Paranoia or Psychic Perception – Maybe Both

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Paranoia or Psychic Perception – Maybe Both.  Here’s the contemplation…

Alright, I’ll admit.  Today wants to end on a sour note, but I won’t let it!  All was going well until late in the day, my granddaughter came home from school in a snit (she’s only 9 after all, has a head-cold and should probably be given benefit of the doubt) followed momentarily by the downstairs  couple who forgot they weren’t out in the middle of the field in India as they came in from work.  Indoor voices people!  Geesh!  And while reading this stuff might be having the superior, significantly-spiritual type clucking the tongue away and shaking their head, maybe even with a sly smile on their face—let’s not rush to judgment about these things.

Is it my paranoia or true psychic perceptions that cringe when realizing some folks have taken that smile that starts to form at the side of their mouth when they hear these challenges that the mountain yogi me dealing with this daily distraction stuff!  Ha! One person said, “Easy to do it when you’re up in the mountains in seclusion but not so easy NOW, is it?” As if I’m now experiencing life for the very first time!

Wasn’t born yesterday my friends and I’ve been there, done that—after all, I raised three teen-age daughters on my own.

I come back into it now, however, realizing exactly what it all is—as before—but on much deeper levels.  Now I see it as mind being irritated, mind being restless, mind being frustrated (no me) and what a view of it all I have!  Can’t get this kind of stuff in a monastery you know!

For it’s the mind that is irritated—not me!  And I’d have not come this far without my granddaughter and the noisy couple from India.  Never would I have had this kind of ‘in your face’ stuff at these levels and in the perfect timing for me to reach these understandings with it all.  Beautiful actually—just beautiful.

All kinds of things happen—the just do.  Do I necessarily cause them to happen?  Life.  It just happens.  We choose our reaction—the Buddha taught all that jazz.

Oh, I can hear the spiritually significant tongue-clucker now—influenced by all the new age book mumbo-jumbo.  “You attracted your circumstances; it’s your karma!”  Well, partially true if we consider our desire to evolve perhaps; but even if we don’t.  Life unfolds as a matter of circumstances that we simply are privy to witness and we can only change our attitude about it.  (Unless we want to be arrested for assault and battery—a bit of humor.)

What matters is the attitude and not the events—the world is full of desires and fears and pain and suffering and people generally reacting to it all the time.  Today, my granddaughter and more times in the past few months than I can count, my downstairs neighbors are perfect examples.

And me too.  My desire is for quiet and like the Rolling Stones as well as the Buddha have said, “Can’t get no — satisfaction.”  Not from the outer world.

So where is it—it is beyond the world, even beyond the inner world—beyond mind.

Oh, you could say I’ve gone out of my mind and you’d be totally correct on some levels.  I’ve realized that place that is beyond mind and all from humans pushing me there in so many ways so-to-speak.

me comicI’ve also gotten hold of memory—the meaning.  We mistake that we are this group of memories that we have created an ego structure out of.  I’ve given this a good deal of thought since the Indians below me triggered a number of childhood memories and stimulated a fair number of unpleasant dreams, a few out-and-out nightmares.  This causes one to question the nature of memory and dreams; but mostly memory in this case since hold a few and identify ourselves thus creating structure out of those aspects of mind and then say, “This is me; who I am”.

If our memories were our true identity then you’d think we’d remember more than we do—such as what you had for dinner last week or what you did on the 4th of last June.  Unless something memorable, you don’t remember.  What IS memorable, we structure an identity out it and call it “me”.  It’s okay for getting by here but we have to remember it is illusion—and the ego’s reading this are screaming in your heads, “Not me!  I AM REAL.”  That’s okay; I wasn’t always ready for this understanding either.

Maybe it’s all about me getting ready for the inevitable event that we all face someday—death.  It’s going to be easier to let go of this identity structure if we’ve realized all along it wasn’t real in the first place.

Here’s something C said in reply to a question about wanting to live, “To live, to die—what meaningless words are these!  When you see me alive, I’m dead.  When you see me dead, I’m alive.  How muddied up you are!” 

Enough about death—before I loose subscribers!  People don’t like this subject.  About memory, I like this quote:  Use memory, don’t let memory use you!  I should put that one on Facebook.  Anyway, family stuff being triggered is all for the purpose of realizing its memory that I’m overly identified with—it’s all been very good spiritual fodder or grist for the mill as the saying goes.  We need that grist to keep ourselves in true awareness—so tongue-cluckers who think you’ve got it made in the shade because you’ve read all the books and had a few evolutionary experiences and intellectually think you’ve GOT  IT, maybe not so much or there’s always deeper layers and this has been a good one, still is.

