or feeling not worthy somehow.  So let’s say that a person really is an over-giver and when they receive back, they practically feel guilty about it.  Or we could change it up this way and say that a person does receive what is reasonable in exchange for what they give, but feels somehow that they should give more or carry some sort of unreasonable guilt about it.  And let’s say that this is their blind spot!

And some people can be almost apologetic about asking for what is due as a reasonable exchange but they just don’t realize that they do this.  We could correlate this to a stellium in the natal chart most likely but leaving astrology out of it for a moment, let’s say that this person’s blind spot is starting to open up.  And this is due to the type of people and circumstances that are drawn into their life spectrum at a particular time that the blind spot is being realized. 

We need those people and circumstances so that we can be aware that a blind spot exists in our psyche  even though we may have always known we were missing something or perhaps under appreciating our own efforts in some way and that we shouldn’t be feeling guilty.  So what do we do?  We draw in people who sit in that blind spot area and get our attention through their presence—they can be like pesky mosquitoes or gorillas, but either way—they draw our attention to that part of ourselves that we otherwise could not see.

In the example of guilt or feeling in any way uncertain about responsibility—such as which is ours and which isn’t—they make us look there and address that area within ourselves.  And the internal argument gets triggered and we have to look at it all and come to terms with it.

So, just as an example, if we are feel generally guilty that we do not give enough in relationships; for example, we will likely draw in relationship partners who are expert wretchers, moaners, whiners and complainers.  And they will challenge us to look at our guilt and our giving and we will have to come to terms with it—they will put a mirror in the blind spot through their wreching, moaning, whining and complaining. 

And the reason we called them into our experience is to help us to look into that blind spot and see something about ourselves.   That we DO give enough and we DO live up to our responsibility AND MORE and that we ARE giving in equal amount to what receive and that we don’t have to give unceasingly. 

When we stop having the guilt or stop being overly responsible, we will no longer have a need for complainers in our blind spot.  Oh, we all know the types of people I’m talking about—they do all that they can to make everyone else responsible for their disappointments and dis-eases and double-bubble toil and trouble (something evil comes this way…. ).  Pardon me, I just broke into a spontaneous song from a Harry Potter movie.  Anyway…

In relationships men can be just as good at kvetching as women can.  Some people are just so darn good at it—know what I mean? 

Blind Spot

Well, let me think of another example quickly here.  Let’s say we have a young woman who is very attractive really but really has a blind spot about it—maybe she has a natal stellium that includes Venus for example.   She tries to care for her skin and hair and body and so forth and does all she can to develop a people-pleasing personality; however she just can’t seem to recognize her beauty.   Therefore, somewhere within her there is this nagging part that keeps calling out that she needs to try harder and that she’s not quite good enough and maybe that part of her that we’ll call the blind spot for now also says, you know you really are kind of unattractive in many ways.  We might also say that this young woman is barely aware of any of this inner dialogue or consciousness.  Next thing you know, a transiting planet hits her natal stellium, and then she’s drawing in experiences and people who point out every beauty and personality flaw that she may have secretly suspected.  Now she has to really look at herself and question it all.  She may say to herself, “Hey!  That isn’t true—I really AM an attractive person and I need to appreciate myself more.”  When the inner critic quiets the outer critics usually go away.

Yeah, well, these are just a few thoughts about an astrological stellium, guilt, blind spots, responsibility and moaners and complainers.  Stelliums are powerful places in a natal chart but they do create blind spots in areas of life where the light of consciousness is more intense and we cannot, therefore, see ourselves as clearly.

Day # 34 Change through Regeneration and Knowing When Change is Being Supported

Cells Regenerate

Every cell in the human body regenerates on average every 7 years; so biologically, we are brand new people every 7 years.  Most of the time we look the same and the change isn’t visible unless our self-image has changed (our inner picture of who we are), then sometimes the change is visible; but usually it isn’t.  And aside from minimal normal aging over a 7 year period–it’s still not usually that noticeable.  Anyway, biologically, change is imperative—like I said, about every 7 years we replace every cell in our body; it’s a medical fact. 

Biologically change is imperative as just described but then all change is imperative, isn’t it? 

Change is a necessity not a luxury; otherwise stagnation, non-growth and eventually death (in some way) will occur. 

