My bedroom looked like a church–an interjection from my catholic heritage (i’m an X) but for the blessed mother who has merged with Isis, Kwan Yin, Laxmi, Tara and other mother-goddesses in my mind. Yet, the chant of the rosary is still very peaceful, very calming, stilling, quieting… and using the name of every higher being in my memory, they were all called in last night. Please, please dear heavens, let me have a quiet new years eve! Let the downstairs couple shush a while, Amen.
Their voices were escalating as usual around up until 9:30 but after that… nothing. Maybe it was my music. It wasn’t loud but there are a great set of Dolby speakers on my old desktop in my room! And I used them, called up Pandora on the Internet and played Heart Meditation music. Then I lit my candles, placed a barrier of light all around my and between the floor and the chaos below. I could hear nothing but the music and my own thoughts–!! Amen!
Tomorrow Monsters Inc. will be open again (Lowes Hardware Store Headquarters) where the Indian people work; on a regular work day they should be barking somewhere else than beneath my feet! Can I get another Amen Brothers and Sisters? Amen!
It was lovely… last night. Reciting my most favorite prayers and chants just barely over the sound of my breath with eyes slightly open to taken in the candles in front of my Buddha statue on one side of my room and the candles in front of the Blessed Mother statue on the other side and the heart meditation music on not too loud and not too softly… perfect. After my chants I quieted for a good while hearing only my music–maybe the angels put the loudmouth Indian couple into a trance! Who knows, who cares? I felt completely alone like I hadn’t for days! Beautiful.
After a good while, perhaps an hour or so, there were predictions for the year and in that state with only candle light, I did my best to scribble down some things that were coming in for the New Year. Then back to my music and my peaceful mind and heart.
New Years Eve is a favorite time of mine for meditation. One of the candles that I lit was from our solstice gathering — it was loaded with intentions for the new year. I thought of people who might be suffering for various reasons and did the Buddhist Metta Meditation for a while with tears streaming down my face. I promised to be a better person and felt truly sorry for times in 2012 when I wasn’t and then forgave myself and forgave others. I asked for blessings for each of my family members by name with my heart and mind infused their highest and best intentions for 2013 (something we worked on at our solstice gathering).
Earlier in the day somehow my intentions were fulfilled to have quiet for my writing (the astrology class) and through this miracle hours of writing took place which left me with great satisfaction. Then I did my indoor exercises followed by a night-time walk at the jogging park a bit of a distance away from here. It was dark and breezy, temperature in the 40’s but walking on the gravel reminded me of the crunch of snow under my feet the way it was walking in the mountains. My music was loud on the mp3 player, and I was there alone and the cold air on my face was exhilarating. There were plenty of street lights and parking lot lights surrounding this place that I had all to myself–reminiscent somewhat of my hikes in the mountains.
I came home to Lord and Lady mouth downstairs and let me tell you ‘he ain’t no Deepak Chopra‘! And she? her sounds are very irritating to anyone’s ears no doubt. It is nearly comical actually thinking of how they could stand to listen to each other’s sounds all day and all night the way they go on! How much could one person have to say to another? Since before Christmas–on and on and on day after day and trust me they are not always happy sounds! Sometimes they fight horribly. I’ve begun to notice the sound of banging on the wall which must be from other neighbors in the building when they get loud. Ah-ha and that is somewhat comforting that it is not me alone who is sending them signals.
One night I just tapped gently on the wall by my bed to let them know they could be heard. That quieted them for only about 10 minutes! They yesterday I did loose it after being awakened by their loud arguing mouthings. I didn’t mean to… it was probably a response to being awoken in the morning to arguing human voices that caused enough irritation that I slammed the wall with my fist so hard that I startled myself–it was reactive and not premeditated. Wow, where did that come from, eh? That got me a few hours of peace afterward but I felt bad all day long for losing control.
I need to go back to writing my astrology class now… enough energizing the downstairs neighbor issue! Yet, I do believe in the power of intention and others energizing an intention. Like I said, Monsters Inc. can’t resume business calling the Indian computer geeks back to work soon enough as far as I’m concerned! (apologies to my Indian friends and clients — i know these two birds below me must be rare and not like you at all)
In the meanwhile, maybe others reading this (no matter what day you stumble across it) could help energize my intention to have a quiet peaceful place to live and work–yes? Could you think that thought for me for a second now? Thank you.
