Day #28 Substituting Hope and Trust When Any Fear Emotions Bubble Up – What I Was Doing when Venus Transited the Sun

Alright!  We’ve landed on Day #28.  Something really big is going to happen (if all goes as planned–and it will~!) on Day #37.  So there’s 9 more days to go and its a bit difficult to be patient now.  That’s probably my own fault for being too much of an overachiever which really stems from fear-ish like paranoia that goes this way:  Hurry and don’t put things off in case at the last-minute something happens and you run out of time or some other type of energy!  

I was that way in college too–always had my assignments done and ready to hand in ahead of time.  And then when the professor gave time extensions because others weren’t ready, the temptation to be righteous about it was hard to resist.  Anyway, better to be early rather than late–ask my family; I’d always get to the plane or train hours early.  Hurry up and wait–that’s me.  You too?  Well that’s just how some of us are wired; embrace the neurosis.  As phobias go, there are worse ones to have I suppose.

Yet, I am still feeling a bit of that feeling from Day #22… you know, the protective roof being removed yet do see the prediction from a week ago about quick and steady progress has indeed been manifesting!  This past weekend my daughter and I worked harmoniously together to the tune of gearing up the final stages of things–she was a great help to me. 

I am finding that I am letting go of a way of life that I’ve held for 9 years on one level and about 14 years on another and it totally feels like a new phase, a new chapter–the page has been turned!  I am saying goodbye to the old and piecing together in my mind what the new will be like and how I will use my time in new ways.  I think it’s good that these final 9 days are ones in which I can gradually slow down, look around and inventory the whole affair. 

It is strange in a way because what I am doing is something that I never thought I’d do–ever really, ever!  And that is because I thought that if I did make this change and agree to the committment that it would feel terribly sad–NOT!  And that NOT really does mystify me sometimes.  It just shows me that when the time is right and the stars are in alignment (and mine ARE; but I’ll spare you the details but to say my natal lunar nodes in the 4 and 10 astro houses are merging with the transiting nodes this year and my 4th house Jupiter in Scorpio is opposing transiting Jupiter from the 10th.  Let’s not even talk about my progressed Sun just moved into my 5th House!) 

That parenthesis above mean nothing to do if you don’t know astrology and I apologize since I did not spare you the details.  Yeah, so anyway… 9 more days and an old part of my life goes bye-bye and a brand new adventure begins! 

I’m getting some hints about what’s coming–people are asking me to teach astrology and I’ve been thinking about it all at the same time.  It’s only Wednesday and already 4 people have asked me about teaching an astrology class.  I hesitate thinking I don’t know enough, but then  again I do know a bit more than a brand-new beginner would and those types would be my target students I suppose. 

I intend to teach an in-person local psychic development class–and now I am mental-izing how to follow through with these ideas.  I’d love to interact in person with students–the Internet class is fine but I’m open to expanding that and these are ideas ruminating in the mind right now.  We’ll see how it goes but this is how my psyche and spirit work it seems–people start asking me to do what I’ve been thinking of doing and so that becomes like the validating push.  Does it work that way for you too?

Right–so anyway after having recovered from some physical fatigue and spent short segments of time staring at the ceiling over the past weekend it was like two steps forward and one step back.  I seem to have to integrate it during a rest phase and then get back at it again as I work toward Day #37. 

At the start of this sudden project and  committment toward a major change, I didn’t know if it would take 30 days or 60.  Things have been moving quickly as I’ve said all along.  Any periodic apprehension is being handled by me through intense devotional prayer work to which I find that something happens shortly after to soothe any of that by giving some supportive validation–something encouraging happens to smooth over any worry wrinkles.  Bad for the complexion as well as the soul–those are!

VENUS crosses the SUNNot much more to report about it all but to say when Venus was doing her transit over the Sun which started from 6 pm EDT  last night I happened to be dealing with my check book, bank balances, bill payments and the like!  Didn’t think of that until today but Venus does rule the 2nd house which is often associated with “money”.  I don’t know what conclusion to draw from that really.  So what!  Right?  Yet as Venus came between the Sun and Earth we all must have received some sort of energy programming or the like.  Since my mind was, at that time, on $money$ issues, perhaps I was receptive to some positive programming from Venus energy as it relates to my essence, which for all of us is our Sun.  I do recall lecturing to myself as I began the task of looking at the money situation.  I told my self that I will not become in any way upset about money as I worked on the task!  And I meant it!  And I didn’t!

With my progressed Sun moving into the 5th house related to “children”, my relationship with my own daughters is strengthening and this grow more so each day.  Perhaps the Venus-Sun transit will help to continue to renew those loving relationships in the days ahead.

I’ve a client calling for a session and a busy afternoon ahead… I am asking to remain busy over the next 9 days so that I can forget the time to experience it quickly!

Meanwhile, each day I find that I am substituting any experiences of fear as they come up in the emotional body with trust and hope.  It becomes easier to do so despite anything else that should appear, regardless of what it is. 

Onward and upward as they say!

