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Yeah, well there it is—Truth. We recognize it when we see it and do our best to live it.

“We can never make peace in the outer world, until we make peace with ourselves.” –Dalai Lama

We tend to want to think of those types of cliché’s on global scales but what we see globally starts with individuals.

I’ve had some trouble making peace with myself – my psyche has been disturbed as I continually adjust to being around so many humans. I’ve been a loner in solitude for so long that—well, maybe too long. I’m in a community now and it is unavoidable—humans are bumping into me left and right and what I’m noticing about children especially is mystifying.

I watch these kids rule over their mothers and the mom’s giving in, caving at the child’s demands. Further, this lack of respect and abusive behavior of kids toward their mom’s is very disturbing. I stood in line at a subway sandwich shop late in the day and next to me an overweight little boy (probably around age 9 or 10) demanded extra meat on his sandwich. She reminded him that they’d previously had a conversation about it and she wasn’t going to “play that game” with him she said. I was barely noticing their interaction until he raised his voice and to his mother said, “I feel like punching you in the face right now.” She rubbed his back and said okay that he could have extra meat on his order! (What?!)

I don’t want to feel the vibes of these types of exchanges–in fact, I recoil but still take it in. Chaos comes in and peace goes out the window. I’ve got to do better!

Earlier yesterday I went to the pool to do my exercise and a little tyke was doing her best to get her mother’s attention and her mother was doing her best to ignore the kid while reading a book! The exchange that went on for the whole 30 minutes that I was there was… the power plays and manipulations from this little one was pretty astounding climaxed by this 4-year-old telling her mother “We’re going right now” and the mom actually got up and left with the child.

Later while in a clearance store this 8-year-old is screaming at her mother about a product she wanted arguing for the purchase and the mother simply allowed the back-talk and disrespect! What in the world is going on with these humans? I walked to the other side of the store and shortly afterward the same little girl ends up on my aisle and screams, “watch out!”, as she nearly hit me with a shopping cart that was too big and awkward for her to handle.

It was a week ago when an out of control little boy who wreaking havoc at the pool “handled” his mother in a jaw-dropping way. He was being extremely loud and sassing her at every opportunity until she said to him, “Now you’ve really done it and we’re going to have to leave—get out of the pool.” He dove under water every time she tried to speak to him until she eventually got into the pool herself and drug him out. “We’re leaving”, she said. He threw himself down in a poolside chair and scolded her, “30 seconds! I will sit here for 30 seconds and then I’m going back in the pool.”

To my amazement, she agreed to his terms and said, “Okay, but you cannot get up before then and don’t even try!”

What? What happened to “We’re leaving”? He mocks her then over and over about wanting her towel until one of the other mothers gets out of her chair and yells at the unruly child, “Look little boy, don’t talk to your mother that way!” With this the kid swam off to the other side of the pool for a while but within a few minutes started back toward her direction calling her “fat” and “chubby” and other names equally as demeaning. What did the mother do? She ignored him. I left the pool.

Certainly I’m noticing these things based on what I’m feeling within me and sometimes, I’ll have to admit, it isn’t exactly peaceful being around others and having to be part of their drama simply going to the pool, walking through a discount store or buying a sandwich! As a psychic or sensitive, I’m swimming in other people’s energy much more than I’d like to and am still having to grapple with how to do this thing properly—this living in the big city and having so many humans dabbling in my auric field is something I’m not practiced at. Talk about coming down from the hermitage—the world seems to have totally changed! What has happened to children’s discipline and respect? What is going on with these mothers? What kind of parenting relationships are these?

I have to work on my inner peace building techniques if I’m going to be able to hang out around here and function. Do I need to shore up my boundary? Do my best to stay out of shock and awe when these kids freak out at their mothers? Do I focus on having no judgment about what is not my affair while resisting the urge to petition local government to implement some sort of mandatory parenting classes? Okay, that last one is pretty far out there, I’ll admit.

I even heard the adults at the pool one day talking about how lazy their teenagers are like they have no power over how many hours they lay in bed!

