I struggled with it half the day. The truth is that I tend struggle with $money$ issues when I let myself think about them. My usual method is not to think about them. It seems to work out much better this way, all things considered.
That reminds me… I made a tweet today about fear–with me, you see, fear and money limitation have seemed to go hand in hand. My tweet was, ” The only way to overcome fear is to look directly at it… move right through it. Look it in the face and it will cease to trouble you.” And that’s from personal experience! And applies to any kind of fear… trust me.
The other thing that helps me is astrology. My birth chart validated my other approach with these struggles. Here’s what I mean. Many years back, I decided to adopt a new belief system. I don’t share it with many people–it’s more or less one of those inside jobs if you know what I mean. It goes like this. I work for The Universe and I let The Universe take care of my bills. (If you’d rather say God instead of The Universe, suit yourself; but you get the idea.) To drive the point home and to remind myself of my belief, whenever a bill came in, I’d intentionally put it beneath a few spiritual statues (Angel and Buddha) and say, “There ya’ go–here’s another one for ya’.” And then I simply put it out of my mind completely, and in this ‘learn-as-you-go” method, it worked! And the more I energized that belief, it seemed to ground within me more and more, becoming a natural feeling. I work for The Divine and The Divine takes care of my bills and all of my other needs–end of story. Well, you may ask what this has to do with Tibetan Dough Ball Divination. I’m getting there.
I have to tell you about the astrology part first. That whole belief system that I just mentioned is pretty clearly seen in my birth chart. That alleviates any second guessing about my belief, should I become weak or falter. It gives me strength to remember that my natal North Node in Taurus is in my 10th house (Career) with Sun/Neptune/Moon in Libra in the 2nd (money; self-reliance) house. Well, I can readily see that to go too much further with astro-babble, I’d have to write a book to explain all the connections. It’s just that Mars/Pluto/Saturn in the 12th points to the 6th house polarity of bringing spirituality to the earth doing service/work (Pluto’s Polarity Point). My past life SN Scorpio conjunct Mercury/Jupiter indicates that I’ve worked in these areas before but have failed to do the work publicly and in a way that I can provide for my survival needs. ( I tend to think that past lives have been either in a monastery setting or maybe an institutional environment where I didn’t have to deal with money and survival needs, never learning to be self-sufficient in that way.) And with Neptune hanging out there with Sun and Moon in the 2nd, my sense is that my prior life or lives were in spiritual settings, which seems validated by the 12th house planets, giving the double-confirmation.
OK, so long story short… I’m supposed to be doing this work doing and charging money for it. I need to, as much as I’d rather avoid the money/survival part. My North Node in the 10th in Taurus says that I need to! I failed to do that in the past… I’ve a few “skipped steps” (as they’re called in Evolutionary Astrology). And to recover those, I have to use my spiritual and psychic past to do work that is 6th house-ish… spiritual service work. This helps me to be self-sufficient financially/materially also. That evolutionary intent of the soul is blatantly clear in my birth chart. So, let’s just say my life is a co-creator type thing with The Divine–so is yours! This whole idea of ‘do spiritual work and while you’re at it, become self-reliant so you can grow and evolve’ is mostly to help others (that 6th house of service polarity to 12th house Pluto). It’s actually a bit more complicated astrology-wise than that; but let’s stop while we still might be ahead.
If you followed that bit above, then you probably know some astrology. Hope I didn’t lose you there. Anyway, there I was the other day with a dilemma about money. You’ve no idea how many times I wished to go back to that past life where I didn’t have to worry about this survival stuff and could just ‘do the work’! Actually, a few times in this current life, I’ve actually considered that. I thought of becoming some sort of Nun! But as we all do–deep inside–I knew it wasn’t supposed to be that way this time around. One of my challenges is to take the emotion out of issues with money and survival needs and simply think of money as energy–period. And as energy does, it flows and moves and my goal is to try to move with it and relax!
Okay. So after I’d dealt with that whole bit again–reviewing my natal chart and remembering my belief, I’m still faced with a decision. You see, it’s only a simple thing really. I have some audios that I’m editing which contain instructional psychic class material. What to do with them? If I make them available free on the podcast page, that doesn’t seem fair to students who paid for the online class. I finally resolved that I must ask a fee for them for that reason. But how much? All day long I had numbers in my head and couldn’t settle on a single one. There’s no hurry to make the decision since I still have more editing work to do on them, but it kept gnawing at me to settle on some dollar amount.
Suddenly, I remembered the divination method that I’d seen the Tibetans use. Balls of dough are placed in a bowl after ceremonial work is completed. And choices of the answer to a question are written on papers and placed inside–one in each ball of dough. They weigh the dough and measure the balls so that they are all the same. Once they’re all in the bowl, the lama (or oracle) creates a centrifugal force by rolling them along the edge of the bowl, faster and faster until one falls out. Obviously then, that one ball of dough is opened to reveal the answer on the paper. This method is practised mainly in the monasteries or by individual lamas when an important decisions needs to be made, such as in the search for the reincarnation of very high lamas. A number of possible answers to the enquiry, such as the names of likely candidates for a reincarnation, are written on slips of paper. For a period of three days monks remain in the temple reciting prayers day and night. During that time no one is allowed to touch the bowl. On the fourth day, before all those present the cover of the bowl is removed. A prominent lama rolls the dough balls round in the bowl before the sacred object until one of them falls out. That is the ball containing the answer.
without distraction. I think the Dalai Lama would say it’s alright to wing it! It was affecting my ability to concentrate. So in the most spiritual and honorable way, the method was adjusted slightly based on the aforementioned factors. On the papers I put the various dollar amounts that were under consideration.
PS — I’m still loven’ that dough ball divination method! I’ve seen it done so many times while watching DVD’s on Tibet…