 
When you consciously embrace an experience of fear while shifting your vibration into trust or hope, you evolve! expand! enlighten! You GO!
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Relationship Overhaul? Value’s Challenged? Venus Occultation Eclipse of the Sun is Intense June 5th-6th 2012

Venus Occultation - Crossing Face of Sun - Rare Astro Event
 

On June 5 or 6, depending on where on the planet you live, Venus will cross the face of the Sun.  As it merges with the Sun, all that Venus represents (values, desires, personal needs, love, etc) will be transformed by the Sun or will transform the Sun itself!  What does our Sun represent to our psyche astrologically? Some say it’s our essence; others say its our ego/personality; some say Sun represents father energy or male energy (while the Moon represents female energy–in that way) and others say the Sun represents our life purpose.  In all models, all planets revolve around that Sun and a healthy Sun in our psyche is what helps us feel whole, complete and happy.  No matter which way we see the Sun astrologically, there’s about to be some transformation through the Venus occulation that is occurring this week!

This planetary alignment of Venus crossing over the face of the Sun is called an occultation [see image]–some simply call it the ‘transit of Venus’.

Venus visibly seen in front of the Sun is a symbol for the rise of feminine energy in a current patriarchal world; so male/female issues and patriarchal values versus spiritual could be brought forward.

VENUS-SUN SQUARING MARS AT THE SAME TIME

To emphasize this even further, during the occultation, Venus/Sun will be forming a square to Mars. Squares are what are called ‘hard’ and ‘challenging’ aspects, and Mars is the male counterpart to Venus.

To add to the intensity, this occurs within a day of a Lunar Eclipse, which will affect us emotionally.

This “occultation” of Venus over the Sun is similar to an eclipse, but Venus will not totally block our view, rather, she will appear like a dot crossing over the face of the sun. [see image above]

“Although Venus and Sun meet up every couple of years, we have only witnessed this event six times in recent human history. The next transit on June 5, 6 will be our seventh observance.” –Rose Marcus

PS — Venus is in Gemini retrograde, so there will be dialogue about these topics this week, even if some of it may be internal!  Roles of male versus female needs in relationships; my values versus your values; patriarchical values versus matriarchal/spiritual values; consensus level consciousness and values versus spiritual level; new world values may very well be implanted, seeded, boosted or reawakened  the consciousness of the human at this time.  How will it affect your personal life?  Stay tuned, it should be an interesting week ahead!

Day #20 Value System Shock and Awe – North Node Taurus and Electric Train Goes Back to the Future

Electric Train
When Life Starts Moving Like An Electric Train!

May there be something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….

Before we get started catching up from Day #11 to now, let me just say how much I love my work!  It’s intense—this project, this commitment, this change—but when I do a phone reading for someone, it is like drinking cool water from a pure source on a hot day.  O, I’m sure there are better analogies to use—so let me just say it straight.  When I do a reading, it is the highlight of my day and a healing of my energy; it’s great!  And with the recent intensity of my life, the contrast is plainly and acutely pronounced.  Healers know this—when they do a healing for another they are channeling healing energy through them and so they too become healed.   It is the same in my work as a psychic and medium. 

And now to continue from Day #11:  whenever one makes a commitment for change, it will affect others and in my case I had to give that kind of notice or head’s up.  I had no idea how it was going to go.  Would I meet with any rage or resistance or resentment when I told others who would be affected about my commitment to this change?  I held my breath (held my nose) and jumped in and did it.  I had to because the persons I had to tell needed to be involved in the change itself.  I had a moment or two of the heart beating fast and then holding the breath in anticipation until I received the response.  It was surreal actually as much of the last 20 days have been. 

Sometimes I will program ahead for the response I want from another—or I have done so in the past.  You know—visualized it happening the way I wanted it to and then seeing that it did.  That can be a very empowering thing to do by the way!

This time, however, I was more ‘in the moment’.  What I mean is there was a level of confidence beforehand that no matter the response, I will deal with it as it happens moment by moment.  And I did and it went as well as could be expected—well, actually in some cases better than could be expected. 

The feeling was like I’m on this train and it isn’t stopping and so people will have to step aside because the train is coming through—yet, I am not driving the train as much as being a passenger. 

Once those people were told about the change and that was accomplished things really took off… moved much faster… like the train was on one of those electric tracks that goes 110 mph instead of 40 or 50.  It makes me think of how it goes from Washington, DC area to Philadelphia whenever I’d travel there from North Carolina.  Through North Carolina, Virginia and Maryland the train was slow as molasses but once we got near DC, we hooked onto the electric track and flew!  Well, that’s how it’s been… I’ve been flying for the past 9 days! 

And I’ve had help!  People help; family help; physical help and emotional help and so there’s the further evidence for the support for this commitment to change. 

Yet, emotionally or within me there’s been an issue triggered by value systems—mine versus theirs!  Or we could say fringe dweller spiritual and metaphysical values VERSUS big-city, Corporate America impersonal and “it’s all about the money mentality” and besides “you are just a number consciousness”—it’s been (to use their terms/words) just like “shock and awe”.  I won’t go into that too much more because it is just me having to adjust to being in Rome and doing what the Roman’s do—at least externally.  It’s not been pleasant on certain days and there’ve been times that I’ve sat on the floor and cried it out for a few minutes due to the ridiculous irony alternated by other moments on the floor laughing at levels of near-hysteria for the same reason. 

Overwhelmed isn’t a strong enough word to describe certain moments but I’ve got tools and have “been there-done that” enough times emotionally that I know how to use them!  So… it’s okay and I have in my 64 years upon the earth learned a good deal and have developed excellent coping and healing techniques!