I think I’m beginning to understand why the T.V. Shows about super nannies are popular. It seems that on TV we have bride-zilla monsters and kid-zilla monsters too.

I have to make peace within my own inner heart, mind and soul in order to be able live in a world where peace is not… well, it’s not like living in the forest like I’ve been accustomed to. I’m still a work in progress (and the parents and children are too) and it seems that I, for one, am being challenged in a new or at least different way to re-establish peace within.

Ahhh, to be the calm eye of the storm in the middle of the hurricane of humanity… I’ll get there again. I’ve just been a bit out of practice! I remember what I used to do way back when and I will have to do it again–blogging helps me work this all out. I used to send love–toss out a pillar of light to surround the folks or send a beam of light from my 3rd eye. Yeah, I remember now… I’d run upstairs (go UP in my mind and heart) and from that point in consciousness send love infused light in the direction of the disturbing force. It benefits them and me; perhaps you’d like to try it too should you happen run into a kid-zilla with a soft mom out there. Or if you, like me, just came down off the mountain and rejoined humanity!

Ending with a Buddhist thought: May all beings be well with hearts filled with kindness and respect for one another.

May the One Light which brings life to us all draw us together in bonds of goodwill and brotherhood/sisterhood and reveal to us our true relationship to Light. May the power of Divine Love cast out all separation and fill us with perfect compassion. May the presence of Divine Wisdom dispel all ignorance and fill us with perfect understanding. May the Divine Light in which we dwell, as individual members of a single body of Light, inspire us to treat one another in with perfect respect. May we respond to this call with good will, tolerance, a sense of unity and the willingness to act as an agent of Light.

I often hear from clients that they feel unappreciated by their co-workers, bosses, clients and others in their work place. I’ve had my own personal moments in which I, too, have felt that way. Maybe it is because we conscientious givers attract takers and complainers? Maybe we are supposed to be learning to appreciate our selves and ignore the takers and complainers? Maybe we are to turn to our relationship to Light as in the prayer above for consoling at those times.

This next part is not me ‘tooting my own horn’; I’m only making a point. In my work as a psychic and a teacher, my perception of myself is that I give unreservedly. In fact this could maybe be fact checked by most clients who will tell you that I go overtime when I do readings– am not a clock watcher. In my psychic class, I’ve opened to my depth and offered everything that I’ve been taught and all that I know to help students. Yet, there are times that I feel under-appreciated and downright resentful by people’s reactions. That’s rare however—most people are honorable, respectful and kind.

Maybe I needed another lesson in how it is to feel underappreciated. I’ve had a number of clients recently indicate that they felt this way in their lives in their workplace–they’ve been saying that their bosses never seem to be happy and that they work long and hard but it never seems to be enough.

Anyway, It has been a long time since I, personally, felt that way. But then again, I don’t work with groups of other people usually–except for the students when they’re willing to engage in project. Mostly, I enjoy a fairly solitary existence; but I do remember having felt that sense of not being appreciated a few times in my past. It had been a long time since I felt this way actually.

Then the other day, I had a similar feeling come up in me that my clients have been expressing about their bosses. And even now the resentful feeling still lingers just a wee bit. Sometimes, no matter how much you do, there will be someone who thinks they’re a big cheese and who finds a problem with how much they are getting or they don’t like the way they are getting it. You know that old saying, “they want egg in their beer!” The English Idiom Dictionary give a meaning for that egg-in-your-been phrase and says, “This expression dates from about 1940 and became widespread during World War II. The origin is unknown, since adding egg to beer does not improve the taste.” I believe the expression has to do with people who want more but already have plenty; and that was exactly the experience I was a wee bit miffed about.

I can now sympathize and relate a lot more with some of my clients who feel that they go above-and-beyond in their work, are not paid exorbitantly, yet are still pushed by demanding employers to give even more! Maybe I needed a refresher course in what that felt like?

This is not a big issue for me; something that I am in the process of dismissing and releasing. I sat with if for a few minutes and knew that the person had a bit of an “egg-in-your-beer’ish attitude”. Probably that individual relates to everyone this way; it has nothing to do with me personally. This is just the human game and ego playing out—it is my choice to be offended and in the end, I feel confident and optimistic about the fairness of what I do and what I offer by way of my work and in this case the educational materials.

