Tarot Oracle Helps Solve Toad in Cellar Issue – Strange But True Story

5 of Wands
5 of Wands

I have something on my mind… an inner question.  Maybe it’s a silly one.  I have been dealing with issues in the cellar—a long story that I won’t bore you with involving a dehumidifier and a damp, leaky and unfinished half-basement. 

There’ve been salamanders down there—I’ve caught a glimpse of them once or twice in all the years that I’ve been here.  So that is what it is—really a non-issue.  I just go down there to throw in the wet clothes into the dryer and then rush back up.  I have seen this toad though fairly consistently over the past year.  Oh, he’s small really and brown and he’s slow and seems old—doesn’t jump around much and isn’t afraid of people.  He holds his ground.  When the landlord is here or the Exterminator for the mice [which are no longer an issue, thank you] comes, I always ask what they see down there and every answer is the same:  just a little frog. 

Yeah, I think frogs are green and toads are brown but I don’t know for sure—this guy seems like a toad since he’s brown but we’re seeing the same little critter.  I used to stare at him and he at me while I put clothes in and out of the dryer, the whole while saying, “Okay don’t you jump–just stay where you are we’ll be fine—you leave me alone and I’ll do the same”.   

Now that I’ve been going down there to deal with a dehumidifier issue–sometimes several times or more a day I’ve been down there lately.   And of course, each time I see Samuel.  Yeah, I name things and so I call out to him when I’m there, “Hey Sammy where are you?”  Or “Sam, what-z up dude?”   Now, I don’t know why I think this little brown toad is an old male, but that’s my delusion maybe.

I’ve been thinking about him lately and wondering if he is in a hell-realm there and if I should find a way to scoop him up somehow and take him outside.  What’s he eating down there?  Maybe crickets or spiders or something and of course the leaky basement provides some water for him when it rains.  But now with a dehumidifier down there, maybe I’m messing with his ecosystem?

How would he do outside?  He’s been in that hell-of-a-realm for a good while and he’s slow and maybe sick… could the outdoors be worse for him?  After all, who am I to interfere with Sam’s karma?  

I think of a Buddhist teaching about how our ego/personality mind will create problems where none exist or will worry just to give itself a job to do if you don’t give it something better to do. 

And I do have better things to do.  I need to get a life, right?  I have a lot of home and yard projects and my psychic work and other things that I’d like to call “a life”.  I want to get this issue with Sammy the toad out of my mind!  I’m going to turn to the tarot cards—believe it or not—to ask what to do about Sammy.  Should I leave him alone or try to get him out of the hell-of-a-realm, scooping up and escorting him outside?  Maybe ole’ Sam has lived down there longer than I have –maybe he was born down there and maybe didn’t just somehow hop in around a weak cellar window by mistake.  Who knows?

The bottom line question:  With all things considered, is it best if I leave this toad alone?  What should I consider about that?  Okay, so I am going to grab my cards because I just want this to be resolved in my mind and I’ve decided that I will go by whatever the oracle says here!  So, let’s shuffle….

O boy!  5 of Wands [image above].  A guy in a boat, surrounded by stormy water.  My first thought is that this toad got washed into the cellar somehow during a storm.  Actually, I am thinking of that year when we had the remnants of Hurricane Irene… there was a lot of water.  So, apparently, he’s been down there for years.  I was only renting here for about a year or so when the rainy leftover’s of hurricane Irene came through here.

Listen, hold on a second… I have to put some seed in the bird feeder outside.  I put a day’s worth in during the morning hours because otherwise, this raccoon that looks like a big dog (I swear he looks like a German shepherd dog size-wise) comes by at night and eats it all. I’ve caught him red handed.  I tap on the window when I see him and he sheepishly walks away!  Anyway, the birds are calling…be right back.

Aside from the 5 of Wands being about unnecessary hassles, petty annoyances and trivial issues, I still don’t know what to do.  However, I do feel the card guided me to an understanding of how the toad got there to start with.   It seems that this card is telling me not to worry about it… that it’s a trivial issue. 