So while the past 9 or 10 days have been moving quickly and have been intense mentally, physically and emotionally… the highlights have actually been when I’ve ceased in this project and helped another by doing my work, giving a reading.  It is when I am being my truest and happiest self!  And it’s not that I needed to make this change or commitment to know that—not at all; because I’ve always known that actually. 

In 18 days my life will change and I will be walking into an area that is semi-unknown to me on certain levels.  I have so many projects in mind after that which involve my work as a psychic, medium, astrologer and teacher!  I feel sure my focus will be sharper and I will have more time and energy to devote to those endeavors.

Until then, this update must end.  I know I just typed 18 days but I think of it more in terms of two weeks actually.  I hope lots of people will want a reading over these next two weeks… and that is what I am asking the universe for!

I’ve just got to tell ya’ though, in the meanwhile, that it is so strange watching the events of my life and watching myself go in directions that I said to everyone that I’d never, ever go!  and it’s not the first time this has happened!  Shows to go ya’ or goes to show ya’ that you probably should never say never–especially to The Universe!  Well, if you’ve lived life at all you already know that!

I will update again when there’s another opportune moment to sit down and gather myself and my thoughts.  My North Node Taurus is being triggered by my approaching transiting South Node and while I’m starting this whole “Back to the Future” thing in some ways in my life… it should get even more interesting as the conjunction becomes more or less exact at the end of the year triggering and electrifying the 4th/10th house axis even further!

Hoping that there was something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….

See you next time…

Daily Divination 10-4-11 Expansion of Consciousness and I-CHING Kua 47 Oppression with Wisdom Dawning

Is it true? Many times people email to tell me that what I blog here and the I-CHING messages are timely in respect to their own life experiences.  I’m pleased that what I put in writing and in images here are ‘relate-able’ and many times in what seems (from your responses to me) like ‘divine timing’.  The other night, I reflected upon something that is familiar to me—the ups and downs of life and the elevating or expanded awareness after we experience what we might call “a fall” in life.  That fall can be a loss, event of some kind, or anything that we’d relate to with the emotions of ego such as disappointment, guilt, anger and other derivatives of fear.  We find, generally, that as we move though life that our falls in life or the dips in the road (see image) are not as deep—we don’t fall so far.  And when we rise, we have an entirely new outlook as a result of the expanded consciousness.

I made a Facebook post late one nigh recently to this effect (about this topic) and today I find that the I-CHING has directed me to Kua 47 for today’s divination message—this Kua is called “oppression” and a good image for this message is the yin/yang symbol which is a reminder that within the darkness is always the point of light and quite honestly, vice versa.

The overall message is that any event can be turned because it always presents an opportunity to turn adversity to good fortune.  In fact, it is helpful in the midst of the dark moment or period to carry a deep conviction in the heart that something higher or better will come of it, whatever it is that you may be facing.

When I look at the dark circle in the white half of the yin/yang symbol, it reminds me that those who profess to be white-lighter’s (or any of us really) will all be tested by the fires of life; it’s just that many times when white-lighter’s are tested, they go silent in guilt.  It happens to the best of us—we’re all tested by the fires of life and that’s what the yin/yang is a reminder of.

I’m not promoting darkness or negativity.  All I’m saying is that today’s message is a reminder that there is always light within the darkness.  Personally, I see opportunity in all adversities and obstacles, even if they come from my own emotions; for without those, I’d not be able to have the ability to grow and evolve and progress upward.  One must not become depressed because there is a fall or a dip in the road—the guidance is to maintain the confidence that there will be an elevation and upliftment and expansion that follows.

I’m glad the I-Ching toss directed me to this Kua today because what I was trying to communicate on the brief Facebook post requires more words and the blog gives me the place to use them.

Living life is like giving birth to one’s greater self and in that process there is, like any birth, expansion and contraction. 

 Or like the image at the top of the blog, ups and downs. That is the journey of every human.  And during the downs it is important to hold fast to the light within for that can help you pass through difficult circumstances with greater ease and especially with greater confidence.

We could say, if we wanted to, that the light is representative of your deepest spiritual beliefs and teachings as well as ideals. 

And there (in that light) is where we can call upon the energy of the masters who have walked the earth before us and left their messages and teachings to help guide us.  For me, and this is just me, it is the teachings of the Buddha and I also draw upon the living example of the Buddha of Compassion, the Dalai Lama.

Difficult circumstances and sometimes even confusing circumstances are life’s way of provoking a leap of consciousness from one level to the next by shoring up and strengthening our good inner qualities—in that sense they are opportunities.   

Instead of right and wrong or good and evil, we can see the world in a holistic way, embracing the whole—that is how the expansion of consciousness and elevation of awareness occurs. 

The bottom line message is that every darkness has a dawn and with each dawn our wisdom grows—or at least there is an opportunity for it to do so if you can view ALL in a HOLISTIC way instead of living the old paradigm, which is based on (good/evil, right/wrong) separation. 

See you tomorrow…

Daily Divination 9-6-11 How Are Your Inner Fires Doing? I-CHING Kua 30 “The Clinging” and “Fire” and the Apple Tree

As human ego and psychology/personality goes, we who reside on this plane of reality in a body with an ego, have to watch our tendency to cling. I’ve seen folks cling to both pleasure and pain as well as total and complete illusion—and have observed it in myself too. We could call this passion or obsession or compulsion. Sometimes we just don’t know when to stop!

