–Hafiz, Sufi Poet
Light can enter one’s life through working with difficulty but this newsletter isn’t a downer; hopefully, it’s just the opposite. And the intention, as always, is to inspire, inform and involve engagement with Spirit. I wanted to start with this: One often hears quoted, it is the crack (or break) of the heart through which the light enters.
To sit with the difficulty without causing suffering to self or to others is to honor the dark and the light in one’s life.
These seem to me to be good meditative contemplations for the shortest day and longest night. I wanted to write about it today as we enter what I like to call “the great stopping of momentum, the great balance of light and dark–the great silence, the big quiet.”
Sitting with the difficulties of life, even the difficulties of daily meditation can open us to more light entering our consciousness so that we can benefit ourselves, others and the world. Let me explain what I mean.
I’m talking about not turning away but rather really bearing the pain, whether physical, emotional, mental or spiritual, without creating further pain for self or another in any way. Not running from it, suppressing it or becoming angry or frustrated with darkness. That’s an example of balancing the light and dark in one’s life. We can be reminded of this type of yin-yang balance during the time of the Winter Solstice.
It isn’t easy to really be with troubles without adding more suffering. In The Arrow Sutra, the Buddha teaches about how we embellish the pain or difficulty (shooting the second arrow), instead of observing what is actually present: which is the arising and passing of feelings. So instead of turning away from emotions, turn towards them and watch them pass just the way they have arisen. In this way, we allow the light of awareness to enter and wisdom to arise.
Practice in Meditation
A simple meditation today, the Winter Solstice, can help us work with balancing light and dark/ease and difficulty. Here’s what I mean. Sometimes, we resist emotions or thoughts or discomfort in the body or sleepiness or restlessness during meditation and in doing so, we shoot a second arrow, so-to-speak, and create a story around even these simple experiences in meditation.
OR we may come to the sitting with already-formed goals, intentions or ideas about how the meditation time is going to be experienced. “I am going to be in a bliss state the whole time, or go floating into the heaven of the cosmos.” When in actuality, we may feel sleepy, restless or have thoughts of regret or other emotional difficulties arise.
Meditation is a practice for life. And life is full of darkness as well as light– full of difficulties as well as it’s opposite, freedom, peace/ease. Think of yin-yang.
Our world needs people who can stand in the fire or tolerate the difficulty, keep a cool head, not over-react, deal with harsh and hard situations with clarity and wisdom. Meditation practice trains us to do this.
We don’t quit or run or try to escape –nor do we control or intend any type of outcome when we meditate. We may have an intention for our meditation practice which is alright but many times if we just allow, and experience, observe, see the mind working while being interested yet not being too controlling, too tense nor too relaxed but just allowing ourselves to move through the states without judging ourselves as “bad meditators” and without becoming frustrated … if we can uphold these ideals, I think we can develop the ability to balance the light and dark in our lives too. Yeah, I know this is an awkwardly phrased paragraph, but you know what I mean, right?
The Winter Solstice is a reminder of all of this . . .
- of how the depth of our being which is radiant clear light can open up through staying with difficulties
- of how our core mind, the primal mind, is radiant and clear in nature
- of how just like the Tibetan Buddhist tradition speaks, a self-existing lamp of wisdom exists within each of us
- of how through the difficulties and darkness of life, we are able to access this kind of light or presence
- of how we go into the dark in order to be able to see the light
- of how we are with the difficult in order that we may be able to have more ease
If in meditation we can embrace the unknowing or just allow rather than always trying to control – the unknowing will open up to knowing. Being with the difficult or darkness opens us to light as well as being regenerative and enabling wisdom.
Here is some poetry that expresses these ideas . . .
as the moon sometimes does for the sun.
Be a full bucket pulled up the dark way
of a well, then lifted out into light.”
Once, into darkness and rain.
Once, into what the body carries at all times within it and
starts to remember each time it enters the act of love.
Once, into the fire that holds all.
These three were not different.
You will recognize what I am saying or you will not.
But outside my window all day a maple has stepped
from her leaves like a woman in love with winter, dropping
the colored silks.
Neither are we different in what we know.
There is a door. It opens. Then it is closed. But a slip of
light stays, like a scrap of unreadable paper left on the floor,
or the one red leaf the snow releases in March.
If each day falls
There exists a well
Where clarity is imprisoned.
We need to sit on the rim
Of the well of darkness
And fish for fallen light
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