One last thing–as I told my daughter, since they’ve moved in dreams have been very strange! And then last night there is the realization why. After my very nice New Years meditation –which by the way is fun to do with eyes closed and no clock in view anyway because you can feel the energy build from all over the time zone you’re in and then it starts to peak and you FEEL exactly when new years is! Lord and Lady Mouth must have passed out since not a whimper could be heart over my soft music and there was no external sounds at all until well after midnight when somewhere there were fireworks off in the distance.
And in the mountains in the past 15 years it is very quiet too–so the point is that it is that on New Years Eve, by the energy build up you feel in your own body which permeates the whole North Eastern part of the United States here, that indicates when it is 12 midnight New Years Eve! And before that time–yes some lower life forms are getting drunk LOL–but many others are also meditating and to be tapped into that energy is very close to total bliss.
Again, I thank the powers that be for Lord and Lady mouth’s silence last night. Amen and thank you again!
I can actually, as I listen to his muffled voice going on non-stop right this very minute now as I type and as it has for hours with her high-pitched inflections inserted… I can actually feel so grateful for what freedom i have from that in that I’d not be able to be her. To have to be in her shoes would be a very special kind of hell for me–to have a man lecture and scold me for hours on end in that way while imprisoned with no escape from him, no car and today it is raining. Oh, how awful that would be for me although she laughs and carries on to the point where I don’t think she minds it much. It just amazes me that two people could talk so non-stop, amazing!
Well, the dreams I understand why I’ve had strange dreams after last night. I fell into a peaceful slumber around 1 am after my new year meditation and next thing I was trying to help a very weak man who was in a wheel chair and had fallen and he was no more than skin and bone. I could not reach him… there were metal bars and things between he and I and the next thing my eyes open and the realization is that the couple downstairs are yelling at each other in their bedroom directly beneath my own!
It was quite loud. Spontaneously I jumped out of bed half asleep and yelled, “Hey-hey-hey-hey-hey-hey….” as I stumbled to the bathroom, glancing at the clock… it was 2:45 am and on my way back to bed, turned on the fan for some white noise and somehow fell back asleep while thinking Oh my gosh, no wonder I’ve been having strange dreams since they moved in! They talk and fight in the middle of the freaken’ night too!? omg! Yeah, they were totally YELLING at each other at 2:45 AM.
Well, now I’ve used this time to type another diatribe –instead I could have totally written about the next planet for my astrology class. Sigh!
There was a maintenance man here yesterday asking to check in the water heater area to see if any patching of the drywall needed doing–he had the wet plaster in his hand. I mentioned the couple downstairs and he said he’d speak to them since he was going there next. Didn’t do much good apparently! sigh again!
Okay I’m going to grab the TV controls and put on Pandora and try to drown them out with my music. I’d prefer total silence when I write but…. that is what I continue to prefer. Now where is the remote?
This too shall pass as my mother used to say… it will.
Monsters Inc. will want them back to work soon! and someday their Visa will run out! And they will board the plane back to their Mother Country…. buh-bye.
No worries; I can outlast anything; I’m tough! I will survive. (I have to until my lease is up at least and until i have the $$ to move!!)
Oh, and Happy New Year! I will post the predictions for the New Year next blog.
I really miss the High Country–I’m moving back to the mountains as soon as I can save enough money!
My family will be fine without me. My sister is here now for them…. besides civilization sux!
I WILL TRY TO HEAR AND SEE MY NEIGHBORS WITH THE EARS AND EYES OF COMPASSION! THEY ARE LIVING SOULS DOING THEIR BEST TO NEGOTIATE THIS WORLD JUST LIKE ME. THEY SUFFER AND CELEBRATE JUST LIKE ME. I WILL DO BETTER AT SEEING MY NEIGHBORS WITH EYES AND EARS OF COMPASSION… THEY ARE AFTER ALL, LIKE ALL HUMANS, ONLY DOING WHAT THEY BELIEVE WILL BRING THEM PLEASURE AND THE AVOIDANCE OF PAIN.
MEANWHILE, DEAR DIVINE INTELLIGENCE, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT WHAT I CANNOT CHANGE…. PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE, ANIMALS ARE ANIMALS, FLOWERS ARE FLOWERS AND LORD AND LADY MOUTH SIMPLY ARE… AS I AM AS I AM