Like flame that clings to wood, plants cling to the earth; we too must cling to spiritual sustenance in order to survive. Many times, however, I believe some of us confuse just what spiritual sustenance actually is.

We must renew or refresh ourselves from the fountain of spiritual wisdom. Fire is the representation of this illumination, inspiration and enlightenment on the I CHING Kua 30 image. In fact, in some books this Kua is actually called “Fire” as well as “The Clinging”.

What is dark clings to what is light and the darkness enhances the bright. What does that actually mean? We cannot know the light unless we also know the dark.

Also, everything that gives light is dependent upon something to which it clings, in order that it may continue to shine. In this week’s newsletter, I wrote about astral travel and its opposite—being on the earth in a body. In this dimension, we must cling to the body (not astral travel out of it) in order to be able to continue to shine here on earth. Life here is about absorbing nourishment and then giving it out—like the apple tree that absorbs nourishment from the light of the sun and the minerals of the earth, giving out apples as its gift. We, too, have that same ability and, frankly, the same duty. In order to maintain our light upon the earth and to offer our gifts like the apple tree, we must tend to our inner fires.

The inner fires must not grow so large as to consume us in addiction or obsession—in other words, we must not become so clinging that we cannot properly function and forget who we are and why we are here, burning ourselves out in pleasure, pain or addiction. Nor must we allow our inner fires to smolder or go out—how can we inspire others that way?

If we must have an all-consuming passion, let it be to keep our inner fires properly balanced and to understand the enhancement of the light. Consider the qualities of fire and its dual nature: on the one hand it provides warmth and illumination that disperses darkness, revealing the hidden, and on the other hand it is capable of ruthless destruction.

How are your inner fires burning?

Here’s a mild example. I am recovering from some type of physical disturbance. You might say that I required the “fire” of an antibiotic and now I am feeling much better; yet I must be careful now not to be too overly enthusiastic about feeling better. I don’t want my inner fire to go out and smolder just when the flame is going steady again.

Today’s message is to monitor your inner fires—nourish your flame with spirituality and whatever else is needed, but don’t be like some fundamental christian and think you can start the world on fire with your own righteous fervor. That’d be like someone who just got over the flu trying to run a marathon the next day b/c jezuz told him to. The body will just burn itself out again—we do live in a body on the earth after all.

Maybe that last example is a silly one but it is what came to mind and that’s how I roll here on my own blog… silly or not, I type what comes to mind in the moment.

And now if you’ll excuse me, it’s time to fan my own inner fires here….

Im off to contemplate an Apple Tree gifting its apples! 

Talk to you tomorrow….

A Change of Pace Blog Post Today AND Family Past Life Regression Material — My Grandson Explained is Natal Chart While in an Altered State!

The washing machine, by the sound of it, is in its final rinse, the rain outside is unceasing; yesterday I took the last antibiotic tablet for a bronchial infection (I think) although I don’t think the ER doc knew for sure what ailed me, exactly. Why? She said it sounds like asthma, presents like bronchitis and while I don’t think its pneumonia, we will treat it  like it is pneumonia. (go figure)  In the end, I suppose it’s just another reminder that I’m getting older and recovery from these minor setbacks takes longer than it used to. Anyway, so much for the lament about the physical (my temporary illness and the remnants of a tropical storm that’s dumping inches-upon-inches on us here in the mountains) as I refuse to think the word “flood”. Let’s move on and talk about the “meta” physical. I want to switch it out today and write about something a little different.

I did work on a little bit of the time (with PAST LIFE REGRESSION PRACTICE) that I had with the family during the family reunion—not as much as I’d have liked’;  but, I tucked away what I did learn and experience. I wanted to write it down here today and get it out  for whatever it may be worth. I told some folks that I’d write about it; so here goes.  Hopefully it will hold a bit of interest for the reader—you’ll have to judge that part for yourself.

A while back I wrote about my own brief glimpses into regression for myself—there were quite a few and I did mention the “light Bulb Factory” worker insight I got from my last past life and was able to validate that such a place did actually exist in the early 1900’s and was operated by Thomas Edison. You know it wasn’t long after that past life regression information came to my mind that I remembered how much I loved (in the current lifetime) going to the Thomas Edison Home tour in Ft. Myers, Florida. He used to live next to Henry Ford there, you know?

Anyway, I don’t know how I could have forgotton this, but we used to go to Edison’s home every Christmastime for they would have it especially decorated—and for Halloween too, now that I remember! We took the full tour a number of times… back when I was married—my husband, children and I. Being infatuated with the place would be an understatement, for I loved going there!

And the light bulb part of his invented things was always where I stood around the longest. Funny how one forgets those things but then when I had the past life regression memory/insight that was linked to Thomas Edison, it felt right. But it wasn’t until weeks later (am I slow, or what?) that I remembered how I used to love to visit the Thomas Edison Home and his Workplace there… I couldn’t seem to get enough!  The point being that my past life memory of working at the Thomas Edison Light Bulb factory in Brooklyn NY in a prior lifetime connects with my current life love of taking the tours of Thomas Edison’s Home and revisiting it at Christmas and Halloween every year while we lived in Florida.  My kids were pre-teen and teen back then (this life).  Anyway…

A FEW FAMILY MEMBER REGRESSIONS:

Oh, and then I  had the past life memory of the horse all of which got retriggered again when watching the movie HIDALGO with my grandson while he was visiting here last month.  I purchased the DVD of that movie long ago and loved it.  My grandson and I watched it together recently—doing so totally re-activated my past life “love for my horse”  feelings.  I blogged about the horse regression a while back.  Anyway…

Here are a few brief insights from various family members regarding their past life recall work.  Only one of  my three daughter’s participated –there wasn’t enough time to regress my other 2 girls.  One of my sister’s participated and so did my niece.