Actually, I already know that.  I just want to know if the toad is suffering I guess.  Let me shuffle again.  It doesn’t seem like a healthy environment down there… not much light coming in.  Don’t toads need sunlight?  Maybe I should google toad information but that is going to get my mind in even a worse tangle I’m sure!

I’m going to a yes/no format with my cards now… aces are indicators of a yes.  Is the little guy suffering by being in the cellar environment?  Yes or No?  (I added the words “by being in the cellar environment” at the end because while he may be suffering because all sentient beings do, my question is made more specific by adding the words in quotations to make the question more specific.)   Or we could ask:   Is the suffering of this sentient being increased by being in the cellar I like that wording better.

YES Answer; Ace in 3rd Pile is YES indicator
YES Answer; Ace in 3rd Pile is YES indicator

Oh, shoot!  Darn.  I got a YES answer to that question—Ace in the 3rd stack.  And in the other two stacks of 13 cards, the top cards [which can also be ‘read’] are ‘The World’ and ‘4 of Wands’.  Gee, the 4 of Wands is about being outside of the home and happy.  And ‘The World’ is about ending/completion.  I’m starting to get the feeling that I should find a way to scoop up the toad and get him outside.  Maybe I will wait until my grandson comes to help me with that drama/trauma.  I don’t want to hurt Sammy, you know? 

Well, let me ask another Yes or No Question.  If this toad’s suffering is increased by being down in the hell-of-a-realm basement, shall I then scoop him up and take him outside?  Maybe he’s used to it down there and to take him outside would increase his suffering or a predator could get him; after all, he doesn’t hop much.  Geesh.  What a can of worms my mind opened up here! 

Okay, so shall I scoop him up and out?  Yes or No?  Well.  I get a NO to that one with a very weak, well yeah maybe indicator—an Ace [of Swords] in the 2nd pile.   The Ace in the 2nd pile is saying, “Well, you could but really no you shouldn’t.”   That’s the way this Yes/No spread works-the rules.

NO Indicator:  No Ace in 3rd Pile
NO Indicator: No Ace in 3rd Pile

You know I think that this frog’s fate [or this toad trouble]  is a doomed destiny either way and maybe we should let him die a natural death where he’s used to his surroundings and where he won’t be beat up worse [9 of Wands].  He seems to be coping down there.  The landlord may be sending some workers to clean up some building materials that were down there since I moved in.  I will tell them to be careful of the toad if they see him; hopefully he will go hide away from the workers.  The other 2 cards I received were 9 of Wands and 5 of Pentacles [Coins].  Yeah, you can see the contemplation that I’m doing about this reflected in the 5 of Pentacles and the 9 of Wands is probably a reflection of the beat up toad [I’m not sure but he may be missing a leg; thus the hopping problem] and also it is me beating myself up over this issue.  LOL 

I send him love and healing now and am not afraid of him hopping toward me like I used to be.  He may have lost a leg when he traveled via the gutter system during the storm.  Bless his heart.  I’d forgotten that — I had that thought last night when I saw him hop while I was down there; it was a strange hop and he sits tilted.  I think one of his legs is gone. 😦

I would like to bring him sunlight as a gift and a green lawn.  Last night I did leave a light on down there… I mean what the heck, light is light even if it is artificial.  Like I said, bless his heart. 

Maybe you will send him a little love.  Yeah, I know, he’s only a little brown toad with only one leg but all sentient beings deserve to be free from suffering. 

Now, I have settled this issue.  The cellar increases his suffering, yet I should not try to scoop him up to take him outside—we should let him remain in his familiar environment because either way, his journey on Earth is about over.  There are several indicators — the 9 in the of Wands; 9 indicate endings. And the other indicator of the end of the line for this toad is the card of  The World–the last card of the major arcana; the card indicating a completed cycle. 

It is more humane not to traumatized him further through my act of scooping him up and putting him outside; he’s used to [accustomed to] his present environment and is probably coping the best as he can–just the same as we all are. 

May he, and all sentient beings, be free of suffering!

