Day # 34 Change through Regeneration and Knowing When Change is Being Supported

Cells Regenerate

Every cell in the human body regenerates on average every 7 years; so biologically, we are brand new people every 7 years.  Most of the time we look the same and the change isn’t visible unless our self-image has changed (our inner picture of who we are), then sometimes the change is visible; but usually it isn’t.  And aside from minimal normal aging over a 7 year period–it’s still not usually that noticeable.  Anyway, biologically, change is imperative—like I said, about every 7 years we replace every cell in our body; it’s a medical fact. 

Biologically change is imperative as just described but then all change is imperative, isn’t it? 

Change is a necessity not a luxury; otherwise stagnation, non-growth and eventually death (in some way) will occur. 

I’ve been thinking about that as I make the final preparations to move off the mountain.  That and life-cycles and the number 9 representing endings and new beginnings—that category of thought has also been prominent.  I’ve been doing the visualization thing too and in cycles.  Maybe everybody does this and I wouldn’t know without taking some sort of poll, but here’s how it works for me.  When change is happening or about to happen or even when I’m involved in some sort of creative process (isn’t that all the same?), I seem to spend a day or so in a great activity and achievement and then I sort of shut down almost like I’m physically tired (although I am not tired actually—at least not physically) and I spend a day or half-day or sometimes 3 or 4 hours at rest having visions. 

It seems like the vision is necessary before I can actually accomplish it in physical reality.  For instance, yesterday evening, I felt the need to go to bed early but I did not sleep right away.  I was, in fact, visualizing myself driving off the mountain and seeing the mountains grow smaller in my rear view mirror and practicing how I was going to handle that experience and the accompanying feelings.  It was as if I was instructing myself in the best way to process that experience.

I saw myself driving into the town where I will be living and coached myself in how to deal with any feelings that may come up then too. 

I packed up my house in preparation to move in much the same way—periods of instructive type of rest that comes from a part of me that seems to be merging with me to direct the whole play, the entire affair.

One of my daughters went to check on the readiness of the apartment and took a video of the place, even though I had visited a similar unit in the past so I knew roughly where I was going.  It does help me to have watched the video so that I can put myself there with a grace and ease that I’ve prepared for.  Between now and the end of the week – I move in 4 more days—flashes of the video she showed me will play out in my mind as I merge my self and my belongings there. 

We mostly look the same with the biological changes that occur in the physical body every 7 years as every cell completely regenerates—this is because during those 7 years, a lot is occurring beneath the surface as cells die and regenerate.  The same thing seems to occur in other areas of life,  for I’d say that I was preparing for this change gradually and beneath the surface over the past 7 years (or 9 years actually) although from the outside there has been no evidence of it–until the past 34 days happened!

Just like one day you see a moving truck pull in or pull out in your neighborhood, it didn’t happen overnight.  Weeks and months of physical preparation occurred and probably years of subconscious preparation was going on too.  It’s like a couple who walks into divorce court one day—to the casual observer it appears sudden, but a lot of changes were occurring beneath the surface to arrive at that point.  And sometimes the couple themselves aren’t fully aware until a year or months before the actual day of the divorce, but they were working up to that point from the moment they said “I do” during the wedding ceremony.  Change is inevitable and it is imperative if there is to be growth and any type of re-birth at all and change is Life Itself.  As they say on Star Treck, “Resistance is Futile.” 

I sometimes want to laugh when people look for that long-lasting, unchanging situation or job or love partner or place to live.  Most of the time long-lasting isn’t in the cards and it’s a good thing—we need new experiences in order to grow and evolve.  It’s also how we can comfort ourselves when we think that times are bad—we can feel certain nothing will last forever, not even the so-called bad times.  Life is nothing BUT change and we suffer when we deny the impermanence of it all. 

my landlady
Saying goodbye to my landlady

Last Friday my landlady came to settle up with me as far as the security deposit and rent and to say goodbye.  That was an emotional day!  She accepted a little gift from me for being so nice over the years—I gave her a white blooming hydrangea [see photo].  Tears were part of that scenario. She and I and her mother were together in a Cherokee lifetime here in the mountains—she doesn’t believe in reincarnation but does not deny a strong connection between us. 

Anyway, I wasn’t done with tears however, because after my landlord left, I went to the post office to fill out a change of address form and found myself feeling sad about saying goodbye to someone who I usually made simple small talk with.  “Awwwh, you’re not moving are you?”  That’s all he said and that did it!  As I walked out the door after filling out the forms I turned and said, “It was nice knowing you…”, knowing I will likely never see that person again.  There’s a bit of sadness in that—letting go of the familiar, the routine, the comfortable.  I went to the grocery store after that and purchased a small basket of comfort food and came home to watch re-runs of Grey’s Anatomy followed by Anna and The King with Jodie Foster and now my face is breaking out like a teenager! 

I’m conceiving the astrology class metaphysically, creating it in my mind.  My grandson knows a lot about making and editing videos so maybe that can be part of the process.  I’m camera shy when I let my ego be too much a part the process so that will be a challenge! 

I guess this is all I am in the mood to write or have the time for right now.  I have clients to call back and best be moving on.  I am excited to be neighbors with my daughters and grandchildren and am reminding myself that even though paying the higher rent is going to be something I can go into great fear over being able to do, that worrying about it is… well, you know!

I think that we can feel as those final changes happen—that move or divorce or whatever it is—whether the change feels supported.  In other words, even though it may take 7 years or 9 years or even longer for the physical change to reach the surface where matter starts moving—it moves easily or not.  If it does move easily, then this is how I feel assured that the change is supported and/or fated or pre-determined.  I may not know the restructuring is happening for 7 or 9 years that the shift beneath occurs. And when change does happen, it seems sudden even though there have been (over time) minor intuitions or flashes or hunches.  When it does happen, it does seem sudden and is often accompanied by some uncertainty.  YET, and here’s my point, when the doors open, energy cooperates, events go smoothly and no obstacle stands in the way—one marvels at the seeming support that The Universe or the Divine Forces apparently give. 

Here’s the truth that I believe. It’s all been in the works all the while and has picked up speed like a train going down the mountain (pun intended) and it’s marvelous to marvel at!  Word repetition intended there too.  It can be genius and one stands there wonder-struck!  That’s change that’s imperative.

Okay, well there it is—my experience shared and accompanying thoughts here on Day #34 for whatever it’s worth.  I may not have time to blog again until I’m there in the new place, the upstairs tree house dorm room at the rental community that I’m calling Hogwarts!   I will watch for the changing staircases, mudbloods and muggles and all the rest and if you’re a Harry Potter fan, you know what I mean. 

There are only 3 more days up here where I’ve spent the last 15+ years.  On the 4th day it’s off to a new adventure.  A rebirth if you will – here’s hoping the new life is a good one!  It better be, it’s taken 9 years to prepare for it! 

Nice,  small,  e-z to clean,  cozy central heat and air apartment with a pool on the premises here I come.  Visualizing:    Oh, who’s that down there knocking on my door?  Why it’s one of my grandchildren with one of my daughter’s.  C’mon up you guys!