My daughter chose to work on eating issues and her past life recall was to a lifetime where there was no more bread to eat and her mother in that life said the bread was gone—she was a little child in that experience, approximately 3 or 4 years old. As she told about the experience, she cried deeply reliving it (she was starving); it gave her insight into her current eating patterns. She was deeply moved by her memory.

My teenage niece (14 years old) chose to work on issues around getting along with other females at school and vividly recalled a past life in which her husband in that lifetime was seeing other women. One of those women was the girl who she has had trouble getting along with ever since graded school.  My sister was the most difficult one to actually regress—she had a lot of resistance to bringing up any memory. I think some people are just not ready to delve into the subconscious and that is okay and I respect that.  She kept seeing a huge battle ship floating in white light and nothing more.

I really wish I’d had more time.  I know we’ve all reincarnated together before and would have loved to get more information on that.  I already know one of my current life daughter’s was my sister in a prior life and also that another daughter was a mother to me in a prior life.  I know my grandson and I have had a lifetime together in Tibet.  But I would have liked to get more detail.  Why?  I think one reason is that I’m getting older now and approaching the age in which we realize the end is getting closer; it brings great comfort to have these past life validations for it helps to remember that it is ‘not’ goodbye, but rather its ‘see you next time’.  Anyway…

MY GRANDSON’S REGRESSION — I REGRESSED my grandson and he explained his BIRTH CHART while in an ALTERED STATE:

My grandson however—a completely different story! He’s the one that I had the longest time to work with since he stayed with me for a whole week. One night when he couldn’t seem to sleep and neither could I, we decided to have an astrology lesson. He is always asking me about his chart. I admitted to being a bit befuddled about the past life meaning of the symbols.  Then I had the idea to put him into a trance and ask his higher mind (subconscious, unconscious or super-conscious or however you want to name it) to help us understand his natal (birth) chart–specifically, the past life meaning of the locations of planets, houses, etc.  He agreed and said he thought it would be interesting.

I coached him into an altered state (he was an easy subject as he is very calm and intuitive) and we went back into a previous life that would help us understand his chart. He knows very little about astrology and is barely learning the house meanings and the planetary symbols.  During the regression work itself, I didn’t have the chart in front of me.  In fact, I was barely familiar with it aside from knowing his Sun, Moon and Ascendant.  It wasn’t until later (after the regression) that I looked again at the chart and what I saw was pretty amazing.  I’ve included the astro info below for those readers who are familiar with astrology.  I bolded the astrology references–if you have no interest in astrology, you may want to skip over that part, but I hope you will find it interesting anyway.

He was able to get into an altered state easily.  He was in such a  deep trance  state that I had to strain my ears to understand his words—the deeper the state, the more difficult it is to talk.  I totally understood it because I was in the state with him.  However, he did speak.  He was able to tell me how he was a chef in that lifetime and gave details of his work and his private life (non-married and about his family).

Later, I had to laugh a bit about the fact that he was a chef in his past life.   A week or so afterward,  we all went out to a Mexican restaurant and from where we sat it was possible to see the chef bring up the food for the waiters to carry out. I barely noticed that area… what with all the commotion and conversation at the table. But when I looked across at him, I followed his gaze and saw that he was watching the chef. He must have felt my eyes on him because he turned to me and mentioned that the chef didn’t seem very happy and then went on to explain how the mood of the chef affects the food. After having learned about his past life recently, his reason for eyeing the chef in the restaurant made perfect sense to me.

His aunt (my daughter) upon hearing of his past life memory told me how he is always working on his own little food creations in the kitchen at home.

Anyway, back to the regression with my grandson… I took him forward to his death in that lifetime, coaching him that he will not feel any pain and will be able to tell me what is happening. He said that he was confused about how he actually died at first. This made immediate sense to me since he has a SOUTH NODE of the Moon in PISCES – that could, indeed, be the signature of such an event of confusion.  The South Node equals Past Life and Pisces equals confusion as one of its archetypes.

He then described something coming through the windshield and that’s all he knows aside from the fact that he was driving a car, he said. I asked what year it was and 1955 was the answer from his higher mind (currently my grandson is 13 years old).

I asked him to go out of his body at this moment of death and to tell me what he sees and he described being between two cars; a car in front of him and one behind.  Something from the car in front of him came from through the windshield causing his demise.

Now, before I go on, let me say that I’m still learning this process and putting things together—both with astrology and with past life regression.  And in life you could generally call me a “seeker” rather than one who is firmly established in truth and stuck. Therefore, I don’t have all the answers and hope to always keep learning.

And so while maybe I can’t draw any major conclusion, the fact that the intention for the regression was to have the natal chart explained, I find this next part even more interesting. My grandson’s chart does show signatures of a prior life death in an auto accident. His Mercury (a planet that denotes transportation/travel and thus could relate to an automobile) is in his 8th house of death. And very near his South Node (it would have to be a very , very wide conjunction) he has Mars conjunct Jupiter. Being near to the SN (in the same house), this could definitely link to a sudden death (Mars near to or in close aspect to the SN often indicates sudden death) and that Mars conjunct Jupiter (4 degree orb) can be another signature of a sudden death from something to do with transportation since Jupiter relates to travel. Jupiter also relates to education and learning and it seems that this sudden death by auto accident could maybe have something to do with learning. Looking for more clues, I wanted to see where Sagittarius was (since Jupiter rules Sag, thus making a link that could give us a clue) and there in the 7th house was PLUTO in Sag and squaring the Nodes no less!