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Have Nagging Worry Over a No-Problem Type of Problem? Obsessing? Intuition or Imagination? Ace of Swords

My question for the Oracle today has to do with those occasions when we may obsess or worry over something even though we have done all we could and there is no certainty that our worry is based in reality.  What I’m talking about is realizing that we’re still concerned or worried about something even though people assure us that there’s no real problem.  Wow!  Talk about illusion and delusion and the mind messing with reality!  If you can relate to this, maybe we can work through this together in this blog post.

Let’s say we’re hearing a sound from somewhere, from something mechanical or technological.  What does that sound mean?  Know what I mean?  Is my attention being drawn to a sound because my intuition is telling me that I need to resolve it?  Or should I believe people who want to tell me its nothing? Do you know what I mean?  It doesn’t have to be a sound–it can be anything we keep thinking about in nervous ways.  Sound can trigger it, but it doesn’t have to be associated with it.  Our thoughts don’t really need very much at all to trigger them  into running on that repetitive mental treadmill that can waste our time and energy.

The thing that troubles me is that our intuition can sometimes be right – we get that nagging feeling that something is wrong even though people tell us that there’s no real problem.  Yet, we still can’t seem to let it go!  Know what I mean?  We have that particular something bugging us and it is illusive and we can’t really nail it down exactly—try as we do!

I’ve got something like that going on in my life.  I realize that I can be obsessive sometimes and when there’s a problem on the horizon, I’m the first one to take those precautions or do what is necessary.  In other words, I’ve learned the hard way that if you tend to ignore those first signs and symptoms of a problem without “nipping it in the bud” (as the saying goes), you can be sorry down the line.

If you hear a thumping in your tire, best get it checked before you have a flat in the wrong place at the wrong time!  Know what I mean?

Recently, my computer seems to be making a noise, a hum, like something is downloading but it may only be a noisy fan.  In fact the laptop’s health monitor shows the fan speed at 63% every time the noise is heard.

I thought widows was running updates and something got stuck in a cycle and so I stopped windows from automatically updating which enabled a virus and then I had to reinstall the whole operating system to factory settings!

I was disappointed to hear the fan downloading noise again after I reinstalled everything.  The Toshiba tech support people tell me that everything is normal and okay but they seem to be placating me and I’m thinking something is wrong with this fan!  Was it like this when I got it?  I don’t think it was, but I can’t be certain.

So am I worrying about nothing at all?  And if I continue, am I going to cause myself more problems?  What should I do about this?

What advice does the oracle have for handling these types of situations when we’re told nothing is wrong but still we have that nagging feeling inside?

Shuffling the cards….  But as I shuffle, I’m thinking how I’ll never buy another Toshiba product!  Next time I make the hour and a half drive to an area of civilization outside of these mountains to meet my daughter for lunch, I’ll take it into Best Buy and ask the Geek Squad to listen to it and give their opinion. And as I shuffle the laptop hums, sounding like it’s downloading but the task manager shows nothing is running… and the health monitor indicates it’s the fan speed.  Still!  It bugs me!  What does the oracle say? 

ACE OF SWORDS!  Clarity of mind; cutting through the confusion.  This card symbolizes the expansion of thoughts, illumination and enlightenment.   The flip side of this archetype or the opposite polarity is nervous thinking or excessive thinking. 

Totally so!  Seems like I go back and forth between these two polarities.  I just called Square Trade to ask if a new fan would be covered by my extended warranty and after a discussion with the gentleman who was very nice, it seems what my laptop computer is doing is par for the course—normal.  I get to feeling this is truth and then vacillate back into the nervous thinking about it.

No.  The computer doesn’t sound or act like it did when it was brand new!  And it shouldn’t.  It’s a year and a half old after all and in computer year’s maybe that’s mid-life, who knows?  My computer is already going through a mid-life crisis?  Well, I just googled this and found this quote:  “A recent study by a company that sells extended warranties on electronic items found that approximately 1/3 of all laptops will no longer function after three years due to either mechanical failure or accidental damage.”

