Sometimes Life Itself is like this photo: Dense Fog! And we can’t quite see what’s around the curve of Life and let’s face it, life is curvy. The guitar dude downstairs neighbor may agree with that one based on his behavior this morning. He’s slammed the door beneath me four times and screamed from the area of the parking lot, “You’re f____ing kidding me!!” All on an otherwise very quiet Sunday morning! Chances are he’d agree that life is curvy right now! LOL
Cha- cha- cha- chaaa-changes!! As for me, it’s a little bit foggy but I did see our new apartment yesterday, being able to look upstairs at what will be my monastic cell. Could be worse. Not sure how this is all going to go since now the move date is in question, at least my own half of it. I may be looking at boxes for a month longer than I originally thought since the only girl left in the office (the other two quit) can’t get an answer from the big boss regarding my particular apartment’s lease. Geesh!
I’m looking hither, thither and yon trying to determine how the furniture is going to be in my room and have fingers, toes, and everything crossed that they can get the horrid smell out of the place before we get in. Previous tenants had some real issues! Yuck.
Yeah, foggy. I don’t know how long I’ll have to be there before another place opens and with each box I pack, I wonder if its contents should go to storage or the garage sale/Goodwill pile. Ahh, but it could be so much worse indeed! At least there is someplace to go besides the street with a shopping cart! Actually, I’m sort of getting ‘into’ the fog lately finding the humor in it while I sing the Buddhist song about form, appearance and emptiness! That’s a song of enlightenment and always calms me and soothes me and restores happiness [lyrics below].
Meanwhile, I know the sun will shine again and all will be temporarily organized again even though there’s chaos now. Then we have the next move after this one to who knows where for certain; although I have a pretty good idea (being psychic and all).
Empty forms like a rainbow with a shining glow! — I try to hum this tune as I load the boxes.
Better go feeD my daughter’s cats now! Today’s my last day of cat duty–that drive down the Interstate is way too exciting for my taste but shouldn’t be bad today being that it’s Sunday. Good excuse to get away from the wailing guitar guys anger as he gives me opportunities to practice patience over and over as he slams the door yet again! Wow, bad morning dude?
The wall shakes when the door slams… more Bodhisattva practice for me!! thanks dude!
Oh yeah, the Buddhist song…. the words….
It goes like this:
All these forms, appearance emptiness
Like a rainbow with it’s shining glow
In the reaches of of appearance emptiness
Just let go and go where no mind goes
Every sound is sound and emptiness
Like the sound of an echo’s roll
In the reaches of sound and emptiness
Just let go and go where no mind goes
Every feeling is bliss and emptiness
Way beyond what words can show
In the reaches of bliss and emptiness
Just let go and go where no mind goes
All awareness, awareness emptiness
Way beyond what thoughts can know
In the reaches of awareness emptiness
Let awareness go, OH, where no mind goes!
Bodhisattva Practice #18 on Discouragement and Compassion (from the 37 practices of a Bodhisattva): “… without discouragement take on the misdeeds and pain of all living beings.”
Tonglen!
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