The bottom line is we do not need to be set free—we already are.   It is our identification with our body and the structure we created from memory that we over-identify as “me” and our desires that keep us going round and round again, lifetime-to-lifetime, which keeps us from the clarity that we were never born and never die.

All I can say to spiritually significant elite-ist tongue-cluckers is that understanding this intellectually is one thing and living it in the face of human intensity and applying it—well, how deep down the rabbit hole do we go?  With each intense experience, I have deeper realizations that do not come from a book but from my own experience, my own mind but not even there… from a place where I am totally out of my mind.  Hard to describe unless you’ve been there, done that.

I’m grateful when I can be in the right place with it all and when not, I realize I will be—eventually, all in good time.  Patience and perseverance, virtues!

By the way, I am celebrating walking normally this week!  I can wear a regular shoe and barely limp at all; as the illusionary body heals and repairs my broken foot illusion here!  Have a great week dear friends of Light!

(Excuse me now while i light illusionary candles to absorb the illusionary cooking smells from the illusionary neighbors!  laughing as I go… one more desire released… no longer desire to visit India!  See, everything has a great purpose!  ha ha)

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Day #22 Going Past Fear to Embrace Vulnerability – Standing in the Eye of the Storm with the Protective Roof Blown Off

Well, it’s one of those days here on Day #22.  I seem to be caught in what feels like “the eye of a storm” as far as progress goes today but it is a little bit of a relief, considering the blazing electric train pace of the past week or so!  I can’t seem to connect with the people by phone for making a reservation and also someone who says they will be here can’t seem to be here when they say they will.  This results in me having down time and puts a kink in the flow so-to-speak.  While I am waiting to “call back in a half hour” to reserve equipment and on stand-by for the someone to show up at the door, I hesitate to get involved in a project.  So, I will blog here in the eye-of-the-storm.  I just realized that I’m hungry but that can wait.

I am asking the universe what I am supposed to know right nor or learn through these delays; however, I must say its a bit delightful not to be rushing about right at the moment.  I honestly do feel like a nice long nap — if truth be told and I’m a truth teller so there it is.

It occurs to me just now that it may be a good time to make a personal inventory and to consider prioritizing a bit with this unexpected down time.  I’m at a place of hurry up and wait if you get my drift.  O, what about if I toss a few coins here?  Let me ask what I should consider or what it is important for me to know right now.  So, here we go….

“The Arousing/51” changing to “Progress/35” … ha, well here we have the guidance that the protective roof of certainty has been blown off.  Oh, how totally true THAT is!  But the good news is the worst will soon be over and there will be an acclimation to the nakedness of the protective roof being blown off.  That has already happened–I’ve seemed to have gone past fear! I get the acclimation reference.  Additionally, chaos around me disintegrates my idealism.  Yes, indeed this is also true for the time being!  Only essentials are remaining in place–all the rest is chaos and this i-ching message is absolutely exactly true for today.  Further it says that a slight retreat is in order while I nourish myself.  Wow, didn’t I just write about how I felt like a nap!?  so right on! 

Now Kua 35 called “Progress” indicates that the outlook is bright and all signs point toward increasingly more rapid progress of events.

Well, its time for me to make that call now.  So much for Day #22 except to say that things seem to be ahead of schedule for the most part.  By days 38 through 40, we’ll be home free; at least as far as this particular committment is concerned.

PS– this thing I’m doing, this committment I’m making, believe it or not is taking a lot of courage on my part! It’s a long story, so you’ll have to just trust me for now.

Day #5 ‘All the World’s a Stage’ and Dealing with Change and Stage Fright in Your Own Life Play

It’s Day #5 and true to the last post, have been going at it “in a bit of a run”—fa’ sure!  The wheels were set into motion big time over the past two days and with so much still to do, there’s a bit of guilt about sitting at the computer, typing.  Yet, I may want to look back on this for encouragement (or maybe laughs!) later—besides, maybe someone will be helped by these posts about how I’m dealing with these  ♫ cha-cha-cha-cha-a-a-anges ♫.