(  My computer is having a mid-life crisis!  LOL  )

And from the Square Trade report, it also says ASUS and Toshiba laptops failed just over half as frequently as HP, which makes them a solid bet in terms of reliability.  Here’s the link: http://www.squaretrade.com/htm/pdf/SquareTrade_laptop_reliability_1109.pdf

Well, that makes me feel a little better since I have a Toshiba.  I just need to ‘GET OVER’ the sound of the fan!  And release the nervous mind around this.  Like I’ve always said, “Knowledge is power”.  I’m going to get some air spray (compressed air) and spray it into the vents of the laptop and then try to forget about it.  Get used to it in other words—just like I have to get used to the farmer-fud muggle across the way with his tractor mower sound that invades my living room!  My temporary solution to that last one is to play recordings of dharma teachings very loudly to drown out the sound.  Every problem has a solution.

Back to the oracle Ace of Sword for a moment—swords are about action, taking action.  Making the phone call, using google, talking to people, collecting the knowledge which is power—all that is taking action and that is the advice.

Do what you can to figure out possible solutions and then when you are told enough times that all is well or at least you learn that the issue is normal for the circumstance, this helps to balance out the thinking.

It’s Normal.  In this case, drown out the sound!

When I have my Buck stove fireplace heat blower operating in the winter time, it drowns out the sound of the computer fan.  When the muggle mows, the Dalai Lama, Ponlop Rinpoche or Lama Yeshe’s Dharma Talks drown out the invasive racket in the room.  And when I drive my car and hear the sound of my struts, I crank up the radio!  At first, the strut sound bothered me—just a bit of creaking noise when driving slow over uneven surfaces.  I had 3 different mechanics check it out and was told by all that the struts did not need replacing yet and for that little bit of unnerving sound, it’s not worth the expense at this time.  Knowledge is power; once the sound was identified, I could block it out or turn up the radio!  I never even notice the strut creaking sound anymore–unless I focus on it!    Strange isn’t it?   Blocking can be a beautiful thing when used at the right time for the right purpose!

I live on a fairly busy (for a country highway anyway) road.  Oh, nothing like an Interstate or even a city road–busy for around here is what I mean.  When I first moved here, I thought the noise of the traffic going by was going to bother me but I made up my mind right away to feel comforted by the sound of people going by assuring me that I was never alone.  I barely ever notice the traffic since.  The only thing I notice is that Sunday’s are quieter but otherwise, the cars or trucks going by hardly register in my attention at all.  Mind over matter as they say!   I think, therefore, that any distracting sound can comfort if you program it that way.

The Ace of Wands is about unbiased thoughts and clarity of mind like I said and its archetype also relates to acceptance of energy.   The oracle is saying, “Have a cup of chamomile tea and forget about it.”

And while you are sipping your tea, reflect on the big picture.  Laptops are middle age when they are a year and a half old, autos that are 8 years old start to creak a bit when the fitting between the struts and the boot wears, and muggles mow… all summer long, they mow!  I’m going to be so familiar with Dharma Teachings that I may reach enlightenment before the fall.  And soon I hope to be able to say, “What sound coming from my laptop?”

PS–   ” I have made this letter longer, because I have not had the time to make it shorter. ”  —Blaise Pascal 

Daily Divination 6-5-11 Paradox; The Double Edged Sword of Life; Healing by the Integration of Light and Dark; Past Lives; Ace of Swords

Ahh, the double edged sword! Paradox! Clarity that comes from seeing both sides and integrating the light and dark—as my dad used to often say, “There are two sides to every story!”

Integrating the shadow! Self-acceptance, acceptance of others and knowing the Truth. What is the Truth? —more on that later.

Clarity of mind involves integrating both sides or dealing with the double-edged sword or something that has drawbacks and benefits–both

That last part—drawbacks and benefits—seems to be the story of our lives here upon the Earth.

Many of our judgments here—as well as anger and guilt and these types of patterns—are exactly what today’s message epitomizes.

I really love that quote from the Buddha, “You will not be punished for your anger; You will be punished BY your anger.”