The course contains a lot of material but for some reason wanted to complain about the teleconference classes that I have not offered for over a year now. Not offered! No longer part of the class! Egg in the beer? The lack of teleconference classes does not change the quality of the course–just like egg does not improve the quality and taste of beer. Besides, some people enjoy complaining and trying to intimidate others—this is the world of ego-consciousness that we live in. Whether the person came from that frame-of-mind doesn’t matter; this is how I perceived it and it is my perceptions that need the attention now. The same may be true of clients who perceive they are being taken advantage of at work–is it partially true or completely true or not true at all? It doesn’t matter if that’s how it’s perceived–the same way the egg-in-your-beer person perceives their reality. They may carry a quality of dissatisfaction and feelings of not being given enough that come from their perception of life. But the oracle is in this post is addressing the one who is on the receiving end of the complaint–the one who gives and feels unappreciated.

Anyway, I felt like writing a blog today while I am between clients so I chose that topic since it’s on my mind and I had to dig a little deep to find a troubling question that I felt may be something others could relate to also. That so I could draw a tarot card and ask the oracle about it. And in the process of making this post, I came across the invocation that appears at the top and bottom of this post. Co-incidentally (?) I came across this while I was typing up this post and knew that it was supposed to be included; and so it is.

So the QUESTION is: What advice does the oracle have about those times when we feel under-appreciated and resentful because we believe that people want more than we feel it is fair for us to give? How do we handle our emotions during times when we perceive that we have given a good deal and others do not seem satisfied?

I shuffled and drew the QUEEN OF WANDS. And immediately I liked that because she’s confident and secure in herself and she knows she does her best and does not question it.

Look at the image; does she look like she cares much what people may say about her world and her work? Not hardly. My eyes keep going to the pyramids behind her, one green (healing) one gold (strength) and the pyramids make me think of Divine Intelligence. We even see those green and gold colors replicated in her clothing. I’ve always liked the Queen of Wands because she exemplifies what I’d like to think is the best part of myself–the part that I strive to awaken and maintain. Confident and optimistic with a humanitarian view of life—her motivation is to serve and give of herself and she’s too optimistic and compassionate and full of love to be troubled by any little ego minds. She’s the Queen after all and she rules her own world—but with love and kindness.

The oracle is saying that we need to draw from that archetype that exists within all of us and remember it whenever we feel that we’ve given with a good heart and still find takers and complainers who want ‘egg in their beer’. The Queen of Wands gives the utmost in any situation and isn’t easily provoked and has faith in her abilities and that is what the oracle is telling us to do about our feelings of under-appreciation–have faith in our abilities, don’t become easily provoked and respond with love and compassion.

If you have a boss or clients who you feel do not appreciate you or take and yet still complain, in these types of scenarios, what may help is to remember that it is we who rule our world and much like Eleanor Roosevelt once said, “Nobody can insult you without your permission.” We must hang tough to the qualities of confidence and optimism first-of-all, and then look to those others who would always have more from us and find love and compassion within us when we think of them or the pattern of energy within us becomes triggered.

We must remain confident, hopeful, and tolerant while knowing that we do our best; that’s pretty much the bottom line. We have to shake it off and move on while embracing the qualities of the Queen of Wands.

And then we can write down the affirmation that is at the top of this post, put it in a special place (maybe even tuck it in our wallet) and read it over at those times. Here it is again–

May the One Light which brings life to us all draw us together in bonds of goodwill and brotherhood/sisterhood and reveal to us our true relationship to Light. May the power of Divine Love cast out all separation and fill us with perfect compassion. May the presence of Divine Wisdom dispel all ignorance and fill us with perfect understanding. May the Divine Light in which we dwell, as individual members of a single body of Light, inspire us to treat one another in with perfect respect. May we respond to this call with good will, tolerance, a sense of unity and the willingness to act as an agent of Light.