I’ve been thinking about that as I make the final preparations to move off the mountain.  That and life-cycles and the number 9 representing endings and new beginnings—that category of thought has also been prominent.  I’ve been doing the visualization thing too and in cycles.  Maybe everybody does this and I wouldn’t know without taking some sort of poll, but here’s how it works for me.  When change is happening or about to happen or even when I’m involved in some sort of creative process (isn’t that all the same?), I seem to spend a day or so in a great activity and achievement and then I sort of shut down almost like I’m physically tired (although I am not tired actually—at least not physically) and I spend a day or half-day or sometimes 3 or 4 hours at rest having visions. 

It seems like the vision is necessary before I can actually accomplish it in physical reality.  For instance, yesterday evening, I felt the need to go to bed early but I did not sleep right away.  I was, in fact, visualizing myself driving off the mountain and seeing the mountains grow smaller in my rear view mirror and practicing how I was going to handle that experience and the accompanying feelings.  It was as if I was instructing myself in the best way to process that experience.

I saw myself driving into the town where I will be living and coached myself in how to deal with any feelings that may come up then too. 

I packed up my house in preparation to move in much the same way—periods of instructive type of rest that comes from a part of me that seems to be merging with me to direct the whole play, the entire affair.

One of my daughters went to check on the readiness of the apartment and took a video of the place, even though I had visited a similar unit in the past so I knew roughly where I was going.  It does help me to have watched the video so that I can put myself there with a grace and ease that I’ve prepared for.  Between now and the end of the week – I move in 4 more days—flashes of the video she showed me will play out in my mind as I merge my self and my belongings there. 

We mostly look the same with the biological changes that occur in the physical body every 7 years as every cell completely regenerates—this is because during those 7 years, a lot is occurring beneath the surface as cells die and regenerate.  The same thing seems to occur in other areas of life,  for I’d say that I was preparing for this change gradually and beneath the surface over the past 7 years (or 9 years actually) although from the outside there has been no evidence of it–until the past 34 days happened!

Just like one day you see a moving truck pull in or pull out in your neighborhood, it didn’t happen overnight.  Weeks and months of physical preparation occurred and probably years of subconscious preparation was going on too.  It’s like a couple who walks into divorce court one day—to the casual observer it appears sudden, but a lot of changes were occurring beneath the surface to arrive at that point.  And sometimes the couple themselves aren’t fully aware until a year or months before the actual day of the divorce, but they were working up to that point from the moment they said “I do” during the wedding ceremony.  Change is inevitable and it is imperative if there is to be growth and any type of re-birth at all and change is Life Itself.  As they say on Star Treck, “Resistance is Futile.” 

I sometimes want to laugh when people look for that long-lasting, unchanging situation or job or love partner or place to live.  Most of the time long-lasting isn’t in the cards and it’s a good thing—we need new experiences in order to grow and evolve.  It’s also how we can comfort ourselves when we think that times are bad—we can feel certain nothing will last forever, not even the so-called bad times.  Life is nothing BUT change and we suffer when we deny the impermanence of it all. 

my landlady
Saying goodbye to my landlady

Last Friday my landlady came to settle up with me as far as the security deposit and rent and to say goodbye.  That was an emotional day!  She accepted a little gift from me for being so nice over the years—I gave her a white blooming hydrangea [see photo].  Tears were part of that scenario. She and I and her mother were together in a Cherokee lifetime here in the mountains—she doesn’t believe in reincarnation but does not deny a strong connection between us. 

Anyway, I wasn’t done with tears however, because after my landlord left, I went to the post office to fill out a change of address form and found myself feeling sad about saying goodbye to someone who I usually made simple small talk with.  “Awwwh, you’re not moving are you?”  That’s all he said and that did it!  As I walked out the door after filling out the forms I turned and said, “It was nice knowing you…”, knowing I will likely never see that person again.  There’s a bit of sadness in that—letting go of the familiar, the routine, the comfortable.  I went to the grocery store after that and purchased a small basket of comfort food and came home to watch re-runs of Grey’s Anatomy followed by Anna and The King with Jodie Foster and now my face is breaking out like a teenager! 

I’m conceiving the astrology class metaphysically, creating it in my mind.  My grandson knows a lot about making and editing videos so maybe that can be part of the process.  I’m camera shy when I let my ego be too much a part the process so that will be a challenge! 

I guess this is all I am in the mood to write or have the time for right now.  I have clients to call back and best be moving on.  I am excited to be neighbors with my daughters and grandchildren and am reminding myself that even though paying the higher rent is going to be something I can go into great fear over being able to do, that worrying about it is… well, you know!

