I really like that this blog has no main theme so there is freedom to write whatever suits on whichever day. Today its the ‘no self’ or non-self or ego-less-ness of self that’s knocking around in my noggin. People misunderstand this concept and for good reason; it’s not an easy one to consider much less accept. People are very attached to the idea of self and it’s dramas.
I tried to speak about this just a wee bit with my oldest daughter who is suffering mental anguish over an injury to her hand… what I tried to convey was distinguishing the mind-body-spirit. At the mention of non-self her eyes glazed over and I totally lost her. She seemed to grasp it a bit when I said that ‘the hand has a problem but you don’t have a problem’ and she let go a little bit then, but anyway… I was trying to lead up to the fact that when we try to look for our self… well, once we can let go of the idea that we are our body, then we think we are our thoughts.
And when we try to look and to see from where the thoughts arise, from where they originate to start with and where they go when we’re done with them, we cannot find the beginning or the end.
But even more to the point, when we try (in earnest and in meditation) to find the self or the one who is doing the thinking, we find nothing is there— well, nothing but a never-ending and continually changing stream of thoughts and feelings. But we find no solid self. (You are not your body.) And even if you look to your body to try to find your self, you will (at its basic core energy) find a lot of body parts and then empty space and protons, neurons and still no solid self.
This is the realization of non-self. And this is Buddhism.
And then, after that, we realize we are everywhere — or nowhere — now/here — now here sort of like that drawing above.
May we all release our dramas and suffering and the causes of those and come to the contented peace of true liberation!