People have recently told me that they never thought I’d commit to this change and honestly I didn’t either; and the greater part of me denied that these changes were already taking place on subtle levels before the lid blew off, before the genie got out of the bottle and before the lid to Pandora’s Box suddenly flew open! 

You know those moments when you hear your mouth saying things and watch yourself doing things while a unknown force seems to be pushing you from behind the unknown curtain?  “Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain”, says the Wizard of Oz!

Meanwhile, the good ole’ personality me or what I’ve been calling ‘me-self’ sort of goes into a bit of shock—well, the day before yesterday it happened again.  I mean it’s silly, you know?  There we are standing in the middle of the change that is happening all around and then some communication comes that everything is right on track—green flag and all that. 

The 3 Aces in the Tarot card spread (indicating a very strong YES) were so right on–this weekend really kick started things forward!

What is it about that anyway?  It created an emotional trigger.  I think it is the sudden acceleration of life changing—like you’re in a car where someone pulled away very fast at the traffic light and your stomach gets left behind while the rest of you lurches suddenly forward.  Well, that’s how that moment of panic feels.  Even though I had checked, double checked, triple checked and quadruple checked before the greater part of me took over and jumped through the window of opportunity that was open before me—even with all that checking, I had a moment when I thought, “Wait, are you SURE you can handle this?”  And then of course at the same time I realized we had reached the point of no return—it was too late if I made a misjudgment.  Oh yeah, the pulse started to race; and even though my hot-flash days are over, I had one! 

What IS that?  I call that kind of thing an emotional trigger response.  An old wound, a sensitive spot in the psyche got hit and for a few moments I was spinning out in the ethers (at least my consciousness was). 

What are we afraid of when we go into panic and fear this way?  Today I am going to allow the answer to that question to surface—although I already know even as I type here.  I won’t share it publically—at least not now; maybe after the 30 days I will.  It may be 45 days, but surely this is not going to take 60 like I originally thought.  We’ve been going at it in a bit of a run—that Harry Potter movie scene (see last blog post) turned out to be quite the predictive phrase; no wonder it jumped out at me in such a significant way when I heard it the other day.

I was a bit disappointed that I had those 2 or 3 (that’s all it was) intense moments of fear and panic the other day.  Some of the reason for it (like I just said) is known to me but I just realized that another reason relates to that runaway train feeling that comes with that thought, “What if I made the wrong decision?  It’s too late to turn back now!”  And then comes the big fear—the trigger. 

I had to calm the ‘me-self’ and as soon as I realized that I had NOT made a literal, physical mistake—whew!  Deep breaths and a good laugh about it, but still I had to shake my head because the thing is, I thought we dealt with all that and put it to rest.  

Aside from the 2 minute moment of panic the day before yesterday—things are moving forward rapidly and smoothly and I have my sense of humor in tact and I’m excited that I jumped through that window of opportunity!  I am looking forward to a busy week with clients, students and lots of other activity–that part is always THE BEST

Best to keep a sense of humor and keep on talking to Higher Self  and  ♫ Just Breathe ♫.

Fear, Change, Committment and a New Life in 60-Days

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Hello beautiful people!  O, take it first hand from me (as if you didn’t know from your OWN experiences anyway) but fear wreaks havoc (potentially) if we don’t nip it in the bud.  I’ve just made a commitment that has taken courage—and because of this,  I may not be blogging… wait.   How about this?  I could bring you along with me on this adventure via this blog (time permitting).

On this journey I am  going to ‘test my mettle’,  as well as my determination, courage and tenacity!  What do you say?  If I had the time I’d create a separate blog for that but this one will have to do.

This is just the beginning of what is going to be a very interesting journey over the next 60 days.  Hang on to your hat—that’s what I’m telling myself.  I’m about to head into territory.  From the Higher Self:  This experience  is likely to hit or trigger this soul’s past issues/wounds–yet also provides the opportunity to heal those!   This should get interesting and we will have to help this soul and this personality remain awake and fully conscious through this process!

This is Day #1 more-or-less officially (but there’s no signing on the dotted line yet exactly) but, like I said more-or-less since I just got the green flag to go ahead with my commitment for change and to experience a new life in 60 days. 

There is a particular area of my life that must remain strong if I am to succeed.  Yet I just had a moment of paranoia when I thought that area has become weak.  It involved looking at something and thinking, “How in the world could this be?” and then the mind started envisioning everything in my life going south.  Well, you know what I mean–the old fear monster reared its head and said, “See this weakened area and how it shows that you are going to fail? Just look at how vulnerable you are; you’ll never pull this off.”