It’s Sunday and a beautiful day today and I want to drive this blog post directly to the point so that I can spend my time outside. So let’s get to it.

In a recent post, I wrote about a break-through regarding a matrix or pattern of energy that I carry from a past life sub-personality who was wounded or traumatized…. its common in all souls.  I believe that integration is occurring because I’ve been working with integrating the shadow side of it all or have been willing to look at the other side of the sword, doing what my dad used to suggest and that is to find the other side of the story.

Uncovering the past is only the first step when we begin to make a connection between our patterned emotional responses and a past condition or trauma. Insights need to be worked with if we are going to achieve inner growth and healing. We need to probe at length for the range of meaning and implication when we have a flash of understanding about patterned emotional responses that we recognize within ourselves.

Insights can be very compelling and obvious and sometimes you would think that this alone will seal the deal and result in new emotional responses. It is those day-to-day experiences that will enable us to do the further work of integration. If we are not re-triggered regularly, what can happen is that new awareness can be pushed back into the unconscious. So they must be exposed again. I had to laugh a little bit as I wrote that last line. I’ve had christian people come to my door to offer me the good news of the bible or invite me to their church—so it seems to me, at least in my case, that when we choose to resolve these things the universe works in harmony with us. I don’t go out and about much but like that saying goes, “if Mohammed won’t go the mountain the mountain comes to Mohammed.” They show up at my door to trigger my pattern into awareness!

Understanding the reasons for the reactions to specific people in one’s life experiences encourages dealing with them in a different way. The more patterns that are understood and integrated, the more options open up for new ways of dealing with both the world and one’s self.

What helps, I believe, is to work with that double-edged sword and to look for the other side of the story. I’ve had to ask myself to consider that I may have victimized as much as being a victim, perhaps from another lifetime which has helped me to let go of judgments and to forgive. Forgiveness loosens up the encrusted emotional energy fields allowing for transformation.

I used to try to consciously forgive the persecutors but emotionally it was too strong a pattern to deal with intellectually—I had to work with the energy in an altered state to go back into the scene and feel their feelings, not just my own. And then asked to be shown lifetimes when I was over zealous so that I could integrate a more balanced view.

And most of all, the Truth I had to integrate is this: that my emotional responses to bibles and christian zealots was part of a sub-personality and little-by-little the energy field of a former lifetime could be released, diffused and transformed. So, again, associating the patterned responses in our life to a karmic complex is only the first step. It takes time and humility to realize that working through these patterns can be a lifelong process and we are continually re-contextualizing these experiences—putting these awareness’s in a different context.

And we finally come to the greater Truth when we identify more strongly with the Higher Self as we develop that relationship while we ask to understand these patterns. It’s a beautiful thing really!

And in the end we look upon the personal self with great compassion and then the great Ah-ha! Ace of Swords clarity comes. We realize the personal self is simply a vehicle for learning and is not supposed to be perfect to start with and from this we become truly transformed. We become the witness to the journey and in this we have now expanded it all. We can witness the personality moving upon the earth with greater comfort and ease—again a beautiful thing and part of what I saw happening the day that I had my tire changed. (I wrote about it a few blog posts back.)

I will add a quote of past live regressionist, Roger Woolger, who said,

When we can achieve such a consciousness, all is seen as both one AND many, and everything is in its place in the ever-transforming play of creation. The human comedy of all lives past and present is then seen from a perspective of understanding, compassionate acceptance, and non-attachment. We are simply called to know and embrace our part of this whole, to know that this part is perfect in and of itself.

I am all that I experience, but I am not that either.

Today, the cosmic communiqué is that nothing is as it appears to be and to know that life mirrors paradoxes. See the function of roles as part of spiritual development of the soul and release investments or attachments to rigid roles. Free yourself by choosing to integrate the opposite part of the self that you have previously chosen not to see. There are two sides to every story, like the double-edged sword.

PS — The Suit of Swords relates to Air or Mind and that’s where it all takes place; yet it does affect the body (and the 4-body system) and healing takes place on all levels when it does.