Who I AM is really quite like that image of the lone fairy on the beach there.
I am here alone, was born alone and will die alone—as we all do. My work is the same way—I work alone and my work is my own creation and I say that with a grain of salt because my work is in harmony, I feel, with higher forces under whose guidance the psychic course was created. And from scratch mind you. If you have an independent entrepreneurial nature too, then you will relate to my story.
I had minimal training and then through the force of life found myself with $6 in my pocket and no money in the bank, no credit and only my car and one small suitcase. And it was from that level that I began to do readings to support myself and to keep the wolves away from my door, so-to-speak.
It is channeled—the whole thing and it is a creation of a bare, pure spirit turned to the Moon and Stars and Night Sky for help and guidance and inspiration. That last word is the best—inspiration. I breathed in the Moon, Stars and Sky and the psychic course came out because it was created from my own journey and my own life experiences woven through and through.
It has been online available to nourish others who seek it out while the income continues to support me and keep the wolves away from my door—a door that I am grateful to live behind and for which I am ever grateful. Shelter, clothes, food and the basic essentials and the ability to keep sharing as inspiration comes to me—this is the cornerstone of my life.
I love my work and the ability to communicate with students who come to the course and need questions answered. The course stands alone and stands for itself, just as I do and there’s nothing to change or add but I do nurture its growth somewhat by writing a weekly newsletter to support the students and also for the general public.
The Moon and Stars and Sky still inspire me in this way; yet I’m called in an additional direction for the past… well, since my last astrologically progressed New Moon (January 2008). And that direction is astrology itself. Just last night, in fact, while revisiting Brady’s book on Transits and Progressions, I saw notes I made in the margins dating back to 2007. Really? I was a bit surprised at how long I’d been studying astrology! I began to get more or less serious about it when I bought Brady’s book and a number of others at that time; yet my study of astrology goes back even further. It is said that whatever is started at the new moon represents that next 28 to 29 year phase and that there’s no going back to anything after the New Moon projects are begun—and they seriously began then.
The psychic class is fully established and growing in popularity and perhaps because of this people who want to jump in and on the bandwagon seem to be crawling out of the woodwork lately. I’ve had solicitations from people who want to advertise on my website, others who want to personally mentor my students and take over the group to practice their leadership skills (Really? Go get your own group!) and by the way can you imagine that? And there are others who want me to take all my students and hire them to work for me and make money off their labors and oh, by the way those others will take commission and I just turn over my creations to them. Are you kidding me? And then we have those who want to be my personal secretary and write my newsletters for me and take my calls and schedule my appointments—you can’t be serious!
(More on this later but Neptune transiting through my 7th House –and that will make sense for those familiar with astrology.)
Strangely, it feels like I’ve been in this place before where the vulchers come to feed off my creations. It all shows up in my various charts—return charts as well as transits and progressions—the same theme is there right now.
On a soul level, the polarity point to my Pluto is the 6th house and this area of life relates to using discernment or not being blindly trusting that everyone’s intentions are wholly altruistic – a mistake in naiveté that I’ve made in past life associations.
Anyway, getting current…. combining intuitive faculties with soul astrology is where I am being called to put my energy in addition to renewing relationship connections with my family since my relocation.
The psychic class is my most joyful creation aside from my children—both of which originate from beyond my meager personal existence of which I am only a part but all do bear my name. And speaking of bear (or bears), I’ve had the bear totem showing up everywhere in my life lately but then again the Sun is making a conjunction to my natal Pluto right now and that combo sort of reminds me of bear energy.
Mama bears protect their babies the same way that I feel protective about my reputation, career and creations in the world—it’s an ‘energy thing’ if you get my meaning. So I’ve got to keep an eye out for those vulchers who seem to be everywhere lately.
Rob Hand (famous astrologer) talks about Nefarious Neptune in the 7th house of what the old astrologers call “the house of open enemies” as people who try to deceive you and/or misrepresent themselves. Yeah, well, let’s not be paranoid but by the same token let’s not be blind to that possibility either. When Neptune crosses through the 7th, one must use care not to be duped by others if you know what I mean; that’s all I’m sayen’. And according to Rob, avoid partnering up with anyone.
I’ve never been one to partner up with others anyway except for my 20 year marriage; but even in that, with Aquarius on the cusp of the 7th (and yes, his Sun was in Aquarius), I was still pretty much a loner even in the marriage. I’m independent and respect others who are independent as well–he was.
I love teaching and helping others but I don’t wish to partner up with anyone in my work or in my personal life and that’s how I’m wired and I don’t resist my own nature.
Yeah, so anyway this is a blog and blah, blah, blah here I go again using this as a place to vent a bit. But the deeper motivation with this blog is to explain myself – even if it seems that I am trying to explain me to my self (and maybe that’s so) it is this that motivated this post today.
Well, it was the picture of the fairy that motivated me along with the recent patterns with my work that I’m noting and responding to the best I can.
And with that said, I’ll bet many of you entrepreneur-types who come across these words and who have created your own work, your own niche, will get where I’m coming from.
And just so that the rest of you know, we are not selfish and we are not snobs and we care deeply and what we do is our soul, our blood, and yes sweat and tears and before I start singing songs again…
♫ “… spinning wheel got to go round… ♫catch a painted pony, let the spinning wheel spin… ♫you got no money, you got no home, spinning wheel, spinning all alone… ♫ —See? There I go again!
Let me end this with a post that I made on the Facebook today that, I feel, says it all…..
I am a dance teacher (in a way) and I love the dance and I love to dance and I love to see other people dance and the dance is what I’m all about but…
“Do the dance that you’ve been shown until the dance becomes your very own. Meanwhile, get off my toes!” –Joy Star, said with humor and love!