Ha!  Wrong; it was a mistake, a simple error and did not indicate any vulnerability or weakness in any area whatsoever.  Mind you, this was just a half-hour in the making today, on day one of this venture, this commitment, this change in my life.  And during that half hour (after the initial shock hit like a strong wave and dissipated as quickly as it hit), what I did was consciously let go; I surrendered.

Yeah, it was still hanging out in the back of my mind but I shrunk that fear monster down to 5% of its original huge size by not giving it my energy or any credibility.

Me of all people knows how this kind of thing can snowball—first one fear and if it doesn’t get nipped in the bud right then, it starts calling in it’s family members and friends, doubt, uncertainly, anxiety and all of the others from on Main Street in Stress-ville and before you know it, we’re all sunk.

I just received information that my fear was actually erroneous – ahhh, like almost all fear is.  I thought so but got a validating email to that effect and so now we’re back on track again.  F.alse E.vidence A.ppearing R.eal — yeah, I know; you’ve heard that a thousand times if you’ve heard it once (but not everybody has).

I look forward to this challenge and to being very busy with clients, students and also in this area of commitment in my life which is only temporary but which in the end will bring positive change.  I’ll blog post again as we go along on this journey sharing my challenges and successes, planning to have more success than the other.

This has to potential to be emotional as change can be, but I am ready.  As I heard it said while watching a re-run episode of Grey’s Anatomy, and I paraphrase, “When what needs to be changed becomes more difficult to deal with than the fear of the change—it happens.”   And it’s about to.  So much for Day 1.  We’ve only 59 more days to go and lots to do!  My tarot card have been right so far on this–and my higher self has guided me right here at the brink of this change.  It seems so sudden but then change always does, doesn’ t it?

Oh, and I am pretty sure we have the green light go ahead… it should be official by tomorrow, more or less.  I’ll post again when that last small stop is pulled out; but it’s looking like a done deal.  I just have to take my own courageous steps and make my determined efforts now.  (It was that darned May Super Full  Moon in Scorpio that started this off!  I’ll be grateful at the END of the 60-Days, but one step, one day at a time.  LOL)

PS — Terence (the toad) and Sam (the salamander) didn’t make it. ( See last post. )

By the way, this week’s newsletter relates to this unfolding 60-Day thing  in many ways–the part about watching myself do things.

I’m going to make this a fun adventure (to the best of my ability) and laugh my way through it — as much as possible.  That’s my intent — we’ll see how I do.

Love and Tonglen with Home Foreclosure Notice – Holding a High Vibration

This day started out with me, myself and I making a vow to hold a high vibration today in consciousness for the good of all.  You know, an energy thing—helping to keep good vibes for humanity and all of life.  I’m sure some readers (have a small ‘christian’ following now—omg!)  may not fully get that, but what we think, feel and our general vibration goes out into the world and “thoughts are things” and gather more of the same.  They come back to us (some would say) eventually and others would maybe not agree.  I am not going to turn this blog into a metaphysics level one basic introductory course, so google stuff or not—anyone’s choice.  Wow, that sounded sort of testy—wasn’t meant that way.  Anyway, moving right along…

I am blogging about this vow I made to myself so that maybe I can release a certain guilt that came up a moment ago.  You see, It’s been taking a good deal of energy for me to cope with a recent rent increase—I’ve been doing the quick step over here in my attempts to figure out how to work that one into the budget.  There’s been a splitting off:  one part of me is planning to pack and move while knowing perfectly well that wouldn’t solve a thing!  Another part of me would like to start digging a tunnel to China (have no idea what that means except maybe it’s related to going home by way of  China to Tibet?),  while the more grounded other part is actually determining what we “do without” around here or how to increase income to compensate for the rent increase.

I really dislike the begging bowl thing (you have no idea!) and it doesn’t work well in the 21st century in America anyway, unless you become some sort of church or ministry–no thank you.  I’ve noticed that some bloggers have a Paypal button on their blog for donations–really?  Okay… so after I saw that, it crossed my mind.  Maybe if I get desperate, which hasn’t happened yet but I’m close.  Ha ha.  Anyway, back to moving right along here…

The rental lady called yesterday, left a message that I should call her right away because she needs to talk to me about something—and her tone of voice wasn’t really saying, “everything’s alright” but then her voice never does.  But, yeah, I was pretty disappointed in my reaction… before I even had finished dialing her number, my life was flashing before my eyes.  Those darn fears of being homeless again!  I thought I’d resolved that at least a thousand times already.