I think that we can feel as those final changes happen—that move or divorce or whatever it is—whether the change feels supported.  In other words, even though it may take 7 years or 9 years or even longer for the physical change to reach the surface where matter starts moving—it moves easily or not.  If it does move easily, then this is how I feel assured that the change is supported and/or fated or pre-determined.  I may not know the restructuring is happening for 7 or 9 years that the shift beneath occurs. And when change does happen, it seems sudden even though there have been (over time) minor intuitions or flashes or hunches.  When it does happen, it does seem sudden and is often accompanied by some uncertainty.  YET, and here’s my point, when the doors open, energy cooperates, events go smoothly and no obstacle stands in the way—one marvels at the seeming support that The Universe or the Divine Forces apparently give. 

Here’s the truth that I believe. It’s all been in the works all the while and has picked up speed like a train going down the mountain (pun intended) and it’s marvelous to marvel at!  Word repetition intended there too.  It can be genius and one stands there wonder-struck!  That’s change that’s imperative.

Okay, well there it is—my experience shared and accompanying thoughts here on Day #34 for whatever it’s worth.  I may not have time to blog again until I’m there in the new place, the upstairs tree house dorm room at the rental community that I’m calling Hogwarts!   I will watch for the changing staircases, mudbloods and muggles and all the rest and if you’re a Harry Potter fan, you know what I mean. 

There are only 3 more days up here where I’ve spent the last 15+ years.  On the 4th day it’s off to a new adventure.  A rebirth if you will – here’s hoping the new life is a good one!  It better be, it’s taken 9 years to prepare for it! 

Nice,  small,  e-z to clean,  cozy central heat and air apartment with a pool on the premises here I come.  Visualizing:    Oh, who’s that down there knocking on my door?  Why it’s one of my grandchildren with one of my daughter’s.  C’mon up you guys! 

Day #2 Going at it in a bit of a run!

I took a break – a physical one.  When I clean house I like to play videos; I listen.  I went through all my closets (tossing, organizing and repackaging) this winter to all 3 Lord of the Rings videos—about 4 times over. 

I’ve got video #1 of the Harry Potter series playing now as I move forward (or try to if I can rebalance) with Day #2 of the 60 day drama that lies ahead.  Well, it doesn’t have to be a drama; best use the word “experience” or better yet “adventure” instead.  I’m nervous about it—or trying not to be.

Change can be that way as we all know and sometimes not thinking about it too much is the right ticket.  Had to talk to the ‘me-self ‘a few times today, “Keep on breathing, keep on talking” to the tempo of the little Finding Nemo movie that contains the famous lines from Dori, “Keep on swimming, keep on swimming…” 

(My inner-child likes children’s movies–obviously.)

Change is a good thing—we can get stuck in same ole’, same ole’ and the longer we put it off, the more nervous we can potentially become as a result.

I watch it you know?  I watch myself as the observer who has sympathy for the fears and nervous tummy of the ‘me-self’.  I walk in both worlds in that way—probably you do too.

I had to laugh at the scene that was playing on the Harry Potter flick when I entered the living room to sit down and take a break.  Harry was looking at the entrance way to platform 9 3/4 at the London train station to board the Hogwarts express.  You’ve seen the movie, right?  He watches the other kids run through the brick wall that is in place between platform 9 and 10.  One of the mothers of the other children tells Harry, “Best to go at it at a bit of a run dear if you’re nervous.”

All the kids get through the brick wall by running through it—no time to think… just go at it “at a bit of a run”. 

The obstacle was removed and what was official yesterday is so official now that there’s no turning back and the 60 days may turn out to be 30 days.  I used my tarot cards to ask a yes/no question about if the change is going to be announced today to be ‘officially’ official!  Result?  3 Aces!  You can’t get a more positive yes than that.  A few hours later we got the call confirming that. YIKES!, it’s gets more REAL by the second!  🙂

Now the pressure increases and there’s no time for the ‘me-self’ to have any doubt, apprehension or fear.  No time for that anyway—the date moved forward 30 days or at least the goal date. 

So, just like Harry, I’d best go at it “at a bit of a run.”   I thought it good enough advice to make a blog post.  If you have something to do that you are apprehensive or nervous about–run toward it and don’t think too much.  Because now that I think about it, remembering past experiences, it does work!

Me-self and  my higher-self are working together on this!  We agree; it’s best to go at it at a bit of a run!