One of the questions that I asked my grandson was to see if his spirit guide (whom he had previously described as a woman in a white dress with a crown on her head) could tell him what he was supposed to learn in that lifetime so that he could be sure to apply it in this current one.

Now, remember this child is only 13 and I totally can’t imagine these words coming from his mouth in this way if he were not in an altered state.  I believe, therefore, that he actually was talking with his guide when…

 he said, “I wasn’t open to taking advice and because of that I made some bad decisions. In this lifetime I need to be more open to taking advice.”

[ADDED ASTROLOGY:  His Moon/Sun opposition is from houses 3/9 respectively, making the T-square to Saturn in Aries in the 11th.  He will have to work with Venus and Libra to balance that T-square. Also, it looks like he maybe (?) has the “Finger of God” (the Yod)–?! He also has a lot of aspects to his Moon on the  3/9 axis.  Venus rules the chart.  The ruler of the NN is Mercury in the 8th and while I probably need more time to reflect on the evolutionary intent, with the NN in the 4th ruled by Mercury as the resolution node to the skipped step…. well, one thing that jumps out with Sag on the cusp of the 8th there and Merc in Capricorn, it seems that controlling or learning to control (Capricorn) speed (mercury) and enthusiasm (Sag on the cusp of the 8th) might be good overall advice for him.  And this seems correlated by the ruler of Cap, Saturn, in Aries in the 11th–the combination of Saturn and Aries is about controlling fire or controlling impulsiveness perhaps–this being part of the evolutionary intention and resolution of the square from the Nodes to Pluto.  I need to study this chart some more and i am typing this a bit impulsively and intuitively…  but actually what comes to mind is that advice you often hear that goes this way, “Never drive when you are angry”  might be good advice for him too.] 

I find that last bit about what his ‘spirit guide’ said quite interesting with Pluto in Sag in his 7th squaring his nodes. Squares to the Nodes meaning that he is in a re-do and re-live situation with “teacher types” in relationships which is a meaning of Pluto in Sag.

His 9th house is pretty active with the Moon (from the 3rd) opposing the ruler of the SN (Neptune).

By the way, the Mars and Jupiter are in Aquarius and so is Uranus in Aquarius (a strong Uranus as it is in the sign it rules). Uranus and Aquarius are associated with trauma and with Mars and Jupiter in Aquarius and Uranus in the 9th; well, it’s all a validation of the very strong signature of past life travel trauma.

Interesting too, we see Saturn in ARIES in the 11th linking to Uranus in Aquarius thru the 11th house and that Saturn is  squaring the Sun/Moon opposition! The famous T-square! 

Clearly there is more to my grandson’s chart and I won’t bore the reader with too many more  astrological details. It just seems like he did explain his chart for me and was also reminded to be more open to taking advice—this will prove hearty to him when he learns how to drive which he has always been anxious to know how to do! His aunts are always answering his questions about the car and the gears and the traffic laws and so forth.  Mars is about going FAST and so is Mercury in that 8th house…. maybe he was speeding, not listening to advice about not driving fast… one wonders!

In thinking about this, I just recalled how much he ♥ loves ♥ mountain biking–going fast on downhill switchbacks– being daring on a mountain bike. 

His aunt (photo of both of them to the left) fell of the mountain bike downhill twice while he, on the other hand, led the way and yelled back to his aunt what to watch out for!

I will remind him again of all his past life regression memories before he starts driving a car in this lifetime and how he’s supposed to be more open to taking advice so he doesn’t make bad decisions… just like his spirit guide said through his own mind and lips!

So, it is time to take the laundry down to the dryer and move onto other low-key chores for today…..

Before I close this post down and move on for the day, I thought to share something a bit comical *but not funny!*  about a recent blog post in which I bragged to the world about my method for healing is to breathe deeply and to sit in the sun.

Yeah, well, the recent family reunion was too much for my immune system apparently and just after it was over, I had cough and cold symptoms.

My daylong breathing in the sun made things worse and caused my need to get help at the hospital emergency room that night.  Not being one for ever having  allergies in the past, I did not recognize the multitudes RAGWEED growing out back on the ridge only a few feet away where I spent a good part of my day breathing deeply (and coughing more!)  Duhh, No wonder I couldn’t breathe well that night, driving myself to the ER.

Thanks to Google, NOW I know what ragweed looks like!!–it sure didn’t help that I sat next to ragweed breathing deeply alot that day!

Geesh!  Live and learn!–as my mother used to always say.

See what I mean by comical but NOT FUNNY?!

By the way for any interested astrologers out there, here (below) is my grandson’s chart…. Porphyry house system… birth data  omitted intentionally for privacy purposes. 

See anything interesting? Would love to hear any insights from other astrologers out there if you’d like to share them.  What am I missing?  What did I get wrong?

Email me joystar777@gmail.com .. comments welcome

Anyway, see you tomorrow….