Who knows?  On the outside looking in (if someone would have been in the room at the time to see it), I may have appeared cool as a cucumber; but inside?  Imagine having just been in a car accident—that feeling.  It’s highly embarrassing – I teach this stuff!  I blog it, tweet it, Facebook it, read about it as well a/s write about it and still and as the song goes, still crazy after all these years!

We’ve all got something that triggers our security issues and rings our fear bell—everybody’s got that one big fear just hanging out on the sidelines waiting for something to hit its pattern so it can activate.  And many times, there’s really irrational stuff attached to the thinking and thank goodness we have other humans to discuss these things with because until someone laughs at those fears, we really don’t realize how irrational they are!

I told my sister that part of what flashed before my eyes when I was calling the rental girl back had to do with the x-tian telephone man who was in my very own kitchen telling me I was going to go hell the day before—see blog post from two days ago 11/29/11 –maybe he’s the cousin of the landlady or the rental girl and they want /me out!  It wasn’t until my sister roared laughing and then told me how ridiculous that sounded that I realized how irrational that fear could be in my mind!

After all was said and done, it had to do with an adjustment of $6.  Meanwhile, back at the ranch as the saying goes, I had another good look at that fear monster.

Today, I hear from someone who writes that the bank is foreclosing on her home.  I feel ashamed for splitting off from myself in these smaller and much more insignificant matters of mine in comparison to that.

And within 10 minutes of making the vow to myself to hold a high vibration today, feelings of being ashamed for whining about my rent increase in comparison to someone who is being foreclosed upon, I’ve broken my vow.

I must release this feeling.  I suppose it’s all relative—one man’s foreclosure is another’s rent increase?  I don’t know it’s a fair statement or not.  In these types of matters, I immediately go deeper into the meaning.  Anytime something happens, I’m immediately asking “What is the universe trying to tell me?”  In other words, what’s really going on here?  Is the direction changing and what IS that direction and how am I to work in harmony with it?

You know, some things are real in the sense that it is just life doing what it does and it is always for our benefit.  Yeah, I hear ya’; I know.  Trust me, I know.  I had very fast-moving thoughts of how I was going to pack up all my belongings yesterday to be ready to move.  And truthfully, I’m still working on chasing that image out of my head.   It’s one of those situations of “wherever you go, there you are” when it comes to me, myself and I with the bills and rent.  Anyway… I could probably nurture that belief system into something more prosperous!  How many times have I read, “poverty is a state of mind”–?

It’s strange though, deep down – which is where I’ve just gone since the pause between now and the last paragraph – I always believe it’s going to work out alright and that I am going to be alright.  You know, that it’s going to be (at a minimum) okay and more likely that it’s going to work out for my benefit so that it’s going to be more than okay.  And that’s even in the moment when my stomach is doing flips, my life is passing before my eyes and I’m thinking I may have to head for the bathroom at any moment!  Somehow, it’s going to be okay or better than that.  That’s what I want the person who wrote to me about the bank foreclosing on her house to know.

I now release the shame/guilt that I felt earlier and have re-infused my vow to hold a high vibration today for all of life.

And as I go about my work today, I will send special love to the person who wrote to me and to all beings who are in any way suffering or feeling insecure, unloved, fearful or confused.

Today, I will do the Buddhist Tonglen Meditation Practice for you!

And I will hold a special focus for the person who wrote to me about the bank foreclosing on her home.

Universal Love Prayer

        from the Metta  [Lovingkindness] Sutta

May all beings be filled with joy and peace. May all beings everywhere,  The strong and the weak,  The great and the small,  The mean and the powerful,  The short and the long,  the subtle and the gross:  May all beings everywhere,  Seen and unseen, Dwelling far off or nearby,  Being or waiting to become:  May all be filled with lasting joy.  Let no one deceive another,  Let no one anywhere despise another,  Let no one out of anger or resentment Wish suffering on anyone at all.  Just as a mother with her own life Protects her child, her only child, from harm, So within yourself let grow  A boundless love for all creatures.  Let your love flow outward through the universe,  To its height, its depth, its broad extent, A limitless love, without hatred or enmity.  Then as you stand or walk, Sit or lie down, As long as you are awake,  Strive for this with a one-pointed mind;  Your life will bring heaven to earth.

