When mindfulness (sati) is continuous, then (samadhi) STABILITY OF MIND will become established–from the teachings of Sayadaw U Tejaniya, a Theravadan Buddhist monk and well-known and highly respected meditation teacher.
Deeper and deeper into the teachings of Buddhism, there is this ‘me’ attempting to walk in the steps of the Buddha. No, this is not about religion–more about psychology . . . study of the mind. We all have one but how many of us really observe how the mind works? How to use the mind in a way that serves the greater good, so-to-speak. That’s where I’m coming from.
Recently, a new level of understanding and wisdom arrived within my life spectrum, this continuation of consciousness.
Anyone who knows of this ‘me’ probably knows of the difficulty experienced due to moving from places of quiet and solitude for nearly 20 years. The short version has to do with the difficulty adjusting to suddenly being around noisy humans and family drama. Moving closer to my daughters has been wonderful in so many ways, but not without the challenges that come along with sudden change. Here’s what I’m trying to get at . . .
Until my recent study, it wasn’t entirely clear to me that the states of Samadhi established in meditation could be maintained during regular activities of daily living, outside of a formal meditative state–in other words, off the cushion. Yet, while living in the mountains many times was there in a stable mind-state without knowing it. I’ll explain more in a moment. Additionally, in recent days my study has uncovered another real eye-opener. And that has to do with percentages of attachment equaling the same percentage of aversion. Here’s what that means . . .
The attachment that has been present to a personal desire and preference for silence has been way too strong or large. As a result, the aversion or anger to it’s opposite (loud neighbors) has been equally as strong. It goes back to the basic core phrase we always hear, “Accepting what ‘is'”. It’s not so easy to accept anything as it is when you have a high percentage of attachment to its opposite.
Of course, there are other factors that filter into the equation of imbecile aversion which include a high level of sensitivity that comes along with open awareness. Making peace with it while maintaining a stable mind is my continual challenge and the area of focused work in this life.
When living in the mountains, days on end of samadhi, stable mind, occurred — it was as if living in my own hermitage or retreat center. It is only now that the realization comes that when the mind was pulled into worry about finances or when going into town and mingling with humans that the state dissolved and aversions and defilements arose within the mind. I didn’t think of it as samadhi at the time. My personal definition of that word involved deep stillness (not necessarily awareness) in which there was no awareness of a self at all. A new or an additional understanding of the word is the stability of mind, maintained over long periods of time toward the goal of having a stable mind indefinitely or at all times. That’s the goal. Frankly, some days it has felt impossible but it always comes down to this moment here now . . . being aware, mindful or aware of what the mind is doing this very moment. Being fully in it and observing what the mind and body are doing or the reactions–watching those.
Watching the mind can be a real sport if one’s heart is into it. Stop a moment and ask yourself, “Am I aware?”
The answer is always Yes, don’t you see? You will find that there is always that overseer called awareness. How deep is the awareness? Is it superficial or is there recognition and acknowledgment of thinking whenever it arises. Is there recognition of sound, feeling (all of the senses) whether pleasant or unpleasant as those arise? Can you remember in the midst of any aversion that begins to arise that it is only nature happening and not personal? Neither are your reactions–that’s just nature happening too.
These are just a few of my personal thoughts and experiences on these subjects for any reader’s discernment or consideration.