Daily Divination 7-29-11 Dispersion; Know Thyself; Enlightenment and Lighten Up with a Smile – I-CHING Kua 59 with Astrology and Tarot Keywords

 A man who has not passed through the inferno of his passions has never overcome them.

–Carl Jung

Denying one’s own feelings and thoughts is no way to create unity with one’s spirit or have a reunion with higher self. This is similar to shutting down and disconnecting. Is every feeling and thought we have going to be saintly or light-filled? And is it supposed to be? Look around. If we’re human living on planet Earth, probably not every thought and emotion is saint-like; but to suppress or deny what we think or feel is tantamount to separating from ourselves. It also creates a state of living in denial—a false world, an illusion. The religious fundamentals will try to tell us we should only have “pretty thoughts” and anything short is some sort of dirty angel or devil at work or there’s something wrong with us. Yes, there it is, they’d say, we are all imperfect sinners and then they spew their whoopla, which is usually what their preacher told them to say while out evangelizing.

But back to the conditioning that indoctrinates us into an idea that we must always be a particular way—a way in which we deny our own soul. That’s the start of the delusion which left unchecked can lead to a superiority complex or fundamentalism that is dangerous. If we bypass the opportunity for self-reflection that self-acceptance of our thoughts, feelings and tendencies can provide, we close the door to our own self-improvement and evolution and move into the fanaticism realms of life.

When we have a feeling or thought (pretty or not) that comes up, and we allow ourselves to examine it, trace it back to where it began, we can take our first step to healing and true self-improvement (and empowerment)—not suppression or repression.

Whatever is repressed becomes distorted.

I’ve been thinking about all of this today and it wasn’t until now, early evening, that I’ve had the opportunity to do an I-CHING draw. Its Kua 59 called “Dispersion”. It is about dissolving and disintegrating energy through uniting with it and understanding it for the purpose of restoring harmony. Ho! And that’s exactly what I’ve been contemplating today.  My Moon is transiting my 12th House today closely approaching my Mars/Pluto/Saturn stellium — translation:  my mood is very deep and esoteric.  I’m having to dig deeply to attend to this blogging task because almost all of me wants to withdraw, escape and disappear.  🙂  THINK TAROT:  The Hermit.   Moving right along  anyhow….

A  few things came to mind as I typed those last sentences in that paragraph above. One has to do with a smile and the other with some wisdom from Carl Jung who said that we don’t reach enlightenment by envisioning beings of light but rather by bringing light into dark places. That light or knowledge-of-self is able to enlighten; but one has to be fearless and willing to look deeply into one’s self. Yeah, and into those dark places—fearlessly. And when I write the word “dark”, it refers to the places of ignorance or unconscious-ness that self-knowledge can lighten — shed light upon.

That seems to epitomize (to me anyway) the meaning of today’s message inspired from Kua 59/Dispersion. One could say to disperse rather than to repress. To repress is to live a life of delusion; one risks living a distorted life which comes about through an unwillingness to allow and understand one’s own feelings and thoughts in favor of playing a people-pleasing role in order to be accepted.

It makes me think of the planet Mars and the sign it rules, Aries, which is impulsive energy; it learns from its reactions. That archetypical energy evolves through understanding its reactivity. If we don’t allow ourselves to have a reaction and then examine it, how can we possibly ever… ? Well, think of it as the doorway into the unconscious–to the soul.  That’s the message from and the lesson of Mars/Aries.

I’m not supporting a wild idea that we all run around taking everyone’s head off; I’m only suggesting that we not beat ourselves up if we allow the thought or feeling room enough to surface so that we can examine it and learn from it. Besides, sometimes we just need the release—it’s not all that unhealthy once in a while after all.

Another part of this idea of dispersion has to do with lightening up and that’s where that smile that I was thinking of a moment ago comes into play with today’s message. Here’s what I mean and by the way I’m talking about a smile that is sincere, not one stemming from smugness or one that has grown out of a distorted reality or feelings of superiority. I’m talking about one of those ‘home-grown’, down-to-earth, true-to-life types of “I know who you are and I know who I am and I love us both” kind-of-smiles that has nothing whatsoever to do with ego.

Talk about dispersion! When you’ve received one of those smiles from another, you know it and lighten up immediately. This Kua is about lightening up as well as dispersion. The unity of a smile can restore harmony, dissolve divisions and revitalize you, can’t it? How many smiles like that have you given and received lately? Many, I hope! Keep up the good work says Kua 59 of the I-CHING and stay true to that energy within you and others!

That kind of smile comes out of us spontaneously when we know who we are; but we will never know unless we allow ourselves to understand our thoughts, feelings and reactions—something we can’t do unless we allow them. That’s how we grow and evolve and it’s why we’re here in the first place—at least this is my truth for today.  Know Thyself!