Namu Amida Buddha.

Daily Divination 9-9-11 Vulnerability and Protection Issues I CHING Kua 3 Difficulty and Danger in the Beginning

Well, I’m certain that divine synchronicity OR “The Adjustment Bureau” (movie with Matt Damon) is at work when I look at the image representing the I CHING Kua 3 today. Vulnerability, Inexperience, Doubts and Fears—those words pretty much relate to a recent fright that I experienced about my blog and webpage being compromised with some sort of cyber issue. A total false alarm in the end is how it proved out; yet, there I was feeling the fright at the possibility of releasing my attachment to all of the work I did on my blog and website—not to mention my weekly newsletters! I’ve felt it before though and so I had one of those “been there, done that” feelings to accompany the other one which went something like, “Oh, S _ _ _!” Last time that feeling hit me was during the time period in which I was planning for the incidentals surrounding my physical body’s demise. A cheery thought–right? Well, everyone should do it at some point—face those questions and answers; getting one’s will and living will in order, leaving the final directives for family members to help them efficiently clean up one’s business on earth. I went so far as to pick out the crematory so that my kids wouldn’t have to deal with that decision and then purchased a life insurance policy to pay for it. Anyway, in that process I realized that my work could possibly be gone—my website, my psychic classes and my other online information disseminating ventures. Envisioning the goodbyes to my children was difficult enough, but knowing my work would be poof, gone added to those feelings of the vulnerable demise.   I got to revisit all that for a short time again yesterday. Someone who reported my blog page having an issue (which turned out to be no issue) wrote to me that I could start over—new blog, new website. Huh? I’m sure that “The Adjustment Bureau” put that someone up to that! But it’s all good; I needed to revisit those attachments.

Kua 3 is called “Difficulty and Danger in the Beginning” and the images of a blade of grass sprouting through the earth or the egg-shell opening to give birth to what is contained within.

In the I CHING Book of Changes by Wilhelm/Baynes it reads this way about Kua 3:

The situation points to teeming chaotic profusion; thunder and rain fill the air. But the chaos clears up. While the Abysmal sinks, the upper movement eventually passes beyond the danger. A thunderstorm brings release from tension, and all things breathe freely again.”

Sounds like what happened yesterday about my webpages—one moment there’s someone telling me things that have to do with cyber danger and the next moment, all is mysteriously well again.

GENERAL BOTTOM LINE COSMIC MESSAGE: when we envision something (say a website or a book or anything we wish to see in form) we call forth everything that is needed and confusion can be part of every aspect of form getting to its proper place. All you need, no matter how things appear to yourself or to others, is a firm determination to reach your goal. And PS if you’re envisioning something Online, it doesn’t harm a single thing and helps a good deal to call on Archangel Michael to protect your website and Online endeavors.

After the fright of some sort of cyber-attack, I did what I could to verify or correct the issue (if there really was an issue). After that, I went out into the yard to be in nature and do some weeding and trimming. I began to remember how I’d asked for protection for my website and as a reminder to myself I’d placed a statue of an angel on my computer tower. I now work from a laptop but assume the intent still holds. Yet, yesterday I once again called upon Archangel Michael to renew my request for protection in my cyber world. He is known to be one who also helps with electronic issues or car engine troubles.  Since I can’t afford a fancy-schmancy expensive web protection service, Archangel Michael works best for me.  And if the Lords of Karma see that something is needed  to balance or repaid; it is best to accept what is.  Just tossed in a few additional random thoughts there.

Meanwhile, we must develop the strength to roll with the punches and reinforce our vulnerabilities. New things are always coming up on the horizon and we should be looking there instead of the past—that was another lesson from yesterday (for me personally). If I want to leave a mark in the world on the level of something physical or in form, the cyber world is not the place to do it. One or two hacks and poof, its’ gone, shut down like it never even happened. But then (the question becomes) how important is it to leave a mark in the world? That’s the ego’s desire; is it really a desire from the higher mind? Haven’t I already left “marks” just from my interactions with other humans and via my children?  This is the question for contemplation—at least for me for today.

When chaos or confusion happens or one feels vulnerable, this jolt or shake up happens for us to look at our attachments. We are also given the opportunity to look at what we may have outgrown—just like the seed that outgrows its pod and pushes through the earth or the shell that falls away giving birth to a new way of being in the world. I will be contemplating this today. Would you like to join me?