Tree Lovers, Unite! Repello Muggletum!!

I will use Repello Muggletum (the Muggle-Repelling Charm) and will also call out Protego Totalum (protective spell) around the two large trees still left standing near the road. The rest are gone, massacred. And now I have the view out my front window of what appears to be either a football field or airplane landing strip. I’m not sure which.

The ‘once-was’ forest across the highway now looks horrible and causes pain in my body when I glance out. When the bulldozer and that other earth mover machine (the one that has the long arm with teeth at the end) come near those two trees left standing, I carry on within my mind and heart, “No, no please, not those!”

I will now use the muggle repelling charm. It has worked for a few other unmentionable protective needs and with all the Potter fans lending their energy to those thought forms, why not use them?

And why didn’t I think of that before this morning? Overcome with the shock and awe of it all I guess. We live in the Pisgah National Forest, don’t we? I want to scream those words out to the muggle neighbors. Why, why, why?

The view out my front window is changing drastically day-by-day and I pray that by the end of next week they will be done with whatever that lord over the land intends. So many trees died this past week, such sorrow.  Maybe today will be the end, the last day and the earth destroying machines will go away.  What about the deer?  Their path goes through there.  They will be out in plain sight there now.  How many animal homes have been thoughtlessly destroyed this past week?

I’ve never seen such disregard for the sacredness of nature from people born and raised in the Appalachian mountains!  Of all people, outsiders like me (born off the mountain–commonly refered to by locals as being “from OFF”) don’t understand how people raised on the mountain have such dislike for trees.  It is the local mountain people who like their lawns manicured and free of trees like Floridians who love the golf course look on their property.  The old guys up here love to get on their riding lawn mower tractors and atop their land–trees get in the way of that past time.

What are they doing across the highway?  Will it be an air strip or a football field? Perhaps a golf course? Oh, pray not! Yet, a few transplanted Floridians actually did that up here near the entrance to the Blue Ridge Parkway. Can you imagine? No, don’t! Imagination is too powerful. Forget that.

Lots of folks up here clearcut the trees—nothing is uglier. Who, in their right mind, would rather stand in the middle of a recent clearcut field as opposed to the middle of a large oak/maple/poplar forest?

But these aren’t ordinary muggles… they’re Appalachian Muggles after all and so that makes my point exactly—the point about right mind I mean.

But then who’s to say which mind is right? Mine or theirs? What is sacred to me and what I find reverence for is merely something to be mastered and lorded over and destroyed at will by them.   “Look how I have changed the land and how powerful a lord I am to have hired Bulldozer Bob and his friends to rid the land of trees”, they say.  And they feel about the same way about the animals.  The first deer killed during deer shooting season is featured on the front page of the local newspaper with the animal hanging over and around the killer’s neck–the bigger the antlers, the more powerful the hunter and if the local paper can find a youngster who made the first kill, all the better for the front page.  It sickens my heart and I try not to think about it, and I usually don’t like to “go there”, but I am blogging out to cyberspace to ask for your help to save those few trees.  Just reading this and feeling in alignment with my thoughts is all that’s needed.  Thoughts are powerful.  Spells and charms and incantations are simply thoughts.  And the more that gather together for one cause, the more power it adds to the thought intention.  So this is why I’m blogging about it today–I’m not just venting or beee-atching to play with my ego.

What I know about the Appalachian folks here is that they do not pay land tax on those acres that their ancestors stole from the Cherokee if they plant Christmas trees or some type of crop on the land. It’s always about money and power over or lord-ing over, isn’t it?

Fine. I am calling out to the universe for protection for those two trees by the road that I’ve become so accustomed to looking out at. Yesterday, I was talking to a friend on the phone and one tree nearby started to rock and momentarily I forgot about the carnage creators across the road. Then I realized I was watching another tree come down—another friend leaving, as if waving goodbye. And I ran off to the den where I could not look.  I will miss all of them, trees are my friends.  But these last two I hope to save.

Please if you read this help me to energize my protective charms, spells, thoughts and prayers for those two last trees?

Stay away from them you clearcutting deforesting muggles! Repello Muggletum!!!!! Protego Totalum!!!!! Stay away from them you Horcruxes!!!!! Repello, Repello, Repello!!!

Salvio hexia Repello Muggletum!!!!! Keep away from those last trees!!

Salvio hexia Repello Muggletum!!!!!  Protego Totalum!!!!!! Expecto Patronum!!!!!!