THE ASTROLOGICAL AND TAROT ARCHETYPE CORRELATION KEYWORDS FOR KUA 59/DISPERSION

Astrological Keywords

Leo – you are the center of your own universe but avoid forcing your reality onto others; avoid living a theatrical life for the purpose of getting people to like you; avoid the tendency to become the actor in someone else’s creation for the purpose of attention; realize you cannot play god in someone else’s life

Virgo – be willing to “discern” your own thoughts and emotions

Libra – avoid people –pleasing and projecting onto others or allowing others to project onto you

Scorpio – become the psychological detective to your own thoughts and emotions; probe deeply into your thoughts and emotions for the purpose of self-awareness and evolutionary growth

Tarot Keywords

The Magician — employ the power of creative transmutation

The Hermit – reflect on your life experiences; find your answers within

Strength — have the courage to face challenges and face fears; using your inner power

The Tower – this card relates to Mars/Aries (see above); experiencing an inner awakening by releasing old defenses and delusions; being willing to be socially unacceptable in order to be true to self; awakening to one’s inner truth; sudden self-awareness

The Devil (Pan) – looking at self to see where we are not in harmony with nature and natural law; the need to lighten up (Pan) and not be too serious; ability to face one’s self

Wheel of Fortune (Medicine Wheel) — restoring harmony; being natural; bringing spirit into flesh (not separation of spirit and flesh which is a patriarchal christian fundamentalism issue)

Daily Divination 7-27-11 Childhood Issues; Balancing Soul Relationships with Parents; Teachers; I-CHING Kua 4

I was on hold with my sister who called me from work; meanwhile, I did today’s I-CHING draw which is Kua 4 relating to childhood.

When my sister returned to the line she began to speak about her counseling session. Issues of childhood were the predominant theme of the conversation—definitely we have synchronicity. Kua 4 is called “Youthful Folly” or “Inexperience” and relates to childhood.

Our views are different—my sister’s and mine. I tend to think of childhood issues and the resulting experiences as part of what needed to be re-triggered for the purpose of awareness and healing. Further, my concept is that we choose the parent who has many of the same issues as our own so that we can be imprinted even before the actual birth with the energy that we are here to work with or overcome.

On the other hand, my sister tends to hold the view that goes something like, “Mom messed us up” and her therapist is helping her work through some ideas like these.

Yet, we can still converse about it for the end result is the same—self-responsibility for our own psyche and the healing that may be necessary.

Each new day begins with an empty slate and we can repeat patterns of the past or not.

One of my I-CHING books says (about this Kua): “Life is compassionate, if we miss a class, the opportunity to make up the lesson will surely arise.”

 Life, Itself, is the Great Teacher that helps us to mature.

The message of this Kua is also about having the right attitude toward our teachers. This would include Life Itself, parents and other educators. It’s also about making learning fun; seeing it as an adventure.

  • Trying to figure ourselves and our experiences out – the psychology of the soul –actually can be fun.
  • What makes us tick?
  • What makes us so different from one another, yet also so much the same?
  • Why does one thing affect one person so deeply and barely faze another or not even hit the radar of someone else?

Emotional patterns are part of the equation and it’s all very interesting and we see it as we study the family dynamic—same parents, same house, same city and same time-frame and two siblings have two completely different experiences of their childhood. What else aside from the individual patterns of each different soul can account for that?

I’d like to flip something around and that has to do with the idea that we are all students and teachers and that children can be the teacher for the parent. It’s an attitudinal shift that gives an entirely different perspective. Instead of lamenting about how your parent affected you, see if it wasn’t also true that you affected them—positively or negatively it’s a two-way street.

I’d like to think that parents and children are souls that have agreed before birth to come together to help one another grow and evolve. So when my sister takes the view that “Mom messed us up”, for me it doesn’t ring true in the purest sense. It’s so much more involved than that simplistic view.

Yet, my sister and I just agreed that the outcome is still the same; we still have to put ourselves together.

Many times folks will have a dream right before a session with a counselor or a psychic.

Last night my sister had a dream about nuts and bolts scattered about and in the dream she was asking herself how to work with them—pick them up and sort them all at once to see what goes where?  Or to take them one at a time and find where they go?

I thought that her dream was quite interesting—she said that her decision in the dream was to take them one at a time so that she didn’t have to handle them twice.

I usually tell my clients to pay attention to their dreams right before or after a session for these offer valuable insights from the soul.

In my own life, astrology represents the nuts and bolts—and it is, besides that, fun!

Like the nuts and bolts dream that my sister had, when interpreting a chart, I take one nut and bolt and then another and then soon I can take them all up all together as the information in the chart starts to synchronize and harmonize.  I wonder if my sister will have another dream in future wherein she picks up all the nuts and bolts at once, knowing exactly where they all go.

Looking at the image on I-CHING card above we see someone on a tightrope working to keep balance. Water flows on like the eternal soul and mountain is our life in a body on earth.

The elements for this Kua are Mountain over Water and an inexperienced youth beginning to climb the mountain—perhaps in search of a teacher to help with the answers. It is beneficial to persevere—understanding life, our self, our Soul and experiences is part of our life journey  up the mountain.

I have a sense that the mountain that my sister is climbing is one she has climbed before many times and she is in the process of remembering and integrating each step… just like those nuts and bolts.

In fact, we’re all doing this day-by-day and step-by-step.

ASTROLOGY AND TAROT ARCHETYPE KEYWORD ASSOCIATIONS:

Astrological correlations…

Scorpio — Psychology; psychological counseling

Sagittarius – Philosophy

Libra– Relationships; balance/imbalance; ability to see all sides of an issue

Tarot correlations…

Hierophant (High Priest) – The teacher; spiritual development

Temperance – awareness of what needs healing and balancing

High Priestess – Hidden emotions

The Tower – Sudden flash of insight

The Devil (Pan) – usual thinking needs to be reversed; looking at life

differently; breaking the bondage to the past

Wheel of Fortune (Medicine Wheel) – karma; workings of fate; the Divine Plan